by Diana Palmer
Quinn sat down in his chair hard enough to shake it. He knew his face was as white as Elliot’s. In his mind, he could hear his own voice telling Mandy he didn’t want her anymore, daring her to ever contact him again. Now she was dead, and he felt her loss as surely as if one of his arms had been severed from his body.
That was when he realized how desperately he loved her. When it was too late to take back the harsh words, to go after her and bring her home where she belonged. He thought of her soft body lying in the cold snow, and a sound broke from his throat. He’d sent her away because he loved her, not because he’d wanted to hurt her, but she wouldn’t have known that. Her last memory of him would have been a painful, hateful one. She’d have died thinking he didn’t care.
“I don’t believe it,” Elliot said huskily. He was shaking his head. “I just don’t believe it. She was onstage Friday night, singing again—” His voice broke and he put his face in his hands.
Quinn couldn’t bear it. He got up and went past a startled Harry and out the back door in his shirtsleeves, so upset that he didn’t even feel the cold. His eyes went to the barn, where he’d watched Amanda feed the calves, and around the back where she’d run from him that snowy afternoon and he’d had to save her from McNaber’s bear traps. His big fists clenched by his sides and he shuddered with the force of the grief he felt, his face contorting.
“Amanda!” He bit off the name.
A long time later, he was aware of someone standing nearby. He didn’t turn because his face would have said too much.
“Elliot told me,” Harry said hesitantly. He stuck his hands into his pockets. “They say where she is, they may not be able to get her out.”
Quinn’s teeth clenched. “I’ll get her out,” he said huskily. “I won’t leave her out there in the cold.” He swallowed. “Get my skis and my boots out of the storeroom, and my insulated ski suit out of the closet. I’m going to call the lodge and talk to Terry Meade.”
“He manages Larry’s Lodge, doesn’t he?” Harry recalled.
“Yes. He can get a chopper to take me up.”
“Good thing you’ve kept up your practice,” Harry muttered. “Never thought you’d need the skis for something this awful, though.”
“Neither did I.” He turned and went back inside. He might have to give up Amanda forever, but he wasn’t giving her up to that damned mountain. He’d get her out somehow.
He grabbed the phone, ignoring Elliot’s questions, and called the lodge, asking for Terry Meade in a tone that got instant action.
“Quinn!” Terry exclaimed. “Just the man I need. Look, we’ve got a crash—”
“I know,” Quinn said tightly. “I know the singer. Can you get me a topo map of the area and a chopper? I’ll need a first-aid kit, too, and some flares—”
“No sooner said than done,” Terry replied tersely. “Although I don’t think that first-aid kit will be needed, Quinn, I’m sorry.”
“Well, pack it anyway, will you?” He fought down nausea. “I’ll be up there in less than thirty minutes.”
“We’ll be waiting.”
Quinn got into the ski suit under Elliot’s fascinated gaze.
“You don’t usually wear that suit when we ski together,” he told his father.
“We don’t stay out that long,” Quinn explained. “This suit is a relatively new innovation. It’s such a tight weave that it keeps out moisture, but it’s made in such a way that it allows sweat to get out. It’s like having your own heater along.”
“I like the boots, too,” Elliot remarked. They were blue, and they had a knob on the heel that allowed them to be tightened to fit the skier’s foot exactly. Boots had to fit tight to work properly. And the skis themselves were equally fascinating. They had special brakes that unlocked when the skier fell, which stopped the ski from sliding down the hill.
“Those sure are long skis,” Elliot remarked as his father took precious time to apply hot wax to them.
“Longer than yours, for sure. They fit my height,” Quinn said tersely. “And they’re short compared to jumping skis.”
“Did you ever jump, Dad, or did you just do downhill?”
“Giant slalom,” he replied. “Strictly Alpine skiing. That’s going to come in handy today.”
Elliot sighed. “I don’t guess you’ll let me come along?”
“No chance. This is no place for you.” His eyes darkened. “God knows what I’ll find when I get to the plane.”
Elliot bit his lower lip. “She’s dead, isn’t she, Dad?” he asked in a choked tone.
Quinn’s expression closed. “You stay here with Harry, and don’t tie up the telephone. I’ll call home as soon as I know anything.”
“Take care of yourself up there, okay?” Elliot murmured as Quinn picked up the skis and the rest of his equipment, including gloves and ski cap. “I don’t say it a lot, but I love you, Dad.”
“I love you, too, son.” Quinn pulled him close and gave him a quick, rough hug. “I know what I’m doing. I’ll be okay.”
“Good luck,” Harry said as Quinn went out the back door to get into his pickup truck.
“I’ll need it,” Quinn muttered. He waved, started the truck, and pulled out into the driveway.
Terry Meade was waiting with the Ski Patrol, the helicopter pilot, assorted law enforcement officials and the civil defense director and trying to field the news media gathered at Larry’s Lodge.
“This is the area where we think they are,” Terry said grimly, showing Quinn the map. “What you call Ironside peak, right? It’s not in our patrol area, so we don’t have anything to do with it officially. The helicopter tried and failed to get into the valley below it because of the wind. The trees are dense down there and visibility is limited by blowing snow. Our teams are going to start here,” he pointed at various places on the map. “But this hill is a killer.” He grinned at Quinn. “You cut your teeth on it when you were practicing for the Olympics all those years ago, and you’ve kept up your practice there. If anyone can ski it, you can.”
“I’ll get in. What then?”
“Send up a flare. I’m packing a cellular phone in with the other stuff you asked for. It’s got a better range than our walkie-talkies. Everybody know what to do? Right. Let’s go.”
He led them out of the lodge. Quinn put on his goggles, tugged his ski cap over his head and thrust his hands into his gloves. He didn’t even want to think about what he might have to look at if he was lucky enough to find the downed plane. He was having enough trouble living with what he’d said to Amanda the last time he’d talked to her.
He could still hear her voice, hear the hurt in it when he’d told her he didn’t want her. Remembering that was like cutting open his heart. For her sake, he’d sent her away. He was a poor man. He had so little to offer such a famous, beautiful woman. At first, at the lodge, his pride had been cut to ribbons when he discovered who she was, and how she’d fooled him, how she’d deceived him. But her adoration had been real, and when his mind was functioning again, he realized that. He’d almost phoned her back, he’d even dialed the number. But her world was so different from his. He couldn’t let her give up everything she’d worked all her life for, just to live in the middle of nowhere. She deserved so much more. He sighed wearily. If she died, the last conversation would haunt him until the day he died. He didn’t think he could live with it. He didn’t want to have to try. She had to be alive. Oh, dear God, she had to be!
Chapter Nine
The sun was bright, and Quinn felt its warmth on his face as the helicopter set him down at the top of the mountain peak where the plane had last been sighted.
He was alone in the world when the chopper lifted off again. He checked his bindings one last time, adjusted the lightweight backpack and stared down the long mountainside with his ski poles restless in his hands. This particular slope wasn’t skied as a rule. It wasn’t even connected with the resort, which meant that the Ski Patrol didn’t come here, and that
the usual rescue toboggan posted on most slopes wouldn’t be in evidence. He was totally on his own until he could find the downed plane. And he knew that while he was searching this untamed area, the Ski Patrol would be out in force on the regular slopes looking for the aircraft.
He sighed heavily as he stared down at the rugged, untouched terrain, which would be a beginning skier’s nightmare. Well, it was now or never. Amanda was down there somewhere. He had to find her. He couldn’t leave her there in the cold snow for all eternity.
He pulled down his goggles, suppressed his feelings and shoved the ski poles deep as he propelled himself down the slope. The first couple of minutes were tricky as he had to allow for the slight added weight of the backpack. But it took scant time to adjust, to balance his weight on the skis to compensate.
The wind bit his face, the snow flew over his dark ski suit as he wound down the slopes, his skis throwing up powdered snow in his wake. It brought back memories of the days when he’d maneuvered through the giant slalom in Alpine skiing competition. He’d been in the top one percent of his class, a daredevil skier with cold nerve and expert control on the slopes. This mountain was a killer, but it was one he knew like the back of his hand. He’d trained on this peak back in his early days of competition, loving the danger of skiing a slope where no one else came. Even for the past ten years or so, he’d honed his skill here every chance he got.
Quinn smiled to himself, his body leaning into the turns, not too far, the cutting edge of his skis breaking his speed as he maneuvered over boulders, down the fall line, around trees and broken branches or over them, whichever seemed more expedient.
His dark eyes narrowed as he defeated the obstacles. At least, thank God, he was able to do something instead of going through hell sitting at home waiting for word. That in itself was a blessing, even if it ended in the tragedy everyone seemed to think it would. He couldn’t bear to imagine Amanda dead. He had to think positively. There were people who walked away from airplane crashes. He had to believe that she could be one of them. He had to keep thinking that or go mad.
He’d hoped against hope that when he got near the bottom of the hill, under those tall pines and the deadly updrafts and downdrafts that had defeated the helicopter’s reconnoitering, that he’d find the airplane. But it wasn’t there. He turned his skis sideways and skidded to a stop, looking around him. Maybe the observer had gotten his sighting wrong. Maybe it was another peak, maybe it was miles away. He bit his lower lip raw, tasting the lip balm he’d applied before he came onto the slope. If anyone on that plane was alive, time was going to make the difference. He had to find it quickly, or Amanda wouldn’t have a prayer if she’d managed to survive the initial impact.
He started downhill again, his heartbeat increasing as the worry began to eat at him. On an impulse, he shot across the fall line, parallel to it for a little while before he maneuvered back and went down again in lazy S[cf1] patterns. Something caught his attention. A sound. Voices!
He stopped to listen, turning his head. There was wind, and the sound of pines touching. But beyond it was a voice, carrying in the silence of nature. Snow blanketed most sound, making graveyard peace out of the mountain’s spring noises.
Quinn adjusted his weight on the skis and lifted his hands to his mouth, the ski poles dangling from his wrists. “Hello! Where are you?” he shouted, taking a chance that the vibration of his voice wouldn’t dislodge snow above him and bring a sheet of it down on him.
“Help!” voices called back. “We’re here! We’re here!”
He followed the sound, praying that he wasn’t following an echo. But no, there, below the trees, he saw a glint of metal in the lowering sun. The plane! Thank God, there were survivors! Now if only Amanda was one of them…
He went the rest of the way down. As he drew closer, he saw men standing near the almost intact wreckage of the aircraft. One had a bandage around his head, another was nursing what looked like a broken arm. He saw one woman, but she wasn’t blond. On the ground were two still forms, covered with coats. Covered up.
Please, God, no, he thought blindly. He drew to a stop.
“I’m Sutton. How many dead?” he asked the man who’d called to him, a burly man in a gray suit and white shirt and tie.
“Two,” the man replied. “I’m Jeff Coleman, and I sure am glad to see you.” He shook hands with Quinn. “I’m the pilot. We had a fire in the cockpit and it was all I could do to set her down at all. God, I feel bad! For some reason, three of the passengers had their seat belts off when we hit.” He shook his head. “No hope for two of them. The third’s concussed and looks comatose.”
Quinn felt himself shaking inside as he asked the question he had to ask. “There was a singer aboard,” he said. “Amanda Callaway.”
“Yeah.” The pilot shook his head and Quinn wanted to die, he wanted to stop breathing right there… “She’s the concussion.”
Quinn knew his hand shook as he pushed his goggles up over the black ski cap. “Where is she?” he asked huskily.
The pilot didn’t ask questions or argue. He led Quinn past the two bodies and the dazed businessmen who were standing or sitting on fabric they’d taken from the plane, trying to keep warm.
“She’s here,” the pilot told him, indicating a makeshift stretcher constructed of branches and pillows from the cabin, and coats that covered the still body.
“Amanda,” Quinn managed unsteadily. He knelt beside her. Her hair was in a coiled bun on her head. Her face was alabaster white, her eyes closed, long black lashes lying still on her cheekbones. Her mouth was as pale as the rest of her face, and there was a bruise high on her forehead at the right temple. He stripped off his glove and felt the artery at her neck. Her heart was still beating, but slowly and not very firmly. Unconscious. Dying, perhaps. “Oh, God,” he breathed.
He got to his feet and unloaded the backpack as the pilot and two of the other men gathered around him.
“I’ve got a modular phone,” Quinn said, “which I hope to God will work.” He punched buttons and waited, his dark eyes narrowed, holding his breath.
It seemed to take forever. Then a voice, a recognizable voice, came over the wire. “Hello.”
“Terry!” Quinn called. “It’s Sutton. I’ve found them.”
“Thank God!” Terry replied. “Okay, give me your position.”
Quinn did, spreading out his laminated map to verify it, and then gave the report on casualties.
“Only one unconscious?” Terry asked again.
“Only one,” Quinn replied heavily.
“We’ll have to airlift you out, but we can’t do it until the wind dies down. You understand, Quinn, the same downdrafts and updrafts that kept the chopper out this morning are going to keep it out now.”
“Yes, I know, damn it,” Quinn yelled. “But I’ve got to get her to a hospital. She’s failing already.”
Terry sighed. “And there you are without a rescue toboggan. Listen, what if I get Larry Hale down there?” he asked excitedly. “You know Larry; he was national champ in downhill a few years back, and he’s a senior member of the Ski Patrol now. We could airdrop you the toboggan and some supplies for the rest of the survivors by plane. The two of you could tow her to a point accessible by chopper. Do you want to risk it, Quinn?”
“I don’t know if she’ll be alive in the morning, Terry,” Quinn said somberly. “I’m more afraid to risk doing nothing than I am of towing her out. It’s fairly level, if I remember right, all the way to the pass that leads from Caraway Ridge into Jackson Hole. The chopper might be able to fly down Jackson Hole and come in that way, without having to navigate the peaks. What do you think?”
“I think it’s a good idea,” Terry said. “If I remember right, they cleared that pass from the Ridge into Jackson Hole in the fall. It should still be accessible.”
“No problem,” Quinn said, his jaw grim. “If it isn’t cleared, I’ll clear it, by hand if necessary.”
Terry chuckled so
ftly. “Hale says he’s already on the way. We’ll get the plane up—hell of a pity he can’t land where you are, but it’s just too tricky. How about the other survivors?”
Quinn told him their conditions, along with the two bodies that would have to be airlifted out.
“Too bad,” he replied. He paused for a minute to talk to somebody. “Listen, Quinn, if you can get the woman to Caraway Ridge, the chopper pilot thinks he can safely put down there. About the others, can they manage until morning if we drop the supplies?”
Quinn looked at the pilot. “Can you?”
“I ate snakes in Nam and Bill over there served in Antarctica.” He grinned. “Between us, we can keep these pilgrims warm and even feed them. Sure, we’ll be okay. Get that little lady out if you can.”
“Amen,” the man named Bill added, glancing at Amanda’s still form. “I’ve heard her sing. It would be a crime against art to let her die.”
Quinn lifted the cellular phone to his ear. “They say they can manage, Terry. Are you sure you can get them out in the morning?”
“If we have to send the snowplow in through the valley or send in a squad of snowmobiles and a horse-drawn sled, you’d better believe we’ll get them out. The Ski Patrol is already working out the details.”
“Okay.”
Quinn unloaded his backpack. He had flares and matches, packets of high protein dehydrated food, the first-aid kit and some cans of sterno.
“Paradise,” the pilot said, looking at the stores. “With that, I can prepare a seven-course meal, build a bonfire and make a house. But those supplies they’re going to drop will come in handy, just the same.”
Quinn smiled in spite of himself. “Okay.”
