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by Harrison, Tony


  This is Noah’s weather. All will drown –

  But I’ll escape by crawling on all fours.

  III. The Foreign Body

  Each blue horizontal thrust

  into the red, rain-spattered dust

  brings my tachycardia back.

  My heart’s a thing caught in a sack.

  Lashes of tall grass whip

  at my genitals, the thick ears flip

  hard insects from sprung stalks

  and the fraying lightning forks.

  Boom! The flame trees blaze

  out the ancientest of days.

  All the dead in running shoes!

  A bootless marchpast of dead Jews!

  Boom! Bad blood cells boom

  in unison for Lebensraum.

  Burst corpuscles and blood cells spray

  the dark with fire and die away.

  The brief glares strewed

  flamboyants in my face like blood.

  Boom! Boom! And at each wrist

  a worm as blue as amethyst

  burrows its blunt head in my palm

  to keep its bloodless body warm.

  And in my bed I hear the whine

  of soliciting anopheline,

  and diptera diseases zoom

  round and round my foetid room,

  and randiness, my life’s disease,

  in bottle green Cantharides,

  and the bloody tampan, that posh louse

  plushy like an Opera House,

  red as an Empire or lipstick,

  insect vampire, soft-backed tick –

  all females, the female womb

  is stuffed with blind trypanosome.

  Which of your probosces made

  my heart fire off this cannonade,

  or is its billion gun salute

  for lover or for prostitute?

  Boom! Boom! And now here comes

  the endless roll of danger drums,

  and the death-defying leap

  jerks me panicking from sleep.

  Boom! Boom! Bonhomie!

  America’s backslapping me.

  Starchy Baptist cherubim

  give me tests at the SIM,

  and swallowed US tracers trace

  my body’s Cuban missile base.

  Boom! Boom! World War 3’s

  waging in my arteries.

  Desperately I call these app-

  rehensions Africa but the map

  churns like wet acres in these rains

  and thunder tugging at my veins.

  That Empire flush diluted is

  pink as a lover’s orifice,

  then Physical, Political run

  first into marblings and then one

  mud colour, the dirty, grey,

  flat reaches of infinity.

  The one red thing, I squat and grab

  at myself like a one-clawed crab.

  5. from The Zeg-Zeg Postcards

  I

  Africa – London – Africa –

  to get it away.

  II

  My white shorts tighten

  in the market crowds.

  I don’t know

  if a lean Fulani boy

  or girl gave me this stand

  trailing his/her knuckles

  on my thigh.

  III

  Knowing my sense of ceremonial

  my native tailor

  still puts

  buttons on my flies.

  IV

  I bought three Players tins

  of groundnuts with green mould

  just to touch your hand

  counting the coppers into mine.

  V

  My Easter weekend Shangri-la, Pankshin.

  I watch you pour the pure

  well water, balanced up the mountain,

  in blinding kerosene cans,

  each lovely morning, convict,

  your release date, nineteen years from now,

  daubed in brown ink on your rotting shirt.

  VI

  My White Horse plastic horses carousel

  whirls round an empty and my hell,

  when the last neat whisky passes my cracked lips,

  is a riderless Apocalypse.

  VII Water Babies

  She hauls at his member like a crude shaduf

  to give her dry loins life, and calls it love.

  She’s back in England pregnant. Now he can

  flood the damned valley of his African.

  VIII

  Sex beefs at belled virginity. The wives

  nag back at sex. Ding, Dong! Ding, Dong!

  rings no changes on their married lives

  clapping out Love’s Old Sweet Song.

  What’s that to me? I can get a stand

  even from maps of the Holy Land.

  IX

  Je suis le ténébreux … le veuf …

  always the soixante and never the neuf.

  X

  It’s time for tea and biscuits. No one comes.

  I hear the flap of Dunlop sandals, drums,

  terrifying cries. My clap still bothers me.

  Siestas make me dizzy. I stagger up and see

  through mesh and acacia sharp metal flash,

  my steward, still in white uniform and sash,

  waving a sharpened piece of Chevie, ride

  his old Raleigh to the genocide.

  XI

  The shower streams over him

  and the water turns instantly

  to cool Coca-Cola.

  XII

  We shake baby powder over each other

  like men salting a spitroast,

  laughing like kids in a sandpit,

  childish ghosts of ourselves,

  me, puffy marshmallow, he,

  sherbert dusted liquorice

  licked back bright

  and leading into Turkish Delight.

  XIII

  Buttocks. Buttocks.

  You pronounce it as though

  the syllables rhymed: loo; cocks.

  I murmur over and over:

  buttocks … buttocks … BUTOX,

  marketable essence of beef –

  négritude – dilute to taste!

  XIV

  I’d like to

  sukuru

  you.

  XV

  Mon égal!

  Let me be the Gambia

  in your Senegal.

  The Heart of Darkness

  Disjointed like a baobab,

  gigantic first, then noonday blob,

  my shadow staggers, lurches, reels,

  elasticated at my heels,

  then stretches out with its blind reach

  way beyond the gasp of speech.

  The wind’s up and our last weak light

  dithers and lets in the night.

  Shadowless, one dark hand flits

  spiderwise for crusted bits

  of Christmas candle, German art-

  creation wax with plastic Chartres

  Cathedral windows, coloured light

  evoking Europe till Twelfth Night

  and aspirations from our dust

  with no repository but lust.

  Earthed so, lust like radar beams

  bleeps for realities from dreams

  out of darkness for the new, rich life,

  the unmistakable pulsation – wife,

  my blurred light in the blind

  concentric circles of blank mind,

  this blackout makes our flesh and bone

  an Africa, a Livingstone.

  Like galoshes going vitch …

  vitch … an Easter birch switch

  going vitch … the fan slows

  down and stops, dense mangoes

  rustle and a Congo band sings

  indigenous and Western things.

  The crowds flock in, agog to feel

  new frissons out of Brazzaville.

  Novelties! Good drummers come

  miles to hear a diff
erent drum

  as men go to adulteries. Sounds!

  Women! It’s the same. Our ground’s

  stamped and rutted, so we choose

  either to hog it in squelched ooze,

  or get resurrection and find sties

  most radiant with novelties.

  My shadow’s back as if it could

  smell lust steaming off my blood:

  Fee, Fi, Fo, Fum,

  this is my Praeconium.

  Paging angels set down this

  fastidious and human kiss;

  and this; and this; and this; and set

  down this, my Exultet:

  Everything in this rich dark

  craves my exclamation mark.

  Wife! Mouth! Breasts! Thigh!

  certe necessarium Adae

  peccatum … felix culpa … O felix

  dark continent of fallen sex.

  Harrowing Christ! O Superlamb,

  grown lupine, luminous – Shazam!

  Not so bravado now, but bare

  cold, and sober on a camel-hair

  Saharan blanket. Tuareg guards

  patrolling with their rusty swords

  swing up a lamp and weldmesh

  thief-bars check our flesh

  gleaming: breasts; thigh; bum;

  out of our aquarium.

  Our fruitless guava quincunx

  curvets on its supple trunks.

  The candles in the empties flare

  sideways in the stirring air

  and then go out. The curtains soar

  horizontal with the floor.

  It seems a whole sea must pour through

  our all-glass house at Samaru.

  And now all’s dark and the first rains

  splatter at the window panes,

  flattening down ten rows of beans,

  a bed of radishes. This means

  no news from England, no new war

  to heighten the familiar:

  Nigeria’s Niger is not yet

  harnessed to our wireless set.

  The Songs of the PWD Man

  ‘We were not born to survive, alas,

  But to step on the gas.’

  (Andrei Voznesensky)

  I

  I’ll bet you’re bloody jealous, you codgers in UK,

  Waiting for your hearses while I’m having it away

  With girls like black Bathshebas who sell their milky curds

  At kerbside markets out of done-up-fancy gourds,

  Black as tar-macadam, skin shining when it’s wet

  From washing or from kissing like polished Whitby jet.

  They’re lovely, these young lasses. Those colonial DO’s

  Knew what they were up to when they upped and chose

  These slender, tall Fulanis like Rowntrees coffee creams

  To keep in wifeless villas. No Boy Scout’s fleapit dreams

  Of bedding Brigitte Bardot could ever better these.

  One shy kiss from this lot has me shaking at the knees.

  It’s not that they’re casual, they’re just glad of the lifts

  I give them between markets and in gratitude give gifts

  Like sips of fresh cow-juice off a calabash spoon.

  But I’m subject to diarrhoea, so I’d just as soon

  Have a feel of those titties that hang down just below

  That sort of beaded bolero of deep indigo blue;

  And to the woven wrapper worn exactly navel high,

  All’s bare but for ju-jus and, where it parts, a thigh

  Sidles through the opening with a bloom like purple grapes.

  So it’s not all that surprising that some lecherous apes

  Take rather rough advantage, mostly blacks and Lebanese,

  Though I’ve heard it tell as well that it were one of these

  That white Police Inspector fancied and forced down

  At the back of barracks in the sleazy part of town.

  Well, of course, she hollered and her wiry brothers ran

  And set rabid packs of bushdogs on the desperate man.

  He perished black all over and foaming at the mouth.

  They’re nomadic, these Fulanis, driving to the South

  That special hump-backed cow they have, and when they’re on trek,

  They leave wigwamloads of women, and by blooming heck,

  I drive in their direction, my right foot pressed right down

  Laying roads and ladies up as far as Kano town.

  Though I’m not your socialistic, go-native-ite type chap

  With his flapping, nig-nog dresses and his dose of clap,

  I have my finer feelings and I’d like to make it clear

  I’m not just itchy fingers and a senile lecher’s leer.

  I have my qualms of conscience and shower silver, if you please,

  To their lepers and blind beggars kipping under trees.

  They’re agile enough, those cripples, scrabbling for the coins,

  But not half so bloody agile as those furry little groins

  I grope for through strange garments smelling of dye-pits

  As I graze my grizzly whiskers on those black, blancmangy tits.

  I don’t do bad for sixty. You can stuff your Welfare State.

  You can’t get girls on National Health and I won’t masturbate.

  They’re pleased with my performance. I’m satisfied with theirs.

  No! I think they’re very beautiful, although their hair’s

  A bit off-putting, being rough like panscrub wires,

  But bums like melons, matey, lips like lorry tyres.

  They all know old Roller Coaster. And, oh dear, ugh!

  To think I ever nuzzled on a poor white woman’s dug,

  Pale, collapsed and shrivelled like a week-old mushroom swept

  Up at Kirkgate City Markets. Jesus bleeding wept!

  Back to sporting, smoky Yorkshire! I dread retirement age

  And the talking drum send-off at the Lagos landing stage.

  Out here I’m as sprightly as old George Formby’s uke.

  I think of Old Folk’s England and, honest, I could puke.

  Here I’m getting younger and I don’t need monkey glands,

  Just a bit of money and a pair of young, black hands.

  I used to cackle at that spraycart trying to put down

  That grass and them tansies that grew all over town.

  Death’s like the Corporation for old men back in Leeds,

  Shooting out its poisons and choking off the weeds.

  But I’m like them tansies or a stick cut in the bush

  And shoved in for a beanpole that suddenly grows lush

  With new leafage before the garden lad’s got round

  To plucking the beans off and digging up the ground.

  Yes, better to put the foot down, go fast, accelerate,

  Than shrivel on your arses, mope and squawk and wait

  For Death to drop the darkness over twittering age

  Like a bit of old blanket on a parrot’s cage.

  II

  Life’s movement and life’s danger and not a sit-down post.

  There’s skeleton cars and lorries from Kano to the coast;

  Skeletons but not wasted, those flashy Chevie fins

  Honed up for knife blades or curled for muezzins

  To megaphone the Koran from their mud mosques and call

  The sun down from its shining with their caterwaul.

  But it’s not just native say-so; it’s stark, realistic fact;

  The road’s a royal python’s dark digestive tract.

  And I expect that it’ll get me one rainy season night,

  That sudden, skating backwheel skid across the laterite,

  Or a lorry without headlights, GOD IS LOVE up on the cab,

  Might impale me on my pistons like a raw kebab.

  Smash turned into landscape, ambulance, that’s that,

  A white corpse starkers like a suddenly skinned cat. />
  As kids when we came croppers, there were always some old dears

  Who’d come and pick us up and wipe off blood and tears,

  And who’d always use the same daft words, as they tried to console,

  Pointing to cobble, path or flagstone: Look at the hole

  You’ve made falling. I want a voice with that soft tone,

  Disembodied Yorkshire like my mother’s on the phone,

  As the cook puts down some flowers and the smallboy scrapes the spade,

  To speak as my epitaph: Look at the hole he’s made.

  The Death of the PWD Man

  ‘Chivo que rompe tambor con su pellejo paga.’

  (Abakuá proverb)

  I

  Earth-brown Garden Bulbuls in the Bathurst graveyard trees

  Sing, they say, ‘quick-doctor-quick’ or ‘fifty-nine degrees’.

  God knows, but I’m drawn to graves like brides to baby-wear

  Spending an afternoon ashore to see who’s buried there.

  Ozanne, DO Blackwater Fever. FAITHFUL UNTO DEATH.

  A commissioner, they say, who mustered his last breath

  And went on chanting till he croaked the same damn thing:

  A coffle of fourteen asses bound for Sansanding!

  Then Leeds medic Rothery Adgie, dead at twenty six,

  His barely legible wooden cross a bundle of split sticks.

  Though mostly nineteen hundreds half the graves have gone

  Succumbing like the men below to rains and harmattan.

  But fine windborne sand and downpours can’t obliterate

  BLAKEBOROUGH’S (BRIGHOUSE) from the iron hydrant grate

  Outside the Residence, and I’ve a sense of dismal pride

  Seeing Yorkshire linger where ten Governors have died.

  The same as in Nigeria, though the weather rots the cross,

  There’s HUNSLET (LEEDS) in iron on an engine up at Jos.

  Wintering house-martins flutter round MacCarthy Square

  And bats from Mauritanian shops get tangled in your hair.

  Sunset; six; the muezzin starts calling; church bells clang,

  Swung iron against iron versus amplified Koran.

  It’s bottoms up at sundown at the praying ground and bar,

  Though I prefer the bottle to the Crescent and the Star,

  The bottle to the Christians’ Cross, and, if I may be frank,

  Living to all your Heavens like a woman to a wank.

  And it’s a bottle that I’m needing as I get back to the boat

  With a lump like coal or iron sticking in my throat.

  Though I take several bottles, though I hawk like hell and cough,

  It stays fixed like a lodestone Northwards as the boat casts off.

  II

  Sunday Scotsman Northwards, autumn trees all rusting up;

  My fifth Light Ale is swashing in its BR plastic cup.

  Coming back to England; there’s no worse way than this

 

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