by L. J. Swartz
We're standing in front of the courthouse waiting for Declan and Rian. My parents were not happy that we're going to the JP, but I don't want to move to another country with a man thatâs not my husband. "You nervous," I ask looking to David. He seriously looks like he may puke. "Babe," I ask hesitantly. He looks to me smiling then blurts, "I can't do this." I widen my eyes and watch as he paces up and down the sidewalk in front of me. "What the fuck are you talking about," I bark at him. He looks to me as he stops pacing saying, "God I'm gonna lose you." I watch him run his hands up and down his face. "I slept with Chanel," he blurts. "You what? When," I ask. "The day I came to set and had liquor on my breath. It's not what you think though baby. She said if I slept with her, she'd give me Paris," he explains searching my face. "So you had sex with a woman to further your career," I say more to myself than him. "No Sadie I did it for us, so I could get you away from here. Give you the kind of life you deserve, baby," he explains. "So why tell me now? Why not just go in there and marry me and never tell me," I ask. He looks to me saying, "Because for one, that's not the way to start a marriage. I need to know you love me enough to spend your life with me." I shrug and throw my hands in the air saying, "David you just admitted to cheating on me." He hangs his head saying, "Yeah I did." Rian and Declan cross the street up from us and walk to us. "Hey we ready to get marr," Rian says trialing off. She looks to me then David asking, "What the fuck did you do?" I smile weakly saying, "Chanel." Rian widens her eyes hissing, "I told you if you fucked this up I'd cut your balls off. Dec give me your knife." She holds her hand out to him. "Wait whoa. It's not what you think. I did it to further my career, so we could move to Paris," he explains like that makes it all better. Rian gets right in his face yelling at him. I look to Declan. He has his phone out messing with it. Seriously Declan? You could pretend to care a little bit. He puts his phone away then grabs Rian by the shoulders moving her out of David's face. Declan looks to me asking, "You still wanna marry him?" I shrug then loo k from him to David. The problem is, I was all ready teetering on the edge with this. Now this has just put me over the edge. I'm on the side of the fence that let's me run back to Vance. "I'm sorry David. I can't. Not now," I tell him. He nods then reaches for me saying, "Will you still come to Paris with me? Let me fix this." I don't know if that's such a good idea. "I'm already packed so, why not," I tell him. He pulls me into his arms. I hold him to me. I know deep down we'll probably never make it down the isle, but the truth is I'm a coward. I know what it'll do to me if I ask Vance to take me back and he says no. So I'll just stick with what I know is a guarantee. We all decide to go to a little diner to get something to eat. The door flies open slamming off the wall. "Oh boy," Rian says then glares at Declan saying, "I thought I told you to keep him away from her." Vance walks to the table saying, "Don't go. I love you. I love you more than Iâve ever loved anything. I was dumb enough to let you slip away once. I won't do it again. If you go to Paris. I will follow you. I'll win you back no matter what it takes," he says holding my gaze. I look around people are staring. "Vance people are staring," I say with a smile on my face. "I don't care. All I care about is getting you back. I need you Sadie. I'm nothing without you," he tells me with determination. I look to David. He's watching my face. "I don't know what to say," I say to no one in particular. I stand quickly and practically run out the door. I need to be alone. "Sadie," I hear behind me. I turn to see David jogging to me. "Let me take you home ok," he tells me calmly. He's being so understanding. I nod. He extends his hand to me. I slide mine into his letting him lead me to his car. He has his hand on the handle when I hear, "Sadie wait." I turn to see Vance walking toward us. Declan and Rian turn the corner coming after him. "Vance leave her alone," Rian barks. I slide my hand from David's. I don't know what I'm doing really, but I take a step toward him. He reaches for me. I want to stop myself, but I'm so tired of fighting what I feel for him. I walk to him letting him pull me into his arms. I let out a breath as I wrap my arms around him. It feels so good to be in his arms again. He nuzzles my neck holding me tightly. I pull away saying, "I don't know what to do." He touches my face pushing my hair behind my ears saying, "You can do whatever you want, but I will follow you." I chuckle as I hang my head. "I need some time ok," I tell him searching his face. He smiles saying, "Take all you need." I reach up touching his face. He turns his head kissing my palm. I missed him doing that. I turn and look to David. "Come on Sade. I'll take you home to think," he calls out to me. I look at Vance to see if he wants me to stay with him. He says nothing, so I turn and walk to David. He helps me into his car with a smile on his face. As soon as his door shuts. His hand connects with my face. Pain rushes through my face and head. I look at him in shock then reach for the door handle. It's locked. I start pounding on the window yelling, "Vance." David grabs my hair punching me in the face a couple more times. I look to the door as Vance appears outside the door. "VANCE," I scream so loud it hurts my own ears in the small space. He's pulling on the door as David puts the key in the ignition. I see Vance yell something. Declan runs up next to him. I'm pulling against the hold David had on me. "HELP ME," I scream. Declan disappears from view. Vance is pulling on the door so hard the car is moving back in forth. I hear a crash then David yell out in pain. Declan punched through the window connecting with David's face. He let's go of my hair. I sit up trying to unlocking the door. I fumble it a bit. I'm shaking so badly. As so as it pops Vance opens the door pulling me into his arms. "Sadie are you ok," he asks lifting me off my feet. I wrap my arms around his neck whispering, "I'm so sorry. I love you so much. I never stopped. I was just so hurt." He touches my face saying, "I love you too." Rian walks up to us. Vance puts me on my feet. Rian pulls me into her arms then pulls away taking my face in her hands. "What a dumbass attacking you like that," she says searching my face. "Call 911," Declan calls out. He has David pinned to the ground on the other side of the car. "I'm sorry Sadie. Shit I'm so sorry," David calls out. I turn back to Vance wrapping my arms around his waist putting my face into his neck. He holds me tightly as I hear Rian saying, "Yes I need the police please."
I gave the cops a statement but refused to press charges against David. Heâs going to Paris anyway. He left me a message on my phone apologizing. He even gave me the address to the house he bought in Paris in case I change my mind. Not likely. I look around my bathroom in our condo. I was really starting to like it here. Honestly I'm kind of relieved everything happened this way. I was marrying David because he loved me. Not because he was the only person on the planet I can't live without. I belong to Vance, always have. I really had myself convinced I could live without him. I was foolish. âSadie you need anything? I was gonna head out and grab some food,â Vance asks as he leans against the door frame. I smile at him shaking my head yes. "I need you to hold me," I tell him. He pushes off the door frame and walks to me wrapping me into his arms. He holds me like that for awhile then pulls back a bit resting his hands on my hips. He touches my face making me flinch. âIâm so sorry he did this to you,â he tells me running his finger tips down my bruised cheek. âHey you knew heâd do it again,â I say looking to the floor. He slides his hand under my chin tilting my head up to meet his gaze. âI wish I had been wrong. The last thing I wanted was to see you hurt, again,â he tells me holding my gaze. I close my eyes. I feel him lean forward. He presses his lips to mine. I moan against his lips grabbing onto his hips. He steps closer. I wrap my arms around his waist. He deepens the kiss making my heart race. He pulls away. I open my eyes. I wasnât done kissing him. He smiles at me saying, âNo patience Sadie.â I smirk at him saying, âItâs overrated.â He smirks at me saying, âI really need to go get food. You feel like going out?â I scrunch my nose at him. âOk then Iâll go and be back soon,â he says leaning forward kissing me. He goes to pull away. I grab his face holding him to me. He groans wrapping his arms around me tightly. I need him. I pretended for too long. I pull away s
aying, âI want you.â He searches my face then turns leading me into the bedroom. My hear rate picks up as he sits on the bed pulling me to him. I straddle his hips holding his gaze. âI missed you so much,â he tells me as he pushes hair from my face. âI missed you so much more than I let on. Every time you pursued me it killed me to walk away from you. I was so hurt,â I tell him looking between us. âI was an idiot. It will never happen again,â he tells me bringing a smile to my face. I lean forwarding pressing my lips to him. He runs his hands into my hair holding me to him as he kisses me fiercely claiming me. I lift up pushing on his chest. He lays back on the bed taking me with him never breaking our kiss. I grab the hem of his shirt pulling it up as I run my thumbs across his hard stomach. I pull away long enough to pull his shirt off. He pulls me back to him. I donât know how I ever lived a day without feeling the heat he causes within me. I moan as I grind myself against his now hard length. He smiles against my lips. I sit up giving him a look. âDonât even say it. Just fuck me already,â I tell him. He sits up flipping me to my back. âMmmmmmm,â I moan as I open my legs to him running my hands up his back. He raises a brow at me as he leans down trailing kisses up my neck. I run my hands into his hair tugging as he bites my ear lobe. âVance please,â I beg. He sits back on his heels sliding his hands under my tank top cupping my breasts as he circles my nipples with his thumbs. âOh god,â I call out moving underneath him. He slides my shirt up and off. I run my hands up his thighs to the button if his jeans releasing it. I slide the zipper down. He moves from me. I reach for him. He pushes his jeans and boxers off quickly then reaches out pulling my yoga pants off. He moves back onto the bed. I reach out touching his face as he moves up my body trailing kisses from my stomach to my neck. I flick my tongue out licking his bottom lip as he lowers his mouth to mine. He immediately slides his tongue into my mouth. I groan moving beneath him silently begging him to put me out of my misery. He slides into me slowly. I grab his hips digging my nails into his flesh. I have never felt so complete. He pulls from me slowly then sinks back in just as slow. I bury my face into his neck biting down causing him to groan as he continues the slow sensual assault on my body. He holds me to him then slams into me hard. âOh yes,â I call out clinging to him for dear life as he shoots me to the edge of my orgasm. He pulls way from me locking eyes with me. He stills inside me. âI love you,â he tells me searching my face. âOh god I love you Vance,â I say as he moves inside. I throw my head back grabbing handfuls of bed spread. âNothing compares to being inside you,â he hisses as he picks up the pace. I feel overwhelmed by the pleasure heâs causing inside me. I hold onto to his forearms moving my hips with him. Iâm getting so close. âLook at me Sadie,â he demands. I open my eyes holding his gaze as he slams into me throwing me into the most earth shattering orgasm. âOH MY GOD LIAM,â I yell so loud my voice gives out at the end turning to a whisper. He rests his forehead to mine as he whispers, âSadie,â as he releases inside me. I tilt my head looking into his eyes. He moves back a bit with a smile on his face. âNever again Sadie. I wonât ever let you walk away from me,â he says leaning down kissing me slowly. I slide my hands into his hair tugging as he kisses me with so much emotion tears spring to my eyes. He pulls away leaving me breathless. âYour gorgeous,â he whispers. I open my eyes looking into his beautiful green eyes. Thereâs a knock at the door breaking our bubble. Vance huffs then pulls from inside me. I moan loudly. He grabs his boxers from the floor slipping them on. I pull the comforter around myself as he goes to the door. He looks over his shoulder winking at me then opens the door. âUh David just texted. He asked if he could come over and get some things,â Rian tells us hesitantly. âThanks Ri,â I call out. She giggles and call outs, âOH MY GOD your welcome.â I turn my head laughing into the bed. I hear Vance shut the door. "I feel up to going out now," I tell him. He chuckles saying, "Sounds good to me." I jump up and walk to the closet to get some clothes. I slip on a black v neck t shirt and skinny jeans. "You look hot in everything you know that," Vance says from behind me. I turn around saying, "Look who's talking." He walks to me pulling me into his arms. I wrap my arms around his neck and sigh. It feels good to be home.
We walk into the grocery store hand in hand. I grab a basket. "Ok what do we need," Vance asks as I hear, "Oh my god." I turn to see a younger woman looking at Vance with her hands clasped over her mouth. "Babe I think you've been spotted," I tell him. He turns around with a huge smile on his face. "Hey sweetheart," he says to the girl. She looks like she may pass out. I know the feeling. He's overwhelming. "I love you," she says through her hands. He smiles saying, "Thank you." She moves her hands asking, "Will you get a picture with me?" He looks to me. I smile and nod enthusiastically. "Here I'll take it for you," I say to her as she pulls her phone from her pocket. She hands it to me then stands next to Vance. He wraps his arm around her shoulder smiling beautifully. I take the picture then make sure I saved it before I hand it back to her. "Thank you. I can't wait to see your new movie," she tells him. "Thank you very much I hope you like he," he tells her. She stares at him a bit longer then waves at us before walking away. He smiles at me saying, "Thanks." I take his hand saying, "Your welcome super star." We walk through the store picking up a few things here and there. We get to the check out line. The cashier's eyes widen as Vance helps me lay items on the belt. She scans each item never taking her eyes off him. This is kind of strange for me. It's been a while since I've had to deal with having a famous boyfriend. "Your total is 56.97. She tells him. He pulls out money handing it to her. "Your Vance Matthews," she says calmly. "Yeah I am," he says with a smile. She smiles as she hands him his change. "Are you an actress too," she asks me as I step up behind him as he grabs the bags. "Nope she's a model," Vance says before I can answer. "Of course," she mumbles as we walk from the store. I step up next to him then slap his arm. "Why did you lie to that girl," I ask. He chuckles saying, "You could be a model. Hey she believed it." I shake my head as we walk up to the car. He unlocks it then pops the trunk placing the groceries in it. I go to open the passenger door when he says, "Hey you wanna get coffee?" He points over my shoulder at a small café next to the grocery store. "Sure why not," I tell him as he closes the trunk. He walks to me taking my hand in his leading me to the door. He opens it allowing me to go in first. We walk to the counter reading over the menu. "There you are," we hear from behind us. I would know that horrible voice anywhere. "What is she doing here," Brittany asks as she walks up next to us. Vance tightens his grip on my hand as I try to pull my hand free. "I told you we were staying with Sadie until David left to make sure he doesn't mess with her. She needed some groceries. We decided to grab some coffee," he explains. I give him a look. He didn't tell her we're back together yet. I doubt he'll do it here. She'll just cause a scene. I smile at her saying, "Vance has been my hero. Thank you for sparing him." She huffs then looks to our hands. I try to slide mine from his again. He only holds on tighter. She looks to Vance asking, "So we're done now?" He nods saying, "I told you if she ever came back we would be." I don't know why, but I'm shocked by his words. I look to Brittany's face. She doesn't look hurt. She's pissed. "So you think you can just sweep back in and take him from me huh," she asks me. "It's not like that," I tell her. "Really? What is it like? I have spent MONTHS with him dealing with his shitty mood for what," she barks. I look to Vance. "I've always been honest with you Britt. I told you I love her," he says slowly. "YEAH and SHE was supposed to be on her way to Paris," Brittany barks at him. "Well she's staying here with me now," he says a bit smugly. "Well when she walks out on you again because she will. Don't call me," she says then stomps out the door. "You can call me," the girl behind the counter says winking at him. I give him a look then pull him out the door. "I'm sorry," he says pulling me to him as soon as we get to the sidewalk. I look into his eyes saying, "Let's just go back to my place." He nod
s then leads me to his car.
"We're back," I call out as I walk into my condo. Vance comes in behind me carrying the groceries. Rian comes flying from back the hall. "Shit I thought you would text me," she says. David walks from back the hall then stops short looking me in the eyes. I take a deep breath. Rian walks to Vance taking the bags from him. Then then walks toward the kitchen. Declan comes from back the hall and helps her. "Sadie, can we talk for a second please," David asks. "NO," Vance bars from behind me. I reach back to him. He takes my hand stepping up next to me. "You don't have to leave us alone. I'll do it with you here," David says to Vance. He must nod or something because David looks me to saying, "I'm so sorry for everything. I got really angry watching you with," he says pointing to Vance. "I shouldn't have done it. Any chance I had left I ruined. You made me a better man Sadie. I'm sorry I hurt you," he says then walks back the hall. Vance leads me to the kitchen. I watch as David leaves his key on the coffee table then walks out with all his things. I let out a breath. "You ok," Vance asks pulling me to his side. I look up shaking my head yes. "Ok I'm cookin," Rian calls out. Vance's phone rings. "Hello," he answers. He rolls his eyes then removes his arm from me to walking into the living room. He looks pretty pissed as he paces talking to Brittany I assume. He hangs up his phone then walks back into the kitchen. "I have to go get my shit out of "Brittany's" apartment," he tells us making air quotes. "You need to tell that crazy bitch to get the fuck out of your apartment," Declan tells him. He shrugs saying, "She's the one that liked it. Let her try to pay the rent on it." Declan chuckles asking, "Yeah you tell her she has to pay for the beemer too?" Vance smiles saying, "Nope." So he did buy it for her. He looks to me saying, "Uh can I crash here for a couple days?" I chuckle saying, "Duh." He smiles resting his hands on my hips saying, " Ok then I'll be right back ok." He leans down kissing me before he leaves. I get a really funny feeling when the door closes behind him. "Do you think you should have gone with him," I ask Declan. He huffs saying, "Nah she's harmless." I nod then turn to Rian asking, "Ok what can I do to help?"
