As he entered he heard Chelsey giggle. "He's so hot, Anna. My God, when he smiles I think I'm going to orgasm on the spot."
He glanced at Emma and knew she'd heard Chelsey's comment. He closed the doors on the laughing nurses and crossed to her side.
Emma held her breath. He was back. She could go far away from the others and not have to face the reality of being completely alone again, not have to think of her beloved Andrew as dead, not have to deal with losing his baby, but then this man would come in and sit down, filling the room, filling her head with the scent and sight of him, compelling her to live again. He forced her back to the surface every time, where there was no escape from the terrible grief that overwhelmed her.
Silently she pleaded for him to go, to just let her be in the fuzzy, disconnected state that protected her from feeling--but once his gaze focused on her, it didn't leave.
"How are you today, Emma?" He always sounded intimate, talking to her as if they were best friends--more than friends. Closer. He used the pads of his fingertips to stroke back her hair. "Are you feeling any better?"
Each time he touched her, no matter how light, she felt as if electricity arced between them, zapping her alive again, so that the fears and the sorrow were closer than ever. And he held her there, gently but firmly, forcing her to look at her empty life while unimaginable grief poured into her, holding her prisoner.
She didn't answer him. She never did, just looked up at him mutely, begging him to let her drift back into her safe little cocoon.
Jake dragged a chair to the side of the bed, spun it around and straddled it. "I named the baby this morning. I didn't ever think much about what to call him, but I wanted to give him a good name, something that he'd be happy with even as an adult. I found a baby book on names in the waiting room."
She couldn't look away from his face. His tone was soft and low and very intense, but there was something that was a little off. She couldn't tell what it was. His eyes never left her face. He reminded her of a leopard with his golden-green eyes and his unblinking, piercing stare, so focused on her there was nowhere to hide.
He leaned forward. "He's so little, Emma. I swear I could fit him in the palm of my hand. It scares me to think of taking him home when I don't know the first thing about taking care of a baby. Does it scare you? You're going to have a baby. Did they tell you that? That the baby is still alive with only you to protect it?"
Her breath caught in her throat and her hands moved to cover her stomach. Was it true? She could feel her heart pound, hear it thundering in her ears. She'd willed herself to die, she'd wanted to die, and she would have taken her baby--Andy's baby--with her. She closed her eyes briefly, afraid she'd heard wrong.
Jake sighed softly and ran his fingers through his hair as if in agitation. "That's what scares me. There's only me to parent, to give the baby a good home, and I'm so far from the real deal." That admission slipped out and his voice rang with truth.
She swallowed--hard. Her throat convulsed. It took effort to part her dried lips and she had to reach for her voice. When it came it was thin and shaky and nearly unrecognizable. "Are you certain? About my baby? Are you certain I didn't lose it?"
He leaned closer to her. Jake Bannaconni. She'd heard his name spoken in hushed, awed whispers, but she still couldn't figure out why she knew him. What was there that was so familiar, and why did she feel as if his will held hers?
"Your baby is fine, Emma. The doctor said even with the blood loss, the baby appears to be healthy." Jake covered her hand with his. "There are no signs that the pregnancy will terminate. You're going to be a mother."
Tears burned behind her eyes again. Her baby. Her precious baby was safe. She wasn't entirely alone and there was a small piece of Andy growing inside of her. "Thank you for telling me about the baby. I was afraid to ask and no one thought to tell me. They only told me about my head, my leg, a million other injuries, and . . ." She trailed off and stared up at the ceiling, blinking, tears welling in her eyes.
"Andrew," he supplied gently. "I'm sorry, Emma. We both have to live with what happened. And we both have babies to raise by ourselves." He flashed a small smile. "I have the feeling you'll be much better at the parenting part of it than I will."
"You'll be a good father," she reassured him absently. "Don't worry so much." How in the world was she going to take care of a baby?
Jake picked up Emma's hand from where it lay quietly under his, his thumb moving along the back of it. His touch was achingly familiar. "Have they said when you can get out of here?"
Emma shook her head. "Where would I go?" The thought of her apartment, her home with Andrew, was too much for her to contemplate. She couldn't face going back to their home and trying to pack up Andy's things.
"We'll deal with it later, when you're feeling stronger," he assured. "I called my lawyer and asked him to look into insurance for you and a settlement of some sort. I hope you don't mind, but I at least wanted to get the ball rolling for you. I know you don't want to think about money, but it will be important when you have the baby."
Emma lifted her lashes, allowing her gaze to drift over his face. There was something about him that haunted her, commanded her, drew her like a magnet when she wanted to be left alone, to simply disappear. No one else compelled her as he did. She could simply go inside her mind and stay there, not face life without her beloved Andy. But once this man entered the room, he seemed to steal her will. She knew him. The memory of him nagged at her, yet she couldn't place him.
She could remember the events leading up to the accident, sitting in the car, so excited, the news of her pregnancy on the tip of her tongue. But she was holding back, determined to wait until they were at the restaurant and she could see Andy's expression, watch his eyes and his mouth when she revealed they were going to have their first child. He'd died without ever knowing. She hated that. Her gaze flicked again to Jake's face.
She didn't remember the crash. She remembered after, when there was pain and fire and Jake staring at her, stopping her from following Andy. His eyes fascinated her, pulled at her, a predator searching for prey. His focused stare made her uncomfortable, yet in some strange way comforted her. Maybe if her head ever stopped throbbing and the doctors backed off the pain medication she could think more clearly, but right now his personality was too strong and she couldn't think.
"How do I know you? I can't recall that we've ever met, but when I look into your eyes, I feel like I know you."
"I'm the man who pulled you out of the car." He looked down and withdrew his hand from hers to rub at his temples, as if he had the same headache she did. "I'm sorry I couldn't get to your husband. The fire was everywhere."
She saw burns on his hands and her heart jumped. She reached out and caught his wrists, turning the scorched palms over. "Is this from pulling me out of the car?"
Jake drew back, something inside him shaken from the touch of fingers on his skin. It wasn't sexual. He responded to women in a sexual way as a rule and he didn't mind relating to them in a physical way. He controlled women easily when they had a mutual attraction, but this was something altogether different and he didn't trust the feeling at all. "Yes." His voice came out gruffer than he intended.
She let out a small sigh. "I'm sorry you were hurt."
"Emma," Jake said softly, "what matters is that you and the baby are safe." He regretted pulling away from her when she'd voluntarily reached out to him.
Chelsey popped her head in the door. "You need anything, Emma?" she asked, but her gaze devoured Jake.
Emma's face closed down, her eyes going vague. When she didn't respond, Chelsey frowned and looked at Jake. He rose and patted Emma's limp hand.
"I'll get you a few things from your apartment, Emma," he said deliberately. "I'll be back this evening." He nodded toward the hallway and Chelsey followed him out. "I'll need her key and the address," he told the nurse.
"I don't want to get into trouble," Chelsey said.
; Jake stepped closer, leaning down as if to keep their conversation totally private. His voice was low and compelling, but he knew the heat of his body and the scent of his cologne enveloped her. She inhaled and a small shiver of awareness went through her. "I wouldn't let you get into trouble. Emma has to snap out of this, and if she has a few things familiar to her, it may help. You're just helping your friend and you saw she didn't object."
Chelsey nodded and hurried away, to return with the key and a small piece of paper with the address on it.
"You're a good friend to Emma," Jake said as he pocketed the key and quickly walked away before she could change her mind.
JAKE found Emma's apartment building with little problem. He stood in the doorway and surveyed the small living space. Small? Hell, it was tiny. The furniture was old and worn with use, the china was chipped and cracked. The couple had nothing. He stalked through the four rooms. This entire apartment would fit into his master bedroom. Frustration grew with each step and he paced back and forth, prowling like the caged cat he was. There was something here he couldn't quite put his finger on. Something he needed to understand, had to understand. It was a burning drive in his gut.
Everything was very neat and clean, so much so he found himself throwing out the dead roses in the little vase. They seemed an obscenity in the atmosphere of the apartment. He paced restlessly again, quick, fluid steps of sheer power. There was a key but he was missing it. He halted abruptly. Pictures were everywhere, on the walls, the desk, a small bureau, and there was an album sitting on a coffee table.
He studied one of the photos. The couple was looking at each other, as they seemed to be in every other picture, as if they only had eyes for each other. Their expressions were genuine, love shining brightly between them until it was almost tangible.
He traced Emma's lips with a gentle fingertip. He had never seen two people who looked so happy. It was in their eyes, it was in their faces. Emma took his breath away. In most of the pictures she wore little or no makeup.
She was very small, almost too slender, with an abundance of flaming red hair framing her fragile heart-shaped face. He had never had the slightest attraction to skinny women--he preferred lush curves--but he couldn't stop staring at her face, her eyes. He touched her picture again, tracing the outline of her face, his other hand gripping the cheap frame until his knuckles were white. He put it down abruptly.
The kitchen was filled with baked goods, including a hardened loaf of bread that had obviously been baked from scratch. The bathroom held two toothbrushes, one white, one blue, side by side in a container. There was a pregnancy test kit right next to the small soap dish. In the corner of the mirror, someone had written "Yes!" with lipstick.
In the bedroom, without a qualm, he went through their clothes. Andrew's shirts were a bit threadbare, but every button was in place, every tear neatly repaired. Every shirt was clean and ironed. He found a jacket with tiny embroidered stitches on the inside seam. Someone loves you. He stared at the words, feeling a yawning chasm of emptiness welling up inside him.
Jake Bannaconni was elite. He had superior intelligence, strength, vision and sense of smell. Muscles rippled beneath his skin, flowing like water, fluid and controlled. He was one of the youngest billionaires ever reported by Forbes, and he wielded vast political power. He had the savage, animalistic magnetism of his species and the ruthless logic required to strategize and plan boardroom battles. He could mesmerize people with the sheer strength of his personality; he could attract and seduce the most beautiful women in the world, and frequently did so; but he could not make them love him. Yet this . . . this mechanic had commanded love from all those around him. It made no sense.
What had made Andrew Reynolds so damned special that he could inspire that kind of love? That kind of loyalty? Hell, Jake couldn't claim love or loyalty from his own parents, let alone anyone else. As far as he could see, Reynolds hadn't given his wife a damned thing, yet everywhere he looked he could see evidence of their happiness.
He touched Emma's brush, strands of red hair gleaming at him like spun silk. His gut clenched. Longing nearly overwhelmed him. More than longing. Black jealousy assailed him. He'd heard his kind had that dangerous trait, but never once in his life had he experienced it. The emotion, so strong, was so intense it left a bitter taste in his mouth, knotted his gut and gave a killing edge to his already volatile temper. Andrew and Emma's life was a fairy tale. A fucking fairy tale. It wasn't real. It couldn't be real. She didn't have decent clothes. Every pair of her jeans was faded and worn. There were only two dresses hanging in the closet.
He found books on birds everywhere, an amateur design for a greenhouse aviary drafted by a feminine hand. He folded the drawings carefully and slipped them inside his coat pocket. He found a notebook that fascinated him. Every charcoal drawing was of leopards in various poses, some half sketched, some highly detailed. The pad was older and well worn, as if someone had looked at it often.
He spent another hour in the apartment, not really understanding why, but he couldn't pull himself away. He was a man who needed freedom and open space. He was intensely sexual, drawing women and bedding them whenever, wherever he wanted. He'd never considered having a woman of his own, yet looking around that tiny nothing apartment made him feel as if all the money in the world, all the political clout, all the secrets of what he was and who he was, all of it was nothing compared to what Andrew Reynolds had had.
Jake closed and locked the door. Someone had to look at him that way--not just someone. Emma. He couldn't walk away and leave her. The thought of another man finding her, possessing her, sent rage careening through his mind. Inside, he roared a protest. Emma should have been nothing to him, but he couldn't get the sight or scent of her from his mind.
He wanted the damned fairy tale. He could be patient. He was methodical and completely ruthless. Once set on a course of action he was implacable, unswerving. No one, nothing, stayed in his way for long. A grim smile touched the slightly cruel edges of his mouth. He played to win, and he always did. It never mattered how long it took. He always won. He wanted what Andrew had. He wanted Emma Reynolds--not some other woman; Emma--and he would have her. Nothing, and no one, would stand in his way.
3
"I'M thirty-three years old today, Emma," Jake announced as he walked into her hospital room. He placed the items he'd brought from her apartment on the small table near her bed. He'd deliberately waited three days before visiting, although he made certain she heard his voice in the hall. Chelsey had expressed concern several times that Emma wasn't eating and seemed very upset.
Emma's gaze jumped to his face, her fingers plucking at the sheet covering her.
"It's a hell of a thing to be my age and have a baby I don't know how to take care of. I've studied all kinds of things and speak several languages, but I never thought to learn how to change a baby's diapers. They're going to release him in another few days and then what am I going to do?"
Jake picked up her brush and crossed the room to her side. "You look a little pale to me. Are they still giving you pain medication?"
Emma moistened her dry lips, drawing his attention to her mouth. He dug through his pocket and held the lip balm out to her, expecting her to take it. "I found this in your bathroom and figured you might want it."
Emma took the tube from him, her fingers brushing his palm. She was trembling. He waited for her to coat her cracked lips before he spoke again. "Can you scoot up or do you need for me to help you?"
Emma looked startled, frowning at him. "Why?"
"I'm going to brush your hair. I'm probably not any better at that than changing diapers, but it might make you feel human again." Jake poured authority into his voice, acting very matter-of-fact, as if he brushed her hair every day.
She swallowed and looked around a little helplessly, as if she didn't quite know what to do. He gave her no choice and reached across the bed to gently lift her body into a sitting position before he slid in behind
her and seated himself on the bed. His thighs wrapped around her hips. A sense of haunting familiarity washed over him, as if he'd done this a million times. His fingers slid into the mass of tangled hair and that too felt familiar.
Jake took a breath and drew the scent of her into his lungs, the woman--who belonged to another man--that he meant to keep for himself, to steal. "Emma?" His voice took on an inquiring tone. "Are you all right?" He dropped his hands to her shoulders.
Emma shook her head.
"Tell me." He ran the brush through her long hair, careful not to pull. He'd never brushed a woman's hair in his life, yet it felt as if he had. Instinctively he held the silken strands above the knots so it wouldn't pull on her scalp as he brushed. He knew she had a tender scalp, and for a moment he heard her laughing explanation, as if she had spoken aloud, that the curls made her sensitive. They'd never once talked about brushing hair, but the memory was in his mind, clear and vivid.
Emma felt his hands in her hair and she closed her eyes, realizing she'd been waiting for him, needing him, needing his strength. It upset her that she needed anyone, and she was ashamed that she couldn't seem to cope on her own. She couldn't get out of bed, couldn't face her apartment without Andy, and now . . . Her chest ached. Her heart felt so heavy she was afraid she'd choke with the need for air.
"Emma." His voice held an edge, a command. "Tell me."
"The doctor said the baby is at risk and I have to be on bed rest."
There. She'd said it aloud. Finally faced the terrible news because he was there. A complete stranger. Why had she been waiting for him? She'd been angry and hurt that he'd stayed away so long. She'd barely been aware of the doctors and nurses bustling around her, trying to be cheerful, but she'd been acutely aware of him each time he'd been in the hallway outside the nursery looking at his baby. And she'd overheard the nurses gossiping endlessly about how sexy and hot he was.
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