by KJ Dahlen
Wiley wanted to growl in anger at her mother’s reasons. “Why would she tell you something like that?”
“I don’t think my mom liked me very much,” Nix admitted in the dark. It was something she’d always felt but never admitted to anyone before, not even to herself. “Anyway, the brothers always left me alone, that is until I was thirteen and my mother overdosed. I had just lost my mom and the president of the club was telling me I could take her place. He told me they would be gentle with me until they broke me in but if I wanted to stay that was how I could do it.”
“The lousy bastard.” Wiley swore under his breath.
Nix hung her head. “I left when everyone was asleep. I didn’t even stay to see my mom buried.”
“Honey, you couldn’t stay there.” He agreed with her on that score. “Where did you go after that?”
“I just walked. I didn’t care where I went I just had to get away. I slept during the day and walked all night. I learned to live on my own and did it by living in the shadows. I found I liked living that way. Night time never scared me. I could avoid most of the bad. It took me awhile to learn but I did learn. I moved from place to place and managed to avoid the Reckless Hellions until I could get out of their territory. They run all the way to Cincinnati. I just drifted from place to place, working when I needed money. I usually worked the night shift so I could stay out of sight. I’d have to find somewhere safe to stay during the day but it didn’t take me long to figure that out.”
“So where did you run into this Turnkey person four years ago?” Wiley asked.
“I was working in a bakery in North Adams, Massachusetts during the day but I also worked restocking and cleaning a bar at night. Turnkey and his buddies came in shortly before the bar was about to close. Turnkey knocked into the other guy and he tried to avoid Turnkey but no matter what he did, Turnkey kept on him. I think he was looking for a fight that night and the other guy just was in the wrong place at the wrong time. They guy finally left around midnight. I heard him because I was out in the back getting rid of some cardboard. I heard the fight start. I peeked around the corner and they were fighting, fist on fist. Then JoJo went to Turnkey’s bike and grabbed his bat. He gave it to Turnkey and stepped back. Turnkey got up and began swinging. He caught the other guy off guard and after the first hit, he just never quit.” She sobbed.
Wiley just held her.
Finally, after a few minutes she went on, “I ran away but didn’t know I left my jacket behind. They came after me the next day and I fell. As soon as I could walk, I left town and eventually they stopped looking for me. That is... until now.”
“You might have been vulnerable before but you aren’t now. You’ve got me and this club house between you and Turnkey. That’s my promise to you,” Wiley told her.
Nix had been all around and she knew how MCs were. There had to be a catch. “And just what is that protection going to cost me?”
Chapter Five
“It won’t cost you a fucking thing,” Wiley growled. “How can you even asked me that?” He pushed her away from him.
She gasped in the dark. “Please forgive me?” she begged. “The only MC’s I’ve ever known was the Reckless Hellions and they would never offer anything unless there was something in the deal for them. I had to stay out of their way, so they wouldn’t notice me. My mother never would have stood up for me, not from them. Even when she died, they wanted to claim me for one of their whores and I was only thirteen. Those kind of men were all I have ever really known.”
Wiley calmed down and crushed her small body to his.
She wrapped her arms around him and held on tight. “No one has ever looked out for me before.”
Wiley felt her tears drip down his chest and her words hurt his soul. At least he had parents to protect him growing up. While she had a mother, her mother wasn’t worthy of the title. “What about your dad? Did you ever know anything about him?” He wondered now. He saw Deke’s expression before. The man never did anything without a damn good reason. When he insisted on seeing Nix’s hair and face better, Wiley got a distinct feeling, Deke knew something that she didn’t even know.
“She would never tell me anything about him. I guess I assumed she didn’t know which one of the many men she slept with was the donor for me. To tell you the truth, I don’t think she even knew herself.”
“So you just avoided men altogether then?”
She nodded slowly. “I guess I’ve never been temped until now. When you hold me, I feel safe. I know that may be not what you want to hear but its true. I found a place I could call home in your arms.”
Wiley chuckled. He’d never been told this before that was for sure. “You call me your home? Why?”
“I learned a long time ago that home wasn’t always a safe place. I called the clubhouse for the Hellions home, but I never felt safe there. I had to hide myself from them every day. I prayed they wouldn’t come and find me for some reason or another. Then while I was out on the run, I never felt safe anywhere I went. Then I found you. In your arms, I didn’t feel the need to hide who I was. With you, I wasn’t afraid to just be.” She swallowed hard. “It’s hard to explain.”
Wiley slowly nodded. “I think I know what you mean.” He leaned closer to her and brushed his lips over hers. “And I’m glad you feel that way. There is so much more out there than living in fear.”
“I’ve always felt that but I didn’t know how to let the fear I had inside me go. With you, I just don’t think about it at all.” She hesitated then asked, “Will you teach me about sex? I’ve seen it done but never wanted it done to me before.”
“Are you sure that’s really what you want?” he asked her.
“I think so. I want to know what its like to give myself to someone else. You are the only man I can trust not to hurt me.”
He brushed a strand of hair away from her face and gently kissed her. “I can show you about sex but I have a feeling this will mean more to both of us than just sex.”
“Maybe, but even if it isn’t... that’s ok too. I would never demand more than you’re willing to give me.”
Wiley paused. “First, you need to realize that you are more than just a body. More than just sex. I already know I want you around. I want to know you. Be with you.” He laid back and just held her. “You should stand up for yourself more. Fear has made you think you are not good enough and you are, Nix.”
Nix rose up. “So... we aren’t going to um... you know... have sex?”
Wiley could see her profile in the dark. “I’m not sure you’re ready for me, little girl.”
Nix stayed still for a full minute. “So... you don’t want me?’ Her voice was a mere whisper.
His rose up and grabbed her upper arms. “I want you very badly. But I get the feeling you just think that’s all I want from you and it isn’t true. So, we will wait.”
“Well, I want this. Parker James,” she spoke to his lips. “ I could die tomorrow. I couldv’e died amny times, but now...”
Wiley fought himself. This girl was special. Different than Most women he’d been with. For one thing she was a dammed virgin. For another... it bothered him that all she’d known was the worst type of men. He did not want to appear the same as the other men she’d seen.
She then latched onto his mouth and pressed her breasts up against his hard chest.
Her scent engulfed him. He felt her soft lips and a surge of heat rushed through him. He knew that if this kept up, he would be having her, his way. He broke the kiss.
They were both panting from the deep kiss.
“Please?” she pleaded. “I want to know what it’s like...I want to be with you. My first time should be with a man like you.”
Wiley let out a long breath. Then he kissed her deeply.
Nix groaned as she met him more than half way.
Heart pounding in his chest he ripped her shirt off and then they were skin to skin. He groaned as he pushed her back on the bed. His tongue pushed
inside her mouth and she moaned so sweetly as he kissed her. Then he dropped down to her neck and using his teeth and mouth he began nibbling his way down her neck. His mouth covered her chest and he could feel the racing beat of her heart. He felt like smiling, knowing he was the reason her heart was beating that fast.
He slipped down to her chest and at first glance he was amazed by her beauty. Her breasts were full and taut, her nipples were pink and tight. Her skin was pale and flawless. His huge hands cupped her breasts and they more than filled his hands.
He lowered his mouth to her breasts and licked her silky skin. He used his mouth to nip and suck on her. Nix arched her back and pushed her breast into his mouth. Wiley nearly let out a feral growl as he sucked her nipple into his mouth.
Then he felt her grip the back of his head and hold him in place. Wiley bit down on her nipple. Nix lifted her hips and began dry humping his thigh. His hand slipped down between her thighs and he was astonished at how wet she was. He slid down along her body and when his face was between her thighs, he breathed in deep. Her aroma was amazing and he savored it a moment before his mouth found her core.
His fingers parted her curls gently and then he was on her and he found her lips a little sticky with her juices. He began to lick and suck and soon his fingers found her center. He paused as he pushed inside her. “You are so tight.”
“Please don’t stop,” she cried out. “You feel so good. I can’t believe I never knew this before. Take me all the way, please.”
“Oh, I’ll take you all the way and I’m glad no other man has done this to you before.” He growled. “That means I’ll be your first and only.” He felt the blood rush to his cock and he wanted to join with her so badly. But he knew he would have to be careful. He was a big guy and he didn’t want to hurt her.
“I need more,” she panted the words out as she lifted her hips and ground her core against his fingers.
Then Wiley pushed his fingers inside her deep and hard.
Nix cried out, “Yes that’s what I want. It feels so good!” she sounded surprised at this discovery.
His fingers began the age old rhythm of in and out, as she lifted her hips widening her legs to fit him better. He threw her legs over his shoulders and began licking and sucking her clit.
Nix thrashed around on the bed. “Oh my god, what’s happening to me?” She whimpered is a stunned surprise.
“Let go and fly. You’re so close but you need to let go.”
Suddenly, Nix’s body stiffened and cried out as she flew over the edge. The fall was terrifying but she knew he would always be there to catch her.
“Are you ready for more?” Wiley asked as he raised himself up to face her.
“More?” She stared at him in a daze. “There’s more?”
Wiley grinned. “Oh yeah sweet thing, there is so much more. That was just the beginning.”
“Show me,” she encouraged him. “Please show me.”
Wiley closed his eyes and when he opened them again, he stared at her for a moment. “This first time is going to hurt but it will get better I promise.”
Nix looked deep into his eyes. “I trust you. You are the only one I trust and I don’t trust easy.”
Wiley didn’t say anything. This was mystifying to him. A woman who trusted him so soon and so completely. He didn’t know what to say, instead he pushed his cock in just a bit. He worked himself inside her rather than just slam into her. He wanted to give her pleasure not pain and this way he kept his eyes on her face the whole time. She was tight but not as bad as she could have been.
When he came to the point of no return, he paused then leaned in and took her mouth as he broke through her innocence.
Nix gasped and closed her eyes but a moment later, she opened them to the wonder of what she was feeling. “Please don’t stop.”
Wiley couldn’t stop if he wanted to. Instead, he pushed in deeper then withdrew and pushed in again and again. Nix groaned and tightened her hold on him. Wiley was slowly losing control and no other woman had made him do that before.
He began slamming into her and Nix moaned as she accepted him. He could feel her body respond to his and he could also feel himself getting ready to blow. “I’m almost there.” He moaned in her ear.
“Me too,” she whispered.
“I need you to go first.” He could hardly breathe. He slipped his hand down to her clit and began thumbing it.
Nix cried out and flew again but this time she didn’t go alone. Wiley was right there beside her. He pulled out and came on her belly. He didn’t think about this part till he started to come. He never went bareback in any woman before.
Wiley gasped and his mind went blank he came so hard. He pulled himself up. He leaned over and grabbed some tissue.
“What did you umm, why did you do that on my belly?” she asked.
He wiped her down. “I was stupid. I forgot to wear a condom.”
She remained silent for a long moment.
He finished cleaning her up. “You see, when people normally have sex. It is smart to do that.”
Nix looked up at him and smiled. “That was so good. Wow.”
He tugged her close to him and kissed her temple. “No, that was more than just good, that was top of the line awesome.”
Nix snuggled into his embrace and smiled.
Wiley looked down at the top of her head and kissed her lightly. “Sleep little one. I’ll keep you safe.”
“Ok,” she whispered back as she closed her eyes.
He watched her sleep for a while then turned on his back. Keeping her close to him he thought about what she’d told him tonight. He had to wonder how she’d kept her sanity. Her life had been terrible but he knew she was a survivor. He was also glad to be the one to show her this. If she had been raped... or taken against her will. That may have shattered her completely. Not that he was anyone’s knight in shining armor. He did want her too.
He almost wished her mother were still alive, so he could beat the crap out of her for what she didn’t do for her daughter. She never once put her daughter first, or offered her protection and that was the least she could have done. He doubted she ever hugged her daughter either, or told her a story or even kissed her goodnight. He did know she never kissed her daughter good night.
He glanced down at the woman in his arms that was beginning to mean something to him. He wasn’t sure exactly what she was to him yet but he knew he wanted to find out.
Wiley closed his eyes and snuggled down with her. Soon they were both sleeping, in each other’s arms.
The sun wasn’t even up yet when Wiley felt the bed move and he groaned. He couldn’t quite open his eyes yet but he drew her into his arms. Inhaling deeply, he took in her scent. His blood stirred and his heart pounded in his chest. “I need in you again,” he whispered to her.
“Yes, please? Tell me something...does this feeling ever go away?”
“I’m not sure in this case.” He reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a condom then tore it open and quickly sheathed himself. He then reached over raised her up and placed her on top of him. “But then I’ve never felt this way before either. I can’t imagine not wanting this every day.” He lined himself up and slid up inside her. Still tight and it felt so good. She rode on top of him with wonder on her sweet face. He was losing control, but she seemed to love it. Each stroke upward into her was deeper and harder than before and soon they were both out of control. The climax surprised both of them when it hit.
“Me either.” She panted through her climax and she knew he was right there with her.
In the afterglow, Wiley snuggled with her and Nix let him for a few minutes then she looked at him and asked, “What’s going to happen to me today?”
Wiley shook his head. “I don’t know but we’ll face it together. I’ve got your back now you know that, right?”
She shook her head. Then laid her forehead on his chest. “That’s not why I slept with you. You know that right? I didn’
t barter my body for your protection.”
Wiley smiled slightly even if he knew she couldn’t see it. He gently tipped her chin up to his. “I know that sweet girl. And I made no demands that you do something like that. But you gave me something last night I never knew I wanted and that was meaningful to me. I protect what’s mine and you belong to me now.”
Nix closed her eyes. “Belong? To someone?”
He sighed as he corrected his language. “Belong with me. To me...around me. I want you by me.”
“Oh...” She nodded. “I suppose we have to face everyone this morning?”
“Yup,” Wiley agreed as he popped the p in his answer. “Come on woman, we can save water if we shower together, then we can face them all.”
He got out of bed and watched as she turned around. Her dark hair hung well belong her ass and he had to catch his breath at the sight of it hanging freely. Each ripple from being braided all the time reminded him a of a ripple in a pool of water after you throw a stone into it. It took his breath away. “Wow,” he exclaimed. “I’ve never seen hair that long. It’s beautiful.”
Nix’s cheeks flushed. “Thank you. It should be longer but Moses cut it off when I was ten. I had to grow it out again after that.”
“Why would he do something like that?” Wiley frowned. He watched her shrug but when she didn’t say anything, he let it drop. Now wasn’t the time to force her to share her past. Instead, he took her hand and led her to the shower.
An hour later, they were both clean and ready for the day. Nix had her hair braided and stuffed into a cap then Wiley led her down the hall to the main room. When they arrived, some of the brothers were there already.
Deke, Gator, Deacon and Raine all sat at one table.
As soon as Wiley and Nix appeared, the entire room became quiet.
