‘Give me a week,’ he muttered. ‘It’s not easy. I must think it over.’
Chapter Ten
THE NEW LEAF
WHEN MacGown came up to her, Marjorie Ferrar thought: ‘Does he know about Bertie?’ Fresh from her triumph over ‘that little snob’, fluttered by the sudden appearance of her past, and confronted with her present, she was not in complete possession of her head. When they had moved away into an empty side room, she faced him.
‘Well, Alec, nothing’s changed. I still have a past as lurid as yesterday. I’m extremely sorry I ever kept it from you. But I did practically tell you, several times; only you wouldn’t take it.’
‘Because it was hell to me. Tell me everything, Marjorie!’
‘You want to revel in it?’
‘Tell me everything, and I’ll marry you still.’
She shook her head. ‘Marry! Oh! no! I don’t go out of my depth any more. It was absurd anyway. I never loved you, Alec.’
‘Then you loved that – you still –’
‘My dear Alec, enough!’
He put his hands to his head, and swayed. And she was touched by genuine compassion.
‘I’m awfully sorry, I really am. You’ve got to cut me out; that’s all.’
She had turned to leave him, but the misery in his face stopped her. She had not quite realized. He was burnt up! He was –! And she said quickly:
‘Marry you I won’t; but I’d like to pay up, if I could –’
He looked at her.
Quivering all over from that look, she shrugged her shoulders, and walked away. Men of an old fashion! Her own fault for stepping outside the charmed circle that took nothing too seriously. She walked over the shining floor, conscious of many eyes, slipped past her hostess, and soon was in a cab.
She lay awake, thinking. Even without announcement the return of presents would set London by the ears and bring on her again an avalanche of bills. Five thousand pounds! She got up and rummaged out the list, duplicate of that which Alec had. He might still want to pay them! After all, it was he who had spilled the ink by making her go into Court! But then his eyes came haunting her. Out of the question! And, shivering a little, she got back into bed. Perhaps she would have a brainwave in the morning. She had so many in the night, that she could not sleep. Moscow with Bertie Curfew? The stage? America and the ‘movies’? All three? She slept at last, and woke languid and pale. With her letters was one from Shropshire House.
DEAR MARJORIE,
If you’ve nothing better to do, I should like to see you this morning.
Affectionately,
SHROPSHIRE
What now? She looked at herself in the glass, and decided that she must make-up a little. At eleven o’clock she was at Shropshire House. The marquess was in his work-room at the top, among a small forest of contraptions. With coat off, he was peering through a magnifying-glass at what looked like nothing.
‘Sit down, Marjorie,’ he said: ‘I’ll have done in a minute.’
Except the floor, there seemed nowhere to sit, so she remained standing.
‘I thought so,’ said the marquess; ‘the Italians are wrong.’
He put the spy-glass down, ran his hand through his silvery hair, and drew his ruffled beard into a peak. Then, taking an eyebrow between finger and thumb, he gave it an upward twist, and scratched himself behind one ear.
‘They’re wrong; there’s no reaction whatever.’
Turning towards his granddaughter, he screwed up his eyes till they were bright as pins. ‘You’ve never been up here before. Sit in the window.’
She seated herself on a broad window-ledge covering some sort of battery, with her back to the light.
‘So you brought that case, Marjorie?’
‘I had to.’
‘Now why?’ He was standing with his head a little to one side, his cheeks very pink, and his eyes very shrewd. And she thought: ‘After all, I’m his granddaughter. I’ll plunge.’
‘Common honesty, if you want to know.’
The marquess pouted, as if trying to understand the words.
‘I read your evidence,’ he said, ‘if you mean that.’
‘No. I meant that I wanted to find out where I stood.’
‘And did you?’
‘Very much so.’
‘Are you still going to be married?’
Really, he was a spry old boy!
‘No’
‘Whose doing? Yours or his?’
‘He still says he’ll marry me if I tell him everything. But I don’t choose to.’
The marquess moved two steps, placed his foot on a box, and assumed his favourite attitude. He had a red silk tie this morning which floated loose; his tweed trousers were of a blue-green, his shirt of a green-blue. He looked wonderfully bright.
‘Is there much to tell?’
‘A good deal.’
‘Well, Marjorie, you know what I said to you.’
‘Yes, Grandfather, but I don’t quite see it. I don’t want to stand for anything.’
‘Ah! you’re an exception in our class – luckily! But it’s the exceptions that do the harm.’
‘If people took one as any better than themselves, perhaps. But they don’t nowadays.’
‘Not quite honest, that,’ interrupted the marquess; ‘what about the feeling in your bones?’
She smiled.
‘It’s good to mortify oneself, Grandfather.’
‘By having a better time than you ought, um? So your marriage is off?’
‘Very much so.’
‘Are you in debt?’
‘Yes.’
‘How much do you owe?’
Marjorie Ferrar hesitated. Should she compromise, or blurt it out?
‘No heel-taps, Marjorie.’
‘Well, then, five thousand about’
The old peer screwed up his lips, and a melancholy little whistle escaped.
‘A good deal of it, of course, is due to my engagement.’
‘Your father won a race the other day, I see.’
The old boy knew everything!
‘Yes; but I believe it’s all gone.’
‘It would be,’ said the marquess. ‘What are you going to do now?’
She had a strong desire to answer: ‘What are you?’ but restrained it, and said:
‘I thought of going on the stage.’
‘Well, I suppose that might be suitable. Can you act?’
‘I’m not a Duse.’
‘Duse?’ The marquess shook his head. ‘One must go back to Ristori for really great acting. Duse! Very talented, of course, but always the same. So you don’t choose to marry him now?’ He looked at her intently. ‘That, I think, is right. Have you a list of your debts?’
Marjorie Ferrar rummaged in her vanity bag. ‘Here it is.’
She could see his nose wrinkling above it, but whether at its scent, or its contents, she could not tell.
‘Your grandmother,’ he said, ‘spent about a fifth of what you seem to on about five times the acreage of clothes. You wear nothing nowadays, and yet it costs all this.’
‘The less there is, Grandfather, the better it has to be cut, you know.’
‘Have you sent your presents back?’
‘I’ve had them packed.’
‘They must all go,’ said the marquess. ‘Keep nothing he or anyone else gave you.’
‘Of course not.’
‘To frank you,’ he said, suddenly, ‘I should have to sell the Gainsborough.’
‘Oh, no!’
Gainsborough’s picture of his own grandmother as a little girl – that beautiful thing! She stretched out her hand for the list. Still holding it, he put his foot to the ground, and stood peering at her with his bright, intent old eyes.
‘The question is, Marjorie, how far it’s possible to strike a bargain with you. Have you a “word” to keep?’
She felt the blood mounting in her cheeks.
‘I think so. It depends on what I’v
e got to promise. But Grandfather, I don’t want you to sell the Gainsborough.’
‘Unfortunately,’ said the marquess, ‘without doing your uncle Dangerficld in the eye, I’ve nothing else. It’s been my fault, I suppose, for having had expensive children. Other people don’t seem to have had them to the same degree.’
She stifled a smile.
‘Times are hard,’ went on the marquess. ‘Land costs money, collieries cost money, Shropshire House costs money; and where’s the money? I’ve got an invention here that ought to make my fortune, but nobody will look at it.’
The poor old boy – at his age! She said with a sigh:
‘I really didn’t mean to bother you with this, Grandfather. I’ll manage somehow.’
The old peer took several somewhat hampered steps, and she noticed that his red slippers were heel-less. He halted, a wonderfully bright spot among the contraptions.
‘To come back to what we were saying, Marjorie. If your idea of life is simply to have a good time, how can you promise anything?’
‘What did you want me to promise?’
He came and stood before her again, short and a little bent.
‘You look as if you had stuff in you, too, with your hair. Do you really think you could earn your living?’
‘I believe I can; I know a lot of people.’
‘If I clear you, will you give me your word to pay ready money in future? Now don’t say “Yes”, and go out and order yourself a lot of fallals. I want the word of a lady, if you understand what that implies.’
She stood up.
‘I suppose you’ve every right to say that. But I don’t want you to clear me if you have to sell the Gainsborough.’
‘You must leave that to me. I might manage, perhaps, to scrape it up without. About that promise?’
‘Yes; I promise that.’
‘Meaning to keep it?’
‘Meaning to keep it.’
‘Well, that’s something.’
‘Anything else, Grandfather?’
‘I should have liked to ask you not to cheapen our name any more, but I suppose that would be putting the clock back. The spirit of the age is against me.’
Turning from his face, she stood looking out of the window. The spirit of the age! It was all very well, but he didn’t understand what it was. Cheapen? Why! she had raised the price of the family name; hoicked it out of a dusty cupboard, and made of it a current coin. People sat up when they read of her. Did they sit up when they read of grandfather? But he would never see that! And she murmured:
‘All right, dear, I’ll be careful. I think I shall go to America.’
His eyes twinkled.
‘And start a fashion of marrying American husbands? It’s not yet been done, I believe. Get one who’s interested in electricity, and bring him over. There are great things for an American to do here. Well, I’ll keep this list and work it off somehow. Just one thing, Marjorie: I’m eighty, and you’re – what are you – twenty-five? Don’t get through life so fast – you’ll be dreadfully bored by the time you’re fifty, and there’s no greater bore man a bored person. Good-bye!’ He held out his hand.
She took a long breath. Free!
And seizing his hand, she put it to her lips. Oh! He was gazing at it – oh! Had her lips come off? And she hurried out. The old boy! He was a darling to haye kept that listl A new leaf! She would go at once to Bertie Curfew and get him to turn it over for her! The expression in his eye last night!
Chapter Eleven
OVER THE WINDMILL
DURING his period of indecision Michael struck no attitudes, and used practically no words; the thing was too serious. Perhaps Kit would change. Fleur’s mood, or she would see other disadvantages, such as her father. The complete cessation, however, of any social behaviour on her part – no invitation issued, or received, no function attended, or even, discussed, during that rather terrible week, proved that the iron had really seared her spirit. She was not sulky, but she was mum and listless. And she was always watching him, with a wistful expression on her face, and now and then a resentful look, as if she had made up her mind that he was going to refuse. He could consult no one, too, for to any who had not lived through this long episode, Fleur’s attitude would seem incomprehensible, even ridiculous. He could not give her away; could not even go to old Blythe, until he had decided. Complicating his mental conflict was the habitual doubt whether he was really essential to Foggartism. If only his head would swell! He had not even the comfort of feeling that a sturdy negative would impress Fleur; she thought his job a stunt, useful to make him conspicuous, but of no real importance to the country. She had the political cynicism of the woman in the street; only that which direatened property or Kit ivould really ruffle her. He knew that his dilemma was comic. The future of England against the present of a young woman socially snubbed! But, after all, only Sir James Foggart and old Blythe so far seriously connected Foggartism with the future of England; and if, now, he went off round the world, even they would lose their faith.
On the last morning of that week, Michael, still in doubt, crossed Westminster Bridge and sought the heart of the Surrey side. It was unfamiliar, and he walked with interest. Here, he remembered, the Bickets had lived; the Bickets who had failed, and apparently were failing in Australia, too. Street after mean street! Breeding-ground of Bickets! Catch them early, catch them often, catch them before they were Bickets, spoiled for the land; make them men and women of property, give them air and give them sun – the most decent folk in the world, give them a chance! Ugly houses, ugly shops, ugly pubs ! No, that wouldn’t do! Keep Beauty out of it; Beauty never went down in ‘the House’! No sentiment went down! At least, only such as was understood – ‘British stock’, ‘Patriotism’, ‘Empire’, ‘Moral Fibre’. Thews and productive power – stick to the clichés! He stood listening outside a school to the dull hum of education. The English breed with its pluck and its sense of humour and its patience, all mewed-up in mean streets!
He had a sudden longing for the country. His motor-cycle! Since taking his seat in Parliament he had not been on a machine so inclined to bump his dignity. But he would have it out now, and go for a run – it might shake him into a decision!
Fleur was not in, and no lunch ordered. So he ate some ham, and by two o’clock had started.
With spit and bluster he ran out along the road past Chis-wick, Slough and Maidenhead; crossed the river and sputtered towards Reading. At Caversham he crossed again, and ran on to Pangbourne. By the towing path he tipped his machine into some bushes and sat down to smoke a pipe. Quite windless! The river between the bare poplars had a grey, untroubled look; the catkins were forming on the willows. He plucked a twig, and stirred it round the bowl of his pipe before pressing in tobacco. The shaking had done him good; his mind was working freely. The war! One had no hesitations then; but then – one had no Fleur. Besides, that was a clear, a simple issue. But now, beyond this ‘to stay or not to stay’, Michael seemed seeing the future of his married life. The decision that he made would affect what might last another fifty years. To put your hand to the plough, and at the first request to take it off again! You might be ploughing crooked, and by twilight; but better plough by dim light than no light; a crooked furrow than none at all! Foggartism was the best course he could see, and he must stick to it! The future of England! A blackbird, close by, chuckled. Quite so! But, as old Blythe said, one must stand up to laughter! Oh! Surely Fleur would see in the long run that he couldn’t play fast and loose; see that if she wanted him to remain in Parliament – and she did – he must hang on to the line he had taken, however it amused the blackbirds. She wouldn’t like him to sink to the nonentity of a turntail. For after all she was his wife, and with his self-respect her own was bound up.
He watched the smoke from his pipe, and the low grey clouds, the white-faced Herefords grazing beyond the river, and a man fishing with a worm. He took up the twig and twirled it, admiring the yellowish-grey velvet of its b
udding catkins. He felt quiet in the heart, at last, but very sorry. How to make up to Fleur? Beside this river not two miles away, he had wooed – queer word – if not won her! And now they had come to this snag. Well, it was up to her now, whether or no they should come to grief on it. And it seemed to him, suddenly, that he would like to tell Old Forsyte.…
When he heard the splutter of Michael’s motor-cycle, Soames was engaged in hanging the Fred Walker he had bought at the emporium next to Messrs Settlewhite and Stark, memorializing his freedom from the worry of that case, and soothing his itch for the British School. Fred Walker! The fellow was old-fashioned; he and Mason had been succeeded by a dozen movements. But – like old fiddles, with the same agreeable glow – there they were, very good curiosities such as would always command a price.
Having detached a Courbet, early and about ripe, he was standing in his shirt-sleeves, with a coil of wire in his hand, when Michael entered.
‘Where have you sprung from?’ he said, surprised.
‘I happened to be passing, sir, on my old bike. I see you’ve kept your word about the English School.’
Soames attached the wire.
‘I shan’t be happy,’ he said, ‘till I’ve got an old Crome – best of the English landscapists.’
‘Awfully rare, isn’t he, old Crome?’
‘Yes, that’s why I want him.’
The smile on Michael’s face, as if he were thinking: ‘You mean that’s why you consider him the best,’ was lost on Soames giving the wire a final twist.
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