Ariane had been nice-looking technology, for its time, 150 years earlier. It had been superseded by new generations of space planes, even before the Gaijin had taken over most of Earth's ground-to-orbit traffic with their clean, flawless landers. But when the French released political control of East Guiana, the new government decided to refurbish what was left at Kourou.
So East Guiana, one of the smallest and poorest nations on Earth, suddenly had a space program.
Ariane had kept flying even as history moved on, and nations and corporations and alliances had formed and dissolved, leaving new configurations whose very names were baffling to Madeleine. But Ariane remained: an antique, disreputable, dirty, unreliable launcher, used by agencies without the funds to afford something better.
Like Nemoto.
Maybe, Madeleine thought, it wasn't a surprise that Nemoto, another relic of the first Space Age, had gravitated here.
The residential quarters had been set up in an abandoned solid-propellant factory, a building that dated back to before Madeleine's birth. The cluster of buildings was still called UPG, for Usine de Propergol de Guyane. It was a jumble of white cubes spilling over a hillside, like a Mediterranean village. It was sparsely set up, but comfortable enough. About four hundred people lived here: the Aboriginal emigrants, and permanent technical and managerial staff to operate the automated facilities. Once, twenty thousand, a fifth of the country's population, had been housed in Kourou. The feeling of emptiness, of age and abandonment, was startling.
She slept for a few hours. Then she drifted about her apartment, tinkering.
It was startling how often and how much everyday gadgets changed. The toilet, for instance, was just a hole in the ground, and it took her an age to figure out how to make it flush. The shower was just as bad; it took a call to Ben to establish that to set the heat, you had to put your finger in a little test sink and let the thing read your body temperature.
And so on. All stuff everybody else here had grown up with. It was like being in a foreign country, wherever she went, even in her hometown; she'd long grown tired of people not taking her requests for basic information seriously. And every time she came back from another Einsteinian fast-forward it got worse.
Anyhow, a few minutes after stepping out of the shower, her skin was prickling with sweat again.
She felt no discomfort, of course. The Discontinuity left her with numbness where pain or discomfort should sit. Like a fading-down of reality. She toweled herself dry again, trying not to scrape her skin.
Perhaps it should have been expected. Before the reality of Saddle Point teleportation had been demonstrated, there had been those who had doubted whether human minds could ever, even in principle, be downloaded, stored, or transmitted. The way data was stored in a brain was not simple. A human mind appeared to be a process, dynamic, and no static "snapshot," no matter how sophisticated the technology, could possibly capture its richness. So it was argued.
The fact that the first travelers, including Madeleine, had survived Saddle Point transitions seemed to belie this pessimistic point of view. But perhaps, in the longer term, those doubts had been borne out.
She knew there was talk of treatment for Discontinuity sufferers. Madeleine wasn't holding her breath: Nobody was putting serious money into the problem. There were only a handful of star travelers, and nobody cared much about them anyhow. And so Madeleine had to wear a constricting biocomp sensor suit that warned her when she'd sat still for too long or when her skin was burned or frozen, and that woke her up in the night to turn her over.
Maybe the Gaijin weren't affected the same way. Nobody knew.
She stood, naked, at an open window, trying to get cool. It was evening. She looked across kilometers of hilly country, all of it coated by burgeoning life. There was a breeze, lifting loose leaves high enough to cross the balcony. But the breeze served only to push more water-laden air into her face.
The blanket of foliage coating the hills around the launch areas looked etiolated: the leaves yellowed, stunted, the trees sickly and small by comparison with their neighbors farther away. And the leaves at her feet were yellow and black, others holed, as if burned.
She pulled on a loose dress and walked a kilometer to the block containing Ben's apartment.
She glimpsed Aborigines: her trainees – men, women, and children – passing back and forth in little groups, engaged in their own errands and concerns. They showed no interest in her. They were loose-limbed people, many of them going barefoot, some of the women overweight; they wore loose togas like Ben's, the cloth worn, dirty, well used. Their faces were round, a paler brown than she had expected, with blunt noses, prominent brows. Many of them wore breathing filters or sunscreen, and their skin was marked by cancer scars.
They were alien to Madeleine, but no more so than most of the people of the year 2131.
Ben welcomed her. He served her a meal: couscous with saffron, chunks of soya, a light local wine.
He told her about his wife. She was called Lena; she was only twenty, a decade younger than Ben. She was in orbit, working on the big emigrant transports Nemoto was assembling. Ben hadn't seen her for months.
Madeleine felt easy with Ben. He even took care with the words he used. Language drift seemed remarkably rapid; less than a century out of her time, even if she was familiar with a word, she couldn't always recognize its pronunciation, and she had learned it wasn't safe to assume she knew its modern usage. But Ben made sure that she understood.
"It's strange finding Aborigines here," Madeleine said. "So far from home."
"Not so strange. After all, East Guiana is another colonial relic. The French wanted to follow the example of the British in Australia, by peopling East Guiana with convicts." He grinned, his teeth white and young, a contrast in Madeleine's mind to the ruined mouth of Nemoto. "Anyhow," he said, "now we can escape on the fizzers." He mimed a rocket launch with two hands clasped as in prayer. "Whoosh."
"Ben – why Triton? I know Nemoto has her own objectives. But for you..."
"Nemoto's offer was the only one we had. We have nowhere else to go. But perhaps we would follow her anyway. Nemoto is marginalized, her ideas ridiculed – most vigorously by friends of the Gaijin. But she is right, on the deepest of levels. We used to think we were alone in a primordial universe. Suddenly we find ourselves in a dangerous, crowded universe littered with ruins. There was fear and deep anger at the discovery of the violation of Venus. It might have been a sister world to Earth – or Earth might have been the victim. With time, the outrage faded, but we remembered – we, a people who have been dispossessed already."
More leaves blew in from a darkening sky, broken, damaged by rocket exhaust.
Ben told her he came from central Australia, born into a group called the Yolgnu. "When I was a boy my family lived by a riverbank, living in the old way. But the authorities, the white people, came and moved us to a place called Framlingham. Just a row of shacks and tin houses. Then, when I was eight years old, more white men took me away to an orphanage. The men were from the Aboriginal Protection Board. When they thought I was civilized enough, they sent me to foster parents in Melbourne. White people, called Nash. They were rich and kind. You see, it was the policy of the government to solve their Aboriginal problem once and for all, by making me white."
All of this stunned her, embarrassed her. "You must hate them," she said.
He smiled. "This was merely a part of their shared history. They were always frightened, first of the Japanese, then of Indonesians and Chinese, flowing down from the north, with their eyes on Australia's empty spaces, its huge mineral deposits. Now perhaps they fear the Gaijin, come to take their land. And each time they exorcise their fears using us. I do not hate them. I understand them."
To her surprise, he turned out to hold a doctorate in black-hole physics. But he had been drawn back to Framlingham, as had others of his generation. Slowly they had constructed a dream of a new life. Almost all of the people escapi
ng to Triton were from Framlingham, he said. "It was a wrench to leave the old lands. But we will find new lands, make our own world."
Ben served her sambuca, an Italian liqueur: a new craze, it seemed. Sambuca was clear, aniseed flavored. Ben floated Brazilian coffee beans in her glass and set it alight. The alcohol burned blue in the fading light, cupped in the open space above the liquid, and the coffee beans hissed and popped. The flames were to release the oils from the beans, Ben said, and infuse the drink with the flavor of the coffee.
He doused the flames and took careful sips from her glass, testing its temperature for her so that Madeleine would not burn her lips. The flavor of the hot liquid was strong, sharp enough to push at the boundary of her Discontinuity.
They sat under the darkling sky, and the stars came out.
Ben pointed out constellations for her, and he traced other features of the celestial sphere for her, the geography of the sky.
There was the celestial equator, an invisible line that was a projection of Earth's equator on the sky. From here, of course, the equator passed right over their heads. Lights moved along that line, silent, smoothly traversing, like strangely orderly fireflies. They were orbital structures: factories, dwellings, even hotels. Many of them were Chinese, Ben told her; Chinese corporations had built up a close working relationship with the Gaijin. Then he distracted her with another invisible line called the ecliptic. The ecliptic was the equator of the Solar System, the line the planets traced out. It was different from the Earth's equator, because Earth's axis was tipped over through twenty-three degrees or so.
...Rather, the ecliptic used to be invisible. Now, Madeleine found, it was marked by a fine row of new stars, medium bright, some glowing white but others a deeper yellow to orange. It was like a row of street lamps.
Those lights were cities, Madeleine learned: the new Gaijin communities, hollowed out of the giant rocks that littered the asteroid belt, burning with fusion light. No human had gotten within an astronomical unit of those new lamps in space.
It was beautiful, chilling, remarkable. The people of this time had grown up with all this. But nevertheless, she thought, the sky is full of cities, and huge incomprehensible ruins. New toilets and telephones she could accept. But even the Solar System had changed while she had been away, and who would have anticipated that?
She felt too hot, dizzy.
She considered making a pass at Ben. It would be comforting.
He seemed receptive.
"What about Lena?"
He smiled. "She is not here. I am not there. We are human beings. We have ties of gurrutu, of kinship, which will forever bind us."
She took that as assent. She reached out in the dark, and he responded.
They made love in the equatorial heat, a slick of perspiration lubricating their bodies. Ben's skin was a sculpture of firm planes, and his hands were confident and warm. She felt remote, as if her body were a piece of equipment she had to control and monitor.
Ben sensed this. He was tender, and held her for comfort. He was fascinated by her skin, he said: the skin of a woman tanned by the light of different stars.
She couldn't feel his touch.
She slept badly. In her dreams Madeleine spun through rings of powder-blue metal, confronted visions of geometric forms. Triangles, dodecahedra, icosahedra. When Madeleine cried out, Ben held her.
At one point she saw that Ben, sleeping, was about to knock over the coffeepot, and still-hot liquid would pour over his chest. She grabbed the spout, taking a few splashes, and pushed it away. She felt nothing, of course. She wiped her hand dry on a tissue and waited for sleep.
When they woke they found that the coffee had burned her hand severely.
Ben treated her. "The absence of pain," he said, "is evidently a mixed blessing."
She'd heard this before, and had grown impatient. "Pain is an evolutionary relic. Sure, it serves as an early warning system. But we can replace that, right? Get rid of sharp edges. Soak the world with software implants, like my biocomp, to warn and protect us."
Ben studied her. "Do you know what the central reticular formation is?" he asked.
"Why don't you tell me?"
"It's a small section of the brain. And if you excite this formation – in the brain of a normal human – the perception of pain disappears. This is the locus of the Discontinuity damage. I am talking of qualia: the inner sensations, aspects of consciousness. Your pain, objectively, still exists, in terms of the response of your body; what has been removed is the corresponding quale, your perception of it. Put an end to discomfort, and there is an end to the emotions linked with pain: fear, grief, pleasure."
"So my inner life is diminished."
"Yes. Consciousness is not well understood, nor the link between mind and body. Perhaps other qualia, too, are being distorted or destroyed by the Saddle Point transitions."
But, Madeleine thought, my dreams are of alien artifacts. Perhaps my qualia are not simply being destroyed. Perhaps they are being... replaced. It was a thought that hadn't struck her before. Resolutely she pushed it away.
"How do you know so much about this?"
"I have ambitions myself to travel to the stars. To see a black hole, before I build my farm on Triton. It is worth studying what would happen to me...
"Madeleine," he added slowly, "there is something I should tell you. Even though Nemoto has forbidden it."
"What?"
"The Chinese discovered it first, in their dealings with the Gaijin. Some say it is a Gaijin gift, in fact. Nemoto has worked to suppress knowledge of it. But I –"
"Tell me, damn it."
"There is a cure for the Discontinuity."
She was electrified. Terrified.
"You know," he said, "the remarkable thing is that the reticular formation is in the oldest part of the brain. We share it with our most ancient ancestors. Madeleine, you have returned from the stars, changed. There are those who think we are forging a new breed of humans, out there beyond the Saddle Points. But perhaps we are merely swimming through the dreams of ancestral fish."
He smiled and held her again.
She stormed into Nemoto's office.
Nemoto was busy; an Ariane launch was imminent. She took a look at the bandaging swathing Madeleine's hand. "You ought to be careful."
"There's a way to reverse the Discontinuity. Isn't there?"
"Oh." Nemoto stood and faced the window, the Ariane mock-up framed there. She held her hands behind her back, and her posture was stiff. "That smart-ass kid. Sit down, Madeleine."
"Isn't there?"
"I said sit down."
Madeleine complied. She had trouble arranging herself on Nemoto's office furniture.
"Yes, there's a way," Nemoto said. "If you're treated correctly before you go through a gateway, the translation can be used to reverse the Discontinuity damage."
"Then why are you hiding this?" Madeleine asked. "Send me to a Saddle Point."
Nemoto looked at Madeleine from her mask of a face. "You're sure you want this back? The pain, the anguish of being human –"
"Yes."
Nemoto turned and sat down; she nested her hands on the tabletop, the fingers like intertwined twigs. "You have to understand the situation we face," she said. "Most of us are sleeping. But some of us believe we're at war." She meant the Gaijin, of course, and their great belt cities, their swooping forays through the inner Solar System – and the other migrants who were following, still decades or centuries away but nevertheless on the way, noisily building along the spiral arm. "You must see it – you, when you return from your jaunts to the stars. Everybody's busy, too busy with the short term, unable to see the trends. Only us, Madeleine; only us, stranded out of time."
Something connected for Madeleine. "Oh. That's why you have kept the cure so quiet."
"Do you see why we must do this, Meacher? We need to explore every option. To have soldiers – warriors – who are free of pain –"
"Free of
consciousness itself."
"Perhaps. If that's necessary."
Madeleine felt disgusted, sullied. Discontinuity was, after all, nothing less than the restructuring of her consciousness by Saddle Point transitions. How typical of humanity to turn this remarkable experience into a weapon. How monstrous.
She sat back. "Send me through a Saddle Point."
"Or?"
"Or I expose what you've been doing – concealing a cure for the Discontinuity."
Nemoto considered. "This is too big an issue to horse-trade with the likes of you. But," she said, "I will make you an exchange."
"An exchange?"
"I'll send you to a Saddle Point. But afterward you go to Triton with the Aborigines. We have to make sure that colony succeeds."
Madeleine shook her head. "It will take decades for me to complete a round-trip through a gateway."
Nemoto smiled thinly. "It doesn't matter. It will take the Yolgnu years to reach Neptune, more years to establish any kind of viable colony. And we're playing a long game here. Some day the Gaijin will confront us directly. Some of us don't understand why that hasn't already happened. We need to be prepared, when it does."
"And Triton is a part of this scheme?"
Nemoto didn't answer.
But of course it was, Madeleine thought. Everything is a part of Nemoto's grand design. Everything, and everyone: my need for money and healing, Ben's people's need for refuge – all just levers for Nemoto to press.
"Where?" Nemoto said suddenly.
"Where what?"
"Where do you want to go, on your health cruise?"
"I don't care. What does it matter?"
"There might be something suitable," Nemoto said at length. "There is another alien species, here in the Earth-Moon system. Did you know that? They are called the Chaera. Their star system is exotic. It includes a miniature black hole, which... Well." She eyed Madeleine. "Your friend Ben is a black-hole specialist. Perhaps he will go with you. How amusing."
Amusing. Another little relativistic death.
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