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by Penny Vincenzi


  Round one to you, Louise, she said to herself, putting the phone down.

  She was waiting for him when he got there. Because she ate there on a regular basis with her journalist friend Johnny Barrett and he gave it lots of good publicity, the maître d’ knew and liked her and had agreed to give her one of the best tables. She had attracted a lot of attention as she walked across the room; she was wearing a black trouser suit, a white ruffled shirt and very high heels; the four men at the next table were patently intrigued by her and who her companion might be. Probably expecting some kind of sugar daddy, she supposed.

  She whiled away the ten minutes Roderick made her wait studying the city pages of the Evening Standard, and managed to appear so engrossed that the waiter who had brought him over gave a small cough and said, ‘Your guest has arrived, Miss Mullan.’

  ‘Oh,’ she said, standing up, ‘sorry, Roderick, just keeping up with the markets, you know.’ She offered him her cheek. ‘How are you?’

  ‘Fine thanks,’ he said. And then, eyeing her up and down, ‘You look very nice.’

  ‘Thank you. Your usual?’ and then as he nodded, ‘Gin and tonic,’ she said to the hovering waiter, ‘large. And a Virgin Mary for me, please.’

  ‘What the hell’s a Virgin Mary?’ he asked, sitting down.

  ‘I’m surprised you don’t know. I discovered it in New York.’ She had never actually been to New York but he couldn’t possibly know that. ‘It’s tomato juice without the vodka. Keeps the head clear. Now let’s order straight away shall we, and then we can concentrate.’

  He ordered pâté and then ‘beef from the trolley’, she asked for a tomato salad and a steak au poivre. ‘Rare. And then, Roderick, you can order the wine if you like, but the 1952 Château Cheval Blanc, it’s a St Émilion’ (she’d got this from Johnny Barrett) ‘is amazing.’

  ‘Right,’ he said, a certain respect in his eyes she hadn’t really seen before, ‘but I’ll take a look for myself if you don’t mind.’ He started thumbing through the leather-bound encyclopaedia the Grill presented as its wine list, and said, ‘So what are you doing with yourself these days? Must be odd to be unemployed. Or are you enjoying it?’

  ‘I wouldn’t be,’ she said briskly, ‘if I was. But I’m not.’

  ‘Oh, really? You and Matt kissed and made up, have you? I thought you would, sooner or later.’

  ‘Matt and I have not made up, as you put it,’ said Louise, ‘and are most unlikely to do so ever again. There are however other ways of working in our business than as an undervalued partner.’

  ‘Of course. So – are you looking for a job, Louise, is that it?’

  There was an expression in his eyes she couldn’t quite analyse; but it wasn’t hostile or dismissive. That had to be something.

  ‘No,’ she said, ‘no, I’m not. Oh, look, here’s the sommelier back. What are you going to order?’

  ‘Well – let’s see.’ He flicked over a couple of pages then said, ‘Tell me, would you recommend the Cheval Blanc ’52?’

  ‘An excellent choice, sir, if I may say so.’

  ‘Right. Well, in that case, let’s have it. I presume it’s chambré, all that sort of thing?’

  ‘Of course, sir. I do assure you you’ll enjoy it very much. But no doubt you’re familiar with it? It’s a favourite with many of our more, shall we say, discerning clientele.’

  God, thought Louise, I’ll throw up in a minute.

  ‘Right, we’ll go for that then.’

  The sommelier gave a small bow, took the list. ‘I’ll have it brought to the table, sir.’

  ‘Thank you.’ The first course had arrived; Roderick gave Louise a very slightly shamefaced grin. She met his eyes rather coolly.

  ‘I’m glad we’ve made a good choice of wine,’ was all she said, and then: ‘So have you seen Matt? Since – the – well, since the baby died.’

  ‘I have, yes,’ he said, and added, surprising her, ‘Poor bugger. Awful thing to happen. He was very cut up about it.’

  ‘I see Scarlett from time to time, his sister, you know, she’s a friend of mine. She says Eliza has been in a really bad way, not sleeping. Spending a lot of time in the country with her mother. Well, at weekends anyway.’

  ‘Ah, at Matt’s famous pile.’

  ‘I don’t think it’s exactly Matt’s,’ said Louise, ‘it’s part of Eliza’s family trust. As I understand it.’

  ‘Yeah, yeah, but we all know it was Matt’s money saved it, OK? And what Matt pays for, Matt’s bought.’

  ‘I suppose so. Oh, now look, here’s the trolley so let’s just – oh, and the wine.’

  There was a lot of fussing, of choosing meat near the bone, of sniffing and tasting; finally, Louise said, ‘Right. Let’s get down to business. I know you haven’t got long and neither have I.’

  ‘I thought you didn’t want a job,’ said Roderick slowly.

  ‘I don’t want a job. I want some backing for a project.’

  ‘You want backing! From me? I suppose you think I’m some kind of a soft touch. Louise, you should get into the real world, girl. Go and talk to an investment bank, they’re the ones with the money.’

  ‘I did. They all turned me down.’

  ‘Yeah? They obviously thought it wasn’t a good enough proposition.’

  ‘No, they thought I was a woman.’

  ‘Uh-huh. Well, fair enough. You can’t argue with that.’

  ‘I know. But I thought they’d have the nous to see beyond it.’

  ‘Clearly not.’

  There was a silence; then Louise said, ‘Don’t you even want to know what my project is?’

  ‘Well – OK. Don’t want to appear rude. Seeing as the lunch is on you. On you go then … But I’m telling you, Louise, I don’t have any money available for investment. Everything I’ve got goes straight back into the company.’

  ‘OK. You’ve made that pretty clear. Anyway – it’s hotels.’

  ‘Hotels!’

  ‘Yes. The industry is absolutely booming, growing by the day. London’s full of tourists. Has been ever since the Swinging London thing. And there aren’t enough hotels. It’s simple. The American market alone is massive, I was talking to Scarlett about it the other day, they flock here in thousands. Her clientele is the boutique end, but she sees the frustration of people trying to find places to stay. And how far out they have to go to find anywhere. All income levels too, I’ve got some figures if you’re interested …’

  She reached for her briefcase and the folder she’d prepared for him, a full set of statistics, the number of hotels in London, the number of tourists visting annually, the consequent potential, expressed in investment terms, and a list of possible sites. She put it on the table; he didn’t pick it up, but he was silent. That was good. She had his interest. She could tell.

  ‘The thing is we need to act fast. There’s such pressure on sites. It’s going to get more difficult, with these bloody conservationists getting a hold. I mean Covent Garden, what a fantastic place for a hotel that would be. But I heard all those trendies who live and work around there, actors and artists and so on, are preparing a campaign to save it – God knows what for. Something pretty useless, I expect. And of course the thing about hotels is you can build up and up. It’s a big plus; you’re offering people views over the city. Look at the Hilton in Park Lane. Something like four hundred and fifty rooms, twenty-eight storeys. How’s that for plot ratio? So pressure on space is less of a problem.’

  ‘You know the Queen opposed that place, don’t you?’ said Roderick, grinning. ‘It overlooked her back garden. She didn’t like it one bit. Well, I’m not saying it’s not a good idea, Louise; to be honest I’m impressed.’

  ‘Look at the figures, Roderick. Go on.’

  ‘I told you, I don’t have that sort of money, I mean what are you looking for, hundred K or are we into really fancy money?’

  ‘I reckon we could make a start with a million. It’d have to be that, because of the site cost. It’d h
ave to be central.’

  ‘A million! Louise, you’re insane. I’d have trouble laying my hands on fifty grand right this minute.’

  ‘Roderick, I’m not asking you to put up the money. Just to front the venture, with me as your partner. I told you, the bankers only turned me down because I’m a woman. One of them more or less said so. There’s so much money out there still, it’s growing on trees. We could get the capital I need tomorrow, with your record.’

  He was silent for a moment, then he said, ‘No. Honestly. I got enough on my plate, and I don’t know anything about the hotel business, it’d be crazy.’

  ‘No one’s asking you to get into the hotel business; all we’re doing is providing the buildings. Then we sell them. Or build them under licence.’

  Another silence. Then, ‘No, it’s just too risky. Sorry.’ He looked at his watch. ‘Now we’ve only got fifteen minutes left, so why don’t we talk about something else. Like where we’re going on our holidays. We’re off to Florida in a couple of weeks, fantastic place apparently …’

  OK. Time for the trump card.

  ‘Well – OK. If that’s your final word.’

  ‘It is. Absolutely final.’

  ‘You do know, I presume, that the government doesn’t agree with you.’

  ‘What are you talking about now?’

  ‘They’re giving a tax incentive, or it might be a grant, my accountant told me this morning, to assist in the development of hotels just because of exactly what I’m talking about, the shortage. It’s going to be in the press tomorrow, apparently. Oh, well. I’ll just have to find someone else. Pity. But I will. I’m not giving up.’

  Roderick put down his wine glass, and waved at a passing waiter.

  ‘Can I see the cigar list?’ he said, and then turned back to Louise, picked up the file and started leafing through it. ‘What sort of structure were you thinking of with this company, then?’

  When Louise got home, she called Johnny Barrett.

  ‘I’m going to have a really nice little story for you in a day or two,’ she said. ‘Thanks for the tip about the wine. And you will run the piece about the hotel grant, won’t you?’

  ‘Do I get lunch at the Savoy and a bottle of the St Émilion?’

  ‘No. Two bottles.’

  ‘OK. I’ll see what I can do.’

  ‘Johnny—’

  ‘It’s all right, honeybunch. It’s already in proof, I’m looking at it now. And a little bird told me the Sketch was doing it too.’

  ‘Oh, my God. Johnny, I love you.’

  Eliza really didn’t know what the worst thing was. Sometimes it was reliving Baby Charles’s birth. Or his death. Or the funeral. Or the ongoing, savage guilt. Or people not knowing what to say, stumbling around the subject. Or people not mentioning it, being bright and cheerful as if nothing had really happened. Or telling her how wonderful it was that she had one healthy child at least, that was one of the particularly worst things, as if the baby had been a new dress or a car or something, that she could perfectly well manage without as she had one already. Or being tired absolutely all the time, deep, deep, bone-weary-tired. Or not wanting to do anything, not go out, or stay in, or see people or not see people, work or not work.

  Being told that something would cheer her up, make her feel better, was particularly worst. Because she didn’t want to feel better ever; if she felt better, she would be betraying Baby Charles, he would really be gone, it would really be over. While she was so unhappy, while everything hurt so much, he was still real.

  Matt found her behaviour and her constant weeping very trying, she could see. He had been as heartbroken as she when Baby Charles died and for the first few weeks afterwards. But he was busy and he was preoccupied with problems at work, and he took refuge in them, as Eliza couldn’t, and she watched him through a haze of resentment as he visibly began to recover and resume something approaching normal life. He tried extremely hard to be patient, she could see that, and to cope with her grieving, but misread her reactions to his suggestions that they should go out, go to a film, go on holiday even, as rejection; as for sex, there just wasn’t any. It had been such a panacea in their lives always, such a happy ending to so many rows; but she shrank from even the gentlest approach, feeling a kind of physical outrage that he could intrude into not only her sorrow, looking for some kind of happiness with her, but her body, her poor, failed, exhausted body.

  She took to going down to Summercourt at the weekends with Emmie, leaving London on Friday night, and coming back late on Sunday afternoon; he joined her at first, but then, finding the same bleakness in her there as in London, he started to drive down later and later on Saturday, or even Sunday morning, and for the past two weeks had not been at all.

  Sarah tried to help with advice, sympathy, and practical action, offering her services as babysitter if Eliza wanted to go out with Matt, or spend a weekend with him in London, but she met only with blank rejection and a declaration that she didn’t understand.

  Finally, after Eliza was particularly snappy with her one afternoon, she said, ‘Darling, I’m sorry to tell you this, and I do feel desperately sorry for you, and I can see your grief is frightful, but you can’t go on behaving in this way. You’re damaging your marriage, Matt is genuinely trying so hard to understand and help—’

  ‘That’s really extremely nice of him,’ said Eliza, ‘I mean, he is actually my husband, it was his baby too who died, and now everyone seems to think I’m selfish, because I’m so miserable and ought to be making more of an effort for him. How he can still even think about his bloody deals and where he’s building what I don’t know.’

  ‘Eliza,’ said Sarah patiently, ‘Matt is a man. Of course he’s sad and extremely so, but he can’t possibly feel the loss as intensely as you do. He didn’t carry the child, or bear it, he wasn’t physically affected by it. And I think he’s trying very hard to be supportive. You’re just not trying to meet him even halfway. And he does also have an obligation to continue to make a living for you all. For us all,’ she corrected herself.

  ‘Oh, for God’s sake,’ said Eliza, ‘save me all that old-fashioned claptrap. Honestly, Mummy, Matt can do no wrong these days, can he, ever since he saved Summercourt. I never thought to hear you defending Matt against me.’

  Sarah said no more, just walked out of the room; Eliza glared after her, and refused to eat the supper she had cooked, saying she’d have a sandwich upstairs.

  Sarah went to church next morning and prayed for patience.

  Eliza went through the weeks in a daze, taking Emmie to her new school, going home again, lying down on her bed and crying until she could cry no more. There was a great deal that had to be done in the new house, they had moved only a few weeks before Baby Charles had been born, but she had no heart for it; rooms remained unpainted, curtains unmade, and books and pictures sat on the floor, stacked against the walls, as even commissioning shelves and replacing ripped-down picture rails seemed completely beyond her.

  Quite often she didn’t have to pick Emmie up from school because she was constantly being invited out to tea, which was a help in a way because she didn’t have to look after her or amuse her, and no one seemed to expect her to ask their children back, but it made her days longer and lonelier still.

  Emmie loved school, she was happy and popular; which was just as well, Eliza reflected, as she wouldn’t be having much fun otherwise.

  She found it hard to be affectionate with her, and worse, she was horribly, physically bad-tempered, pushing her away if she interrupted her from trying to read or write letters, and even slapping her at times. They had standoffs, as Emmie told her she was horrible and she hated her and she would tell her she was a naughty, nasty little girl and it was time she learnt to do what she was told.

  And then she did the really awful thing and realised that she actually did need to get some help from somewhere, somehow.

  Matt would have died rather than admit it, but he missed Louise a lot. At a
time when he was in any case depressed not only by the death of his son, but the loss, temporarily at any rate, of any happiness in his marriage, he felt his whole life under assault. Barry was great, he was fun, he was a very hard-working and generous partner; but he was pretty two-dimensional. Also he didn’t have many ideas, and he didn’t do the kind of quirky sideways thinking that had always been Louise’s strength. A lot of her ideas had been impractical, and over-ambitious, but they had kept on coming; her brain was tirelessly fertile.

  He had been shocked when he heard she was going into business with Roderick Brownlow, partly because she had always been so hostile to his particular brand of sexual chauvinism, and partly because he felt she was too clever for him.

  And why the hell couldn’t she have mentioned her hotels to him? They had reputedly acquired their first site, with planning permission, on the southerly edge of Regent’s Park; he heard that even before it hit the press from Scarlett, who seemed to be seeing a great deal of Louise.

  ‘She’s a wonder, that girl, all that electric energy,’ Scarlett said, ‘she’s going to make a killing with that company.’

  ‘Yes, all right, all right,’ said Matt. ‘She couldn’t have done it without all the contacts she made here over the years.’

  ‘Of course not. I realise that. And I’m not taking sides, either. But you must miss her.’

  It was true, and he missed Jenny dreadfully as well; he had already hired and fired three receptionists in the space of six weeks. Jenny’s dazzling prettiness, her gentle manners, her immense desire to please, even the simplicity of her thought processes, had done a lot for the atmosphere in the outer office. He could hardly bear to walk down the biscuit aisle at the supermarket. That bugger Brownlow had better be treating her well.

  He felt guilty to be able to think about work at all; but had his eye on a new prize, a very fine row of houses in Clapham, just off the common. Owning Summercourt had increased his appreciation of architecture, but this was too big a plot to waste on aesthetic considerations. He could replace them with a huge block of flats; and the nutters, as Barry called the conservationists, hadn’t yet reached far out of central London. It would make him a new fortune; he had lost none of his fervent ambition, and it certainly helped to take his mind off what was happening at home.

 

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