"Insane, Tanner." But there was no conviction in her words.
"Do you want to know how I realised? Apart from all the little details which just didn't add up?"
"Astonish me."
"You shouldn't have mentioned Quirrenbach. I never said his name. In fact, I was very careful not to, just in case you made a slip and it came out. Seems my luck was in."
"You bastard." She said it sweetly, so that-to anyone watching us from a distance-it might have been a term of affection, the kind lovers give themselves. "You sly bastard, Tanner."
I smiled. "You could have used an excuse if you'd wanted. You could have said that Dominika mentioned his name when you asked who I'd been travelling with. I was half expecting you to do that, and I'm not quite sure I know how I'd have reacted. But it's all moot now, isn't it? Now we know just who you are."
"What were the little details, out of curiosity?"
"Professional pride?"
"Something like that."
"You made it far too easy for me, Zebra. You left your vehicle active so I could steal it. You left your weapon where I could find it, and enough money to make a difference. You wanted me to do it, didn't you? You wanted me to steal those things, because then you'd know for sure who I was. That I'd come to kill Reivich."
She shrugged. "Is that all?"
"Not really, no." I drew Vadim's coat tighter around myself. "It didn't escape my attention that we made love the first time we met, despite the fact that you barely knew me. It was good too, for what it's worth."
"Oh, don't flatter me. Or yourself, for that matter."
"But the second time, although you seemed relieved, I wouldn't say you were particularly happy to see me. And I didn't feel anything sexual pass between us at all. At least not from you. It took me a while to work out why, but I think I understand now. The first time you needed intimacy, because you were hoping it would lead me into saying something incriminating. So you invited me to sleep with you."
"There's such a thing as free will, Tanner. You didn't have to go along with me, unless you want to admit your brain is ruled by your dick. And I didn't get the impression you regretted any of that."
"Probably because I didn't. I'd have been too tired if you had made any overtures the second time-but that was never on the cards, was it? You knew all you needed to by then. And the first time was strictly professional. You slept with me for information."
"Which I didn't get."
"No, but that hardly mattered. You got it later, when I skipped with your gun and car."
"It's a real sob story, isn't it?"
"Not from where I'm standing." I glanced over the edge. "From where I'm standing it's a story that might just end with you taking a very long fall, Zebra. You know I've come a long way to kill Reivich. Did it occur to you that I might not have too many qualms about killing anyone who tries to stop me?"
"There's a gun in your pocket. Use it if it'll make you feel any better."
I reached for the gun to check it was still there, then kept my hand in my pocket. "I could kill you now."
To her credit, she managed not to flinch. "Without taking your hand out of your pocket?"
"You're welcome to try me." It felt like a charade; like a scripted piece we had fallen into rehearsing. It also felt like we had no choice but to follow the script to its conclusion, whatever that happened to be.
"Do you really think you could hit me like that?"
"It wouldn't be the first time I've killed someone firing from this angle." But, I thought, it would be the first time I had meant to do it. After all, I had not intended to kill Gitta. I was also unsure I really wanted to kill Zebra.
Had not meant to kill Gitta . . .
I'd been trying not to think about it, but like a maze with only one exit, my thoughts always meandered back to that one moment. Now, after long repression, they welled up and exploded like a gang of rowdy gatecrashers. I had not remembered it before now. Gitta had died, yes, but I had comfortably avoided thinking too closely about the manner of her death. She had died in the attack-so what else was there to think about? Nothing.
Except the simple fact that I had killed her.
This is what I remembered.
Gitta awoke first. She was the first to hear the attackers as they swept past the cordon, concealed in the strobe-lighting of the electrical storm. Her yelps of fear woke me, her naked body tensing against me. I saw three of them: three silhouetted shapes cast against the fabric of the tent, like grotesqueries in a shadow theatre. When each pulse of lightning flashed, they were somewhere else-sometimes one of them, sometimes two, sometimes all three. I could hear screaming-recognising in the timbre of each exclamation one of our own people. The screams were very short and concentrated, like trumpet blasts.
Ionisation-trails scythed through the tent and the force of the storm reached through the gashes like a creature of rain and wind. I cupped my hand across Gitta's mouth and felt under my pillow for the gun I had placed there before retiring, satisfied when my hand detected its cool presence and found its contoured grip.
I slipped from the bunk. No more than a second or two had passed since I had first become consciously aware of the attack.
"Tanner?" I called, hardly able to hear my own voice against the storm's threnody. "Tanner, where the hell are you?"
I left Gitta under the thin caul of a blanket, shivering despite the heat and humidity.
"Tanner?"
My night-vision began to come online, the interior details of the ruined tent creeping into greyish clarity. It was a good modification; worth what it had cost to obtain from the Ultras. Dieterling had persuaded me to have it, after having the same mod himself. The gene splice led to a layer of reflective material-an organic substance called tapetum-being laid down behind my retinae. The tapetum reflected light back, maximising absorption. It even shifted the wavelength of the reflected light, fluorescing at the optimum sensivity of the retinae. The Ultras had said the only drawback of the splice-if you could call it a drawback-would be that my eyes would seem to flash back at anyone who shone a bright light in my face.
Eyeshine, they called it.
But I rather liked the idea of that. Long before anyone saw my eyeshine, I would have already seen them.
The splice went deeper than that, of course. They had packed my retinae with gene-tinkered rods with a photon-detection efficiency close to optimal, thanks to modified forms of the basic photosensitive chromoprotein pigments; a simple matter of tweaking a few genes on the X chromosome. I had a gene normally inherited only by women which allowed me to differentiate nuances of the colour red I had never imagined before. I even had a cluster of snake-derived cells, pits spaced around the rim of my corneas, which were capable of registering near infrared and ultraviolet, and which had grown neuronal connections back into my optic centre so that I processed the information as a visual overlay on my normal field of view, the way snakes do. But I had yet to activate the snake vision. Like all my faculties, it could be activated and suppressed by tailored retroviruses, triggering brief, controlled cancers which erected or dismantled the necessary cellular structures in a matter of days. I needed time, though, to learn the proper use of each faculty. First, enhanced night-vision. Then, later, colours beyond normal sight.
I pushed through the partition which divided the tent, into Tanner's part, where our chess table was still set up; still displaying the checkmate I had won against him, as I always did.
Tanner-naked but for a pair of khaki shorts-was kneeling down at the side of his bunk, like a man tying his shoes or examining a blister on his foot.
"Tanner?"
He looked up toward me, his hands engulfed in something black. A moan drifted from his mouth, and as my vision sharpened I saw why. He had very little foot below the ankle, and what remained looked more like charcoal than human flesh, just as liable to shatter into black shards at the merest touch.
Now I recognised the stink of incinerated human meat.
"I'm hurt, quite badly, as you can probably see. I don't think I'm going to be much use to you." And then: "What's wrong with your eyes?"
A figure stepped through a gash in one wall. His night-vision goggles hung around his neck and the flashlight rigged to his gun played across us, coming to rest on my face. His chameleoflage stammered towards compatibility with the interior.
I blasted his guts open.
"There's nothing wrong with my eyes," I said when the afterimage of my weapon discharge had dissolved to a thumb-shaped pink bruise in my visual field. I stepped over the corpse of the attacker, carefully refraining from placing my unshod foot in the spreading entrails. I walked over to the rifle rack, pulled down a huge but currently superfluous bosonic beam weapon-too heavy to be used against enemy this close-and tossed it onto Tanner's bunk. "Nothing wrong with my eyes at all. Now use that as a crutch and start earning your pay. We'll get you a new foot if we get out of it, so just think of it as a temporary loss."
Tanner looked from his wound to the gun and then back to the wound, as if weighing one against the other.
Then I moved.
I put my weight on the stock of the boser-rifle and tried to put the pain into some sealed compartment at the back of my head. My foot was ruined, but what Cahuella said was right. I could live without it-the blast had done a very professional job of cauterisation-and if I managed to survive the attack, obtaining a new foot would be a matter of a few weeks' discomfort. In terms of mortality, I had sustained worse injuries when I was regular soldier fighting against the NCs. But my mind didn't see it that way. What it saw was that part of me was simply not there any more, and it did not quite know how to process that absence.
Light-hard and blue and artificial-impaled the tent. Two of the enemy-I had counted three before the dead one shot me-were still out there. Our tent was big enough that it might look as if we were a larger force than we really were, so the other two might be laying down a suppressing fire before moving in to mop up anyone they had not already taken out.
I made my way over to the body, my vision darkening at the edges, as if seen through a tube of foreboding clouds. I knelt down until I could reach the dead man, unclipping his torch and taking his night-vision goggles. Cahuella had shot him blind, in near total darkness, and while the shot was a fraction low for my tastes, it had done the job. I remembered how, only a few hours earlier, I had watched him pump shots into the night, as if there was something there only he could see.
"They did something to you and Dieterling," I said, clenching my teeth as I spoke and hoping that I was comprehensible. "The Ultras . . ."
"It's nothing to them," he said, his broad frame turning towards me like a wall. "They all have it. They live in nearly total darkness on their ships, so that they can bathe in the glories in the universe more easily, when they've left sunlight behind. Are you going to live, Tanner?"
"If any of us do." I snapped the night-vision goggles over my eyes and saw the room brighten in hues of choleric green. "There wasn't much bloodloss, but I can't do anything about shock. That's bound to set in soon, and then I'm not going to be very much use to you."
"Get yourself a gun, something useful at close range. We'll go and see what damage we can do."
"Where's Dieterling?"
"I don't know. Maybe he's dead."
Automatically, barely having to think about it, I tugged a compact pistol from the rack, flicking its ammo-cell to readiness and hearing the shrill whine as its condensers charged up.
Gitta screamed from the next partition.
Cahuella pushed through ahead of me and then stopped dead just beyond the drape. I nearly knocked him over, the stock of the boser-rifle scuffling against the floor as I tried to approximate walking. I had no need for the goggles now, since the room was already lit by the tent's glowlamp, which Gitta must have ignited. She was standing up in the middle of the space, clutching a dun-coloured blanket around her.
One of the attackers stood behind her, one hand drawing her head back by a clump of scalp-hair, the other holding a wickedly serrated knife to the convex whiteness of her throat.
She made no scream now. The only sounds she allowed herself were small and snatched, like someone choking.
The man holding her had removed his helmet. He was not Reivich, just some mildly competent thug who might have fought with or against me during the war, or against both sides. His face was lined and his black hair was tied back in a topknot, like a Samurai. He was not exactly grinning-the situation was too tense for that-but there was something in his expression which suggested he was enjoying it.
"You can stop or you can take a step closer," he said, his rough voice accentless and surprisingly reasonable. "Either way I'm going to kill her. It's just a matter of time."
"Your friend's dead," Cahuella said, needlessly. "If you kill Gitta, I'll kill you as well. Except for every second she suffers, I'll make it an hour for you. How's that for generosity?"
"Fuck you," the man said, and drew the blade across her throat. A caterpillar of blood formed beneath the track of the incision, but he had been careful not to draw too deeply. Good with his knife, I thought. How many ways had he practised to cut with such precision?
Gitta, to her credit, hardly flinched.
"I've got a message for you," he said, lifting the blade slightly from her skin, so that the scarlet bloom on its edge was clearly visible. "It's from Argent Reivich. Does that surprise you in any way? It shouldn't, because I understand you were expecting him. Only just not so soon."
"The Ultras lied to us," Cahuella said.
The man smiled now, but only briefly. The pleasure was all in his eyes, narrowed to ecstatic slits. I realised we were dealing with a psychopath and that his actions were essentially random.
There was not going to be a negotiated settlement.
"There are factions amongst them," the man said. "Especially between crews. Orcagna lied to you. You needn't take it personally." His fist tensed on the knife again. "Now, would you be so good as to put down that gun, Cahuella?"
"Do it," I whispered, still standing behind him. "No matter how good your vision is, there's only a tiny area of him not covered by Gitta, and I doubt you're that confident of your aiming just yet."
"Don't you know it's rude to whisper?" the man said.
"Do it," I hissed. "I can still save her."
Cahuella dropped the gun.
"Good," I said, still whispering. "Now listen carefully. I can hit him from her, without harming Gitta. But you're in the way."
"Talk to me, you fuck." The man pushed the knife against her skin so that the blade depressed a valley of flesh without actually breaking it. It would only take a flick now and he would sever her carotid artery.
"I'm going to shoot through you," I said to Cahuella. "It's a beam weapon, so it's only the line of sight that matters. From the angle where I'm going to fire, I won't hit any vital organs. But be ready for it."
The man's hand brought the knife deeper, so that the valley was suddenly rivened, and blood welled from its depths. Time slowed down, and I watched him begin to drag the knife across her throat.
Cahuella started to speak.
I fired.
The pencil-thin particle beam chewed through him, entering his back an inch or so to the left of his spine, in the upper lumbar region, around the twentieth or twenty-first vertebrae. I hoped I missed the subclavian vein, and that the beam angle would direct its energies between the left lung and the stomach. But it was not precision surgery, and I knew that Cahuella would have to count himself lucky if this did not actually kill him. I also knew that, if it were a question of dying to save Gitta, he would accept that wholeheartedly, and would even order me to make it so. I paid very little attention to Cahuella anyway, since Gitta's po
sition effectively limited the range of angles I could select. It was simply a matter of saving her, no matter what it did to her husband.
The particle beam fired for less than a tenth of a second, although the ion trail lingered long after, in addition to the track it had seared on my vision. Cahuella fell to the ground in front of me, like a sack of corn dropped from the ceiling.
And so did Gitta, with a hole bored neatly in her forehead, her eyes still open and seemingly alert, and the blood still oozing from the partial throat-wound.
I had missed.
There was no avoiding that; no softening or sweetening of that one acidic message. I had meant to save her, but intention meant nothing. What mattered was the red weal above her eyes where I had hit her, meaning to hit the man holding a knife to her throat.
The beam had missed him completely.
I had failed. In the one moment where failure mattered most; in the one moment of my life where I actually thought I could win-I had failed. Failed myself, and Cahuella, by betraying the terrible burden of trust he had implicitly placed in me, without saying a word. His wound was serious, but with the proper attention, I had had little doubt that he would live.
But there was no saving Gitta. I wondered who was the luckier.
"What's wrong?" Zebra asked. "Tanner, what's wrong? Don't look at me like that, please. I'm beginning to think you might actually do it."
"Can you give me a good reason why I shouldn't?"
"Only the truth."
I shook my head minutely. "Sorry, but you've just given it to me, and it wasn't anywhere near enough."
"It wasn't everything." Her voice was quiet and somehow relieved. "I'm not working for him any more, Tanner. He thinks I am, but I've betrayed him."
"Reivich?"
She nodded, face down, so that I could barely see her eyes. "Once you stole from me, I knew you were the man Reivich was running from. I knew you were the assassin."
"It didn't take a great deal of deduction, did it?"
"No, but it was important to be sure. Reivich wanted the man isolated and removed from the picture. Killed, not to put too fine a point on it."
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