Don't apologize, just come to Lake Tahoe.
If I do, your parents will think we're getting engaged. That worried him too. Elizabeth Barclay wasn't the kind of girl one played around with.
I'll handle that.
What'll you tell them?
That you had business in San Francisco and I invited you to the lake. How does that sound to you?
Passable, except your father is smarter than that, isn't he?
Yes, but so am I. I won't give anything away. I promise.
He didn't want to compromise her, but more than that, he didn't want to compromise himself. But as he thought about it while they dressed, he realized that if he went, he could stop off at the Alexander Valley and visit the Websters. And maybe see Crystal again. The thought crossed his mind, and just as quickly he repressed it.
I'll think about it, he told her as he watched her dry herself off after a shower.
Good. I'll tell Mother you're coming. How about August?
Elizabeth! I told you I'd think about it! But she only smiled, and he laughed. She was incredible. She had the subtlety of a cement mixer, but he had to admit she had great legs, as he watched her put her stockings on, and lost control of himself again. It was four o'clock that morning before he took her back to her brother's apartment. And he was exhausted when he kissed her good night and promised to call her.
Spencer sat on the plane staring out the window, on the trip to California. He had agreed to go, finally, after several phone calls from Elizabeth in San Francisco. She insisted that it would be fun, and both her brothers and several of their friends would be there. And it wasn't that Spencer didn't want to go, it was more that he was afraid of what he'd do when he got there. For several months he had felt her subtly swaying him, convincing him subliminally of what she'd said in Palm Beach after Christmas, that they made a good team, and life didn't have much more than that to offer. He still wasn't totally convinced, but he had to admit they had a great time in bed, and there were damn few women as bright as she was. He had made a point of going out with everyone he could, as though to prove to himself that there was no one better out there. And he never heard the music and poetry that he dreamed of. The thunder and lightning, as she called it. But all he found were women who bored him to death, didn't know what he was talking about half the time and thought that Napoleon was only a dessert. He was sick of all of them, none of them had her fire, and there was something flattering about a girl who wanted him as badly as she did. After almost a year of dating her, he had to admit that she never bored him. But he had promised himself not to do anything crazy in California. He had only been able to get away for a week, and he still wanted to go to Booneville to see Boyd and Hiroko ' and maybe ' just maybe ' he'd run into Crystal. He knew she was eighteen by now, and he wondered how much she had changed in two years, if she was still as beautiful as she had been, as magical and rare. He still remembered the way she had looked at him, and it made his stomach flutter a little each time he thought of her. He knew that Elizabeth would have laughed at him if he'd told her. And compared to Elizabeth, Crystal had been a child and still was undoubtedly. But by now, she would be more grown up. And he wished he could see her again, although in some ways it was hard to imagine.
When the plane landed in San Francisco, he planned to rent a car and drive straight to the lake. She had told him it was a six-hour drive, but he didn't want to waste any time staying in the city. With only six days, he wanted to get there as quickly as he could. And as he walked into the airport, he hurried toward the car rental desk, and started when he heard a familiar voice just behind him.
Want to hitch a ride? He turned, and she was smiling at him. She was wearing white slacks and a red sweater with the string of pearls she always wore, her shining auburn hair perfectly groomed beneath a little straw hat, and she was wearing the tiny diamond earrings that had been a gift from her mother. Elizabeth had come to meet him at the airport, and he was touched. She had style, and he liked that about her too. But then, suddenly, he was annoyed at himself. He was always taking stock, as though checking her liabilities against her assets. It was all so rational, which was so unlike him. All his life he had been a romantic. But with Elizabeth, there was never room for that. It just wasn't what mattered.
What are you doing here? he asked awkwardly, but it was obvious as he kissed her.
I came to pick you up. I figured you'd be too tired to drive. How was the flight? Not I missed you ' I love you ' but she was there at least, and that meant something.
Thank you for coming, Elizabeth. He looked down at her with gentle eyes, the deep blue of the Pacific Ocean. That's a long ride for you, isn't it?
I stayed in the city last night. She was always practical and well organized, it was one of the things about her that he admired most.
They walked briskly to the baggage claim hand in hand, and she teased him for bringing a briefcase.
It gave me something to do on the flight.
Too bad you didn't fly out with me, I could have found something for you to do. He liked that about her, too, she was, in the vernacular, a hot little number. Did you bring your golf clubs, by the way?
No. Just my tennis racket. He had stashed it in the suitcase with his clothes.
That's okay. My brothers can lend you theirs. In truth, he hated golf, but he didn't want to hurt her feelings. All the men in her family played golf. We've planned a pack trip too, and my mother is absolutely insisting on a barn dance and a hayride.
Sounds like fun. Kind of like going to summer camp. Do I get a T-shirt with my name tag sewed on, a Boy Scout knife and a mess kit?
Oh shut up. She kissed him on the neck, and with his bag in hand, he followed her to the car she had left outside. It was a brand-new Chevrolet station wagon with wooden sides, which they were going to keep at the lake for their summer vacations. She gave him all the news of her family, and reported that Ian and Sarah had arrived the day before. They were in high spirits, and after two weeks at the lake, they were going to Europe to visit Sarah's parents at their castle in Scotland. It was their summer home, and Elizabeth made it sound almost cozy. It was a very grand life, and Spencer offered to drive, as he swung his suitcase into the car.
You're sure you're not too tired? She looked as though she cared, and he smiled at her, suddenly glad he had come, in spite of all his misgivings.
But he was in no way prepared for the grandeur of their summer home. It was a huge stone mansion, with impeccably kept grounds, and half a dozen cabins for guests. The so-called cabins were bigger than most people's houses. They arrived after midnight, but the butler had waited up for them with hot chocolate and sandwiches which Spencer devoured, and a little while later Ian and Sarah walked in, with Elizabeth's older brother, Greg. They were all in high spirits after a midnight swim in the lake, which Sarah assured him was absolutely freezing. They were going to go fishing the next day, and they invited Spencer to join them.
It was an easy, happy life, filled with laughter and interesting people. Guests arrived from San Francisco, and there were sumptuous dinners every night, as the whole group converged on the enormous dining room and sat together at the long table. Elizabeth looked beautiful in the candlelight, and Spencer enjoyed several long talks with her father. He even played golf with him, and apologized profusely for how bad his game was. But Justice Barclay didn't seem to mind, he enjoyed talking to him, and thought his daughter had made a wise choice. He made it obvious to everyone how much he liked Spencer.
And Spencer was actually disappointed when the week came to an end. He had meant to leave a day earlier, but he didn't want to go anywhere. He didn't even want to go back to New York and the law firm.
Why don't you ask them for another week off? Elizabeth suggested as they lay in their boat, basking in the warm sunshine. But Spencer laughed as he looked at her. For all her intelligence, she seemed to think that everyone was as important as her father.
I don't think they'd be too pleased.
I hate to see you leave. She said it quietly, and for an odd moment, she looked at him sadly. It's going to be lonely without you.
Surrounded by your family and ten thousand friends? Don't be silly, Liz. But he had to admit he was going to miss her too. He had even given up his plan to visit the Websters in the Alexander Valley. There just wasn't time, and it was so pleasant being with all of them. So pleasant that he was beginning to think that he loved her. When are you coming back to New York? They had been sneaking into each other's rooms in the main house, and suddenly the thought of another month without her depressed him.
After Labor Day. And then I have to go back to goddamn school. She rolled over on her stomach and looked at him mournfully. They were in one of the Barclays' two speedboats.
You make it sound like jail. He laughed softly and she smiled, and touched his lips with gentle fingers.
Isn't it? Without you it feels like it sometimes. He suddenly wished she would be in New York. He now knew that he wanted to be with her. He looked at her strangely then, and wondered if the lightning had finally struck. He sat listening to his own inner voices, wondered if there was going to be thunder too. What were you thinking just then? Her eyes narrowed as she looked at him, worried at what was on his mind. He was always so elusive.
I was thinking how much I'm going to miss you. Lake Tahoe had finally done it to him, it was the most beautiful place he'd ever seen, with the tall pines, and the vast lakes, and the beautiful mountains beyond. Everything was so easy here, so healthy and natural and happy. He loved places like that, and he wished the week would never end as she looked at him with new tenderness. She liked the look in his eyes, and what he was saying.
I'm going to miss you, too, Spence. He smiled at the silly name, but it was no sillier than Liz, which didn't really suit her.
And then, without a word, he pulled her into his arms and kissed her. He looked startled when he finally pulled away and told her what she'd waited to hear since the first time they'd met. I think I'm in love with you.
She smiled happily. It certainly took you long enough.
He laughed. That's a hell of a thing to say. I finally realize I'm in love with you, and you complain that I should have done it sooner.
I was beginning to think I was going to be an old maid.
At twenty-one, I don't think I'd really worry. And then he realized what she had just said, and knew with certainty that he was going to have to do something about what he felt. He couldn't keep her hanging on forever. It had been long enough, and he felt closer to her than he ever had before. It was the real thing, he told himself, she was a great girl, and just as she had said, they could do great things together. Will you marry me, Elizabeth?
Is this a formal proposal? She looked thrilled and he rolled over and got up on one knee as he smiled at her.
Now it is. Will you?
Hell, yes! She gave a whoop of joy and threw her arms around his neck, almost overturning the boat as she did.
Wait a minute! Don't drown us for chrissake! This is not supposed to be a tragic story.
It won't be, my love. I promise you that. It's going to have a very happy ending. And he was sure of it too as he kissed her again, and they finally started the boat and went back to shore, to tell her family. But as they docked he felt a little foolish. It was difficult sharing your most private moments with an entire family. There was nothing private about living with the Barclays.
They found her father in the living room, talking to Washington. But he turned to them with a smile as he put down the phone. Spencer knew from the look on his face that he suspected something. Elizabeth looked as though she had swallowed an entire flock of canaries.
Yes, Elizabeth? He smiled at them both. She already knew he was crazy about Spencer.
She didn't wait for her fianc+! to speak. She wanted to tell him first. Spencer just asked me to marry him. She beamed and turned to her future husband as though for confirmation.
I should have done it a lot sooner than this, sir. May we have your blessing?
Harrison Barclay got quickly to his feet and shook Spencer's hand, looking benevolently on both of them, and particularly his own daughter. You've had that for a long time. I wish you both much happiness. He hugged her then and looked at them both seriously,. When were you planning to do it?
I'm afraid we haven't gotten that far yet. We'll have to talk it over.
If I had my way, I'd like to see Elizabeth finish school, but I suppose two years is too much to ask of you young lovebirds. How about one? You could be married, say ' in June, and Elizabeth could transfer to Columbia for her last year, that is if you're planning to stay in New York.
As far as I know we are. June sounds fine. Spencer looked pleased and Elizabeth looked mildly disappointed.
Why do I have to stay in school? she whined, almost like a child, but her father answered her firmly.
Because you're too smart not to, and Vassar is a great school. June is only ten months from now. We'll give you an engagement party in the fall and announce it formally, and you'll be busy after that, planning the wedding with your mother. And as though on cue, his wife walked into the room, smiling brightly. Priscilla, we have great news for you. He looked from his daughter to Spencer as she waited. The children just got engaged.
Oh darling ' Priscilla Barclay was quick to embrace her daughter, and then she kissed her future son-in-law, as he stood there feeling as though he'd been swept up by a wave and carried out to sea. In a matter of minutes he'd gotten engaged, and was getting married in June. But it was what he had wanted.
They all chattered excitedly and announced it to the others over lunch. Ian was delighted, and Sarah was ecstatic. And Spencer had called his parents. And it was agreed that the engagement party would be in San Francisco, the day after Thanksgiving. Spencer assured them that he'd ask his parents to fly out. And Elizabeth announced that she wanted to be married in Grace Cathedral. She was still annoyed that she had to spend another year away at school, but Spencer mollified her by reminding her that she could come to New York every weekend.
It was an exhausting day for him, and when he went to bed that night, and waited for her, he felt overwhelmed by his own emotions. He hardly had the strength to make love to her, and he almost fell asleep in her arms, he had to force himself to stay awake long enough to remind her to get back to her own room, and the next thing he knew it was morning.
Elizabeth drove back to the city with him, and took him to the airport. She said she had some shopping to do, and wanted to spend a few days in the city. But he still felt as though he was in a daze when he kissed her goodbye, and got on the plane. He sat and watched San Francisco shrink beneath him as he headed toward New York, as it finally dawned on him. He was actually going to marry Elizabeth Barclay.
Predictably, Spencer's parents were pleased with the news. In truth, they were both ecstatic, and they promised to go to San Francisco over Thanksgiving for his engagement. By the time Spencer had left, plans for the party were well under way, and it sounded as though the Barclays were going to invite at least five hundred people.
She must be a lovely girl, darling, his mother said. When are we going to meet her? She was a little hurt that they had never met before, but Spencer promised to introduce them when Elizabeth got back from San Francisco.
And the next weeks seemed to fly by. It seemed only moments later when he was picking Elizabeth up at Idlewild, and he drove her to Poughkeepsie. He had bought the ring at Tiffany's. It was all he could afford, but it was a handsome diamond set with sapphires on either side, and she squealed with delight when she saw it. The stones weren't large but they were very good and the ring was pretty.
Spencer, it's exactly what I wanted! I'll slipped it on her finger in the car, and they decided to go back to his apartment for a few hours, before going up to Vassar. Elizabeth giggled as they lay in his bed, and she flashed her ring at him. She suddenly seemed very young and very happy. God, I missed
you so much. The rest of the summer was awful.
It was lonely here too. And he felt better now that he saw her. He had actually had second thoughts, and had spent several nights in absolute terror, wondering what he had done, and why, but one of his closest friends had assured him it was normal And now that he saw her again, he knew he had done the right thing. They made love for hours, and he was lonely for her all the way back from Poughkeepsie the next morning. She was going to come to New York the following weekend, and meet his parents.
And when she met them, they loved her. She was exactly the kind of girl his father had hoped he would find, and he was extremely impressed by her connections. She talked blithely about people they only read about, and even his mother was impressed by how well dressed she was, how intelligent, how ladylike. It was a match they both applauded. His father had already bragged to everyone that Spencer was marrying Justice Barclay's daughter.
Elizabeth came to New York almost every weekend after that, and in November, they all flew out to California together. The Barclays gave a beautiful Thanksgiving dinner for the family, making the newcomers feel welcome. The two sets of elders enjoyed each other's company, and the two mothers got along extremely well. It was clearly a match that had been meant to happen. Ian and Sarah had flown out for Thanksgiving and the engagement party too, although Gregory was too busy in Washington, and Elizabeth was only mildly disappointed. She and Greg weren't really close. He seemed to lead his own life, divorced from most family events and vacations.
And by then, everyone knew that Greg was involved in a messy divorce.
The party the next day was spectacular. There were four hundred guests for cocktails and a buffet supper, and the Barclay home was filled with San Francisco's most important socialites, even the mayor came, and there was dancing late into the night. Spencer thought Elizabeth had never looked lovelier, in a black velvet gown, and he held her close as they danced, and he beamed at her.
Happy, my love?
Never more so. She loved introducing him to her friends. He was so incredibly handsome. All the girls she knew envied her, and he chatted with them, and Elizabeth knew they were all wildly envious of her.
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