It’s not so much you watching, it’s the actual… transition.” The four of them were silent as Eden’s eyes bored into the bag. Her legs began to grow numb, so she shifted, her palm taking her weight on the tiles. She slanted her gaze, staring at Cyrus out of the corner of her eye. “How does this work again?”
“Valeria will give you the transfusion. You will convulse. You will pass out. You will awaken in approximately twenty four hours completely free of the soul eater.”
That, she liked the sound of. The transfusion and convulsing part, not so much. Eden looked to Valeria now for answers. She couldn’t ask her outright if it would hurt or not because Mhairi couldn’t know what Valeria was. Damn it, why didn’t I ask her this sooner?? She cleared her throat. “I wonder if it’ll hurt.”
The Ankh immediately understood and nodded. “I imagine it will.” Valeria exhaled and leaned back against the bath beside Mhairi, her eyes pleading with Eden not to be afraid. “I imagine that changing the mechanics of your body will be painful. Perhaps a burning sensation. Muscle pain.
Sharp, needle-like qualities in your bones. I imagine also your heart will feel as if it is going to burst out of your chest as it pumps the new blood into your system.”
“Good imagination,” Mhairi mumbled. “Are you trying to frighten the girl?”
“I am trying to prepare her.”
Everything Val had described sounded awful. But hadn’t she been through much worse? Was the physical pain really as bad as the emotional crap she had been through? As bad as the hunger??
Somehow, I don’t think so.
“OK.” Eden shrugged back her shoulders and stuck out an arm. “Let’s do this.”
*
The prick of the needle had been nothing. A sting. The sitting, waiting for the convulsions had been somewhat excruciating.
But this…
The actual convulsions…
Eden wasn’t even aware of where she was anymore. She didn’t know what she was doing, how she’d gotten there, who the murmuring voices around her belonged to. All she saw was pure blinding white. All she felt was pure, burning pain. A white heat. Ice cold in its intensity. It ripped and clawed and gripped her muscles, twisting this way and that. It gnawed, scratched and stuck needles into her bones. It taunted her heart, which raced faster and harder, galloping against her chest as if desperate to be anywhere but inside her.
I’m desperate to be anywhere but inside me.
Pain thudded, thud thud thud, against the back of her head and her teeth rattled in her mouth. She couldn’t even scream. She could only exist as her body took over and…
… died…
Chapter Four
The Dead Look
Noah stared at Eden in disbelief. There was a sick churning in his stomach and tightness in his chest that he refused to believe was panic. Trying not to tremble, Noah dropped Eden’s limp wrist.
Her pulseless limp wrist.
Staggering back from the bed he attempted to drag his eyes from the sight of her deathly pale face.
It no longer looked human. There was no expression in her features. No life.
Feeling an overwhelming rush of anger Noah whirled around to glare at Valeria, even though Cyrus stood right next to her. They were alone in October’s bedroom. The walls were painted a ridiculous lemon yellow, the mass of it broken up with delicate paintings of flowers that had been stencilled to simulate a border along the walls. Plastering the walls were posters of rock bands and vampires, and (Noah had barely refrained from rolling his eyes when he first saw them) fan pics of Robert Pattinson, the poster child for vampire romanticism. When Noah had first seen the room he’d thought it funny that the owner, with all her attitude and warrior blood, was a fan of supernatural lore.
You’d think living it would be enough to cure you of any fascination or need for paranormal escapism.
But right now his unease wasn’t over the nauseatingly girly bedroom. It was brought on by the truth that had been withheld from him.
Eden was dead.
“Why the hell didn’t you tell me she was going to die?!” he seethed, careful to keep his anger directed at Valeria and not his Princeps.
Cyrus answered anyway and in that infuriatingly calm way of his. “We did not want to upset Eden and frighten her. We know she is coming back from this but she might not have trusted us. And you… you are too close. You would have fought us on this and made the situation worse.”
Noah’s blood boiled, his lungs working overtime to unknot the tension in his chest. “Of course I would have. If she doesn’t come back from this…” he trailed off, unable to even think of a world without Eden in it. Even when she was being pissy and angry at him, it was OK. As long as he knew she was alright, he could handle the pissy, furious Eden. Because as long as she was alright there was always hope that one day she’d forgive him and they would be able to start over again. “What if she doesn’t come back from this?”
Cyrus looked somewhat sympathetic. Valeria, on the other hand, showed her age. She had no patience for being questioned, especially by someone much younger. In fact, most of The Circle were impatient when questioned. They had amazing patience when it came to everything else but every single one of them was a know-it-all. Mix that up with centuries of dealing with people and emotions, they were somewhat… desensitized. Yeah, that was it. The Circle definitely weren’t the most sensitive Ankh. Cyrus was different, as was Noah’s own parents. Noah’s dad said Cyrus changed centuries ago when he met Merrit. She softened him, made him remember how to be human again.
They’d loved one another for almost an entire millennium. It was rare for Ankh to find an immortal beloved as Noah’s parents had and he couldn’t even comprehend how devastating it was for Cyrus to lose Merrit. That’s why he understood Cyrus’ tight hold on what was left of her.
Eden.
He understood that all too well. Eden had a way of crawling inside; even demolishing the defences of a young Ankh who swore he had no time for friends or a relationship other than the one he had with his parents.
Noah dropped his head, drawing in a deep breath, hating the sense of emptiness he felt from behind him on the queen-sized bed.
“I think I would know if this will work or not, Noah Valois,” Valeria snapped, crossing her arms over her chest. “I was Unforeseen. I did die. I did come back Ankh. Trust me. And if not me, then your Princeps.”
“The process is a rebirth, Noah,” Cyrus tried to explain. “She has to die in order to kill the soul eater inside. The Neith blood keeps the Ankh on the precipice between life and death, until it works its way into her entire system, and finally into her heart. She will be in a lot of pain when her heart starts again. We must watch over her vigilantly until she awakens.”
At that precise moment Noah’s cell buzzed in his pocket. Sighing, he reached in and flipped it open.
You haven’t called. Did you get there safely? Call me immediately. Mom x If he called his mother she’d have him on the phone for ages and he didn’t have the time right now. His fingers flew over the buttons.
We got here safely. Can’t talk right now. Eden needs me. N
After pressing send he shut the cell off. His parents would have to wait. They were the most important people in his life… but Eden had joined those ranks. And right now, even if she didn’t want him there, he was putting her first.
Noah dragged October’s computer chair over to the bedside and pressed his fingers to Eden’s cold, dead hand. A shudder of fear ran through him and he refused to look up at his superiors in case they saw the emotion the Ankh tried desperately to hide from one another.
“Noah, I will sit with her,” Valeria said, taking a few steps towards him.
He shook his head. “No, it’s fine.”
“I am not asking-” she was cut off as Cyrus wrapped a hand around her upper arm, drawing her back.
“Leave him,” he instructed softly.
Chancing discovery, Noah met his Princeps eyes.
Cyr
us knew.
A deep sigh opened up inside him and he felt his cheeks flush even though he knew they remained the exact same colour on the outside. There may be no visible sign of embarrassment on his face but he was embarrassed. He felt like an eighteen year old boy who’d just been caught declaring mushy love to a girl in front of his hero, the coolest guy at school.
Cyrus didn’t look disapproving, however. He was calm. Understanding. He drew Valeria away and out of the room, closing the door softly behind them, leaving Noah and Eden alone.
Noah’s eyes wandered over her face. He cursed under his breath. He couldn’t wait for the change to happen. Seeing her like this…
That pang sliced through his chest again.
It occurred to him as he sat there watching and waiting for signs of life, that Cyrus had left Noah alone with the one thing the Princeps held most precious. And he knew how Noah felt about her.
He gave a huff of morbid laughter and sat back.
Cyrus of Persepolis liked and respected him.
If only he could get his adopted daughter to do the same once she was reborn.
Chapter Five
New Eyes
The pain was excruciating, as if someone had cut into her chest, ripped her rib cage open, and was having difficulty tearing her heart out. Her entire body was lit with the agony, each nerve ending burning and lighting her very flesh with the flame. Sounds - inhuman, animal sounds - echoed all around her, and she begged, begged for it to stop. And then she realised… the sounds were coming from her. Hollowed shrieking. An outlet for the unbearable hurt that had taken her body captive.
Eventually the burning began to throb into a manageable pain and she unclenched her hands and stopped writhing, drawing in huge gulps of air as slowly but surely a soothing balm spread through her, like a breeze blowing in from nowhere on an unbearably hot day. Her breathing slowed and she calmed, barely aware of the relieved tears that leaked out from her closed eyes and slid down her cheeks. She heard whispering but couldn’t make out the words.
Panic abruptly seized her.
Who am I?
She frowned into the dark of her mind, searching, searching; desperately seeking.
Who am I?
Where am I?
“Eden…” a soft voice whispered into the air around her.
Eden? Eden…
And then it all came flooding back with the impact of a massive tidal wave, rushing over her and pulling her under. She lost her breath as she remembered Ryan and Celine and Teagan. Stellan. A sharp pain sliced through her chest. Stellan. She’d lost Stellan. No. She didn’t want to relive that.
Grief gripped her nonetheless.
Noah. Beautiful Noah who had only pretended. More pain. Why did it feel like so much more. So much deeper.
“Eden?”
That voice. Cyrus. Cyrus! Her anchor. She had Cyrus. Her body calmed at the thought of him, at the thought of the man who would take care of everything. Hadn’t he already? What had he done?
Blood. Mhairi. Yes, Mhairi. Mhairi’s blood.
Soul eater.
She gasped. There was nothing. She searched deep inside herself, looking for the monster, for the hunger. It was gone.
The hunger was gone!
An intense, painful restlessness burst through her, like blood vessels popping one by one. The hunger was gone but in its place was something new.
Something unexplainable but true.
Something deep and knowing and unbreakable.
Something that felt like… destiny.
She had a destiny now. Her heart began to race as her mind grasped what her soul (her soul, her pure, pure soul that felt light and manageable) was telling her. She had a duty. To protect. To fight.
To hunt. Yes. She was a hunter. Her skin tingled.
I am Ankh.
With that knowledge, a kind of peace settled around her.
The war inside her was over.
*
Another tear escaped, and she felt the brush of a soft finger on her cheek.
“Eden? Can you open your eyes?”
Noah?
“Noah?” She croaked, her throat feeling dry and unused.
“Yes. You’re safe. You’re OK. Try opening your eyes.”
Easier said than done. Her eyes felt as though they had been glued shut. Tentatively, Eden tried, forcing the lids to rise. The light slid inside, blinding her, hurting her, and she made a soft noise, slamming them shut again.
“Eden.”
“Cyrus?”
“Yes. I am here. So is Valeria. Open your eyes, Eden. Open.”
At the sound of his voice Eden smiled inside. She remembered how much she had wanted to trust this man before her transition to Ankh, how her paranoia held her back. That was gone now. There was only the connection to her Princeps and the utmost belief in his sincerity and the promise of safety in his very existence. Relaxing the trembling muscles in her body, Eden cracked her eyes open, letting them water as they adjusted to the light. At last she could make out the room she was in.
Lemon yellow walls, posters and photographs. Robert Pattinson. Wait. What?
A face swung above her drawing her focus away from the many images of the actor on the walls.
Pale violet eyes gazed down at her from a strong face. Beautiful eyes, bewitching even. Strong jaw.
Olive skin. A full lower lip that begged to be kissed. Eden felt a shudder in her chest as her brain caught up with her vision.
Noah.
His eyes were wide on her, his smile tentative. “Eden… Eden your eyes…”
She lifted a hand to her face, but it felt heavy and limp. She let it flop back down again. “My eyes…?”
He smiled wider now, the left side of his mouth kicking up higher than the right. “Your eye colour… it’s changed.”
The breath whooshed out of her body. “What… colour?”
And then Cyrus and Valeria were there too. Val reached for her hand and squeezed. Cyrus stood back and she frowned. He seemed a little sad. “Blue-green,” her guardian replied. “Your eyes are blue-green… like your mother’s.”
***
The mirror hung above the bathroom sink, a magnet for her eyes. Eden squinted them and then widened them, turning her face this way and that, but never looking away from the reflection of her
‘new’ eyes.
Those aren’t my eyes.
Eden huffed for the seventh time and leaned in closer so that her nose touched the cool surface of the mirror. It was weird not seeing the unusual pale grey of her soul eater eyes. When they were grey her dark lashes had made them even more striking. Her lashes didn’t look so dark now in contrast to the new colour. Her mother’s colour.
They are pretty, she mused, cataloguing the cerulean blue with the gold and green striations.
They’re normal. Eden decided they made her look completely different. But it wasn’t just the colour.
That hard glimmer was gone. The hungry, feral glint that had made people wary of her had disappeared. She curled her lip. Unfortunately she detected a vulnerability in them now, an uncertainty… and… grief. Her grief for Stellan was now etched into them, straining the corners, and tilting the edges of her mouth. She looked so… human. Eden sighed. Her body didn’t feel human though. If it was possible, she now felt stronger than she ever had before. Cyrus and Valeria had made her lie in bed for 24 hours after the change. It was infuriating and frustrating because all Eden wanted to do was stretch her new limbs and give them a try. She was restless for the training Cyrus had promised her; for the info on the soul eaters; for the first taste of a kill.
“They are your eyes, Eden,” an amused voice said from behind her, surprising her and causing her to smack her nose off of the mirror. She muttered a curse and leaned back from the mirror so she could see Noah at her back in the reflection. She glared at him. “Still not talking to me, huh?”
Eden snorted humourlessly. “What? Did you think I’d wake up and just forget the las
t six months of your lying and pretending?”
He scowled back at her and she watched warily as he took the few steps forward he needed to be pressed against her back. She stiffened, feeling the heat of him through her shirt and jeans. He stood a few inches above her, the warmth of his breath tickling her neck sending unwanted goosebumps across her skin and a shiver down her back. “I take it they told you, you died?”
She wanted to scream at him to back up away from her, to give her room to breathe. But if she did that, he’d know his nearness still affected her. “Yes.” She thrust her chin out defiantly. The fact that Cyrus had kept that little fact from her hadn’t bothered her nearly as much as she thought it would.
She knew he had done what he thought was best for her, and truthfully, she might have died anyway if he hadn’t procured the cure. Scratch that. She would have died. OK, so yeah it was a little creepy that she’d died and come back. But hello! She’d died and come back a super kick ass warrior. Eden wasn’t going to argue with that.
Her answer bothered Noah. She watched his jaw clench and his pale violet eyes darken as they scoured her face. “And you’re not bothered that they kept that from you?”
“They did what they had to.”
He shook his head, his eyes narrowing dangerously. Eden had always thought of Noah as a pretty easy-going guy, but sometimes he got this look on his face that made you want to run for the hills.
With that scary look Noah stretched his arms out to lean his hands on either side of the sink, caging her in. To her chagrin, her heart began racing and pounding, that citrusy scent of his that used to drive her hunger wild, surrounded her and…
Oh my God.
She tried to breathe as the new sensations crept over her. Without the hunger begging for Noah’s soul, Eden’s body stretched out in freedom, eagerly reacting to what it wanted. And it had always wanted Noah. The hunger had always overpowered desire before now, so the shock of its full intensity made her grit her teeth and lower her eyes. How could she want someone she wanted to kill on a daily basis?!
“So let me get this straight,” Noah growled in her ear, making her shudder. “You will forgive Cyrus and Valeria for withholding the very important detail of your inevitable death but you won’t forgive me for following orders that Cyrus gave me?”
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