I head over to the integrated music system and plug my phone in so the music is played through all the speaker's, making sure Allie gets what I'm trying to tell her without actually saying anything. I know we have a lot to discuss, and we will but first I have to do this before I pussy out.
Selecting the song I'm hoping will work, I turn back around and stand with my arms crossed over my chest at end of the corridor and we stare at each other through the bedroom doorway as Gloria Estefan's- Can't stay away from you comes alive through the bus.
Time flies
When your having fun
I heard somebody say
But if all I've been is fun
Then baby let me go
Don't wanna be in your way
And I don't wanna be your second choice
Don't wanna be just your friend
You keep telling me that your not in love
You wanna throw it all away
But I can't stay away from you
I don't wanna let you go
And though it's killing me that's true
There's just some thing's I can't control
Your love is slipping through my hand's
And though I've heard it all before
I know your telling me the truth
I know it's just no use
But I just can't stay away from you
Hold on to every beat of hope, that's all I ever do
Hoping you might change your mind
And call me up to say how much you need me too
And though you're leaving me no other choice
Than to turn and walk away
Look over your shoulder, I'll be there
You can count on me to stay...
'Cause I can't stay away from you
I don't wanna let you go
And though it's killing me that's true
There's just some thing's I can't control
Your love is slipping through my hand's
And though I've heard it all before
I know your telling me the truth
I know it's just no use
But I can't stay away from you.
I know your telling me the truth
I know it's just no use
But I can't stay away from you.
When the song ends I see she has tear's streaming down her perfect face.
Shit I didn't think she would cry.
"He is so pussy whipped." I hear Max snigger behind me, lifting my hand behind my back I flip him off.
As I start heading down the small space between me and my angel I feel a hand grab my shoulder, it's Johnny, he's got his phone pressed tight against his chest and he look's like he's been kicked multiple times in the balls.
"Dude, What the fuck? I'm busy here." With the look of the grim reaper on his face, he sighs in defeat and his shoulders slump as he turns his phone around slowly as if he's unsure about showing me what's on the screen. Snatching the phone of him, I quickly scan the page I'm looking at, it's a news article, that's when my heart falls out of my ass because there in black and white is the headline:
MEDIA MOGUL PAUL WHITBURY'S DAUGHTER IS IN A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP WITH SRYEN'S FRONTMAN CONNOR BLACKWOOD!!!
Then to add insult to injury there's a picture with the headline of a younger Allie with her parents.
No... No this can't be true?
Can it?
*****
I just want to thank you for being my reason to look forward to the next day.
Chapter 32
Allie
Connor's just staring, at what I don't know. Johnny's just shown him something on his phone and whatever it is has made Connor look like he's seen a ghost, the colour has drained from his face and now he's just stood there staring. I would say he's shocked by something. And I think I'm about to find out. He looks at me with the most devastated look on his face that I've ever seen from him and I'm nervous, more nervous now than when I'm about to go on stage. This can’t be good.
"Connor... what is it? You look like you've seen a ghost." I'm afraid of his answer. I know he'd never hurt me but when he comes thundering towards me I shrink into myself a little bit.
"What the fuck is this Allie?" He bellows at me as he chucks the phone towards me, It hits my lap and falls to the floor landing face up, and I swear I wanted the ground to swallow me up in that very moment. My secret was out. I could have died on the spot and I wouldn't have cared.
"Is this some sort of joke? Is this why you've been acting strange lately? One min your ok with me and the next your at my door telling me it's over, what's up Allie you got your story now is that it?" He's pacing up and down the bus isle like a madman on steroids.
"Connor I can explain...." Well I try to till he cuts me off, he doesn't give me chance.
"No need, I get it.. Your daddy wanted a good story and you thought you could help him get one. When did it start? After you auditioned or after the first time we had sex?" God this is so embarrassing everyone can hear what he's saying, what he's making me out to be. And it's not true. Liam, Max and Johnny all have looks on their faces that say 'why would you do this to him Allie'.
"Please if you'll just let me explain. It wasn't me I swear, I haven't spoken to my dad in years we don't get on so why would I give him a story to sell?" I'm pleading with him to listen to me but I can he doesn't believe me. "Can we please go somewhere a little more private or wait till we can get of the this bus?" Now I'm pleading at him with my eye's he can't expect me... us to hang out are dirty washing in front of everyone to see and judge. That's not fair on me or him.
"Why should I believe you? No fucker else knew about us except Johnny." As he turns to look at him he carry's on "And I know he wouldn't do that because he could have done it along time ago and never did." Johnny just nods his head at Conner as an answer.
"What and you think I would?" I'm starting to get angry myself now. How dare he just automatically assume it's me. "Maybe it could have been Vanessa that sold the story and it just so happened to be my dad she sold it to.... or maybe it's someone else you've seen since we left for the tour? Hmm have you thought about that?" Might as well get everything off my chest if he want's everyone to know then they bloody will.
Connor's looking at me blankly as if he's thinking about something.
"Con she's got a point." Johnny pipes up. "Vanessa is the sort of bitch who would do that, and the fact that little Rocky over there knocked her down a peg or two the other day probably didn’t make her feel any better. That could have pushed her to do it." That there is why I like Johnny he's straight to the point and it's a valid point. Thanks Johnny even though it doesn't make me feel any better about this situation.
"Yeah, ok maybe your right. But that still doesn't explain how they know who your father is." Connor's still not convinced.
"Come on... dude, it's not hard all you have do is google his name or hers. It's common knowledge now a days." Liam I could kiss you right now.
"That's true bud... you can find anything on google these's days." Max also with a valid point.
"Please Connor.. This story is about me just as much as you... and not once have you asked me how I am or... or... how I'm feeling." I say whilst I'm trying my best to hold in the tears not wanting to let everyone know how upset I'am because of this or do I not want them to start asking questions about my father that I just couldn’t answer right now.
"Shit... I'm sorry Angel your right, I just saw the picture and jumped to conclusions. I like to keep my life private, so when I see something like this in the news it makes me so mad that it never crossed my mind to think how you were feeling, I immediately thought I was being screwed over." He starts to walk back towards the bed to sit next to me and as he puts his arm over my shoulder he asks. "How are you feeling?" He finally asks.
He may have calmed down towards me but I'm interested to see if he lies to me after I say my next statement.
"I'm ok... I'm just thinking if only me, you, Johnny and kar
ina knew about us then how has it ended up in the news? Someone must have seen us together or you've told someone else? Have you?" I look up to him waiting and hoping he tells me the truth.
"What are you getting at Allie... I haven't seen anyone outside of the band or dancers." He's starting to sweat a little bit on top of his brow and as he wipes it with the back of his hand I turn things up a notch and ask him straight.
"So you didn't see anyone last night after you left the boys drinking?" I ask. I also catch a quick glimpse at the three guys who know Connor like the back of their hands and they all look so clueless. Until the penny drops with Connor....
"Rebecca!" His one word answer is all I need, to know exactly who that is!
*****
Time is precious,
waste it wisely.
Chapter 33
Connor
"Wait... how the fuck did you know I saw someone last night after I left the guys?" He looks at me like I've grown two heads.
"Please tell me she's joking Connor?" Johnny asks, clearly he dislikes this Rebecca. That makes at least two of us then.
He gets up off the bed and starts pacing the small bedroom, yanking on his hair clearly frustrated.
"What the shitting hell dickwad? Please tell me this bollocks isn't true? "Did that junkie bitch really show up last night? Max sounds just as pissed off as me so that makes three of us who dislike her and judging by the disappointment etched on Liam's face I can tell that he wouldn't piss on her if she was on fire.
Which leaves only one explanation as to why she's done this. Because she can't have me no one else can. She did tell me that it wasn't over and I wouldn't like the person she'd become. But shit I thought that was all a front.
"I saw her going into your room after you texted me Connor, you even checked to see if anyone saw.... well I did and that's when I knocked and heard you in a heated debate with her. I saw red because yet again there you were with some other chick. So to keep you from breaking my heart and lying to me, I did the easy work for you by breaking it off with you." I say trying not to think about last night and how much physical pain I was in when I walked away.
"Shit. If you think she was there because I wanted to fuck her than your very much mistaken, I didn’t even know she was in the same country as me. Look I don't wanna bore you with all the details on how I know Rebecca, I'll tell you some other time but I promise you now Angel, I haven't or will I ever be in a relationship with her. I've never even slept with her. I love you Allie....
"Wait.. What.. You love me?" I think she's speechless.
I can't believe I've just told her I love her in front of the guy's. Fan-fucking-tastic timing knobhead!!!
"Yes.. I wanted to tell you last night but then you told me we were over and I guess I was in shock and also I didn't know what to do with having Rebecca on my side of the door to. I also guess, I didn’t want you to see her because I knew that you would think I was sleeping with her then I'd never have a chance with you." She's starting to cry again but only this time the tears fall.
"Connor... I... I think I love you to." She says as she practically jumps on me making us both fall off the other side of the bed so I land on top of her and then she kisses me. I think it's safe to say were back on again.
*****
Some people aren't loyal to you…they are loyal to their need of you… once their need changes, so does their loyalty.
Chapter 34
Connor
3 Weeks Later
When we spoke on the phone that day I went all nuclear on her I was about to tell her I was serious about her but I couldn't do it. I froze. The fear gripped me and I chickened out. So I did what I thought was best I acted and since then she's been on my bus. Thank fuck I did cause we would never have had that much needed conversation.
Not only did I show her I loved her through music, I actually voiced it in the end because I was a breath away from losing her all together.
I couldn't let that happen.
The last three weeks have been tiring we've done shows in Belarus, Ukraine, Romania and Greece. I've had Clint on the phone daily making sure I'm behaving myself and not causing trouble. I know the man has his reasons for checking up on me but my god he doesn't half get on my last nerve sometimes. We're heading towards Austria and he's arranged to fly out and see us for the four days we are there.
He still doesn't know about me and Allie and I want to keep it like that till after the tour if possible. I'll only get earache of him and I don't need him on my case right now.
After the story broke about me and Allie, we decided it was best to still keep our relationship quiet. For her sake more than mine. I put out a statement denying all the rumours. Allie received phone calls from her dad but she let them go unanswered, which I don't blame her. Her dad's a wanker, there's no nicer way of putting it he just is.
Allies been unusually quiet this past week or so and I'm beginning to worry. She says she's fine but I know that she's not, she's been moping around not really saying much to anyone and she's constantly texting on her phone, if I didn't know for a fact she was speaking to her roommate and best friend Karina I would think she had a boyfriend back home.
I know she's homesick but she's doesn't want to tell me. It's written all over her face. I maybe male but I'm not that stupid. I owed her a deep apology a few weeks ago when Vanessa turned up at our first show and I had an idea on how to make it up to her but I never got around to doing it due to our busy schedule. Then there was all that shit with Rebecca and finding out who her dad is, things just kept getting in the way. Now seeing the look on her face I know I have to pull my finger out and make it happen but to do it I need her phone and if I just ask her for it she's going to get suspicious and I want it to be a surprise.
Using my best chirpy voice I say- "Angel why don't you go have a shower and when you come back I'll make you all dirty again." I give her my famous half smile I know she can't say no too and hope my plan works.
"You know I can't say no to you when you look at me like that you devious devil." She says as she gets up from my lap where she was sitting texting Karina, she puts her phone on the table and then starts to explain. "If my phone pings at you its only Karina don't worry about answering it I'll call her when I get back." She walks towards the bathroom and when I hear the door lock and the shower turn on I make a grab for her phone.
"Dude what the fuck are you doing?...she told you she'd answer her mate when she got out the shower." Max pipes up.
"Shut it piss flaps I'm doing this for her so keep your trap shut so I can make a call before she comes back." I tell him as I find Karina's number and program it into my phone and call her.
"It's your funeral." I hear him mumble just as Karina answers.
After some extensive but quiet convincing that it was actually me calling her, Karina had a few choice word's she had to say to me for making her best friend cry. Finally she agreed to meet us in Austria. She's missing Allie just as much as Allie is missing her so I'm almost sure I've done the right thing. I tell Karina I'll sort all the arrangements out and for her not to worry about a thing it'll all be paid for she just needed to turn up at the airport. To which she reply's 'To fucking right'. Damn I can't wait to meet her.
The next morning we arrive in Austria with the day to ourselves before the shows for the next two nights. Karina's flight arrives in an hour and I've sent Johnny to fetch her with one of our security team. I'm hoping they don't freak her out, they aren't exactly small men, but what I can tell from what I've been told from Allie and the phone call I had with her, I think she will be just fine, apparently she's the feisty one out of the two of them. I've told Allie that we're all going out for some lunch as a group- dancers included. When the actual fact is I've arranged for her to have a day with Karina at a spa then we're all going to have dinner together tonight when they get back. I'm actually very proud of myself for pulling this is off in less than twelve hours, and all from a tour bus as well. This shou
ld earn me some brownie points with my Angel.
She walks out of the bedroom that we've claimed as our's since I carried her of the other bus in her pjs, if you can call them that, the smallest pair of shorts and tank leave very little to the imagination, I think I'm going have to buy her some big fluffy ones because I swear to god if I catch Max drooling one more time I'm going to have to kill him and it should only be me who drools over my girl.
"Hey Angel," I greet her as she plops herself down on my knee and rests her head on my shoulder. "You ok?" I ask her running my fingers along the exposed skin on her thigh. I feel a shiver run all through her body. "Mmm." she reply's. Using my other hand I trace my fingers up and down her spine another shiver runs through her body and she shifts about as if she's uncomfortable but I know she's not. She's getting turned on and she's squirming. Without another word spoken I wrap my arm around her back and the other under her knees, I get up from the sofa I was sitting on and carry her into the bathroom.
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