©Craig Saunders 2015
All rights pertaining to this work retained by Craig Saunders. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental.
A Stranger's Grave
by
Craig Saunders
(inc. bonus sample of 'The Love of the Dead')
Foreword
Thanks to Ryan C. Thomas, Faith Kauwe, and Grand Mal Press for the first issue of A Stranger's Grave. This second edition is all my own doing.
If you still have the energy at the end of this story, I've included a bonus sample of 'The Love of the Dead'. Thank you, as always, for reading.
Craig
The Shed
2015
Table of Contents
Foreword
In Prison Still
Respect for the Dead
Memories of the Dead
Laid to Rest
A Place for all God’s Children
A Hard Death
Henry Harrison
The Lies of the Past
And Death Shall Have No Dominion
The Ledger
A Stranger’s Grave
The Sins of the Father
Black Angels
The Gatekeeper
Bonus Sample: The Love of the Dead by Craig Saunders
About the Author
Also by Craig Saunders
And death shall have no dominion.
Dead mean naked they shall be one
With the man in the wind and the west moon;
When their bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone,
They shall have stars at elbow and foot;
Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though lovers be lost love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion.
From ‘And Death Shall Have no Dominion’ - Dylan Thomas
In Prison Still
There’s a cemetery in a small Norfolk market town. It’s a peaceful place, a haven for the dead and the bereaved. There is birdsong in the trees no matter the time of year. Surrounded by hedgerow, the cemetery is hemmed in with roads running east and west to either side. The roads were there before cars, when people travelled in carriages, and before.
It’s an old place. The earliest headstone dates back to the year 1756. The trees are much, much older.
Nobody knows how far the trees go back, but in 1956 a great oak that overhung the small chapel was cut down, and should any have had a mind to look there were a hundred and seven circles around that stump, that fat stump that wasn’t anywhere near the fattest grown among the dead.
The chapel is old, too. The stone, brick and flint and granite, is long tarnished, occasionally cleaned, but not often enough.
The shine has gone from the marble headstones. The sandstone, the granite, the limestone, long illegible.
Trees grow from forgotten graves and roots crack the pathways and tunnel through the old dead.
But something older than all of this came in 2007. A trio of angels carved from basalt and polished to a black sheen.
The evil those angels brought was the oldest of all.
*
1.
The big gates shut behind Elton Burlock and for the first time in twenty-six years he breathed free air under a free sun.
The sun that shone back in 1985 was the same sun. The air he breathed back then, the same. The clouds drifting through the sky were no different.
But time brings subtle changes. The sun didn’t seem as bright. The air didn’t smell as clear.
This road, before the gate, was only twenty-six years old. Probably once fresh and wet when he’d left the world, it was now potted and cracked and repaired time and time again.
Clouds drifted across the sun and the air was instantly chilled.
When he’d gone into prison he’d brought a coat and a bag with the things he might need again on the outside. He hadn’t planned on staying so long, though. It wasn’t that his coat wasn’t warm enough for a mild spring day – though it seemed out of fashion now – nor was it that the day was especially chilly.
He shivered because prison was always warm. Now he was sixty-one and he was cold because age had somehow caught him out, too.
Elton turned his face up to the sun, taking what warmth he could. It felt good, his skin tightening, his eyes burning behind his eyelids.
Was the memory of the sun worth it?
He was still a powerful man, still strong enough when it mattered. His hair might be grey, a little thinner, and his stomach a little thicker. Maybe his skin was paler, too. He’d missed sunshine. You didn’t see a lot of the sun in prison.
He stroked his stubble, thick and rough. He saw his face most days in jail, but somehow it felt new, puckered and tight, even though he’d only stood in the glare of the sun for a few minutes at best.
Hard time done, then soft time. Once he’d hit fifty and transferred to Wayland prison it seemed like he was set, all hope of freedom gone, an educated man with no other purpose in life than to live.
Now, shifting his weight on feet that were once spry, once used to a boxer’s stance, shifting his bag in strong scarred knuckles, he set out on the road into town to meet the bus.
He wasn’t the same man out that went in. Back then, at thirty-five, he’d done what he thought was his share of fighting, in the ring and out. Maybe he’d have been wary, then, walking down the street on his own in the night, past pubs kicking out piss heads and druggies and punks.
Thirty-five, he’d been married. Settled. Comfortable. His first degree earned, a teaching position, and his baby...
Thirty-five years old with a wife and a child on the way he might have been worried by these young people passing, wearing hoods and walking like hard men, even though they looked like they were made of twigs. Once, back when. Now?
He wouldn’t even touch them. He’d been down that road. Twenty-six years worth of it.
Prison didn’t take your pride. It didn’t take your strength. It didn’t take your will.
The thing of prison was...
The thing of prison...
He stopped walking. The bus pulled up in town and he watched people get off, get on while he thought about what it was that was niggling away at him.
What had prison given him? A second degree that would never get him a job. Eyes in the back of his head. A stomach like cast iron from eating shit food and arms like steel from curls and bench presses for the last twenty years. A broken hand, a once broken knee that ached all day long and a shit shoulder since he took a wild stab with a sharpened toothbrush for his trouble.
But what had prison taken?
He’d been fed. He’d been happy enough, late on.
Maybe not back in the early days, when he’d fought it, railed against it, but late on, when he’d all but given up on getting out? Yeah, he’d been happy then.
Soon enough now he’d be on a state pension, living out an empty life, somewhere he didn’t know with strange people all around him. Nothing to do all day. Food he didn’t recognise.
He blinked at the receding bus, unable to make out the number.
He looked at the directions to the doss house on the print-out he’d been given. Hoped it wasn’t his bus he’d just missed.
It wasn’t dying he was worried about, either. Prison didn’t make you afraid of dying, not at all.
He was afraid of living.
Prison didn’t hurt you when you were in. It was when you got out. It was only then that you knew you were in prison still, and you always would be.
He pulled his coat tighter as he sat at the bus stop and stared at the sun for a while, until it hurt his eyes. It felt good - lik
e it was worth the wait.
*
2.
Two fat policemen sucked their lips and looked down at the grave. Dirt was thrown up on one side, grassy clods still wet with spring dew. That alone and it would have been down to the gravekeeper, or maybe the council, at best, but whoever desecrated the child’s grave had also sprayed a swastika on the headstone and kicked it over.
That was why two fat policemen stood beside the grave.
‘Was he a Jewish kid?’
‘Don’t know for sure. Not, like, a hundred percent,’ said his partner.
Local policemen didn’t really have partners. Mostly it was just plodding, keeping the old ladies happy. PC James didn’t like the cemetery, though, so he’d persuaded his mate to come with him. ‘Don’t think so, though.’
‘Samuel. That’s Jewish, right?’
‘Biblical, maybe. Jewish? Don’t know,’ said PC James, biting his tongue.
‘What about Smith?’
‘Samuel Smith.’
‘Yeah. Samuel Smith,’ said PC Davis.
‘Sam Smith,’ said PC James.
‘Could be.’
‘Sam Smith, Ewan? Sam fucking Smith?’
‘What?’
‘No, Ewan. I’m not a hundred percent, but no,’ said PC James. ‘I don’t think he was Jewish.’
What PC James thought was that someone with roughly the same IQ as Davis had thought Sam Smith was Jewish. Some kind of neo-nazi idiot, listened to death metal in his mum’s basement kind of idiot. But he didn’t say that, because he didn’t want to make work for himself if he didn’t have to.
‘Well, I don’t fucking know, do I? It’s fucking Norfolk, alright? What do I know about Jewish people, or anyone else? Apart from the eastern European immigrants in the carrot packers, maybe. Or that fella runs the Portuguese shop with all them weird sausages...’
PC James sighed.
‘Bump it up?’
PC Davis kicked at a clump of grass and dirt. Made out like he was seriously considering it.
‘OK?’
‘Pub?’
‘OK?’
PC James liked PC Davis. You knew where you were with PC Davis. Generally in the pub.
He clicked his radio and called it in.
*
3.
Henry Harrison watched the two policemen at the grave. He didn’t want anything to do with it, and they didn’t want anything to do with him. They didn’t stop to ask him any questions, and that suited him fine. He’d been walking round the cemetery for two hours, trying to keep Emily asleep. The last thing he needed was someone waking her up.
Emily was his beautiful daughter, tucked up tight in an all-in-one suit against the chill, bundled into an old Silver Cross buggy. It had a small place to store baby stuff underneath. The space was filled with nappies, wipes, bottles – already sterilised – and a change of clothes, because babies’ doings had a way of getting out.
Henry Harrison liked things orderly. Baby stuff in the buggy, none in his pockets.
His pockets were full of pipe and pipe tobacco, a penknife for clearing the bowl, and a box of matches. He always used a match to tamp down his tobacco and a match to light his pipe. It tasted better that way.
He pushed Emily away a little, now she was sound asleep.
People thought maybe the most beautiful sound in the world was the deep roar of an expensive sports car, or a woman’s orgasm, or a symphony. It wasn’t. It was a baby snoring.
He filled his pipe, already clean, and pushed the tobacco down into the bowl. He flicked the match alight on the rough old arm of the bench, puffed a while to get it going, and sighed in satisfaction as he sat on the same bench.
Now he was down he didn’t plan on getting up for a good while, either.
It was his favourite bench. It was dedicated to the memory of Lily Anne and Frank Holt, whom he’d known, way back when. That wasn’t why it was his favourite bench. It was because it was smack in the middle of the cemetery, out of the way of the roads that ran parallel either side, at the east and west entrances. It was the quietest. You could barely hear the traffic, and the birdsong was clear.
It had the best view, too. The cherry blossom was out, spring in bloom. The trees were green again. Seemed like the older you got, the more you appreciated making another spring.
He would have been what, now? He would have been...?
Christ, he thought. Time flies. How many years had he been coming to this cemetery? Since he’d known the Holts, for sure. Since his wife had passed? Maybe that was when he’d started using the cemetery like his own personal park. Maybe that was when.
There was something comforting, being surrounded by the quiet dead, because at home his wife was with him all the time, no matter that she’d been gone for so many years.
Henry puffed his pipe for a while. Quiet, peaceful. Birds singing in the spring, baby snoring softly, with a slight snuffle from a little spring cold, but nothing drastic, and a pipe on the go.
For an old man with a young baby in tow, life didn’t get much sweeter.
*
4.
Back at the station PC James and PC Davis told DS Fredrickson what they’d learned at the cemetery.
‘Been a spate of them, right?’ said PC Davis. ‘Time to bump it up. Right?’
DS Fredrickson took a long last pull on a Royal, then put it out in his coffee cup.
‘Spate?’
‘Yeah. Like...a trend...a run of...’
‘I know what it fucking means.’
‘Right, Sir. Right.’
DS Fredrickson sighed. Five years on the force, two years licking arse for CID. For this shit.
‘Alright,’ he said. ‘I’ll take a look at the grave. Call it solved. Case closed. Happy?’
‘As pigs in shit,’ said PC James, Davis nodding beside him.
‘Right.’
The boss was standing at the corner of the office.
‘Freddy?’
‘Sir?’
‘Call the council, too. Find out if the custodian’s house’s been taken up yet.’
‘Sir,’ said the DS.
‘Sir,’ said PC James, nodded at the DI, the boss, and ducked out, back onto the street, where nothing ever happened, apart from some fight in a pub or an old lady whose neighbour looked funny at her drawers on the washing line.
Davis let the door slam on his way outside.
‘Cunt,’ said James.
‘Yep,’ agreed Davis. ‘Should have gone to the pub.’
‘No time like the present,’ said James.
*
5.
Elton Burlock took a ticket from a computer in the job centre. Number 35. Same as his room in the hostel.
Didn’t mean anything. It was just an arbitrary number. It could have been number 1, but he’d still have had to wait an hour or more. He knew how it worked, inside and out.
He waited and waited until some smarmy fat woman called him, then looked him up and down as he sat in front of her cluttered desk after more than an hour.
Convict, her eyes said. It didn’t matter and he didn’t care. Time moved on, people got old, people forgot. That was the way it went. People forgot the past and the way things were, all apart from Elton who never forgot no matter how much he wanted to.
‘I’m not going to lie to you, Mr...Burlock?’
Elton nodded, thinking anytime someone said they weren’t going to lie to you, they were. Same as in prison. Like if someone called you mate, you knew they were going to kill you. Same rules out as in.
‘A man with your...history. Your age, too? The long and short of it is, take your benefits, wait on your pension. I can get you started...your parole officer?’
‘I’m not on parole,’ he said. Firm, but that was the long and short of it.
‘Well, you want to fill out the forms?’
‘I worked all my life. Worked in prison. Maybe at things you wouldn’t understand, like all those qualifications I just wrote out on the
form you haven’t looked at, but I still worked. I’m not ready to die. I want to work.’
‘No one’s going to employ you,’ she said with a somehow exasperated, somehow condescending sigh.
‘Can’t you have a look on your lists? Your computer, whatever?’
‘Mr. Burlock...’
‘Mrs...?’
‘Miss. Miss Grey.’
‘Miss Grey. This is a job centre. Please look. I’ll do anything. I’m not a proud man. Once, maybe. Have a look.’
‘My advice? Forget it. Go down the benefits route...I can...’ she began to run out of steam but couldn’t quite stop, like someone fat taking a slow tumble down the stairs. ‘Make the most of...’
‘What I’ve got left?’
‘Mr. Burlock,’ she said, and he could tell she was looking around for support, looking, perhaps for another fat worthless shit to come over and double team him. He wasn’t going to get anywhere with her no matter what he said.
‘You sit there, high and mighty. You don’t know a damn thing about a damn thing,’ he said as he stood and pushed his chair in. ‘And Miss Grey? I hope you never do.’
He went through the automatic door, subconsciously holding out his hand to push, and feeling frustrated that such a simple thing caught him out.
He walked through the town to the nearest newsagents, where Elton expected the woman behind the counter to look at him with suspicion, too, but she just thanked him and gave him his change when he took the local paper and a packet of Bic pens.
The walk back to the doss house he took at as a slow pace as a man can. He didn’t really want to get there, but he didn’t have anywhere else to go. The key complained at the lock on the front door, then, inside, he checked in at the desk with a strained smile before heading straight up the stairs, to room number 35. He opened his room with another key. All his things were right where he put them. He laughed at himself for his suspicion, the same he expected from others.
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