by Alice Cooper
“You know what you said about those of us that find ourselves looking for that next fix. I think for me you’re the only drug that I need. It might sound trite or some kind of lame come on, but it really is the way that I feel.” He suddenly looked at his watch and at the time and knew that he was pushing his luck. “I might have to take a rain check, until tomorrow night for dinner. I have some unfinished business that needs to be dealt with personally.” He didn’t want to get into the details and the little she knew was the better. People were lying to him and he was damned and determined to find out the truth. He felt like somebody was pulling the strings and the last mission didn’t go according to plan. That wasn’t unusual, but almost dying was a bit of a wrinkle. The only people that knew that he was going to be in that particular area was his commanding officer and those that were requested to get him out of there in a hurry.
“I don’t think that it’s very gentlemanly of you to leave right after doing it. It would be better that you stayed and cuddled, but I can see on your face that something is weighing heavily on your mind. Do you want to talk about it, or am I stepping over some line? I have my own demons and we both have been dealt a bad hand. I feel that sometimes it would be better to get it off my chest, but I really don’t wanna say the words. Saying them will mean it actually happened and some of the things that I have done cannot be forgiven for as long as I live.” He hugged me to his body and I felt safe and secure, until he pulled away from me.
“I would love to hear more, but this is neither the time nor the place. Don’t worry, I will get in touch with you somehow, but right now I really do need to go.” Sebastian had this one window of opportunity and he wasn’t going to ruin his one chance to find out more of why they were hanging him out to dry. He had heard through the Grapevine that there was a congressional hearing coming up soon and that his testimony was either going to free his commanding officer or put the final nail in his coffin. Nobody had called upon him to testify, which could only mean that they were waiting for the right time to lay this information in his lap.
Cali was not exactly ready to let this go and decided to follow from a discreet distance. She knew that she was risking getting caught. This guy could probably spot a tail from a mile away, but he did seem to have a one track mind. He drove off on his motorcycle and instead of following him on her motorcycle, she called for a taxi. She had been given a GPS unit and had attached that small tiny device to the underside of his fender when he wasn’t looking. “I don’t want to do this and it feels wrong to play these kinds of games with a man that is fragile and ready to break. I want to be there for him, but how can I when he won’t let me in any further than necessary.”
The taxi arrived and she had his current location on her phone. He was on his way downtown. What was down there that was causing him to act irrationally was a mystery to her. “I need you to head downtown and do not ask any questions. There’s a big tip in it for you and I mean in the $20.00 range.”
The man didn’t even question the woman that would’ve made for quite the feast. She was a dish best served hot and he was licking his lips at her obvious endowment. Her chest was massive and he could probably get lost and never want to come back out.
“I’ll do what I can, but I can’t promise you anything. It’s rush hour traffic and the only thing getting through something like this are police or someone on a motorcycle.” I might be able to use a couple of shortcuts, but they are risky and could end up being dead ends.” Richard knew this town like the back of his hand and could navigate the streets blindfolded. He had lived in the area and had driven his bicycle to those special little spots that meant so much to him growing up. He was single and looking. The girl behind him staring at that damn phone was exactly his taste.
She was kicking herself for not taking her own bike, but that would’ve been like putting a neon sign over her head. He would hear the rev of the engine and know that she was tailing him and wonder why. That was not a conversation that she was willing to get into at the moment. That was not a conversation that she wanted to get into at all, but denying that it was going to happen wasn’t going to prevent it from happening. Eventually, her lies would catch up to her and that was when she was going to have to face the music. “I don’t know why I’m doing this, but the commander told me that it was paramount that I never lose sight of him. He told me he was worried that Sebastian was up to no good and couldn’t be trusted to tell the truth when he was held to the fire.” Cali had not seen anything to indicate that Sebastian would lie and quite to the contrary.
They breezed through traffic and the shortcuts came in the form of two alleyways that were very narrow. Richard had to lay down on the horn to prevent colliding with a Chinese kid coming out from the restaurant carrying garbage. The kid threw himself back against the wall with the garbage flying into the air and coming down over top of him. It was leftover food and he stood there dripping and shaking his fist in defiance at a taxi that should have known better than to come careening down the alley at that speed.
“I don’t think that I was clear and maybe I should reiterate that I wanna get there in one piece.” Coming this way was a stroke of genius and it’s obvious that Sebastian is going to his destination by using alternate routes. He’s backtracking every so often and I can tell that he’s instinctively looking for anybody or anything out of the ordinary that is going to show up more than once on his radar.” “You’re going to have to get into the center of town. Get me, as close to City Hall as you can.” Cali noticed that Sebastian went into an underground parking structure that overlooked the city from several angles.
Richard soon came to a stop and was handed two $20.00 bills instead of the one 20 dollar bill that was mentioned at the beginning of this trip. He was about to tell her that he would stay and wait, but she was already bounding down the sidewalk at a frantic clit.
Cali knew that the motorcycle had come to a stop. What he was doing in a parking structure only god knew, but she was about to find out. She saw the guard at the gate leading into the parking structure reading a newspaper. She purposely took off her shoes and stored them in her purse using the pitter patter of bare feet to slip past him without being observed. “I feel like I’m putting the training that I was given to good use. I see why people are drawn to a life in the military. It allows them to live a life of mystery and adventure. I’ve always admired those that served, but to me they were needlessly putting their lives on the line without very much in return. It seems so pointless and yet without these brave men and women there would be no freedom to protect.”
Cali ran from one level to the other and was getting winded by the time that she came across his motorcycle on the top floor with the sun beaming down from above.
She turned abruptly and scanned the area to find Sebastian standing over at the edge of the building. He was training a scope in the direction of City Hall. She barely ducked behind a parked car, when he made a glance in her direction. She was breathing heavy and trying to remain calm, while at the same time sneaking a peek through the window to see him standing there with no emotion on his face. “I have no idea what I’m supposed to do. He has a gun and he has been trained to use it. I don’t know how I would feel if I just did nothing and something happened to harm another. That’s the kind of thing that would haunt me for the rest of my life and most likely have me in therapy. I need more information and to do something careless and reckless will be tantamount to exposing myself in a negative light.”
Sebastian was far enough away that he could witness and hear absolutely everything that was going on in the office across in a high rise. The parabolic dish was right beside him and the headphones were giving him a new insight into his commanding officer. This was a man that was above reproach, but what he was hearing was telling a whole different tale. He had become disenfranchised by the military and was now working behind the scenes to bring in a shipment of arms.
“I know that it’s short notice, but I need to finish
my business here and get the hell out of dodge as soon as possible. I’m even willing to concede a discount to get this off my hands quicker than normal. Of course I know it’s going to take you time to come up with that kind of cash, but surely you have something in reserve for emergencies. I know that I sound desperate and there’s a reason for that. I’m fucking desperate and I need your help, or I’m going to spend many years in Leavenworth. Who do you think that you’re talking to? I’m not some naive young cadet with stars in their eyes. I’m a hardened veteran. I’ve seen my hard work go down the drain because of congressional oversight. They don’t know half the stuff and they would cringe to know how close they came to more deaths than they could count.” Commander Grady had put everything into place and the only thing standing in his way was a man with morals.
Sebastian had everything that he needed. He didn’t think that he was going to get the smoking gun right away. It seemed almost too easy, but there was no way that he couldn’t act on it. He was tempted to call in for reinforcements, but he only had his word against a decorated officer that had been hailed a hero many times over. He knew that there was something wrong by the way that his commander was dodging his calls. It would’ve been, so much easier had he lied to him face to face, but that would never have worked.
Cali was sitting there with her heart beating and her pulse racing and she knew that this was the kind of adrenaline rush that was almost better than sex. “I don’t think that I have thought this through. I can’t move and I have no idea what he’s up to. I do see that he’s finished with whatever it is and thankfully I breathe a sigh of relief knowing that he didn’t shoot anyone. I literally had my heart in my throat waiting for him to pull the trigger and by the grace of god that moment didn’t come.”
Sebastian stopped with his helmet in his hand and he thought he saw something out of his peripheral vision. He walked over to a line of cars and peered around to see that there was nobody there. He knew that he was paranoid, but he had every right now that he knew that his commanding officer was coming after him. It remained to be seen just exactly what he would do, but he was going to have to remain vigil and keep his head on a swivel from this moment on.
“I don’t know what you plan to do, but I’m going to stop you. You show dishonor to the corps. I didn’t think that there was nobody that could ever corrupt you, but you’ve lost your way.” He was thinking out loud to hear himself speak. He had a pretty good idea of who Commander Grady was talking to. He had suspected for a long time that one of his team back in the day was working his own angle to secure a more profitable future for himself in his twilight years.
Cali had rolled from her spot and found herself under a mini van. Cali mistakenly thought that Sebastian was talking about himself. It was not uncommon for someone to get lost and to try to find their way back by talking to themselves. It was a good way to get rid of that conscience that was nagging on their shoulder. “I don’t take him for a man that’s going to act without reason. I know that I’ve only known him a short time, but something tells me that I’m missing something. I need to confront him, but to do so will only reveal my true purpose for coming into his life. I know that he’s going to hate me, but at least everything will be out in the open. I have one day to come up with the words and I know that nothing I’m going to say is going to take the sting out of the blow.”
He got back on his motorcycle and drove out the same way he came. He waved to the security guard and gave him a tiny nod of recognition for letting him slip in with a monetary hand off. It didn’t take much for him to get inside and he only had to flash a couple of $100 and the gate lifted.
There was no way for her to make heads or tails out of anyone. “I think he needs me more than he can ever know. There’s something going on here that neither one of us are aware of. I’m worried that I’ve been led by the nose and keeping him close is only going to hurt him in the long run. He means a lot to me and maybe I shouldn’t have got personally involved, but that ship has already sailed.
Chapter 6
It had been one whole day and neither one of them had seen each other. It was almost like a drug that they couldn’t get enough of. Cali had tried to reach out, but had only gotten radio silence for her troubles. She knew deep down that he was dealing with something and that he had taken the time to seclude himself from any kind of interaction with the public. It was obvious that he was under a time restraint and was now in the process of putting a plan together of some magnitude.
She had no idea where he lived and according to his records there was no set residence. He was very careful to keep things hidden and to move around without putting down any permanent roots.
Cali was sitting in the common room and was quite happy to see that Randy had no idea who she was. He never approached her, as he had other fish to fry namely a young man that was close to putting a noose around his neck or slitting his wrist in the middle of the night. The young man was under a suicide watch and he was sitting vigil by his bed to make sure that he didn’t slip through the cracks like so many others. That distraction was giving him a reason to wake up in the morning.
Cali heard something and went to the window to see that young Sebastian had come back. He looked haggard and had a growth of day old beard on his face. His eyes were sunken like he hadn’t slept. He came through the door and they made eye contact and soon were kissing in an alcove away from those that would consider what they were doing inappropriate.
“I meant to call you, but something came up. I still want to have that dinner and to cook for you, but it might have to wait a little bit longer. I have some business and I’m afraid that I can’t get into any further than that. Let’s just say that I know that people have been lying to me and I’m tired of it. I always find out the truth and why they think that they can hide anything from me is beyond me.” Sebastian moved his fingers through her hair and felt intimately acquainted with every part of her body.
“I’m not going to pry and it’s obvious from your expression that somebody has betrayed you in some way. Just don’t do anything that’s going to come back and keep you from me. I’ve missed you more than you can ever know. I’m afraid that I have some news for you. It’s not going to go down well.” She couldn’t get away from his hard steel gaze and the way that he seemed to be judging her. “I don’t know how to say this and maybe it’s like taking off a band aid. I could either do it slowly or fast.” “I know that I’m stalling and there’s a reason for that. I don’t want to see that disappointment in his eyes and know that I was the cause of it. I never meant to get this close, but best laid plans have ways of going awry when you least expect it. I can only hope that he will forgive me and that he won’t hold it against me.”
“I’ve made a lot of sacrifices in my life, Kelly. I’ve seen good people die for no good reason than being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I’ve seen senseless murders of children and their mothers by an enemy that needed to be put down with extreme prejudice. I’ve seen atrocities to humans by what I would consider the devil themselves. I doubt that there’s anything that you could say that could hurt me more than my past.” Cali was the one and for Sebastian to admit that was a big step that he wasn’t sure that he was willing to take.
“I know that you are hurting inside and I don’t want to cause you any more harm. It’s just that us coming together was never by accident.” She was about to tell him everything when a shrill siren came over the loudspeaker.
“Code blue in room 405… Code blue in room 405… All personnel are required at this time.”
Cali felt something change and there was this tension in the air that she could cut with a knife. His demeanor had changed and his soft and caring face had turned to grave concern.
“This is going to have to wait until later. I need to get to that room immediately if not sooner.” He didn’t even wait for Cali to argue the point and was already sprinting down the hall with his combat boots slapping against the floor on his way. He knew
that this day was coming, but he was hoping they had more time. He didn’t mean to stay away this last day and the regret boiling inside was now fueling an anger towards the commander that could not be contained.
Cali ran with him excusing herself repeatedly to those that she was about to bump into. He had never seen the look on his face and it was like something had broken inside him. His face had turned ashen and he had swallowed with a sort of realization that something had happened that was going to affect him greatly. “I understand grief when I see it and I do hope that this is not the final straw that’s going to break his mind into a million pieces. Hopefully, I can be there to put him back together again like the villagers did with Humpty Dumpty and his great fall. I can see that same great fall coming and there’s absolutely nothing that I can do to prevent him from feeling the crushing grief pushing him down into the ground.”
