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by Philip Larkin


  Is having the blind persistence

  To upset an existence

  Just for your own sake.

  What cheek it must take.

  And then the unselfish side –

  How can you be satisfied,

  Putting someone else first

  So that you come off worst?

  My life is for me.

  As well ignore gravity.

  Still, vicious or virtuous,

  Love suits most of us.

  Only the bleeder found

  Selfish this wrong way round

  Is ever wholly rebuffed,

  And he can get stuffed.

  The Life with a Hole in it

  When I throw back my head and howl

  People (women mostly) say

  But you’ve always done what you want,

  You always get your own way

  – A perfectly vile and foul

  Inversion of all that’s been.

  What the old ratbags mean

  Is I’ve never done what I don’t.

  So the shit in the shuttered château

  Who does his five hundred words

  Then parts out the rest of the day

  Between bathing and booze and birds

  Is far off as ever, but so

  Is that spectacled schoolteaching sod

  (Six kids, and the wife in pod,

  And her parents coming to stay) …

  Life is an immobile, locked,

  Three-handed struggle between

  Your wants, the world’s for you, and (worse)

  The unbeatable slow machine

  That brings what you’ll get. Blocked,

  They strain round a hollow stasis

  Of havings-to, fear, faces.

  Days sift down it constantly. Years.

  Aubade

  I work all day, and get half-drunk at night.

  Waking at four to soundless dark, I stare.

  In time the curtain-edges will grow light.

  Till then I see what’s really always there:

  Unresting death, a whole day nearer now,

  Making all thought impossible but how

  And where and when I shall myself die.

  Arid interrogation: yet the dread

  Of dying, and being dead,

  Flashes afresh to hold and horrify.

  The mind blanks at the glare. Not in remorse

  – The good not done, the love not given, time

  Torn off unused – nor wretchedly because

  An only life can take so long to climb

  Clear of its wrong beginnings, and may never;

  But at the total emptiness for ever,

  The sure extinction that we travel to

  And shall be lost in always. Not to be here,

  Not to be anywhere,

  And soon; nothing more terrible, nothing more true.

  This is a special way of being afraid

  No trick dispels. Religion used to try,

  That vast moth-eaten musical brocade

  Created to pretend we never die,

  And specious stuff that says No rational being

  Can fear a thing it will not feel, not seeing

  That this is what we fear – no sight, no sound,

  No touch or taste or smell, nothing to think with,

  Nothing to love or link with,

  The anaesthetic from which none come round.

  And so it stays just on the edge of vision,

  A small unfocused blur, a standing chill

  That slows each impulse down to indecision.

  Most things may never happen: this one will,

  And realisation of it rages out

  In furnace-fear when we are caught without

  People or drink. Courage is no good:

  It means not scaring others. Being brave

  Lets no one off the grave.

  Death is no different whined at than withstood.

  Slowly light strengthens, and the room takes shape.

  It stands plain as a wardrobe, what we know,

  Have always known, know that we can’t escape,

  Yet can’t accept. One side will have to go.

  Meanwhile telephones crouch, getting ready to ring

  In locked-up offices, and all the uncaring

  Intricate rented world begins to rouse.

  The sky is white as clay, with no sun.

  Work has to be done.

  Postmen like doctors go from house to house.

  The Mower

  The mower stalled, twice; kneeling, I found

  A hedgehog jammed up against the blades,

  Killed. It had been in the long grass.

  I had seen it before, and even fed it, once.

  Now I had mauled its unobtrusive world

  Unmendably. Burial was no help:

  Next morning I got up and it did not.

  The first day after a death, the new absence

  Is always the same; we should be careful

  Of each other, we should be kind

  While there is still time.

  Poems unpublished by Larkin

  Letter to a Friend about Girls

  After comparing lives with you for years

  I see how I’ve been losing: all the while

  I’ve met a different gauge of girl from yours.

  Grant that, and all the rest makes sense as well:

  My mortification at your pushovers,

  Your mystification at my fecklessness –

  Everything proves we play in separate leagues.

  Before, I couldn’t credit your intrigues

  Because I thought all girls the same, but yes,

  You bag real birds, though they’re from alien covers.

  Now I believe your staggering skirmishes

  In train, tutorial and telephone booth,

  The wife whose husband watched away matches

  While she behaved so badly in a bath,

  And all the rest who beckon from that world

  Described on Sundays only, where to want

  Is straightway to be wanted, seek to find,

  And no one gets upset or seems to mind

  At what you say to them, or what you don’t:

  A world where all the nonsense is annulled,

  And beauty is accepted slang for yes.

  But equally, haven’t you noticed mine?

  They have their world, not much compared with yours,

  But where they work, and age, and put off men

  By being unattractive, or too shy,

  Or having morals – anyhow, none give in:

  Some of them go quite rigid with disgust

  At anything but marriage: that’s all lust

  And so not worth considering; they begin

  Fetching your hat, so that you have to lie

  Till everything’s confused: you mine away

  For months, both of you, till the collapse comes

  Into remorse, tears, and wondering why

  You ever start such boring barren games

  – But there, don’t mind my saeva indignatio:

  I’m happier now I’ve got things clear, although

  It’s strange we never meet each other’s sort:

  There should be equal chances, I’d’ve thought.

  Must finish now. One day perhaps I’ll know

  What makes you be so lucky in your ratio

  – One of those ‘more things’, could it be? Horatio.

  December 1959

  Love Again

  Love again: wanking at ten past three

  (Surely he’s taken her home by now?),

  The bedroom hot as a bakery,

  The drink gone dead, without showing how

  To meet tomorrow, and afterwards,

  And the usual pain, like dysentery.

  Someone else feeling her breasts and cunt,

  Someone else drowned in that lash-wide stare,

  And me supposed to be ignorant,

  Or fi
nd it funny, or not to care,

  Even … but why put it into words?

  Isolate rather this element

  That spreads through other lives like a tree

  And sways them on in a sort of sense

  And say why it never worked for me.

  Something to do with violence

  A long way back, and wrong rewards,

  And arrogant eternity.

  20 September 1979

  Index of Titles and First Lines

  About twenty years ago, 1

  After comparing lives with you for years, 1

  Afternoons, 1

  Always too eager for the future, we, 1

  Ambulances, 1

  Annus Mirabilis, 1

  Arundel Tomb, An, 1

  At Grass, 1

  Aubade, 1

  Beyond all this, the wish to be alone, 1

  Building, The, 1

  Card Players, The, 1

  Church Going, 1

  Closed like confessionals, they thread, 1

  Coming, 1

  Coming up England by a different line, 1

  Cut Grass, 1

  Cut grass lies frail, 1

  Dawn, 1

  Deceptions, 1

  Dockery and Son, 1

  ‘Dockery was junior to you’, 1

  Down stucco sidestreets, 1

  Dublinesque, 1

  Even so distant, I can taste the grief, 1

  Faith Healing, 1

  For nations vague as weed, 1

  For Sidney Bechet, 1

  Forget What Did, 1

  Friday Night in the Royal Station Hotel, 1

  Going, 1

  Going, Going, 1

  Grey day for the Show, but cars jam the narrow lanes, 1

  Groping back to bed after a piss, 1

  Here, 1

  High Windows, 1

  Higher than the handsomest hotel, 1

  Homage to a Government, 1

  How Distant, 1

  How distant, the departure of young men, 1

  Hurrying to catch my Comet, 1

  I deal with farmers, things like dips and feed, 1

  I Remember, I Remember, 1

  I thought it would last my time, 1

  I work all day, and get half-drunk at night, 1

  If, My Darling, 1

  If my darling were once to decide, 1

  Jake Balokowsky, my biographer, 1

  Jan van Hogspeuw staggers to the door, 1

  Letter to a Friend about Girls, 1

  Life with a Hole in it, The, 1

  Light spreads darkly downwards from the high, 1

  Livings, 1

  Love, 1

  Love Again, 1

  Love again: wanking at ten past three, 1

  MCMXIV, 1

  Money, 1

  Mower, The, 1

  Mr Bleaney, 1

  My wife and I have asked a crowd of craps, 1

  Naturally the Foundation will Bear Your Expenses, 1

  Next, Please, 1

  Next year we are to bring the soldiers home, 1

  Nothing To Be Said, 1

  Oh, no one can deny, 1

  Old Fools, The, 1

  On longer evenings, 1

  Once I am sure there’s nothing going on, 1

  Poetry of Departures, 1

  Posterity, 1

  Quarterly, is it, money reproaches me, 1

  Sad Steps, 1

  Self’s the Man, 1

  Send No Money, 1

  Sexual intercourse began, 1

  Show Saturday, 1

  Side by side, their faces blurred, 1

  Slowly the women file to where he stands, 1

  Solar, 1

  Sometimes you hear, fifth-hand, 1

  Standing under the fobbed, 1

  Stopping the diary, 1

  Study of Reading Habits, A, 1

  Summer is fading, 1

  Suspended lion face, 1

  Swerving east, from rich industrial shadows, 1

  Talking in Bed, 1

  Talking in bed ought to be easiest, 1

  That note you hold, narrowing and rising, shakes, 1

  That Whitsun, I was late getting away, 1

  The difficult part of love, 1

  The eye can hardly pick them out, 1

  The mower stalled, twice; kneeling, I found, 1

  The trees are coming into leaf, 1

  There is an evening coming in, 1

  They fuck you up, your mum and dad, 1

  This Be The Verse, 1

  ‘This was Mr Bleaney’s room. He stayed’, 1

  Those long uneven lines, 1

  To step over the low wall that divides, 1

  To the Sea, 1

  To wake, and hear a cock, 1

  Toads, 1

  Toads Revisited, 1

  Trees, The, 1

  Vers de Société, 1

  Walking around in the park, 1

  Wants, 1

  What do they think has happened, the old fools, 1

  When getting my nose in a book, 1

  When I see a couple of kids, 1

  When I throw back my head and howl, 1

  Whitsun Weddings, The, 1

  Why should I let the toad work, 1

  Wild Oats, 1

  About the Author

  Philip Larkin was born in Coventry in 1922 and was educated at King Henry VIII School, Coventry, and St John’s College, Oxford. As well as his volumes of poems, which include The Whitsun Weddings and High Windows, he wrote two novels, Jill and A Girl in Winter, and two books of collected journalism: All What Jazz: A Record Library, and Required Writing: Miscellaneous Prose. He worked as a librarian at the University of Hull from 1955 until his death in 1985. He was the best-loved poet of his generation, and the recipient of innumerable honours, including the Queen’s Gold Medal for Poetry, and the WH Smith Award.

  By Philip Larkin

  poetry

  THE NORTH SHIP

  XX POEMS

  THE FANTASY POETS NO. 21

  THE LESS DECEIVED (THE MARVELL PRESS)

  THE WHITSUN WEDDINGS

  HIGH WINDOWS

  COLLECTED POEMS (EDITED BY ANTHONY THWAITE)

  EARLY POEMS AND JUVENILIA (EDITED BY A. T. TOLLEY)

  THE OXFORD BOOK OF TWENTIETH-CENTURY ENGLISH VERSE (ED.)

  fiction

  JILL

  A GIRL IN WINTER

  TROUBLE AT WILLOW GABLES (EDITED BY JAMES BOOTH)

  non-fiction

  ALL WHAT JAZZ: A RECORD DIARY 1961–71

  REQUIRED WRITING: MISCELLANEOUS PIECES 1955–82

  SELECTED LETTERS OF PHILIP LARKIN 1940–1985

  (EDITED BY ANTHONY THWAITE)

  FURTHER REQUIREMENTS: INTERVIEWS, BROADCASTS,

  STATEMENTS AND REVIEWS 1952–85

  (EDITED BY ANTHONY THWAITE)

  Copyright

  First published in 2011

  by Faber and Faber Ltd

  Bloomsbury House

  74–77 Great Russell Street

  London WC1B 3DA

  This ebook edition first published in 2012

  All rights reserved

  © The Estate of Philip Larkin, 2011

  Introduction © Martin Amis, 2011

  The right of Philip Larkin to be identified as author of this work has been asserted in accordance with Section 77 of the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988

  This ebook is copyright material and must not be copied, reproduced, transferred, distributed, leased, licensed or publicly performed or used in any way except as specifically permitted in writing by the publishers, as allowed under the terms and conditions under which it was purchased or as strictly permitted by applicable copyright law. Any unauthorised distribution or use of this text may be a direct infringement of the author’s and publisher’s rights, and those responsible may be liable in law accordingly

  ISBN 978–0–571–27176–4

  by Martin Amis

 

 

 


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