Chapter 7
CYPRIAN
“Raiders of the Lost Ark? You want to watch that old movie. I can get things that are still in the theaters and that’s what you want?” I ask Cami as she’s curled up in one of the leather theater lounge chairs with a soft, light blue blanket wrapped around her.
Her hair is still damp and hanging around her face in spiral curls and all I want to do is scoop her up and take her to my bedroom. Then take her to Heaven with me. But she’s very good at keeping herself out of men’s bedrooms, it seems.
“I watched that movie only one time when I was a kid and I liked it and never got to see it again. If you don’t want to watch it, I guess I’ll understand,” she says with a mopey voice.
“We can watch it,” I say as I push the button to order the old as hell movie. “There’s this new one out with a lot of car races and cool shit like that. But we can watch what you want to.”
I grab us a couple of bottles of beer and a bag of popcorn and go sit in the chair next to hers. She leans her shoulder against mine as she takes the bottle I’m handing her. “You know, it’s only four in the afternoon. We can watch the one you want to next if you want. It’d mean I’d have to hang out with you longer than expected but I will if you want.”
“We could heat up some leftovers in between the movies,” I say, feeling kind of excited for some stupid reason. “That sounds cool.”
She grabs a handful of popcorn out of the bag that’s resting between my legs and my cock stirs as the bag moves against it. I’ll be leaving that right where it is!
Taking the remote, I start the movie on the big screen and dim the lights. I’m happy to find her resting her head on my shoulder. “Thank you, Cyprian. You’re a nice guy.”
I’m so not a nice guy!
Her hand moves over my leg and she leaves it there. She seems more than comfortable with me and I am beginning to feel very comfortable with her as well. It’s so strange.
“Don’t do that!” she shouts, suddenly.
“What did I do?” I ask, as I have no clue.
“Not you, silly. Indy,” she says with a giggle.
Going back to watching the movie, I feel her jump when a painted face of some tribesman pops up on the screen. She buries her face in my chest. “Tell me when this part is over.”
Chuckling, I run my hand through her hair. “It’s okay, Cami. I won’t let the scary man hurt you. He’s gone now.”
She peeks at the screen and I run my arm around her, she rests her head on my chest and I can’t recall a time I’ve ever felt this satisfied. It’s crazy!
More tribal action comes on and she climbs over the armrest that’s between us and climbs right onto my lap as she hides her face in my chest again. “God, I don’t remember it being this damn scary. Tell me when it’s over, please.”
“I don’t think it’s scary at all. You’re kind of a big chicken.” I laugh at her and she smacks me in the chest. “Ow.”
“I’m not a chicken. Is it over yet? I hear Indiana talking again.”
“It is but you can stay where you are,” I say as she looks up at me. “I like you cuddled up on my lap.”
Gazing into her sapphire eyes, I find myself inching toward her. And she’s not moving away from me, for once. Closer, I go and find my heart pounding.
“Cyprian?” she asks.
“Yes.”
“You understand the kind of person I am, right?”
I nod. “You’re a good person.”
“I mean the kind of person I am about sexual relations,” she says. “I can’t be with you like that without knowing you better and having a commitment.”
Commitment!
That stopped me. “Cami, I’m not a commitment kind of man. I told you that before. Just because we’ve shared a little time doesn’t mean I want more.”
She scrambles off my lap and into the other chair. “I’m not some easy tramp. Sorry you wasted your time. I’ll go. I’m sure you can call one of those whores you know.”
Before I know it, she’s slipped her shoes on and is hightailing it out of here. “Cami, wait!”
She’s hauling ass and the bright light as she throws the door open blinds me. “Just leave me alone, Cyprian. I can’t believe I entertained the thought you could be a decent human being.”
I manage to catch up to her as she gets to the front door. As she opens it, I grab it and push it closed, trapping her between me and the door. “What do you mean by that?”
“You’re shallow. A hollow man. You have no depth. You have no heart. You will die alone. And I won’t be one of your casualties.” Her eyes have gone hard. Judgment fills her expression.
“Who are you to say those things? You don’t even know me,” I shout at her.
“And who does?” she asks as she moves her hands to her hips. “Do you even know who Cyprian is?”
“Of course, I do.”
“Explain him to me,” she says as her expression changes. She looks softer and more open.
“Why should I?” I ask her as I run my hand over her smooth cheek. “Your skin is as soft as rose petals. Did you like the flowers I sent you? You never said a word about them.”
“I think they’re beautiful. The crystal vase is something I’ll keep forever. Thank you.” She moves her face and her lips touch the palm of my hand.
A heat streaks through me and I feel the pulse begin in my cock. “Cami, please don’t leave.” I bite my lip as I wait for her to tell me what she’s going to do.
“Cyprian, I’m afraid of you.”
“You think I’ll hurt you?” I ask, as I have no clue why she’d be afraid of me.
“I know you will.” She caresses my cheek. “You see, I am in touch with myself and I know I cannot have a taste of you. I will want more and more and you won’t give that to me.”
“You think you’d like to have me around more often?” I ask as I push a lock of her hair off her face.
“Nothing would make me happier.” She leans in and kisses my cheek.
I push her back, gently. “I’m not a liar. I am not a user of women. I am a man who is very busy all week long and on the weekends, I merely want to relax, unwind, and recharge for the next week. I don’t want a relationship and doubt I ever will.”
“Thank you for telling me the truth, Cyprian. It’s a nice thing for a man like yourself to do. I appreciate your honesty. I have to be honest with you too. I am a woman who doesn’t sleep with men she’s not in love with and has a commitment with. We can be friends,” she says.
I step back, ending our physical contact. I’m doing nothing, other than making myself frustrated by it. “I don’t keep friends. I have people I work with and people I party with and that’s it. There’s no place or time in my life for friends. So, if we aren’t going to fuck, I guess you can leave.”
Her entire body goes rigid and her eyes glisten with what seems to be tears. “We are not going to fuck. And I am sorry for taking up your precious time, Cyprian. Good luck with your life. I fear it will be one of great loneliness.”
I watch her walk out the door and find myself feeling lonely right away. I don’t recall ever feeling lonely. Not ever. I’m fine being alone. I always have been.
Turning around to try to find something to fill my mind and stop thinking about her, I see her sunglasses on the table and sigh as I pick them up. Going back to the door, I open it and find her head is resting on the steering wheel and she has yet to leave.
“Hey, you forgot your sunglasses,” I shout.
I make my way to her and when she looks up, I see tears streaming down her face.
What the hell have I started?
CAMILLA
“Shit!” I hiss as he’s caught me crying over him and now I feel really stupid. I turn the car on and start to peel out but he gets to the passenger door and I might run him over if I do.
“Cami, don’t cry,” he says as he opens the door and gets into the car. “You’re making me feel terrible.”
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“Thank you for bringing me my glasses. Bye.” I take them out of his hand and shove them on the dashboard.
His hand moves over my cheek as he wipes the tears away. “I’ve never made anyone cry. Not ever. This is awful. Come back inside. Please. Let’s try this again. I’m sorry.”
“No, I can’t go back inside. This is my problem, not yours. You see, I have this thing where my heart jumps ahead way too fast. It always has. It’s part of the reason I’m single right now. I fall head over heels in love and when it doesn’t work out, it leaves me shattered. I need to learn to reign in my emotions. I wear my heart on my sleeve and that’s a dumb thing to do.”
“Love?” he asks as he frowns. “Cami, that word shouldn’t even be bantered about right now.”
“You think I don’t know that, Cyprian?” I shout at him. “I had a dream about us last night. I was with you, in this house, helping you with some kind of a get-together. It was like we were married or something.”
“Married?” he says then laughs.
“I know, what a joke,” I say and find the tears stinging my eyes again.
He stops laughing and wipes them away again. “Cami, please stop crying. It’s kind of tearing me up inside.”
“I would think you’d be used to seeing women cry over you.” I sniffle and reach over to take some tissues out of the glovebox.
“No one has ever cried over me. I don’t date. There has never been anyone who didn’t know where they stood with me. No one has had any reason to cry over not being anything more to me than a sexual partner for the night. And the truth is, I have never had sex with any woman for more than one night or day.”
I’m not surprised and he can see that on my face, I suppose as he looks down. He seems ashamed.
“If that’s how you want things to be then why did you come for me?” I ask as I have no clue as to why the man sought me out last night.
“I can’t explain it, Cami. You’ve filled my mind since the moment I met you. I thought we’d have a nice time and some fun in bed then you’d be out of my mind and I could think about important things again,” he says, appalling me.
“Do you hear yourself?” I ask him as he seems to think what he’s said is perfectly fine. “I’m glad you’re being honest but, Cyprian, that’s terrible. You want to have sex with me so you can forget about me. And you basically called me, unimportant.”
“I didn’t mean that. I’m sure you’re important to lots of people. But I don’t have time for people to be important to me. If you spent one day with me at work, you’d understand, completely.”
“Is your job so encompassing that there’s absolutely no room for a person to share your life with? Because if that’s so, then you should change things around. There are plenty of rich people in this world who have time for families.”
“Would you stop talking about things like families and sharing lives together?” he shouts. “You’re sparking things inside me that have me wanting to run as fast as I can away from you.”
I level my eyes on his. “Are you afraid of me, Cyprian?”
“I’m not afraid of anything. I merely don’t want to talk about things that are never going to happen for me. Because I don’t want them to. I don’t want a wife or even a fucking girlfriend. I sure as hell don’t want an entire family. God knows I have no time for all of that. And no want for it!”
“Then what are you doing, sitting in this car with me? You shouldn’t even be talking to me. I strive for all the things you don’t want any part of. So, why are you sitting here?”
“That’s an excellent question.” He gets out of my car, slamming the door behind him. I watch him walk all the way to his front door and he slams it behind him too.
I suppose that means this is over…
The Seducer Book 3
Chapter 1
CYPRIAN
The lights of the last business in town, before we leave the Clemson city limits, catch my eye, the way they’ve done every night for the last week. It’s Friday and I’m going home. I’m not in the mood to party at all.
The damn woman haunts me. Day and night, she’s there, in the back of my mind. How she managed to squirm into my head is still a mystery. But she’s there, going nowhere.
I’ve tried hard to forget her and go on but it seems impossible. Her words echo in my brain, ‘you will die a lonely old man.’
Will I? Is that my fate? Does it have to be?
My driver, Ashton, slows down as we approach the store she works at. A car is turning in front of us, causing us to stop and just as we do, she walks out of the store, coming to the gas pumps with a rag and a bottle of cleaner.
Her eyes dance as she greets one of the customers who’s pumping gas into their car. It’s a man, she’s talking to. The tall man is smiling like crazy at her and she’s unaware of the fact he finds her attractive.
“Pull in, Ashton,” I say as I watch her smiling and laughing as the guy regales her with his wit.
“Are you sure, sir?” he asks me as he looks into the rearview mirror with raised brows.
“I am.” I run my hand over my Armani slacks then brush my hair back and sigh as we pull into the parking lot. I don’t need anything, except to hear her voice.
Once he parks, I sit and wait, watching her as she cleans the gas pumps and talks to the man who hasn’t left yet, even though he’s done pumping his gas. She’s oblivious to how he’s watching her every move.
Three short steps he takes and he’s standing behind her as she’s kneeling, wiping the bottom of the pump. His hand moves over her shoulder and she turns to look up at him.
Her head is shaking and his is nodding. He’s asking her out, I bet. My heart is pounding as I wait to see what she does.
“Do you want me to get out and get you something, sir?” Ashton asks me.
“No. I’m getting out when she goes back inside.” I can’t take my eyes off her. I haven’t seen her at all since Sunday when I walked away from her.
I was angry at her for judging me and my life. But that anger turned to contemplation as I thought about how I’ve been living. She wasn’t wrong about anything she said about me.
I am hollow.
Being less than perfect is a thing I knew I was. But I never knew I was less than human and selling myself short with how I’ve lived and have always thought I’d live my life.
Camilla is moving away from the man now, looking over her shoulder and saying something to him as she goes and he watches her. I open the back door of the Mercedes, Ashton picked me up in, and step out of the car.
Her eyes move to look at me and she stops in the middle of the parking lot. Then she ducks her head and hurries to go inside. I meet her at the door and open it for her.
She says nothing to me as she moves past me. I follow her, closely, staying right behind her as I’m sure she means to hide from me, in the ladies’ room perhaps.
I’m wrong about that, I see as she gets to the cooler and reaches out for the handle. “Stop,” I say. Placing my hand on her shoulder, I hold it tight enough that she can’t get away from me.
“Why?” she asks as she doesn’t bother to turn back to look at me.
“Because I want to talk to you.” I take her by the shoulders and turn her around.
Her eyes are bright with defiance. “There’s nothing to talk about. You want something I won’t give. End of subject. Moving on.” A slight tremor moves over her red lips then she licks them.
She’s upset and I am to blame, once again. “I’m sorry.”
“For what? Being who you are?” she asks as she shakes her head. “Don’t be. It’s me who’s sorry. Sorry, I ever spent a minute with you. That was my fault, though. I could read you like a book. I knew your modus operandi. It was me who sold all those condoms to your driver for you to use on countless women. It was foolish of me to think you wanted me for any more than a one night stand.”
“I can’t stop thinking about you,” I tell her and watch her eyes g
o hard.
Her body tenses even more as her face goes red. “What the fuck do you want me to do about that, Cyprian? Wait, I know. Fuck you, right? Do that, so your mind can be rid of me and you can think about more important things. You’re out of luck. I’m not a woman who does that kind of thing. Seems you’ll be stuck thinking about me.”
“I deserve that,” I say as I hold her hot gaze. “Come to my house after you get off work. We should talk.”
Slowly, she shakes her head. “You are insane if you think I’m going to go to your house, so you can attempt to make me feel sorry for you and your thoughts about me and how they’re messing up your life.”
“Have you thought about me, at all?”
Her eyes cut to the side and her body sags a bit as she sighs. “It doesn’t matter.” She looks back at me. “So, let me help you find your Friday night condoms, Cyprian.”
I shake my head. “I don’t need any. I’m not going to my father’s party tonight. And most likely, I still won’t be feeling like going tomorrow.”
She grins as she looks down and moves her tennis shoe over the white floor. “I see.”
I can see she’s happy I’m not going and it prompts me to ask about the man I saw her talking to outside. “Did that guy ask you out?”
“Huh?” she asks as she looks up at me. “How did you know that?”
“I was watching you. So, you told him what?” I bite the inside of my cheek to hold my tongue in case she tells me something I don’t want to hear.
“I turned him down. He’s not my type.” She looks away as the door chime takes her attention. “I need to get back to work. Surely, you understand that.”
Dropping my hands off her shoulders, I release her and nod. “I understand. If you change your mind about tonight, give me a call.” I slip my card with my personal cell number on it, out of my pocket and put it into the pocket of her green smock. “I am sorry, Camilla.”
With a nod, she leaves me, standing by the cooler as some woman takes a soft drink out of it and looks at us. The woman’s eyes move to meet mine. “You two okay?”
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