by Mz. Lady P
“Where are you going Jayceon?” I said tugging on his wife beater.
“Out!” He knocked my hands away.
“Why are you being so fucking mean to me?” I stood in front of him and blocked him from entering the bathroom.
“Stop being so fucking green to shit that’s right in your fucking face. I know you’re not used to certain shit due to how and where you were raised, however, you’re a very smart and intelligent woman. Pay attention to shit that’s right in front of your face. Now please move so I can get out of here. I have shit to do.” I wiped the tears away and stepped to the side. I felt myself becoming extremely stressed so I had to calm myself down. He probably forgot about the baby I was carrying but I didn’t. I was still trying to figure out what he was trying to say to me. I decided not to say anything to him until he calmed down.
*****
It had been a little over a week since the argument. We had barely even spoke to one another. Jayceon had been gone all day and coming home at later hours of the night. He had even missed my first prenatal appointment. I was partly to blame for that because I didn’t tell him about it. I had immersed myself into getting the business up and running. I wasn’t putting too much stress on me because I was able to work from home. I had filed for the contract so that they could start work on the building. I was just waiting for it to be approved by the city. I had movers move all of my things from my old office into a storage space. I had completely washed my hands of Santos Realty. I was on to bigger and better things. Despite focusing on the business, I missed Jayceon so much. I missed the sweet nothings he whispered in my ear. His hugs and kisses. Most of all I missed our relationship. This was our first real falling out and it felt like the end of the world to me. I know that couples have their ups and downs, but this shit feels like the end of the world.
Jayceon’s father had been released from prison and they were having a big party at Ms. Tina’s house. I really had no desire to go because I wasn’t in the best of moods. It was going to be hard for me to smile when I was so sad. The only reason I’m going is because Tina and Skylar have been blowing my phone up. They have been trying to get me out of the house but I’m not feeling it.
“Are you ready to go yet Bella? I need to grab some shit before I head over to my Momma’s house.”
“You can go ahead without me, I’m going to drive my own car.” I could tell he wasn’t expecting me to say that but oh well. I was sick and tired of him handling me the way he was. I knew he wouldn’t fuss with me about it because he was still mad at me. I decided to take me a small nap before heading over to the party. This baby had me so tired. I had no energy to do anything. My titties and my ass had gotten even bigger. It felt like I was carrying around heavy ass weights. Before I found out about the baby I never got sick. Now I will throw up off of scents alone. That shit is becoming so aggravating. Ginger ale, crackers, and hot pickles are the only thing that I can keep down. I couldn’t wait until all of this was over. The constant sickness was getting the best of me. Jayceon was no help because he was in his feelings, with his jealous ass. He knows I love him more than anything in this world, so he has no reason to even act like this. I haven’t done anything so I’m not going to stress myself out about this bullshit, because that’s exactly what it is.
****
The backyard was packed when I walked inside. Conversation seemed to cease as I walked in. It was extra hot so I had on a blue jean romper and a pair of wedges. I knew that my ass would be the topic of conversation amongst the fellas. I just didn’t want Jayceon getting mad at me about it. I locked eyes with Fatima and she rolled them so hard at me that they could have got stuck in her damn head. I know she hates me but she is so fucking pathetic. I pay her no attention and she goes out of her way to be rude to me.
“Look at you sis. You don’t even look like you’re pregnant,” Sky said as she started hitting me on my ass. I don’t know what it is with her and touching my ass but she liked doing it.
“I know right. Ain’t nothing get big but my ass and my titties.”
“Hey daughter-in-law, look at you. I’m surprised Jayceon let you out of the house with that on. He is going to have a fit when he sees how you’re dressed.” As soon as Ms. Tina spoke the words, Jayceon came in the yard along with who I assumed was his father. Jayceon looked just like his Dad. I looked over at Ms. Tina and I could tell she had become upset. She threw a pan of meat on the table and went inside of the house. I wanted to follow her but Jayceon and his father were walking towards me. The last thing I wanted was for him to think that I was rude. First impressions are everything.
“I would like for you to meet my future wife, Bella. Bella, this is my pops, Rock.” He extended his hand.
“Hello, nice to meet you Mr. Bennett.” We shook hands and he was about to say something but out of nowhere, this silly bitch Fatima steps in between us and they hug one another like they’re old friends.
“Welcome home Pops.”
“Hey daughter. How have you been Fatima?”
“I’ve been doing great. Taking things one day at a time.”
“Are you still working for my knucklehead son?”
“Of course I still work for him. I’m not going anywhere.” My eyes bucked out of my head hearing that this bitch worked for him. Not one time have I ever heard this shit. Jayceon stood there looking stupid as hell. He knew it was about to be some shit. The look on Sky, Tech, Dominic, and Rashad’s face let me know the shit was true what she said. I wanted to say something but now was not the time. This bitch was really being messy and trying to pull my hoe card. I don’t know why people have the misconception that because I’m not from the hood I can’t kick ass. Trust and believe me, I’m a lady and I always try to remain a lady at all times. This bitch was cruising for a bruising and I was going to give her what she was looking for. I have a black belt in karate.
Growing up my parents had me in all types of extracurricular activities. I haven’t used my skills on anyone and Fatima was going to be the first if she keeps fucking with me. I’m going to kick her ass right in the mouth so she can learn how to shut the fuck up. I haven’t done anything to this girl. Even though I know her and my man had sex since we’ve been together, I let that shit pass because they were grieving as parents, but all her free passes have run out. I walked away from the crowd that had surrounded Rock. The whole scene was sickening. I couldn’t believe Tech was at Skylar’s parents’ house with another bitch. Skylar was trying her best to put on a brave front but I know the shit is really killing her. Not to mention this motherfucker Jayceon is still keeping shit from me. I felt my blood pressure rising, and vomit as well. Jayceon had already made me look foolish in front of everyone. I hate feeling like I’m the only one in the room that doesn’t know what’s going on.
I went inside the house and practically took off running to the bathroom. All I was doing was dry heaving. That was worse than actually vomiting. My stomach and my chest were already sore from doing it every day. I was in no mood to go back outside. I went and laid down in Ms. Tina’s room until my sickness went away.
“Are you okay?”
“I’m okay. The baby has me sick all of the time now.” Ms. Tina had brought me a wet towel for my forehead, along with some ginger ale. Here she is worried about me and I wanted to know was she okay. I saw the way she looked when Rock came in the backyard.
“Why did you run in the house when Rock came in the backyard?”
“I just felt so many emotions come over me. I haven’t laid eyes on that man in years. I spent all this time getting over him and in one moment of seeing him, all the love came back. I thought I didn’t love him anymore but I still do. I just wish he hadn’t hurt me so bad. I’m sorry Bella, this is my first time really crying about this.” Ms. Tina put her head down and I felt so sorry for her as she shed tears. I was so shocked. She has always showed nothing but strength since the day I met her. I guess every woman has a breaking point. I handed her some tissue and rub
bed her back. I wanted to ask what had happened but I didn’t want to come off as nosey. Even though I was being nosey as hell.
“Excuse me Bella, can I speak with Tina for a minute?” Rock was standing in the doorway looking fine as hell. I had to close my mouth because this man was fine as fuck. Jail had done him good. He looked nice to be a man in his forties. I kissed Miss Tina on her cheek and I stood up to leave.
“Of course, Mr. Bennett.”
“Stop it with all that Mr. Bennett stuff., just call me Pops. You’re about to marry my son and give birth to my grandson. We’re family now Bella.” He kissed me on the jaw and I walked out of the room to give them some privacy. I went out back and joined everybody at the table. I tried to sit down but Jayceon grabbed me by the waist and pulled me onto his lap. I became wet as I felt Jayceon’s hard dick almost in my ass. I slow grinded on him a little, just enough to make him even harder. I hadn’t had any dick since before our argument and I was feigning to feel him inside of me.
“Let’s go in the house,” he said as he whispered in my ear. We got up and I watched as Fatima frowned up her face. I needed to talk to Jayceon about the little sneaky things that the bitch had been doing to me. I know that it shouldn’t bother me because he loves me. It’s just she does it when he isn’t paying any attention. I don’t want him to think I’m exaggerating things, so I’ll just handle it myself. I followed Jayceon into his old bedroom and started undressing before he could even close the door good. He pushed me back on the bed and started to devour my pussy. He had put his fingers in my mouth and I sucked on them one by one. I could feel him fucking me with his tongue. I held on to his head as I grinded into his face. I felt myself cumming all over his face. Not long after, he flipped me over and pinned my arms behind my back. He slid his long, thick dick inside of me and I gasped. I kind of felt pain at the bottom of my stomach. This was the first time we had sex since finding out about the baby.
“Slow down Jayceon. It hurts.” I swear he had never been so rough with me. He smacked me on the ass and grabbed it. I could feel his nails digging inside of it. I just knew he was drawing blood.
“This pussy feels so fucking good. I love you Bella. You know that right?”
“Yesssss!” I said softly because I was trying to take the pain he was inflicting on me. Not long after he had cum all over my ass. He went inside the bathroom, came back with a hot soapy towel, and washed my pussy for me. I flinched a little. I just knew my lips were all swollen.
“Bae, we have to be careful during the sex.” Jayceon lifted me up and grabbed my chin so that we could look into each other’s eyes
“I know I just got carried away. It’s been so long since I felt the inside of you. I’m sorry about the way I’ve been acting. It just pissed me off when I walked in the house and saw another nigga in there. I need you to be very mindful and watch people. That man wants more from you than you think. He had no business coming to our home without permission first, especially not to bring a fucking purse. I don’t trust that nigga and the next time he disrespects me that’s his ass. I don’t give a fuck about him being a police officer. I will go to jail behind a nigga thinking it’s cool to disrespect me. I don’t play that shit Bella. You belong to me. Do you understand me?” Jayceon kissed me on the forehead, my nose, and then my lips. Jayceon was showing me a different side to him that I had never seen before. He was jealous and very possessive.
“Yes, I understand. You don’t have anything to be worried about. You’re the only man that I want and need in my life. I’m sorry for allowing him into the house. You know that I would never disrespect you like that.” I gently rubbed the sides of his face with my hands. I never knew a man could have this much power over a woman. Jayceon had me wrapped around his finger. The crazy thing about it is that I don’t care about being wrapped around his finger. He did things to my mind, body and soul that were unexplainable. I love the way it feels and I never want that feeling to stop. His jealousy and possessiveness was just his way of staking his claim to what belonged him. Yes, I belonged to Jayceon Bennett. Pretty soon I would be his wife and the mother of his child. There wasn’t another man on this planet I wanted to be with or who could handle me like he could.
“I’m sorry for threatening you. I was wrong for that. Do you forgive me?”
“Of course I forgive you.”
“I was thinking…I want to marry you before the baby gets here. I was thinking we could have a private ceremony at our house. I’m really not feeling you traveling while you’re pregnant. You can have whatever you like Bella. You’re my Puerto Rican Princess and the world is at your feet. I wanted to do it in like the next two weeks. Do you think you can pull it off in such a short period of time?”
“With the help of your mom and sister, I know that I can pull it off. Oh my God, Jayceon, I can’t wait to get married.”
“Just tell me the date and the time. I’ll be there.” We hugged and kissed one last time before we headed back outside to join the rest of the family. Rock and Tina were still in her room. I could only imagine what they were doing.
I watched as Jayceon went and sat at the table with his friends. Fatima acted as if she was one of the fellas. That let me know that there is more to Fatima just being the mother of his daughter. On several occasions, Tristan, Dominic, and Rashad had come over to our house, but it was like he wanted to keep me away from them. I didn’t really have a relationship with his friends. We just spoke to one another and that was it. I made me a plate of fruit and set back and observed them. I watched as they constantly called Jayceon “Blockka”. I’ve never heard him being called by that name, so this was all surprising to me. He was being so rowdy and loud, cursing like a sailor and gambling stacks and stacks of money with no problem. I felt so out of place as I watched Fatima gamble with them. I had never seen an actual craps game. It was interesting to watch but hard for me to understand. I have never felt insecure when it comes to being in Jayceon’s life, but now I’m not actually sure if I fit. I watched Jayceon’s pants sag. He wears street clothes but I’ve never seen them hang off of his behind like that. In a matter of minutes he had taken on a totally different persona. The man that I was looking at was the man they referred to as Blockka. The man that I fell in love and was building a life together with was Jayceon. The more I watched him the more I became intrigued with the man they referred to as Blockka. I hate to admit it but I was actually turned on by him. I needed to get to know Blockka better.
Chapter 17- Jason “Rock” Bennett
I didn’t even know what to say as I sat next to my ex-wife. I could tell my presence had upset her and that was the last thing I wanted to do. I was seriously thinking of finding somewhere else to stay until I get off parole. Just seeing the tears in her eyes had me all fucked up about the decision I had made years ago. I had been cheating on Tina with one of my side chicks named Bianca. One thing led to another and we had a full-fledged relationship outside of my marriage. When she became pregnant I didn’t have it in my heart to make her get an abortion. The first baby I knew about, but the second one she snuck in on me. I found out about the baby the day Bianca came to visit me in prison, which was also the same day Tina found out about the kids. She never even gave me a chance to explain anything to her. She just stopped fuckin with a nigga. I had stopped fucking with Bianca long before I got locked up. I couldn’t believe she had filed for a divorce. I got tired of fighting her on it, so I just signed the papers. I didn’t want to give her any more grief than I had already given her. I was grateful that she made sure I wanted for nothing while I was locked up.
Tina didn’t deserve any of the shit I had put her through. She held me down in more ways than one. She was the definition of a down ass chick. Robbing banks, driving the getaway car, murder, you name it she did for me. That was because her love for me was just that strong. She didn’t deserve to be lied to or cheated on. I hated that I didn’t realize that until my freedom had been taken away from me. She was everything a nigga would
ever want in a wife and the mother of his children. Me on the other hand, I was just being the typical nigga. I had money, street fame, and mad bitches. Back then that meant some shit to me. It didn’t matter that I had the most loyal woman ever taking care of home and raising our kids. I’ve paid for all that shit these last ten years of my life. When I walked out of that prison and I saw Jayceon and Skylar waiting on me, I knew I had to do right by not only them but also my other two kids. Most importantly I had to make shit right with Tina. If it was the last thing I did I was going get my wife back and reunite with the kids I lost contact with over the years. Bianca died of breast cancer about a year after she had visited me in jail. I’ve kept in contact with my son, Jayson, over the years. Unfortunately, my daughter had been adopted and I was not told by who. I had to make it my mission to find her before I left this Earth. In the meantime, I need to come clean to Skylar and Jayceon about having other kids. I want them to meet their brother soon. I hope they can forgive me for hurting their mother. Most importantly, I hope Tina can forgive me for hurting her.
*****
“What’s wrong Tina? Why did you run off like that?” I moved her long, pretty hair from her beautiful face. It had been years since I laid eyes on her. I just needed to get a good look at her. She was still badder than a motherfucker. It looked as if she hadn’t aged one bit.
“I’m okay. It’s just that seeing you after all these years brought back so many memories.” I handed her some more tissue because I hated to see her crying. I could tell she had been holding everything in. She had always been that way. Tina never wanted anyone to see her weak.
“I’ll get a transfer somewhere else if you want me to. I don’t want to come into your life and stir shit up. I’ve done enough of that. I would be lying if I said that I didn’t want to get my family back.” That wasn’t even supposed to come out so soon. I wanted to make everything right before I put it out there, but fuck it.
