by Jade Herrera
Blue Raindrops
By
Jade Herrera
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Published by:
Blue Raindrops
Copyright © 2012 by Jade Herrera
Introduction
Poetry, one word that sums up all our thoughts, experiences, feelings and emotions, something that has made my life vivid and painted with words and colors I never knew existed.
That is what poetry means to me. It is an important part of my life that weaves threads of colors and creates words that will be etched in someone’s memories other than mine. Poetry somehow, sums up my life in one word and I wanted it to share to the world. And this is one of the wonderful ways for someone to get a glimpse on my life.
Blue Raindrops is a collection of poetry I have written through the years. Every part of it has been a part of my life, every single word an event that made me who I am. This book is my thoughts, my feelings, my recollection and my life.
Every life is truly like a book and here is one to share to you. As you flip through the pages and read through it all think of me and you will know that I have willingly shared everything with you. If you read this book a thousand thanks to you, but if not my best wishes are still with you.
Though there is no reassurance that this will answer all the questions you might ask me if we knew each other personally I still hope that you will get a glimpse of who I am as a person and that this little book of poetry will be something that you will cherish in your memories as a reader and an appreciator of poetry.
Raindrops
Sitting on a room that is more silent than usual
I stare out the window waiting for you
You said the rain falls to wash away the tears
But it doesn’t take away the pain
The clock strikes midnight
And I am still alone
Praying, hoping, waiting for you to come
But I can’t see you anywhere
I danced with the raindrops while trying to find love
But all I could see was lightning
Shouting your name out
But all I could hear was thunder in the air
Your leaving footsteps still echoes in my ears
I see your back turned away from me
I ran after you but you were gone
I’m alone waiting with the rain
I danced with the raindrops while trying to find love
But all I could see was lightning
Shouting your name out
But all I could hear was thunder in the air
I can’t understand why loving has to hurt
You promised me that you’d never do
But you broke the rules
Now I don’t know what to do
I danced with the raindrops while trying to find love
But all I could see was lightning
Shouting your name out
But all I could hear was thunder in the air
Until now, all I can hear is raindrops
Sad, bitter raindrops and the thunder in the air…
Broken Song
I watched you grow, I watched you glow,
suddenly I watched you go.
It's like a story about the dawn,
colorful paintings gently sewn.
But after quite a while
it all disappears from our eyes.
Small drops of rain fell from the sky,
I watched you from the sidelines by and by.
You were out there at the game,
while you left me out on the side lane.
You had me singing out a
Beautiful Song.
A harmony and melody
going along,
I had always sung it
with you,
But you changed the words
and sung it with someone new.
I'm left alone trying to
figure out what to do.
So I placed a worn out guitar
on my hand,
Tried playing a song
as I sat on the sand.
I watched the ocean waves
roll by,
I watched the flying birds
up high.
I watched the sunrise
till it was noon,
I watched the sunset
replaced by the moon.
I watched you grow, I watched you glow,
suddenly I watched you go....
I'm playing a song now
out of tune,
I'm singing a song by a
sad pale moon.
I've watched you wreck
its harmony,
I've watched you changed
its melody.
But the worst part was...
You had me singing out a
Beautiful Song,
A harmony and melody
going along.
I had always sung it
with only you,
But you changed the words
and sung it with someone new.
I'm left alone trying to
figure out what to do.
Oh, you sung it with
someone new...
I Need a Time Machine
I sit outside our home and wait for your return,
I’ve done this a thousand times
But I dread the night when you won’t come home,
When I won’t see you walk in our room.
Its midnight and it will soon be morning,
I’m awake in the room which feels more alone than usual
Why aren’t you here? Where have you gone?
Please tell me it’s not yet over.
There’s a knock on the door and I rush to open it,
I’m so glad that you are back.
But you’re not the one who knocked.
It wasn’t you and never will be you.
I couldn’t listen to the words they said,
It is a knife ripping at my heart.
I can’t believe you are gone, I can’t believe you left
And that there’s no way you could ever return.
One mistake, a regret that we all make,
A simple thing that ends everything.
I know nothing in this world will ever be perfect
But that won’t heal the pain in my heart.
I need a time machine to go back in time,
To rewrite everything and see you again
I can’t wish for anything more than to hold your hand
Before my memories of you starts to disappear.
Time is slowing down making me feel more alone
Everything is fading, the colors turning black.
I cannot hold life in my hand, and the warmth will soon be cold
Soon everything will be gone and tears will be left in my hands.
I need a time machine, to keep my heart from hurting
I need a time machine to keep your life from slipping.
How many tears do I have to cry?
How many lives does the world need to die?
The last words you said are still echoing,
I hold your picture in my hand
And someone out there is doing the same.
My tears are falling and I know I am not alone.
I need a time machine to g
o back in time
To where you will walk in the room and see you asleep beside me.
I need to see you again before my memories of you are gone
And all that’s left will be photographs buried in the sand.
Where can I find a time machine so I could go back in time?
So I won’t be standing out here in the rain,
Holding a rose in my hand
As they bury your life in the cold land.
When I Cry
When I cry silently at night
Because of all the wounds in my heart
I wonder if there's still a reason to live
When everything feels so bleak.
I hide my heart from anyone
I'm afraid to show it
Unless all the scars will disappear
and all the wounds will heal.
Now I'm older, everyone says their happy for me,
Happy to see I'm grown up
When the truth is
They don't even care.
They never notice the scars in my life
The battered life I'm having
The sadness I'm succumbed in
They never see my tears when I cry.
Nights come and go
I'm feeling like I wanna go
Leave this place
Find some quietness.
But wondering if I end it all
Would that be alright?
Would that change everything
And make things clean?
Everyday I keep on
Trying to survive
Trying to live
Even if sometimes I just wanna leave.
But then I know
Someone sees me,
Someone still cares for me
There's still someone who can hear me.
Every time I cry...
I drop to my knees
I fold my hand
Let the tears flow.
I know HE hears me
I know HE sees me
I know HE loves me
He's there when I cry...
I feel HIS Hands on my shoulder
I feel HIM Carry me
I feel HIS Care, HIS Grace, HIS never ending Love
And know with Jesus I'm safe...
No need to be afraid
Cause GOD is now in my life...
no need for the tears to hide when I cry
God will wipe them all away
and bid my wound and scars away.
Win the Game
When you feel like you're giving up
Don't lose hope, just move on up
Because life's road
