Burnt Offerings

by Laurell K. Hamilton

Chapter 3~5

  3

  When Larry was safely tucked in bed with his Demorol, so deeply asleep that nothing short of an earthquake would have woken him, I made my phone call. I still didn't have the faintest idea who it was, which bothered me. It wasn't just inconvenient, it was unnerving. Who was giving out my private numbers and why?

  The phone didn't even finish a ring before it was picked up. The voice on the other end was male, soft, and panicked. "Hello, hello. "

  All my irritation vanished in a wash of something very close to fear. "Stephen, what's wrong?"

  I heard him swallow on his end of the phone. "Thank God. "

  "What's happened?" I made my voice very clear, very calm, because I wanted to yell at him, to force him to tell me what the hell was going on.

  "Can you come down to St. Louis University Hospital?"

  That got my attention. "How bad are you hurt?"

  "It's not me. "

  My heart slid up into my throat, and my voice came out squeezed and tight. "Jean-Claude. " The moment I said it, I knew it was silly. It was just after noon. If Jean-Claude had needed a doctor, they would have had to come to him. Vampires did not travel well in broad daylight. Why was I so worried about a vampire? I happened to be dating him. My family, devout Catholics, are simply thrilled. Since I'm still a little embarrassed about it, it's hard to defend myself.

  "It's not Jean-Claude. It's Nathaniel. "

  "Who?"

  Stephen's breath went out in a long-suffering sigh. "He was one of Gabriel's people. "

  Which was another way of saying he was a wereleopard. Gabriel had been the leopards' leader, their alpha, until I killed him. Why had I killed him? Most of the wounds he'd given me had healed. It was one of the benefits of the vampire marks. I didn't scar quite so easily anymore. But there was a curl of scars high up on my buttocks and lower back, faint, almost dainty, but I would always have a little reminder of Gabriel. A reminder that his fantasy had been to rape me, to make me cry out his name, then kill me. Though knowing Gabriel, he probably hadn't been so picky on when I died, after, or during--either would have worked for him. As long as I was still warm. Most lycanthropes aren't into carrion.

  I sounded casual about it, even in my own head. But my fingers traced along my back as if I could feel the scars through my skirt. Had to be casual about it. Had to be. Or you start screaming, and you don't stop.

  "The hospital doesn't know Nathaniel's a shapeshifter, do they?" I said.

  He lowered his voice. "They know. He's healing too fast for them not to know. "

  "So why whisper?"

  "Because I'm out in the waiting room on a pay phone. " There was a sound on the other end like he'd had to take the receiver away from his mouth. He muttered, "I'll be off in just a minute. " He came back on. "I need you to come down, Anita. "

  "Why?"

  "Please. "

  "You're a werewolf, Stephen. What are you doing babysitting one of the kitty-cats?"

  "I'm one of the names in his wallet in case of emergencies. Nathaniel works at Guilty Pleasures. "

  "He's a stripper?" I made it a question because he could have been a waiter, but it wasn't likely. Jean-Claude owned Guilty Pleasures, and he would never have wasted a shapeshifter off-stage. They were too damned exotic.

  "Yes. "

  "The two of you need a ride?" It was my day for it, I guess.

  "Yes, and no. "

  There was something in his voice that I didn't like. An unease, a tension. It wasn't like Stephen to be cagey. He didn't play games. He just talked. "How did Nathaniel get hurt?" Maybe if I asked better questions, I'd get better answers.

  "A customer got too rough. "

  "At the club?"

  "No. Anita, please, there's no time. Come down and make sure he doesn't go home with Zane. "

  "Who the hell is Zane?"

  "Another of Gabriel's people. He's been pimping them out since Gabriel died. But he's not protecting them like Gabriel did. He isn't alpha. "

  "Pimping them out? What are you talking about?"

  Stephen's voice rose high and far too cheerful. "Hello, Zane. Have you seen Nathaniel yet?"

  I couldn't really hear the answer, just the buzz of all the people in the waiting room. "I don't think they want him to go just yet. He's hurt," Stephen said.

  Zane must have stepped very close to the phone, very close to Stephen. A low, growling voice came through the wire. "He'll go home when I say he goes home. "

  Stephen's voice held an edge of panic. "I don't think the doctors will like that. "

  "I don't give a shit. Who are you talking to?"

  For his voice to be that clear he had to have Stephen pinned against the wall. Threatening him, without saying anything specific.

  The growling voice was suddenly very clear. He'd taken the phone from Stephen. "Who is this?"

  "Anna Blake, and you must be Zane. "

  He laughed, and it sounded too low, as if his throat were sore. "The wolves' human lupa. Oh, I'm so scared. "

  Lupa was the word the werewolves used for their leader's mate. I was the first human so honored. I wasn't even dating their Ulfric anymore. We'd broken up after I saw him eat somebody. Hey, a girl's got to have some standards.

  "Gabriel wasn't scared of me either. Look where it got him," I said.

  Zane was quiet for a handful of heartbeats. He breathed over the phone like a dog panted, heavy, but not like he was doing it on purpose, more like he couldn't help it. "Nathaniel is mine. Keep off of him. "

  "Stephen isn't one of yours," I said.

  "Does he belong to you?" I could hear cloth moving. A sense of movement on the other end of the phone that I didn't like. "He is sooo pretty. Have you tasted these soft lips? Has this long yellow hair swept over your pillow?"

  I knew without seeing it that he was touching Stephen, caressing him to match the words. "Don't touch him, Zane. "

  "Too late. "

  I gripped the phone tight and forced my voice calm, even. "Stephen's under my protection, Zane. Do you understand me?"

  "What would you do to keep your pet wolf safe, Anita?"

  "You don't want to push that button, Zane. You really don't. "

  He lowered his voice to an almost painful whisper. "Would you kill me to keep him safe?"

  I usually have to meet someone at least once before threatening to kill them, but I was about to make an exception. "Yeah. "

  He laughed, low and nervous. "I see why Gabriel liked you. So tough, so sure of yourself. Sooo dangerous. "

  "You sound like a bad imitation of Gabriel. "

  He made a sound that was somewhere between a hiss and a bah. "Stephen shouldn't have interfered. "

  "Nathaniel's his friend. "

  "I am all the friend he needs. "

  "I don't think so. "

  "I am taking Nathaniel with me, Anita. If Stephen tries to stop me, I'll hurt him. "

  "You hurt Stephen, I hurt you. "

  "So be it. " He hung up.

  Shit. I ran for my Jeep. I was thirty minutes away, twenty if I pushed it a lot. Twenty minutes. Stephen wasn't dominant. He was a victim. But he was also loyal. If he thought Nathaniel shouldn't go with Zane, he'd try and keep him. He wouldn't fight for him, but he might throw his body in front of the car. I had no doubts at all that Zane would drive right over him. Best case scenario. Worst case scenario was Zane would take both Stephen and Nathaniel. If Zane acted as much like Gabriel as he talked, I'd rather have taken my chances with the car.

  4

  My second emergency room in less than two hours. It was a red-letter day even for me. Good news was that none of the injuries were mine. Bad news was that that might change. Alpha or not, Zane was a shapeshifter. They were able to bench-press medium-size elephants. I was not going to arm-wrestle him. Not only would I lose, but he'd probably pull the arm out of my socket and eat it. Most lycanthropes liked to try and pass for human.
I wasn't sure Zane sweated little details like that.

  Yet I didn't want to kill Zane if I didn't have to. It wasn't mercy. It was the thought that he might force me to do it in public. I didn't want to go to jail. The fact that the punishment worried me more than the crime said something about my moral state. Some days I thought I was becoming a sociopath. Some days I thought I was already there.

  I carried silver-plated bullets in my gun at all times. Silver worked on humans, as well as on most supernatural beings. Why keep switching to normal ammo that only did humans and a very few creatures? But a few months ago I'd met a fairie that had damn near killed me. Silver didn't work on fairies, but normal lead did. So I'd taken to keeping a spare clip of regular bullets in the glove compartment. I peeled off the first two rounds of my silver clip and replaced them with lead. Which meant I had two bullets to discourage Zane with, before I killed him. Because, make no mistake, if he kept coming after I'd pumped him full of two Glazer Safety Rounds, which hurt a hell of a lot even if you could heal the damage, the first silver bullet was not going to be aimed to wound.

  It wasn't until I was going through the doors I realized that I didn't know Nathaniel's last name. Stephen's name wasn't going to help me. Damn.

  The waiting room was packed. Women with crying babies, children racing through the chairs belonging to no one, a man with a bloody rag around his hand, people with no visible injury staring dully into space. Stephen was nowhere in sight.

  Screams, the sound of breaking glass; metal clanked to the floor. A nurse ran out of the far hallway. "Get more security, now!" A nurse behind the admittance desk punched buttons on the phone.

  Call it a hunch but I was betting I knew where Stephen and Zane were. I flashed my ID at the nurse. "I'm with the Regional Preternatural Investigation Team. Can I help?"

  The nurse clutched my arm. "You're a cop?"

  "I'm with the police, yes. " Prevarication at its best. As a civilian attached to a police squad you learn how to do that.

  "Thank God. " She started to pull me towards the noise.

  I pulled my arm free and took out my gun. Safety off, pointed at the ceiling, ready to go. With normal ammo I wouldn't have pointed at the ceiling, not with a hospital full of patients above me, but Glazer Safety Rounds aren't called safety rounds for nothing.

  The back area was like every emergency area I'd ever been in. Curtains hung from metal tracks so you could make lots and lots of little individual examining rooms. A handful of curtains were closed, but patients were sitting up, staring through the curtains, watching the show. A wall divided the room down the middle to the corridor, so there wasn't much to see.

  A man wearing green surgical scrubs went flying through the air from around that wall. He smacked into the opposite wall, slid down it heavily, and lay very still.

  The nurse with me ran towards him, and I let her go. What lay beyond, what was tossing doctors around like toys, wasn't a job for a healer. It was a job for me. Two more figures in surgical scrubs lay on the floor, one male, one female. The woman was awake, eyes wide. Her wrist was at a 45 degree angle, broken. She saw my ID clipped to my jacket. "He's a shifter. Be careful. "

  "I know what he is," I said. I lowered the gun just a touch.

  Her eyes flinched, and it wasn't pain. "Don't shoot up my trauma center. "

  "Try not to," I said and moved past her.

  Zane stepped out into the corridor. I'd never seen Zane before, but who else could it be? He was carrying someone in his arms. I thought at first, a woman, because the hair was long and shining brown, but the exposed back and shoulders were too muscular, too male. It had to be Nathaniel. He fit easily into the taller man's arms.

  Zane was about six foot, stretched tall and thin. He wore only a black leather vest on his thin, pale upper body. His hair was cotton-white, cut short on the sides with the top long in moussed spikes.

  He opened his mouth and snarled at me. He had fangs, upper and lower, like a great cat. Sweet Jesus.

  I pointed the gun at him and let out the air in my body until I was still and quiet. I was aiming for a line of shoulder above Nathaniel's still form. At this distance I'd hit it.

  "I'll only ask once, Zane. Put him down. "

  "He's mine, mine!" He took striding steps down the hallway, and I fired.

  The bullet spun him halfway around, and staggered him to his knees. The shoulder I'd hit stopped working, and Nathaniel slid out of his arms. Zane got to his feet with the smaller man tucked under his good arm like a doll. The flesh of his shoulder was already reknitting, rebuilding itself like a fast-forward picture of a flower blooming.

  Zane could have tried to rush past me, to use his speed, but he didn't. He just came walking towards me as if he didn't believe I'd do it. He should have believed.

  The second lead bullet took him square in the chest. Blood exploded out of his pale skin. He fell onto his back, spine bowing, struggling to breathe with a hole the size of a fist in his chest. I went for him, not running, but hurrying.

  I walked wide around him, out of arm's reach, and came up a little behind him, and to the side. The shoulder I'd shot was still limp, his other arm trapped under Nathaniel's body. Zane gasped up at me, brown eyes wide.

  "Silver, Zane, the rest of the bullets are silver. I'll make it a head shot and blow your freaking brains all over this nice clean floor. "

  He finally managed to gasp out, "Won't. " Blood filled his mouth and spilled down his chin.

  I pointed the gun at his face, about eyebrow level. If I pulled the trigger, he was gone. I stared down at this man I'd never met before. He looked young, nowhere close to thirty. A great emptiness filled me. It was like standing in the middle of white noise. I felt nothing. I didn't want to kill him, but I didn't care if I did. It didn't matter to me. It only mattered to him. I let that knowledge fill my eyes. That I didn't give a damn one way or the other. I let him see it, because he was a shapeshifter, and he'd understand what I was showing him. Most people wouldn't. Most sane people anyway.

  I said, "You are going to leave Nathaniel alone. When the police arrive, you are going to do everything they tell you to do. No arguments, no fighting, or I will kill you. Do you understand me, Zane?"

  "Yes," he said, and more blood flowed in a heavy line from his mouth. He started to cry. Tears welled down his bloodstained face.

  Crying? The bad guys aren't supposed to cry.

  "I'm so glad you've come," he said. "I tried to take care of them, but I couldn't. I tried to be Gabriel, but I couldn't be him. " His shoulder had healed enough that he covered his eyes with his hand so we couldn't see him cry, but his voice was thick with tears, as well as blood.

  "I'm so glad you've come to us, Anita. I'm so glad we're not alone anymore. "

  I didn't know what to say. Denying that I was going to be their leader seemed a bad idea with bodies littering the area. If I refused his offer, he might get nasty again and I'd have to kill him. I realized suddenly with something like a physical jolt that I didn't want to kill him. Was it the tears? Maybe. But it was more than that. It was the fact that I'd killed their alpha, their protector, and never given a thought what that might do to the rest of the wereleopards. It had never occurred to me that there was no second in command, no one to fill Gabriel's place. I certainly couldn't be their alpha. I didn't turn furry once a month. But if it would keep Zane from tearing up any more doctors, I could play along for a while.

  By the time the cops arrived, Zane was healed. He'd curled around Nathaniel's unconscious body like it was a teddy bear, still crying. He stroked Nathaniel's hair and muttered over and over, "She'll keep us safe. She'll keep us safe. She'll keep us safe. "

  I think the "she" was me, and I was in way over my head.

  5

  Stephen lay in the narrow hospital bed. His curly blond hair was longer than mine, sweeping across the white pillow. Angry red and pink scars crisscrossed his delicate face. He looke
d like he'd been shoved through a window, which is exactly what had happened. Stephen, who didn't outweigh me by twenty pounds, had stood his ground. Zane had finally shoved him through a wire-mesh safety window. Like shoving someone through a wire cheese grater. If it had been a human being, they'd be dead. Even Stephen was hurt, badly hurt. But he was healing. I couldn't literally see the scars fading. It was like trying to watch a flower bloom. You knew it happened, but you never got to see it. I'd glance back at him, and there'd be one less scar. It was unnerving as hell.

  Nathaniel was in the other bed. His hair was longer than Stephen's. Waist length, I was betting. Hard to judge since I'd only seen him prone. It was the darkest of auburns, almost brown but not. It was a rich, deep mahogany. The hair lay on the white sheets like the pelt of an animal, thick and shining.

  He was pretty rather than handsome, and couldn't have been more than five foot six. The hair helped the illusion of femininity. But his shoulders were disproportionately broad, part weightlifting, but part genetics. He had great shoulders, but they belonged on someone about half a foot taller. He had to be eighteen to strip at Guilty Pleasures. His face was slender, jaw too smooth. He might have been eighteen, but he wasn't much over. Maybe someday he'd grow into the shoulders.

  We were in a semiprivate room on the isolation ward. The floor that most hospitals kept for lycanthropes, vamps, and other preternatural citizens. Anything they thought might be dangerous. Zane would have been dangerous. But the cops had carted him away, wounds nearly healed. His flesh had pushed my bullets out onto the floor like rejected bits of organ. I didn't think we needed the isolation ward for Stephen and Nathaniel. I could be wrong on Nathaniel, but I didn't think so. I trusted Stephen's judgment better than that.

  Nathaniel hadn't regained consciousness. I'd asked what his injuries were, and they told me, because they still thought I was a cop, and I'd saved their asses. Gratitude is a wonderful thing.

  Someone had pretty much gutted Nathaniel. I don't mean just cut open his gut with a knife. I mean opened him up and let his intestines fall onto the floor; they found bits of debris on his intestines. There were signs of severe trauma to other parts of the body. He'd been sexually abused. And yes, a prostitute can be raped. All it takes is saying no. No one, not even a lycanthrope, would agree to being raped while their insides were spilling onto the floor. The rape could have been first, then they tried to kill him. It was a touch less sick done in that order. A touch.

  There were marks on his wrists and ankles like he'd been chained. The marks were rubbed bloody like he'd struggled, and they weren't healing. Which meant that they'd used chains with a high silver content so it would hurt and not just hold. Whoever had done this to him knew ahead of time they'd be getting a lycanthrope. They were prepared. Which raised some very interesting questions.

  Stephen said Gabriel had been pimping the wereleopards out. I understood why people would want something as exotic as a wereleopard. I knew that sadomasochism existed. Shapeshifters could take a hell of a lot of damage. So the combination even made a certain sense. But this was beyond sex games. I'd never heard of anything this brutal outside of a serial-killer case.

  I couldn't leave them alone, unprotected. Even without the threat of sexual murderers, there was still the wereleopards. Zane might have cried and kissed my feet, but there were others. If they had no pack structure, no alpha, they had no one to tell them to leave Nathaniel alone. Without a leader it might be a matter of having to back down or kill each of them individually. Not a pleasant thought. Real leopards don't sweat who's in charge much. They don't have pack structures, but shapeshifters aren't animals, they're people. Which meant no matter how solitary and uncomplicated the animal form, the people half will find a way to screw things up. If Gabriel had hand-picked his people, I couldn't trust that they wouldn't come and try for Nathaniel again. Gabriel had been one sick kitty, and Zane hadn't impressed me much either. Who you gonna call for reinforcements? The local werewolf pack, of course. Stephen was a member of their pack. They owed him protection.

  There was a knock on the door. I took the Browning out and held it on my lap underneath the magazine I'd been reading. I'd managed to find a three-month-old copy of National Wildlife, with an article on Kodiak bears. The magazine hid the gun nicely.

  "Who is it?"

  "It's Irving. "

  "Come in. " I left the gun out, just in case somebody would try to push in behind him. Irving Griswold was a werewolf and a reporter. For a reporter he was a good guy, but he wasn't as careful as I was. When I saw he was alone, then I would put the gun up.

  Irving pushed the door open, smiling. His frizzy brown hair encircled his head like a brown halo with the bald spot gleaming in the middle. Glasses perched on a small nose. He was short and gave the impression of being round without being fat. He looked like anything but a big bad wolf. He didn't even look much like a reporter, which was one of the things that made him such a great interviewer but would probably always keep him from being on-camera material. He worked for the St. Louis Post-Dispatch, and had interviewed me many times.

  He closed the door behind him.

  I put up the gun.

  His eyes widened. He spoke low, but not in a whisper. "How's Stephen?"

  "How did you get in here? There's supposed to be a cop on the door. "

  "Gee, Blake, I'm glad to see you too. "

  "Don't mess with me, Irving. There's supposed to be a guard out there. "

  "He's talking to a very pretty nurse at the desk. "

  "Dammit. " I was not a real cop, so I couldn't go around yelling at them, but it was tempting. There was a law floating around Washington that might give vampire hunters federal badges soon. Sometimes I thought it was a bad idea. Sometimes, I didn't.

  "Talk to me fast before I get kicked out. How is Stephen?"

  I told him. "You don't care about Nathaniel?"

  He looked uncomfortable. "You know that Sylvie is de factopack leader while Richard is out of town working on his master's degree, right?"

  I sighed. "No, I didn't know. "

  "I know you're not talking to Richard since you broke up, but I'd think someone else would have mentioned it. "

  "All the other wolves creep around me like there's been a death. No one talks about Richard to me, Irving. I thought he'd forbidden them to talk to me. "

  "Not to my knowledge. "

  "I'm surprised you didn't come in here asking for a story. "

  "I can't do this story, Anita. It's too close to home. "

  "Because you know Stephen?"

  "Because everyone involved is a shapeshifter and I'm just a mild-mannered reporter. "

  "You really think you'd lose your job if they found out?"

  "Job, hell. What would my mother say?"

  I smiled. "So you can't play bodyguard. "

  He frowned. "You know, I hadn't thought about that. When one of the pack got hurt in public where it couldn't be hidden, Raina always used to ride to the rescue. With her dead, I don't think we have any alphas that aren't hiding what they are. No one I'd trust to guard Stephen, anyway. "

  Raina had been the wolf pack's old lupa before I took the job. Technically the old lupa doesn't have to die to step down, unlike the Ulfric, or King Wolf. But Raina had been Gabriel's playmate. They'd shared certain hobbies, like making pornographic snuff films starring shapeshifters and humans. She'd been helping film while Gabriel tried to rape me. Oh, yeah, Raina had made it a real pleasure to punch her ticket.

  "That's the second time you've ignored Nathaniel," I said. "What gives, Irving?"

  "I told you Sylvie is in charge until Richard gets back in town. "

  "So?"

  "She's forbidden any of us to help the wereleopards in any way. "

  "Why?"

  "Raina used the wereleopards in her porno movies a lot, along with the wolves. "

  "I've seen one of the films. I wasn't impressed. Horrified, but no
t impressed. "

  Irving looked very serious. "She also let Gabriel and the cats punish wayward pack members. "

  "Punish?" I made it a question.

  Irving nodded. "Sylvie was one of the ones who got punished, more than once. She hates them all, Anita. If Richard hadn't forbid it, she'd have used the pack to hunt the leopards down and kill them all. "

  "I've seen what Gabriel and Raina thought was fun and games. I think I'm on Sylvie's side for once. "

  "You cleaned house for us, you and Richard. Richard killed Marcus and now he's Ulfric, pack leader. You killed Raina for us, and now you're our lupa. "

  "I shot her, Irving. According to pack law, so I'm told, using a gun negates the challenge. I cheated. "

  "You're not lupa because you killed Raina. You're lupa because Richard picked you as his mate. "

  I shook my head. "We aren't dating anymore, Irving. "

  "But Richard hasn't picked a new lupa, Anita. Until he does, the job's yours. "

  Richard was tall, dark, handsome, honest, truthful, brave. He was perfect except for being a werewolf. Even that had been forgivable, or so I thought. Until I saw him in action. Saw the whole enchilada. The meat had been raw and squirming, the sauce a little bloody.

  Now I was dating just Jean-Claude. I wasn't sure how much of an improvement dating the head vampire of the city was over dating the head werewolf, but I'd made my choice. It was Jean-Claude's pale, pale hands that held my body. His black hair that curled over my pillow. His midnight-blue eyes that I stared into while we made love.

  Good girls do not have premarital sex, especially with the undead. I didn't think good girls had regrets about ex-boyfriend A, when they've chosen boyfriend B. Maybe I'd been wrong. Richard and I avoided each other when we could. Which had been for most of the last six weeks. Now he was out of town. Easy to avoid each other now.

  "I won't ask what you're thinking about," Irving said. "I think I know. "

  "Don't be so damn smart," I said.

  He spread his hands wide. "Occupational hazard. "

  That made me laugh. "So Sylvie's forbidden anyone to help the leopards. Where does that leave Stephen?"

  "He went against her direct orders, Anita. For someone as low in the pack structure as Stephen, that took guts. But Sylvie won't be impressed. She'll tear him up, and she won't allow anyone to come down and baby-sit them. I know her that well. "

  "I can't do this twenty-four hours a day, Irving. "

  "They'll heal in a day or so. "

  I frowned at him. "I can't sit here for two days. "

  He looked away from me and went to stand beside Stephen's bed. He stared down at the sleeping man, hands clasped in front of him.

  I walked over to them. I touched Irving's arm. "What aren't you telling me?"

  He shook his head. "I don't know what you mean. "

  I turned him around, made him face me. "Talk to me, Irving. "

  "You aren't a shapeshifter, Anita. You aren't dating Richard anymore. You need to get out of our world, not further into it. "

  He looked so serious, solemn, that it scared me. "Irving, what's wrong?"

  He just shook his head.

  I grabbed him by both arms and resisted the urge to shake him. "What are you hiding?"

  "There is a way for you to get the pack to guard Stephen and even Nathaniel. "

  I took a step back. "I'm listening. "

  "You outrank Sylvie. "

  "I'm not a shapeshifter, Irving. I was the new pack leader's girlfriend. I'm not even that anymore. "

  "You're more than that, Anita, and you know it. You've killed some of us. You kill easily and without remorse. The pack respects that. "

  "Gee, Irving, what a rousing endorsement. "

  "Do you feel badly about killing Raina? Did you lose sleep over Gabriel?"

  "I killed Raina because she was trying to kill me. I killed Gabriel for the same reason, self-preservation. So no, I didn't lose any sleep. "

  "The pack respects you, Anita. If you could find some pack members that are already outed as shifters and convince them that you're scarier than Sylvie, they'd guard them, both of them. "

  "I am not scarier than Sylvie, Irving. I can't beat them to a pulp. She can. "

  "But you can kill them. " He said it very quietly, watching my face, searching my expression.

  I opened my mouth, closed it. "What are you trying to get me to do, Irving?"

  He shook his head. "Nothing. Forget I said it. I shouldn't have said it. Get more cops in here and go home, Anita. Just get out of it while you can. "

  "What's going on, Irving? Is Sylvie a problem?"

  He looked at me. His usually cheerful eyes, solemn, thoughtful. He shook his head. "I've got to go, Anita. "

  I grabbed his arm. "You go nowhere until you tell me what's happening. "

  He turned back to me slowly, reluctantly. I let go of his arm and stepped back. "Talk. "

  "Sylvie has challenged everyone higher in the pack than she is, and won. "

  I looked at him. "So?"

  "Do you understand how unusual it is for a woman to fight her way to second in command. She's about five foot six, small-boned. Ask how she's winning. "

  "You're being coy, Irving. That's not like you. I'm not going to play Twenty Questions with you. Just tell me. "

  "She killed the first two people she fought. She didn't have to. She chose to. The next three challenges she made just agreed she was dominant to them. They didn't want to risk being killed. "

  "Very practical," I said.

  He nodded. "Sylvie's always been that. She finally picked one of the inner circle to fight. She's too small to be one of the enforcers; besides I think she was afraid of Jamil, and Shang-Da. "

  "Jamil? Richard didn't drive him out? But he was one of Marcus's and Raina's flunkies. "

  Irving shrugged. "Richard thought the transition would go smoother if he kept some of the old guard in power. "

  I shook my head. "Jamil should have been driven out or killed. "

  "Maybe, but actually Jamil seems to support Richard. I think it really surprised him when he wasn't killed instantly. Richard has earned his loyalty. "

  "I didn't know Jamil had any loyalty," I said.

  "None of us did. Sylvie fought and won the place of Geri, second in command. "

  "She kill for it?"

  "Surprisingly, no. "

  "Okay, so Sylvie's tearing up the pack. She's second in command. Great, so what?"

  "I think she wants to be Ulfric, Anita. I think she wants Richard's job. "

  I stared at him. "There's only one way to be Ulfric, Irving. "

  "To kill the old king," Irving said. "Yeah, I think Sylvie knows that. "

  "I haven't seen her fight, but I've seen Richard fight. He outweighs her by a hundred pounds, a hundred pounds of muscle, and he's good. She can't beat him in a fair fight, can she?"

  "It's like Richard is wounded, Anita. The heart's gone out of him. I think if she challenged and really wanted it, she'd win. "

  "What are you telling me? That he's depressed?" I asked.

  "It's more than that. You know how much he hates being one of the monsters. He'd never killed anyone until Marcus. He can't forgive himself. "

  "How do you know all this?"

  "I listen. Reporters make good listeners. "

  We stared at each other. "Tell me the rest. "

  Irving looked down, then up. "He doesn't discuss you with me. The only thing he said was that even you couldn't accept what he was. Even you, the Executioner, were horrified. "

  It was my turn to look down. "I didn't want to be. "

  "We can't change how we feel," Irving said.

  I met his eyes. "I would if I could. "

  "I believe you. "

  "I don't want Richard dead. "

  "None of us do. I'm afraid of what Sylvie would do without anyone to stop her. " He motioned to th
e other bed. "First order of business would be hunting down all the wereleopards. We'd slaughter them. "

  I took in a deep breath and let it out. "I can't change how I feel about what I saw, Irving. I saw Richard eat Marcus. " I paced the small room, shaking my head. "What canI do to help?"

  "Call the pack and demand that they acknowledge you as lupa. Make some of them come here and guard both of them against Sylvie's express orders. But you have to give them your protection. You have to promise them that she won't hurt them, because you'll see to it that she can't. "

  "If I do that and Sylvie doesn't like it, I'll have to kill her. It's like I'm setting her up to be killed. That's a little premeditated even for me. "

  He shook his head. "I'm asking you to be our lupa. To be Richard's lupa. To show Sylvie that if she keeps pressing, Richard may not kill her, but you will. "

  I sighed. "Shit. "

  "I'm sorry, Anita. I wouldn't have said anything, but . . . "

  "I needed to know," I said. I hugged him, and he stiffened in surprise, then hugged me back.

  "What was that for?"

  "For telling me. I know Richard won't like it. "

  The smile faded from his face. "Richard has punished two pack members since he took over. They challenged his authority, big time, and he nearly killed them both. "

  "What?" I asked.

  "He sliced them up, Anita. He was like someone else, something else. "

  "Richard doesn't do things like that. "

  "He does now, not all the time. Most of the time he's fine, but then he snaps and goes into a rage. I don't want to be anywhere near him when he loses it. "

  "How bad has he gotten?" I asked.

  "He's got to accept what he is, Anita. He's got to embrace his beast, or he's going to drive himself mad. "

  I shook my head. "I can't help him love his beast, Irving. I can't accept it either. "

  Irving shrugged. "It's not so bad being furry, Anita. There are worse things . . . like being the walking dead. "

  I frowned at him. "Get out, Irving, and thanks for telling me. "

  "I hope you're still thankful in a week. "

  "Me, too. "

  Irving gave me some phone numbers and left. Didn't want anyone to stay too long. People might suspect him of being more than just a reporter. No one seemed to worry about my reputation. I raised zombies, slew vampires, and was dating the Master of the City. If people began to suspect me of being a shapeshifter, what the hell difference would it make?

  Three names of submissive pack members who Irving thought were tough enough to play bodyguard and weak enough to be bullied. I didn't want to do this. The pack was based on obedience: punishment and reward, mostly punishment. If the pack members I called refused me, I had to punish them, or I wasn't lupa, wasn't strong enough to back Richard. Of course, he probably wouldn't be grateful. He seemed to hate me now. I didn't blame him. He'd hate me interfering.

  But it wasn't just Richard. It was Stephen. He'd saved my life once and I still hadn't returned the favor. He was also one of those people that was everyone's victim, until today. Yeah, Zane had nearly killed him, but that wasn't the point. He'd put friendship above pack loyalty. Which meant that Sylvie could withdraw pack protection from him. He'd be like the wereleopards, anybody's meat. I couldn't let that happen to him, not if I could stop it.

  Stephen might end up dead. Richard might end up dead. I might have to kill Sylvie. I might have to maim or kill a few pack members to make my point. Might, might, might. Damn.

  I'd never killed before except in self-defense or for revenge. If I put my hat in the ring, it would be premeditated, cold-blooded murder. Maybe not in a technical sense, but I knew what I would be starting in motion. It was like dominoes. They all stayed straight and neat until you hit one of them; then there was no stopping them. I would end up with a pretty pattern on the floor: Richard solidly in power, Stephen and the wereleopards safe, Sylvie backed down, or dead. The first three things were going to happen. It was Sylvie's choice how the last bit turned out. Harsh, but true. Of course, there was one other option. Sylvie could kill me. That would sort of open things up for her again. Sylvie wasn't exactly ruthless, but she didn't let anyone get in her way. We shared that trait. No, I am not ruthless. If I was, I'd have just called Sylvie into a meeting and shot her on the spot. I wasn't quite sociopath enough to do it. Mercy will get you killed, but sometimes it's all that makes us human.

  I made the calls. I chose a man's name first, Kevin, no last name. His voice was thick with sleep, gruff, like he smoked.

  "Who the hell is this?"

  "Gracious," I said, "very gracious. "

  "Who is this?"

  "It's Anita Blake. Do you know who I am?" When trying to be threatening, less is more. Me and Clint Eastwood.

  He was quiet for nearly thirty seconds, and I let the silence build. His breath had sped up. I could almost feel his pulse quickening over the phone.

  He answered like he was used to strange phone calls and pack business. "You're our lupa. "

  "Very good, Kevin, very good. " Condescending is also good.

  He coughed to clear his throat. "What do you want?"

  "I want you to come down to St. Louis University Hospital. Stephen and Nathaniel have been hurt. I want you to guard them for me. "

  "Nathaniel, he's one of the wereleopards. "

  "That's right. "

  "Sylvie's forbidden us to help the wereleopards. "

  "Is Sylvie your lupa?" Questions are great, but only if you know the answers. If you ask questions and the answers surprise you, you look silly. Hard to be threatening when you look ill-informed.

  He was quiet for a second. "No. "

  "Who is?"

  I heard him swallow. "You are. "

  "Do I outrank her?"

  "You know you do. "

  "Then get your butt down here, and do what I ask. "

  "Sylvie will hurt me, lupa. She really will. "

  "I'll see that she doesn't. "

  "You're just Richard's human girlfriend. You can't fight Sylvie, not and live. "

  "You're right, Kevin. I can't fight Sylvie, but I can kill her. "

  "What do you mean?"

  "If she hurts you for helping me, I'll kill her. "

  "You can't mean that. "

  I sighed. "Look, Kevin, I've met Sylvie. Trust me when I say that I could point a gun at her head and pull the trigger. I can and will kill Sylvie if she forces me to. No jokes, no bluffs, no games. " I listened to my voice as I said it. I sounded tired, almost bored, and so serious it was almost frightening.

  "All right, I'll do it, but if you let me down she may kill me. "

  "You have my protection, Kevin, and I know what that means in the pack. "

  "It means I have to acknowledge you as dominant to me," he said.

  "It also means that if anyone challenges you, I can help you fight your battles. Seems like a fair trade. "

  Silence filled the phone lines again. His breathing had slowed, deepened. "Promise me you won't get me killed. "

  "I can't promise that, Kevin, but I can promise that if Sylvie kills you, I'll kill her for you. "

  Silence, shorter this time. "I believe you would. I'll be at the hospital in forty minutes or less. "

  "Thanks, I'll be waiting. "

  I hung up and made the other two calls. They both agreed to come down. I'd drawn a line in the sand with Sylvie on one side and me on the other. She wasn't going to like it, not one little bit. Couldn't blame her. If our places were reversed, I'd have been pissed. But she should have left Richard alone. Irving had said it was like Richard was wounded, like the heart had gone out of him. I'd helped put that wound there. I'd cut his heart into tiny little pieces and danced on them. Not deliberately. My intentions were good, but you know what they say about good intentions.

  I couldn't love Richard, but I could kill for him. Killing was the more practi
cal of the two gifts. And lately I'd become very, very practical.