He sounded as if he knew from personal experience. A sudden thought chilled me. “Michael, there isn’t any chance that . . . I mean, you aren’t . . .”
“Aren’t what?”
I bit my lip. “One of the Old Ones?”
Startled silence, then a sharp bark of laughter. “Gone senile, maybe? Considering my memory problem? That’s good. I’ll have to tell—” He stopped short. “Dammit. Dammit, dammit, dammit.”
“You remembered something.”
“Someone. For an instant I had a face, a name. A friend. I knew he would enjoy the joke, and . . .” He shook his head. “He’s gone now.”
A tightness beneath my breastbone told me I was already too involved with this strange, uprooted man. Still I reached for his hand. “You have a friend here, too.”
His fingers closed around mine. Then, slowly, he lifted my hand to his lips. I tried to pull it back—and couldn’t, for he wouldn’t release me. He pressed a kiss to my fingertips, and his breath was warm. His mouth was warmer.
Then, thank God, he dropped my hand. I gave a little laugh that sounded far too nervous. “You’ve picked up some odd things on the Internet.”
“I didn’t read about that.” He was pleased with himself. “Perhaps it was instinct. I like the way you taste.”
“Yes, well, you taste in a different way than I do. I’m trying not to jump your bones here, Michael. You are not helping.”
“Jump my . . . oh. But I would like very much if you jumped my bones, Molly.”
Now the hard thud of my heart made sense. So did the way my pulse throbbed in tender places, and the hunger rising, rising . . . “I can kill that way, too. If I take too much.”
“But you wouldn’t.”
“That doesn’t make it safe.” For either of us.
“You couldn’t drain me.”
I snorted. “Oh, the sublime confidence of youth.”
“The nodes,” he said patiently. “I draw what I need from the nearest node, either directly or through a ley line. You can’t drain them.”
The nodes? Was that what I’d felt—that sparkling, delicious energy that had flowed when he was healing? Oh, gods, but I wanted to taste that. And him. I wanted Michael. If I could—“Shit.”
“What is it?”
“A cop, the state version. He’s on my tail, flashing his lights.”
“What does that mean?”
“He wants me to pull over. I’m not speeding,” I said grimly. “I haven’t broken any traffic laws. So he has something else in mind, and it probably isn’t good news.”
I had no choice, though. I sure couldn’t outrun him. There was plenty of shoulder, but I don’t put my rig on the shoulder when I can help it. I flashed my lights to let him know I’d seen him, then waited for an exit to come along. While I waited, I briefed Michael on the various other law enforcement agencies, and suggested he let me do the talking.
“You think he is stopping us because the FBI told him to?”
“It seems likely. Unless there’s some other player we don’t know about in this game.” There was an exit for a rest stop coming up, which was perfect. I signaled. The fuzz didn’t bother with a turn signal, just stayed on my bumper as I slowed.
“There may be many players we don’t know about. There were . . . I’m almost sure there were two.”
I stole a glance at him. Sweat gleamed on his forehead. He was staring straight ahead, his gaze fixed on nothing his eyes could see. “Two?” I said softly.
“Who came for me. She—the one who wounded me—and another. At least one other.”
“Do you think she might be the Azá’s goddess?” There was no traffic on the access road. I pulled up into the curve of the rest stop and eased to a stop.
He shrugged. “How can I tell? I don’t remember her clearly, and I know nothing about the Azá’s goddess.”
“I’ll fill you in on her.” I glanced at the side mirror. My tailgating cop was getting out of his car. “Later. Michael, I’ve made some assumptions for you. Maybe I shouldn’t have. The FBI might be able to keep you safe from the Azá. You might not mind it if they found you.”
“No. You are right. I can’t let myself be taken by any government. I’m . . . too much temptation.”
True, but I suspected he didn’t mean it the way I did. “Open the glove box, will you? Oh—it’s this.” I showed him. We had the registration and insurance papers out by the time the cop turned his flashlight on us through the window.
I hit the button to roll it down. “Yes, officer? Would you mind—” I held a hand up. “The light. I can’t see you at all.”
He lowered the flashlight enough for me to see that the face beneath the Smokey Bear hat was young, but he had his cop face down pat. He looked as friendly as stone. “Are there just the two of you in there, ma’am?”
“Yes, me and my nephew.” I held out the papers that proved me to be a law-abiding citizen.
He ignored them. “I need you both to step out of the vehicle, please.”
This was not good. Officers never ask middle-aged ladies to step out of our vehicles for a traffic violation. “What’s wrong?” I made my voice breathy, as if I were frightened. It wasn’t difficult.
“If you’ll just step outside the vehicle, ma’am.”
I glanced at Michael—who had the most peculiar expression on his face. His upper lip was pulled back as if he were about to sneeze, and his eyes were fixed on the officer demanding our exit. “All right,” he said in a thin voice. “I’ve got him.”
“Got—” I swung my head back. “Oh, my.” The stone-faced cop was truly stony now. Frozen.
“What should we do with him?” Michael asked. “I can’t hold him very long.”
Chapter 8
I took a slow breath. Steady, I told myself. You’ve seen stranger things . . . but at the moment I couldn’t think of any. “What did you do to him?”
“I froze him. You can ask him things,” Michael said helpfully. “He won’t remember later, if I tell him not to. But hurry.”
“Ah . . .” I looked at the poor, frozen young man and asked, “Why did you stop me?”
“There’s an APB out,” he said. It was bizarre. His mouth moved, but nothing else. His eyes stayed fixed on a spot near my left shoulder. “For your plate number.”
Great. “Why is there an APB out on my license plate?”
“You’re wanted by the FBI.”
Pete, the rat, had not been sufficiently charmed. He must have made a full report, and now someone in the government wanted to get their hands on Michael. The Unit? Some other corner of the bureaucracy? “This is not good news. Michael, can you make him do more than forget this conversation? Could you make him think he misread the license plate and that I’m someone else altogether?”
“I believe so. He has no shields.” Michael sounded professionally disapproving, like a dentist whose patient hasn’t been flossing.
A couple of long minutes later the trooper spoke again, his gaze still fixed over my left shoulder. “Sorry to bother you, ma’am.” Then, suddenly, he came unstuck. He gave me a brisk nod and headed back to his car.
I slumped back in my seat. “That was weird. That was so weird.” I watched in the rearview mirror as the trooper’s car pulled away. “If I’d known you could do that, I would have gotten you to take care of Pete.”
“I . . . didn’t know I could, either, at that point.”
His voice sounded funny. I straightened and looked at him. His head was tilted back against the headrest, and he was almost as pale as he’d been when I first found him. “Are you okay?”
“It always gives me a headache to do that,” he said absently. “A real mother—”
“Whoa. That’s considered a very rude phrase.”
“Oh. Is the word fuck offensive?”
“Yes, unless you’re actually doing it, or about to do it.”
“Odd. There are several words with a primary or secondary meaning involving copulation tha
t do not offend. At least I don’t think they do. Screw, lay, sleep with, mate, ball—”
“It’s all in the context. Michael? You said ‘always.’ ”
“I remembered . . . a little more.” He turned his head to look at me. In the muted light from the dash, his eyes had an odd sheen, almost reflective. Like cat’s eyes. “I performed the same spell on myself just before I came here. I didn’t know if my transit would be successful, and I couldn’t let them . . . learn from me. So I told myself to forget. But I was rushed. Something went wrong.”
“You forgot too much?”
“I forgot how to get it all back.” The twitch of his lips might have been meant for a smile. “There are seventeen versions of this saying in the various realms: whatever can go wrong, will.”
“We call it Murphy’s Law. You look wrecked.” I unbuckled my seat belt and stood. “I’m going to get you some ibuprofen.”
“This is a remedy for pain?”
“Yes.”
“Good. The nearest ley line is thin, hard to draw from with my head pounding. And the Houston node is too distant to reach directly.”
“Houston has a node?”
“Of course. So many people could not live so closely without one. They would become insane. Though that node is well below the land surface, and the energy is badly scattered. I suspect electricity . . . ah.” His eyes lit up. “You brought me the Coke to drink.”
He had the oddest gaps in his knowledge. I had to show him how to use “the Coke” to swallow pills. Then, abruptly, I shut off the engine and told him I was going outside to think.
THERE’S so little real night left in the Western world. Here, halfway between Houston and San Antonio, the sky was hazy, the stars thin. But the moon was fat and profligate with its borrowed light. I started walking along the curve of road that defined the rest area.
There were trees. I could hear a dog barking somewhere, far in the distance. And all those noisy fireflies on the interstate swishing by, making good time on their way to wherever. The grass was soft beneath my feet and the breeze held a pleasant, green scent, but I missed the smell of the sea.
I ached.
Lord knows I should have been thinking about the fix we were in. I tried, but my intentions kept scattering, then re-forming, lined up behind one thought like iron filings obedient to the pull of the magnet.
I could have him. I could have Michael. He was willing, and I hadn’t seduced him into it. I didn’t have to worry about hurting him.
Not physically, that is. I moved slowly, watching the restless branches of an oak nibble the moon into lace. But that had never been my real worry, had it?
I’d long ago learned control. Whatever vital force I consume—and it’s not the soul; that’s a ridiculous superstition—a healthy body can easily replace it as long as I don’t drink too deeply. Rather like a dairy farmer, I like to think, I dine on what other bodies make naturally, without having to kill for my dinner.
But the worst hurts—the ones that don’t heal—aren’t physical.
I stopped and looked up at the hazy sky. I’ve had plenty of time to puzzle out the moral limits of my condition, and ended up with something similar to the Wiccan code. I try to do no harm. This means I leave married men alone. Also those who show signs of real emotional involvement, those too young to make responsible choices, and men too old or infirm to afford the loss of what I would drain from them.
Michael wasn’t depleted by his wounds anymore. He was young, but not so young he had to be protected from his own choices. I stared up at a moon a few bumps past full, tucked my hair behind my ear, and admitted the truth. I wasn’t worried about the consequences for Michael. I probably should be, but mostly I was afraid for myself.
I was so tired of leaving. That didn’t mean I’d like to be the one left behind . . . and this wasn’t his world.
Dammit. Dairy farmers don’t fall in love with their cows.
The light in the rig came on behind me. I turned and watched Michael step down, close the door behind him, and restore the semblance of darkness. He walked towards me and my mouth went dry. “Is your headache better?”
“Almost gone.” He spoke low, as if someone might overhear. “Have you finished your thinking?”
“I haven’t accomplished much.” I hugged my arms to myself, though the breeze wasn’t cold. “I guess we could steal a license plate, if we get a chance before the next cop spots us.”
He moved closer. “It’s the numbers on the license plate that give us away? I can fix that.”
That jolted me. “You can do that? Change the plates?” Transformative magic was supposed to be impossible for anyone short of an adept—and there hadn’t been any adepts since the Codex Arcanus was lost, long before even I was born. But Michael wasn’t from here, was he?
“It would be easier to throw an illusion over them. I can cast one that will fool almost anyone here.” He put his hands on my arms. “You are chilly?”
“No. Yes.” Step back, I told myself. And didn’t move. “You’re remembering more.”
“Pieces.” He stroked his hands up and down my arms slowly, looking intently at my face. “Are you warming?”
Oh, yes. “Could you cast a bigger illusion? Make the design on the Winnebago beige, for example, instead of blue?”
“Yes. And then we could continue on our way. But I don’t want to.” His hands slid up to my shoulders. He moved even closer.
Those iron filings were all lined up, pointing right at him. I suspected my nipples were, too. My body longed for him. I was firm with it—firm enough, at least, not to reach for the sweet, serious face so close to mine. “You don’t understand the dangers. We—we need to—Michael? What are you doing?”
“I like looking at your hair. I’ve been wanting to touch it.” And he was, drawing his hands slowly along the length of it, then tucking his fingers in so that he cradled my head in his hands. “So cool and soft . . . you have smiling hair, Molly.”
It was getting hard to remember to breathe. “Smiling?”
“Every little hair smiles itself into curls.” Yet he abandoned my hair for my face, tracing it with the tips of his fingers, leaving tingles in his wake like the phosphorescence that trails a ship. “Your skin is soft, too. But much warmer.”
“Michael.” I tried to sound indignant. It came out husky. “Are you seducing me?”
“God, I hope so.” And he bent his head.
His mouth was a little sweet, a little salty, and wholly inexperienced. With a sigh, I abandoned all my shoulds and shouldn’ts. Reason floated away with them, carried off on a warm, gentle tide. I tilted my head, slid my arms around him, and showed him how well we could fit.
As always, Michael was a fast study. And he adored kissing.
He had no inhibitions, no cultural context for a right way and a wrong way to touch. So he touched me everywhere. My back, my breasts, my shoulders—every part of my body fascinated him. He nuzzled my hair and licked the tip of my nose, making me giggle. Then he kissed me as if he had no thought of doing anything else, ever again.
If there’s anything more seductive than a man who knows how to kiss, it’s a man who puts his whole heart and soul into learning. Finally I pulled my mouth away. “There’s a bed.” I whispered that, hoping to hide the way my voice shook. “Back in the rig.”
“Mmm.” He was sniffing along my neck, pausing now and then to lick or nibble. “I don’t require a bed. Oh.” He raised his head. “Perhaps you do?”
My laugh was breathless. “I’m not sure I could make it there. Here is fine.” I tugged on his hand, urging him to the earth with me. “Here is wonderful.”
I have all the arts, every skill a woman can use on a man. I was as giddy and awkward as a girl being tumbled in the meadow by the young man she’s been walking out with. Together we rediscovered the mysteries of zippers and shoes, removed socks and t-shirts, and made a nest in the long grass on the side of the road.
Then we were skin-to-ski
n, and hunger turned from a sweet tide to a roaring torrent. His body was a dream and a delight, but I had no patience left to savor it. Energy rose from his flesh like mist around a waterfall, swirling, tempting, teasing without filling me. My own skin was hot and desperately sensitive. When he licked my nipple I arched up, then pulled him fully over me. His weight pinned me, anchored me. His cock was thick and blunt, uncircumcised. It twitched against my stomach. “Now,” I said. “I need you. I need you inside me, Michael.”
“You have me. Take what you need. All that you need.” He propped himself up on his elbows, staring down at me, his face tight with his own need. “Tell me what to do.”
“Like this.” I opened my legs, using my hands to urge his hips forward. His body knew, even if his mind didn’t. The swirling energy sucked at me, setting up answering tremors in my body, as my blood, bones, and flesh answered the call of an unseen tide. “Come in. Come inside.”
He thrust. Came into me. And the currents entered with him, and swallowed me.
Sex is God’s way of reminding us not to take ourselves so seriously. There are a thousand ways to arrange two sweaty, straining bodies. Each has its own pleasures, and each is as absurd as it is delightful. Passion—real passion—is different, and rare. It grabs you by the throat and shakes you like a terrier with a rat. Then it flings you off, across the abyss.
If you’re lucky, you don’t break when you land. If you’re very lucky, you don’t land alone.
I landed sobbing . . . held safe in Michael’s arms.
He was stroking my hair, my side, my hand as I came back to myself. It took a moment for his quiet murmurs to settle into words. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Please don’t . . . what is wrong, Molly? Tell me, querida, mío tesoro, a chuisle mo chroj. Let me make it better.”
I turned my head, which rested on his shoulder. “It’s nothing. I’m all right.”
“I have heard of happy tears, but this . . .” His thumb rubbed some of the dampness from my cheek. “ . . . is not happiness.”
It wasn’t so hard, after all, to smile. I shifted, propping up on one forearm so I could see his face. “Have you ever been around an overstimulated two-year-old?”
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