But in his imagination, Antonia didn’t flee the animal stalking her. She stayed where she was, as he knew she would. It wasn’t her lack of vision. She would feel the coarse fur of the wolf. Feel his sharp teeth if he delicately pressed them against her neck or her shoulder or her breast.
She wouldn’t fear the wolf. She had waited in the dark for him. When he had walked into her hallway, she had called out his name.
And now, as he watched, the back door of the house opened, and he went still, seeing her emerge from the interior as though he had called out to her.
She was holding a white cane that he hadn’t seen in her hand before. She’d moved so confidently through her own house. But out here, she must feel less assured.
She stood for a moment and lifted her head, the silver streak in her dark hair drawing him like a beacon.
In an unconsciously sexy gesture she swept back her hair with one hand, then swung her cane along the landing and each step before she walked down and stood at ground level. Raising her head, she sniffed the wind, much as she had in his vision of her on the beach. She was silent for several heartbeats, then she turned her head toward him.
He felt goose bumps prickle his arms. If he didn’t know better, he would swear she was staring at him.
In a voice that wasn’t quite steady, she asked, “Are you there?”
Chapter 6
GRANT cleared his throat before answering, “Who were you expecting?”
“I hoped it wasn’t Scott Wright out here.”
“Why?” he challenged.
She delicately lifted one shoulder. “I don’t like him.”
“What if I came back to pack my things and leave?” he asked roughly.
He saw her swallow. “Why? Are you afraid of a blind woman?”
He managed a gruff laugh. “Don’t use your lack of sight as a shield.”
“It’s not a shield. It’s a handicap.”
Shoving his hands into his pockets, he answered, “Not for you.”
She gestured with the white cane in her right hand. “Because I work pretty hard to hide my defects.”
“And you compensate very well. You see things other people miss. That can make the rest of us uncomfortable.”
He watched Antonia lick her lips. She’d done it before. Probably the gesture was unconscious, but he couldn’t take his eyes off the pink tip of her tongue.
“Yes,” she said in a soft voice. “The cards give me insights about people. But that’s not the major thing that’s bothering you—where I’m concerned.”
SHADOW Man sat in his car, watching the scene unfold at the back door of the bed and breakfast. He hadn’t seen the man until the guy had started talking to Antonia. Somehow he had walked up to the house in the darkness, then appeared like a creature out of the mist.
That was spooky. But it wasn’t the only thing about this fellow that worried him. His name was Grant Marshall, and that was a very bad piece of news.
Two years ago, Shadow Man had killed a woman in Fairfield, Pennsylvania, with the last name of Marshall.
The husband had gone missing not long after the murder—which had made the cops suspicious. Then he’d come back looking like he’d been living in the woods and explained that grief had driven him a little crazy.
The cops had investigated him up the wazoo. Too bad he’d been out of town with people from his company—and there hadn’t been time for him to drive home and poison his wife, then make it back to his associates.
But more importantly, too bad he was in Sea Gate now.
That couldn’t be a coincidence. He must be here because he knew too much for his own good. And maybe he was telling Antonia things unfit for a woman’s ears.
Very quietly, Shadow Man rolled down the window and leaned forward. The wind had shifted, making it easier for him to hear the conversation. He wanted to pick up more, but he couldn’t get any closer. He couldn’t risk them knowing he was there.
His gaze absorbed Antonia. She was standing near the door with the moonlight shimmering off the silver streak in her hair. It made her look weird, and she didn’t even know that.
Tomorrow or the next day, he could get close to her. No problem. He knew her habits, because he’d studied her; the way he’d studied a lot of the women in town. She went to the grocery store a couple of times a week—and brought her purchases home in one of those rolling carts that old ladies used. He could come sweeping around the corner and mow her down when she was crossing the street, if he wanted. That would be his fallback plan. But it would be better to get rid of Grant Marshall and Antonia Delarosa together—and make it look like Marshall had come to town, wigged out, and killed them both.
“OH yeah? What do you think is bothering me?” Grant asked Antonia.
“Do you really want to talk about it? Out here?”
He had built up lifelong habits of secrecy. Now she was reminding him of what he should have remembered.
“You’re right. Let’s go back inside,” he said.
He walked up the steps and into the house, making sure that no part of his body brushed against hers. Then he waited, with his pulse pounding, for her to follow him.
Silently, she folded up her white cane and placed it in one of the pantry drawers, then walked into the kitchen.
“What do you know about wolves?” he asked, following her through the doorway, wondering what it would take to make her as uncomfortable as he felt. He hadn’t talked to Marcy about wolves until after he’d ruthlessly seduced her. Now he was doing the exact opposite.
“Not much,” she answered, sounding calm, yet he detected a quaver of emotion below the smooth surface of her demeanor.
“I read a lot about them when I was a teenager. When I was nineteen, I took a trip to Wyoming,” he said in a conversational voice. “I watched a pack for a few days.”
“As a man?” she asked in a steady voice.
“Yes. For some reason, they let me get close.”
“They must have sensed you were no threat to them.” She looked like she was about to say more, then stopped.
He nodded, realized she couldn’t see the automatic gesture, and went on quickly, clutching the shirt and pants from the beach that he was still holding in his arms. “They had one leader—one alpha male. And all the others were subservient to him.” Before she could comment, he plowed ahead. “That was true of me and my brothers when we were young. We obeyed our father automatically—until we hit our teens.”
She interrupted him with a question he assumed she wouldn’t be bold enough to ask. “That’s when you first . . . changed.”
“Yeah. That’s when we do it. A couple of my brothers didn’t make it. They died in the process.”
“I’m sorry.”
“It was hard on my mother,” he said bluntly.
She didn’t ask why he was being so specific—and so stark. Probably she knew why he was presenting the reality of his life in the darkest possible terms.
“We leave home when we’re old enough to challenge the leader. Like my own dad did when he was a teenager.”
She bent her face away from him. “You mentioned your brothers. What about sisters?”
“My mom was lucky enough to have only one girl—because they die at birth. That’s another fact of life in my family.”
Still with her face averted, she asked, “You mean, there are no women—like you?”
“No.”
“That must be hard. I mean about your sister dying,” she said with a hitch in her voice.
“It’s hard on the woman who marries one of us,” he clipped out. He would have met her gaze now if she could have looked at him. He’d thought the conversation was going to make her back away. Instead, she was still standing there, acting like they were discussing some ordinary dysfunctional family.
“Grant . . .”
“I’m sorry. I can’t do this any longer.” He flung the last part of the phrase over his shoulder as he made for the stairs, fleeing the woman s
tanding inside her back door.
He strode into his bedroom and leaned against the door, feeling as though he’d run a ten-mile race.
He needed to think of Marcy. Of her amazing hazel eyes that had smiled at him with such warmth. Of the bouncing golden curls that he’d twined around his fingers. Of her long, silken neck that she’d arched for his kisses. Of the way she looked in a chenille robe fixing eggs for herself in the morning and rare steak for him.
To his horror, he found that the images were not as sharp in his mind as he wanted them to be.
His father had told him that once he found his life mate, no other woman would satisfy him. That was the way it was among the males of his species. Probably they bonded with one woman so strongly because they had to stay around to coach their sons through the first change from man to wolf.
He hadn’t been looking for a mate. He’d met Marcy Hammersmith by pure chance. Although she’d had a degree in biochemistry, she’d been working as a county site inspector, and she’d come out to certify some lots where he was planning to build. He’d known from the moment he saw her that she was the woman who was going to change his life forever.
He used every ounce of charm he possessed to ruthlessly seduce her. Then he waited weeks before he could bring himself to tell her the truth about his dual nature. She hadn’t run from him, maybe because she no longer had a choice.
He’d had six months of honeymoon bliss with Marcy. Then a sadistic killer ripped his joy to shreds.
He wanted to step out of the bedroom now and shout at the woman who thought she could accept the wolf so easily.
He wanted to tell her every dark, horrible thing he had ever done. You think you know me, but you don’t. You should have seen me after my wife died. I went crazy. I rampaged through the woods bringing down Bambi. How do you like that image?
He sucked in a sharp breath and let it out, then pushed away from the door. In the bathroom, he splashed icy water on his face, the small punishment a reminder of why he was here.
To stop a killer. And then to end his own pain.
And he couldn’t let Antonia Delarosa take his attention from that purpose.
GRANT considered staying in his room the next morning until the shops in town were open. He’d start with the real estate office, then try the dry goods store again. The plan lasted until the smell of peppermint tea wafting up the steps lured him out of his bedroom.
When he walked into the kitchen Antonia was dressed in a flowing silk bathrobe, and he wondered who had picked the blue and green paisley print, since the color looked so good on her.
She was tending a pan, cooking corned beef hash. A bowl of applesauce sat on the kitchen table.
He lingered in the doorway again, observing her efficient movements, feeling guilty that watching her gave him secret pleasure.
“Did you sleep well?” she asked, half turning.
“Yeah,” he answered, matching the neutral tone of her voice. If she could act like they hadn’t been on the verge of making love the first time they’d kissed, he could do it, too.
“Do you like hash? And applesauce?”
“Yes,” he answered, thinking she wouldn’t know if he didn’t take much of the fruit.
He poured himself a mug of tea and got out cutlery, staying out of her way. But a question kept turning itself around in his mind. Into the silence, he asked, “Can the cards tell me who murdered my wife?”
“I don’t think so.”
“Why not?” he pressed, then immediately regretted the sharp tone of his voice.
“I’m not a fortune-teller. I can see things in the tarot. But I’d be unlikely to identify a specific individual.”
“You said you knew the wolf was coming.”
She moved her spoon around in the hash. The degree of resistance must have told her it was done, because she took the pan off the heat, then reached to turn off the burner. After it gave a faint click, she raised her head toward him.
“Because he invaded the cards,” she answered, her voice telling him she didn’t want to elaborate. After dishing some hash onto two plates, she carried them to the table.
They sat across from each other, pushing food around, neither eating much.
“When I first got here, you said you could help me find the killer,” he finally said. “I’d like to see if the cards give me any clues.”
Her shoulders stiffened, but she said, “All right.”
He cleared away the half-empty dishes, and she carefully wiped off the table and dried it, then washed and dried her hands, and he wondered if she was stalling. But finally, she got a deck of cards out of a nearby drawer.
“We can do a Celtic cross,” she said in a strangely detached voice. “Or a seven-card spread.”
“Whatever you think is best.”
She kept her gaze down as she handed him the cards, and their skin touched for the first time since the night before. Quickly he pulled his hand back.
“You shuffle,” she said, her voice tight.
“How much?”
“As much as you want. Until you’re satisfied.”
He did as she asked, then set the pack down. She turned over the first card and he saw a man poling a small boat with two shrouded figures in the front. A bunch of swords were in the background. The next card said Ace of Wands and showed a disembodied hand holding a branch with leaves. The name was at the top, but the picture was upside down. The next was called the Star and showed a naked woman kneeling by a pool pouring water from two jugs. Next came the five of Cups, featuring a mournful-looking figure.
Antonia kept her head bent, touching the braille markings on each card as she laid it out, working slowly and carefully.
When she’d arranged all seven, she sat with her shoulders hunched.
“What does it mean?” he finally asked.
She didn’t answer, and he felt his heart rate accelerate. Reaching across the table, he cupped her shoulder to get her attention.
“Just say it,” he demanded.
Slowly she raised her face, and he saw tears glistening in her eyes.
“What? Am I going to fail? What?” he demanded, giving her shoulder a shake because he couldn’t cope with the idea that she was holding back information for his own good.
Chapter 7
“LORD, I don’t know,” Antonia answered in a barely audible whisper. Then more sharply, her voice cracking, “I don’t know! It’s all a blur in my mind.”
She stood up abruptly, sending her chair flying. “I’m just going through the motions,” she whispered. “I can’t tell you a damn thing because the cards have stopped working for me.” The last part came out in a sob as she tried to flee from the room. But the chair had landed on its side, with its legs sticking out like a fence. When they tangled in the skirt of her robe, she lost her balance and started to pitch forward.
Grant was already out of his chair. Surging around the table, he reached for her, and she landed heavily against him, with a small sound of surprise.
“It’s okay. I’ve got you,” he murmured.
“Let me go,” she cried out, the plea thick with anguish.
When she tried to push away, he gathered her closer. “Don’t.”
She was still protesting, but he could barely hear her words above the roaring in his ears. He had forgotten why she was in his arms. The part of his mind that was still functioning told him he should loosen his grip on her. But it had become impossible to break the contact, as though the flowing folds of her robe had magically twined themselves around his legs, holding him where he was.
She was shaking, and he tried to comfort her, stroking his hands over the silky fabric on her shoulders.
“It’s all right. It’s all right,” he whispered, not sure of what he meant.
But the light touch of his hands on silk abraded his fingertips, sending sensual messages through his body. And he found that she wasn’t the only one shaking.
“Grant?” She spoke his name, but the wor
d was muffled against his shoulder.
Her scent, the feel of her body, the taste of her skin as he pressed his lips to the side of her face had seeped into his senses, driving him beyond reason.
She raised her head, her eyes still glistening. He knew she couldn’t see him, yet he felt the intensity of her gaze.
One of her hands lifted, and slowly, slowly touched his face, stroking over his cheeks, his brows, his nose, then down to his lips, the light touch holding as surely as a magic spell.
“I wanted to know what you looked like,” she whispered, “So badly. The worst part is that I can’t see you smile. Do you ever smile?”
“There haven’t been many reasons to . . . recently,” he answered.
The look of anguish in her eyes tore at him.
“I’ve lost my gift,” she said with a terrible finality. “I see the pictures on the cards, but I can’t sort out what they mean. It’s . . . gone.”
“No.”
“What would you call it?” she asked in a broken voice.
“You’re upset. By me.”
“By your pain,” she said.
He wanted to transform every drop of her sadness to rays of sunshine. And it hurt to know that nothing he could say would make a difference.
But there was something he could do to wipe the despair from her face. Telling himself he had no other choice, he lowered his mouth to hers.
Did he mean to give her comfort, or gratify himself? All he knew was that her taste was intoxicating. A heady combination of wisdom and power and sweetness. And he recognized at the instant of contact that one draft would never be enough. Not near enough.
He was instantly hot and hard and needy. On a surge of hunger, he increased the pressure of his lips on hers, deepening the kiss, drinking in her eager response.
She murmured something incoherent, sliding her hands up and down his back and into his hair.
Tensions held too long in check clamored for release. Taking a step back, he brought her with him, leaning against the counter so he could equalize their heights, bringing his straining erection into the cradle of her hips.
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