by Robert Hass
had been crushed expensively. one summer
by that waterfall I saw a hummingbird,
a calliope, hovering and glistening
above the water’s spray and the hemlock,
then dropping down into it and rising
and wobbling and beating its furious wings
and dropping again and rising and glistening. The others
should be there by now, and it’s possible the bird
is back this year. They’d have made their way
down the dusty trail and over the ledge of granite
to the creek’s edge and that cascade of spray.
For C.R.
What do you mean you have nothing?
You can’t have nothing. Aren’t there three green apples
on the table in an earth-brown bowl? Weren’t there
three apples for three goddesses in the story
and the fellow had to pick—no, there was one apple
and three goddesses, as in the well-known remark
that all of politics is two pieces of cake
and three children. Aren’t there three yellow roses
on the counter in a clear glass vase among purple spikes
of another flower that resembles a little
the Nile hyacinth you saw in lush borders
along the green canal at Puerto Escondido?
Do you remember Juan called them “Lent flowers,”
which made you see that the white gush of the calyx
was an eastering, and you looked at Connie
with her shaved head after chemo and her bright,
wide eyes that wanted to miss nothing,
and do you remember that the surface of the water
came suddenly alive: a violent roiling and leaping
of small fish, and Juan, pointing into the water
at what had got them leaping, shouted “Barracuda,”
and that the young pelicans came swooping in
to practice their new awkward skill of fishing
on the small, terrified, silvery river fish? And
the black-headed terns, a flock of them,
joined in, hovering and plunging like needles
into the churning water? All in one explosion:
green lagoon, barracuda, silver fish, brown pelicans,
plunging terns, Juan’s laugh, appalled, alive,
and Connie’s wide blue eyes and the river smell
coming up as the water quieted again. of course,
there were three apples, one for beauty,
and one for terror, and one for Connie ’s eyes
in the quiet after, mangrove swallows in the air,
shy, white-faced ibises foraging among the hyacinths.
Late afternoons in June the fog rides in
across the ridge of pines, ghosting them,
and settling on the bay to give a muted gray
luster to the last hours of light and take back
what we didn’t know at midday we’d experience
as lack: the blue of summer and the dry spiced scent
of the summer woods. It’s as if some cold salt god
had wandered inland for a nap. You still see
herons fishing in the shallows, a kingfisher or an osprey
emerges for a moment out of the high, drifting mist,
then vanishes again. And the soft, light green leaves
of the thimbleberry and the ridged coffeeberry leaves
and the needles of the redwoods and pines look more sprightly
in the cool gray air with the long dusk coming on,
since fog is their natural element. I had it in mind
that this description of the weather would be a way
to say things come and go, a way of subsuming
the rhythms of arrival and departure to a sense
of how brief the time is on a summer afternoon
when the sun is warm on your neck and the world
might as well be a dog sleeping on a porch, or a child
for whom an afternoon is endless, endless. Time:
thick honey, and no one saying good-bye.
AUGUST NOTEBOOK: A DEATH
1. River Bicycle Peony
I woke up thinking abouy my brothr’s body.
that q That was my first bit of early morning typing
so the first dignity, it turns out, is to get the spelling right.
I woke up thinking about my brother’s body.
Apparently it’s at the medical examiner’s morgue.
I found myself wondering whether he was naked
yet and whose job it was to take clothes off
and when they did it. It seemed unnecessary
to undress his body until they performed the exam
and that is going to happen later this morning
and so I found myself hoping that he was dressed
still, though smell may be an issue, or hygiene.
When the police do a forced entry for the purpose
of a welfare check and the deceased person is alone,
the body goes to the medical examiner’s morgue
in the section for those deaths in which no evidence
of foul play is involved, so the examination
for cause of death is fairly routine. Two policemen,
for some reason I imagine they were young,
found my brother. His body was in the bed
which was a mattress on the floor. He was lying
on his back, according to Angela, my brother’s friend,
who lives nearby and has her own troubles
and always introduced herself as my brother’s
personal assistant, and he seemed peaceful.
There would have been nothing in the room
but the mattress and a microwave, an ashtray,
I suppose, cartons and food wrappers he hadn’t
thrown away and the little plastic subscription
bottles that he referred to as his ’scrips.
They must have called the ME’s ambulance
and that was probably a team of three.
When I woke, I visualized this narrative
and thought it would be shorter. I thought
that what would represent my feelings
would be the absence of metaphor.
But then, at the third line, I discovered
the three line stanza and that it was
going to be the second dignity. So
I imagine he is in one of those aluminium
cubicles I’ve seen in the movies,
dressed or not. I also imagine that,
if they undressed him, and perhaps washed
his body or gave it an alcohol rub
to disinfect it, that that was the job
of some emigrant from a hot, poor country.
Anyway, he is dressed in this stanza,
which mimics the terza rima of Dante’s comedy
and is a form that Wallace Stevens liked
to use, and also my dear friend Robert.
And “seemed peaceful” is a kind of metaphor.
2. Sudden and Grateful Memory of Mississippi John Hurt
Because I woke again thinking of my brother’s body
and why anyone would care in some future
that poetry addresses how a body is transferred
from the medical examiner’s office,
which is organized by local government
and issues a certificate establishing that the person
in question is in fact dead and names the cause
or causes, to the mortuary or cremation society,
most of which are privately owned businesses
and run for profit and until recently tended
to be family businesses with skills and decorums
passed from father to son, and often quite ethnically
specific, in a country like ours made from crossers
of borders, as if, i
n the intimacy of death,
some tribal shame or squeamishness or sense
of propriety asserted itself so that the Irish
buried the Irish and the Italians the Italians.
In the south in the early years of the last century
it was the one business in which a black person
could grow wealthy and pass on a trade
and a modicum of independence to his children.
I know this because Judith wrote a piece about it
for which she interviewed fourth-generation
African-American morticians in oakland
whose grandfathers and great-grandfathers
had buried the dead in cotton towns on the Delta
or along the Brazos River in Texas, passing on
to their children who had gone west an order
of doing things and symbolic forms of courtesy
for the bereaved and sequences of behavior
at wakes and funerals, so that, for example,
the eldest woman in the maternal line
entered the chapel first, and what prayers
were said in what order. During Prohibition
they even sold the white lightning to the men
who were allowed to slip outside and take a nip
and talk about the dead while the cries
and gospel-song-voiced contralto moans
of grief that could sound like curious elation
rose inside. Also the rules for burial or burning.
Griefs and rituals and inside them cosmologies.
And I thought of Mississippi John Hurt’s
great song about Louis Collins and its terrible
tenderness which can’t be reproduced here
because so much of it is in the picking
of the six-string guitar and in his sweet,
reedy old man’s voice: “And when they heard
that Louis was dead,
all the women dressed in red.
Angels laid him away.
They laid him six feet under the clay.
Angels laid him away.”
3.
You can fall a long way in sunlight.
You can fall a long way in the rain.
The ones who don’t take the old white horse
take the morning train.
When you go down
into the city of the dead
with its whitewashed walls and winding alleys
and avenues of autumnal lindens and the heavy bells
tolling by the sea, crowds
appear in all directions,
having left their benches and tiered plazas,
laying aside their occupations of reverie
and gossip and the memory of breathing—
at least in the most reliable stories,
which are the ones the poets tell—
to hear what scraps of news they can
from this world where the air is thin
at high altitudes and smells of pine
and of almost perfect density in the valleys
where trees on summer afternoons sometimes
throw violet shadows across sidewalks.
only the arborist in the park never stirs
for the new arrivals; he is not incurious,
but he has his work. It is he who decides
which limbs get lopped off
in the city of the dead.
You can fall a long way in sunlight.
You can fall a long way in the rain.
The ones who don’t take the old white horse
take the evening train.
4.
Today his body is consigned to the flames
and I begin to understand why people
would want to carry a body to the river’s edge
and build a platform of wood and burn it
in the wind and scatter the ashes in the river.
As if to say, take him, fire, take him, air,
and, river, take him. Downstream. Downstream.
Watch the ashes disappear in the fast water
or, in a small flaring of anger, turn away, walk back
toward the markets and the hum of life, not quite
saying to yourself There, the hell with it, it’s done.
I said to him once, when he’d gotten into some scrape
or other, “You know, you have the impulse control
of a ferret.” And he said, “Yeah? I don’t know
what a ferret is, but I get greedy. I don’t mean to,
but I get greedy.” An old grubber’s beard, going gray,
a wheelchair, sweats, a street person’s baseball cap.
“I’ve been thinking about Billie Holiday, you know
if she were around now, she ’d be nothing. You know
what I mean? Hip-hop? Never. She had to be born
at a time when they were writing the kind of songs
and people were listening to the kind of songs
she was great at singing.” And I would say,
“You just got evicted from your apartment,
you can’t walk and you have no money, so
I don’t want to talk to you about Billie Holiday
right now, okay.” And he would say, “You know,
I’m like Mom. I mean, she really had a genius
for denial, don’t you think? And the thing is,
you know, she was a pretty happy person.”
And I would say, “She was not a happy person.
She was panicky, crippled by guilt at her drinking,
and she was evasive to herself about herself,
and so she couldn’t actually connect with anybody,
and her only defense was to be chronically cheerful.”
And he would say, “Worse things than cheerful.”
Well, I am through with those arguments,
except in my head, and not through, I see, with the habit—
I thought this poem would end downriver downriver—
of worrying about where you are and how you’re doing.
VARIATIONS ON A PASSAGE IN EDWARD ABBEY
A dune begins with an obstacle—a stone, a shrub, a log,
anything heavy enough to resist being moved by wind.
This obstacle forms a wind shadow on its leeward side,
making eddies in the currents, now fast, now slow, of the air,
exactly as a rock in a stream causes an eddy in the water.
Within the eddy the wind moves with less force and less velocity
than the airstreams on either side, creating what geologists call
the surface of discontinuity. And it is here that the wind
tends to drop part of its load of sand. The sand particles,
which hop or bounce along the earth before the wind,
begin to accumulate,
creating a greater eddy in the air currents
and capturing still more sand.
It’s thus a dune is formed.
viewed in cross section, sand dunes display a characteristic profile.
on the windward side the angle of ascent is low and gradual—
twenty to twenty-five degrees from the horizontal. on the leeward side
the slope is much steeper, usually about thirty-four degrees—
the angle of repose of sand and most other loose materials.
The steep side of the dune is called the slip face
because of the slides
that occur as sand is driven up the windward side
and deposited on or just over the crest.
The weight of the crest
eventually becomes greater than can be supported by the sand beneath,
so the extra sand slumps down the slip face
and the whole dune
advances in the direction of the prevailing wind, until some obstacle
like a mountain intervenes.
This movement, this grand slow march
across t
he earth’s surface, has an external counterpart in the scouring
movement of glaciers,
and an internal one in the movement of grief
which has something in it of the desert’s bareness
and of its distances.
THE BUS TO BAEKDAM TEMPLE
The freeway tracks the Han River, which flows
west out of the mountains we are heading toward.
This morning it is river-colored, gray-green,
streaked with muddy gold, and swift. August,
an overcast morning after rain, the sky one shade
of pearl and the sheen of the roadside puddles
is so empty it seems to steady the world
like the posture of zealous young monks.
SONG OF THE BORDER GUARD
When I sat in the square in Cuernavaca
outside the Church of the Conquistador,
wondering if Malinche had ever loved Cortés
and watching the streams of people go by
in their white shirts and blouses in the heat
and the brightly colored cellophane papers
in which small candies are wrapped and unwrapped
being blown about in the slight breeze,
what was all that racket in the trees?
Boat-tailed grackles and white-winged doves.
And in Houston in the park on a Sunday
among the dragon kites and soccer balls
and the families on picnics in the heat,
not far from the Chapel of the Sacred Heart
where Rothko had made that solemnity
of stained glass windows for the suffering god
in cardinal red and a sorrowing blue,
what was louder than all the transistor radios?
The hip-hop and mariachi? What was that racket in the trees?
Boat-tailed grackles and white-winged doves.
And in Waco in the riverside park along the Brazos
where the city fathers might spend a little more money
picking up the blown-about wrappers of fast food,
even if it would constitute an activity of government,
