by Max Henry
People do care. Maybe it’s somebody close to you, or perhaps it’s a complete stranger on the other end of a helpline, but I promise you,
somebody does care.
If you’re feeling overwhelmed, like there’s no possible way this storm can pass, or that you can’t see how things will get any better,
MAKE A CALL.
All the organizations below are waiting to help.
AUSTRALIA:
Lifeline: 13 11 14
Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636
UNITED STATES:
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
CANADA:
Alberta Crisis Line – All Ages: 403-266-4357
British Columbia Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-800-SUICIDE
Manitoba Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-877-435-7170
New Brunswick Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-800-667-5005
Newfoundland and Labrador Line All Ages: 1-888-737-4668
Nova Scotia Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-888-429-8167
Ontario Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-866-531-2600
Prince Edward Island Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-800-218-2885
Quebec National Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-866-277-3553
Saskatchewan Crisis Line – All Ages: 1-306-525-5333
Yukon Crisis Line – All Ages: 7 pm-12 am (PST) 1-844-533-3030
NEW ZEALAND:
LifeLine NZ: 0800 543 354
UNITED KINGDOM:
CHILDLINE: 0800-1111
Family Line: 0808-800-5678
Papyrus Hopeline: 0870-1704000
The Samaritans: 08457-90-90-90
LYRICS to the songs featured in DOWN BEAT:
“Descent of My Mind”
I’ve slipped yet again, lying cradled on the floor,
Falling harder, deeper, faster than before.
I’ve gone too far, I’ve sunk too low,
Stay a while and catch the end of the show.
I need you, I hate you.
I want you, I can’t escape you.
Leave me on my own,
Yet don’t walk away.
Help me, tell me,
Which way do I go?
They’re talking louder.
They’re talking fast.
The things they say,
I just can’t grasp.
Where do I turn?
Who do I believe?
When the demons in my head,
Wear my heart on their sleeve.
I need you, I hate you.
I want you, I can’t escape you.
Leave me on my own,
Yet don’t walk away.
Help me, tell me,
Which way do I go?
The dark before the dawn,
The calm before the storm.
Solace is what I find,
When the sun don’t want to shine.
Love me, hold me.
Tell me you’re here to fix me.
Love me, hold me.
Tell me baby, please,
Tell me you can fucking save me
“Pull Me Under”
Where did you go,
When I needed you most?
You didn’t show,
After I jumped from the coast.
Your whispers, like ice.
Your heart, like stone.
You pull me under, pull me under,
And I can’t figure out how to swim alone.
Where did you go,
When the sorrow cut deep?
Where did you go,
When the road was too steep?
Your whispers, like ice.
Your heart, like stone.
You pull me under, pull me under,
And I can’t figure out how to swim alone.
Don’t come back, don’t you stay,
I told you to keep far, far away.
Don’t you give me those three little words,
Not when I know they’re tainted and cursed.
Keep running, baby.
Turn the other way.
Keep running, baby,
Find yourself and pray.
Your whispers, like ice.
Your heart, like stone.
You pull me under, pull me under,
I’d rather die alone.
ALSO BY MAX
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STANDALONE
Malaise
Tough Love
Echoes In The Storm
TWISTED HEARTS DUET
Desire
Regret
FALLEN ACES MC SERIES
Unrequited
Unbreakable
Tormented
Existential
Misguided
BUTCHER BOYS SERIES
Devil You Know
Devil on Your Back
Devil May Care
Devil in the Detail
Devil Smoke
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
It’s been a while since I’ve done these. And it isn’t because I’m not thankful. More that I felt as though I had started to say the same thing fifteen different ways.
But this time, I have people who can’t escape a mention.
First up, my beta team:
Dee Dartnell, Donna Riley-Stafford, Heather Packer, Jessica Schulze, Lisa Staples, and Tamara McLean.
You girls are always ready to give your honest and unbiased feedback, and I’m truly grateful for what you do. For Down Beat, you went above and beyond. I listened, I made notes, and without a doubt the story is what it is today thanks to your help.
Thank you, ladies.
Secondly, my mo-fos:
You know who you are. My secret squirrels, my illuminati. Everybody needs that person in his or her life who just gets it. Who knows the struggle, and who can give selfless support with no expectation of return. I’m lucky to have several, and dudes, without you I may still be rocking in a corner wondering if Down Beat would ever be good enough.
Thanks, babes.
Last, by no means least, my family:
Kids—I swear one day you’ll fully comprehend what “Mum’s doing her books again” means, but I love that you accept it and are patient with me when I need to finish a sentence before I can come help with something. Love you two immensely. More than I could ever find words for.
Hubs—You never doubt me. You listen, even though you don’t really understand, or care much for books, and tell me what I need to hear: “Just get it done.” Maybe one day you’ll read one again, maybe not, but either way I’ll still pop you in here just to remind you that it’s you and me, babe. We got this. Mwah.
And as always:
A shout out to you, the reader. Without you my book is nothing more than a pretty cover lost in the depths of Amazon. I may write the stories I want to share, but I push myself to the edge with them so that you can love them. I love hearing how you can relate, what parts you loved, which parts made you want to toss your Kindle.
Thank you for your support. Now, and always.
Lots of love,
Max
THE MUSIC
Listen to the songs that inspired the book here: https://spoti.fi/2rdO7La
“Always” – Saliva
“Angel” – Theory of a Deadman
“Anthem for the Underdog” – 12 Stones
“Black Hole Sun” – Soundgarden
“Bottom of a Bottle” – Smile Empty Soul
“Break Stuff” – Limp Bizkit
“Bullet” – Hollywood Undead
“Bullet with Butterfly Wings” – The Smashing Pumpkins
“Coming Undone” – Korn
“Enemies” – Shinedown
“Face Everything and Rise” – Papa Roach
“Falling Away From Me” – Korn
“Fell on Black Days” – Soundgarden
“Go to War” – Nothing More
“Got the Life” – Korn
“Headstrong” – Trapt
&nb
sp; “Heart-Shaped Box” – Nirvana
“Help” – Papa Roach
“(I Just) Died in Your Arms” – Cutting Crew
“I’m Not Sick but I’m Not Well” – Harvey Danger
“Interstate Love Song” – Stone Temple Pilots
“Invincible” – Adelita’s Way
“Jekyll & Hyde” – Five Finger Death Punch
“Judas” – Fozzy
“Let Me Live My Life” – Saint Asonia
“Life is Beautiful” – Sixx:A.M.
“Love the Way You Hate Me” – Like A Storm
“Mudshovel” – Staind
“My Fight” – From Ashes to New
“My Own Summer (Shove It)” – Deftones
“Never Never” – Korn
“No More Tears” – Ozzy Osbourne
“Ordinary” – Like A Storm
“Ordinary World” – Duran Duran
“Paralyzer” – Finger Eleven
“The Reason” – Hoobastank
“Rason I’m Alive” – Drowning Pool
“The Red” – Chevelle
“Rx (Medicate)” – Theory of a Deadman
“Self Esteem” – The Offsrping
“Send the Pain Below” – Chevelle
“Shadows” – Red
“Smells Like Teen Spirit” – Nirvana
“Sound of Madness” – Shinedown
“Still Counting” – Volbeat
“Stillborn” – Black Label Society
“Stupid Girl” – Cold
“Suicidal Dream” – Silverchair
“Symphony No.7 in A Major” - Ludwig van Beethoven
“Tear Down the Wall” – Art of Dying
“Theme from Schindler’s List” – John Williams, Itzhak Periman
“Through it All” – From Ashes to New
“Tomorrow” – Silverchair
“Wait” – Earshot
“Waking Lions” – Pop Evil
“Wicked Game” – Stone Sour
“Wish You Were Here” – Pink Floyd
“Would?” – Alice in Chains
“Zero” – The Smashing Pumpkins
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
For as long as she can remember, Max has always had a love of the macabre and thought provoking side to life.
Which probably stands to reason why each of her books takes the reader on an emotional journey that not only promises twists, turns, and suspense, but a heart-wrenching journey where her motto holds true:
Love never comes easy.
When she's not lost in an alternate world - fuelled by coffee and the odd sneaky bowl of chocolate (preferably M&Ms) - she spends her days as a wife to a dedicated husband, mother to two rambunctious boys, and an obsessive petrolhead enjoying the muscle on display at the local car shows.
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