Major Mosquito squeaked with laughter, and Bruno hissed at him to keep quiet.
“The Empress is a good fortune card in love, honey. Couldn’t be better ’cause it means you’ll get what you want most.” She shuffled again and held them up to Stan, who had stood up and moved in behind Molly’s chair. Molly had taken his hand and was holding it near her cheek.
“Go on, Stan. You cut ’em, see what comes out.”
Stan released Molly’s hand. In the stacked cards, the edge of one showed darker than the others from handling and Stan cut to it without thinking, turning his half of the deck face up.
Major Mosquito let out a squall. Zeena knocked over the bottle and Hoately caught it before it had gurgled away. Bruno’s stolid face was alight with something like triumph. Molly looked puzzled and Stan laughed. The midget across the table was beating the cloth with a spoon and crying out in an ecstasy of drunken glee:
“Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! The Hanged Man!”
CARD VI
Resurrection of the Dead
At the call of an angel with fiery wings, graves open, coffins burst, and the dead are naked.
“… I CAN see, madam, that there are many persons surrounding you who are envious of your happiness, your culture, your good fortune and—yes, I must be frank—your good looks. I would advise you, madam, to go your own way, doing those things which you know down deep in your heart of hearts is right. And I am sure your husband, who sits beside you in the theater now, will agree with me. There is no weapon you can use against malicious envy except the confidence in your way of life as the moral and righteous one, no matter what the envious say. And it is one of these, madam, and I believe you know of whom I am speaking, who has poisoned your dog.”
The applause was slow in starting. They were baffled; they were awe-struck. Then it began from the back of the theater and traveled forward, the people whose questions had been whispered to Molly and whose questions he had answered, clapping last. It was a storm of sound. And Stan, hearing it through the heavy drop curtain, breathed it in like mountain air.
The curtains parted for his second bow. He took it, bowing slowly from the waist and then he extended his hand and Molly swept from the wings where she had arrived by the door back-stage behind the boxes. They bowed together, hand in hand, and then the curtains cut down again and they moved off through the wings and up the concrete stairs that led to the dressing rooms.
Stan opened the dressing-room door, stood aside for Molly to go in, then followed and shut the door. He sat for a moment on the wicker couch, then whipped off his white tie and unbuttoned the neckband of his stiff shirt and lit a cigarette.
Molly had stepped out of the skin-tight evening gown she wore and hung it on a hanger. She stood for a moment without a stitch on, scratching her ribs under the arms. Then she slipped on a robe, caught up her hair in a knot and began to dab cold cream on her face.
Finally Stan spoke. “Two nights running is too much.”
Her hand stopped, pressed against her chin. Her head was turned away from him. “I’m sorry, Stan. I guess I was tired.”
He got up and moved over, looking down at her. “After five years you still fluff it. My God, what do you use for brains anyway? What’s eighty-eight?”
Her wide, smoky-gray eyes were brilliant with tears. “Stan, I—I’ll have to think about it. When you come at me all of a sudden that way I have to think. I—just have to think,” she finished lamely.
He went on, his voice cool. “Eighty-eight!”
“Organization!” she said, smiling quickly. “Shall I join some club, fraternity, or organization? Of course. I hadn’t forgotten it, Stan. Honest, honey.”
He went over to the couch and lay back on it. “You’ll say it backwards and forwards a hundred times before you go to sleep tonight. Right?”
“Sure, Stan.”
She brightened, relieved that the tension had passed. The towel came away from her face pink from the makeup. Molly patted powder on her forehead, started to put on her street lipstick. Stan took off his shirt and threw a robe around his shoulders. With a few practiced swipes he cold-creamed his face, frowning at his reflection. The blue eyes had grown frosty. There were lines, faint ones, at the corners of his mouth. They had always been there when he smiled but now he noticed for the first time that they stayed there when his face was relaxed. Time was passing over his head.
Molly was fastening the snaps of her skirt. “Glory be, but I’m tired. I don’t want to go anywhere tonight but to bed. I could sleep for a week.”
Stan sat gazing at his image in the mirror, made hard by the lights blazing around the edge. He was like a stranger to himself. He wondered what went on behind that familiar face, the square jaw, the corn-yellow hair. It was a mystery, even to himself. For the first time in months he thought of Gyp and could see him clearly through the mist of years, bounding through fields grown lush with neglected weeds of late summer.
“Good boy,” he muttered. “Good old boy.”
“What was it, honey?” Molly was sitting on the wicker couch reading a movie magazine while she waited for him to dress.
“Nothing, kid,” he said over his shoulder. “Just mumbling in my beard.”
Who poisoned our dog? People around you who envy you. Number fourteen. One: Will. Four: Tell. Will you tell this lady what she is thinking about?
Stan shook his head and rubbed his face evenly with the towel. He hung up his suit of tails and stepped into his tweed trousers. He ran a comb through his hair and knotted his tie.
Outside the snow was falling lightly, lingering on the dark surface of the dirty window of the dressing room.
At the stage door the winter met them with an icy breath. They found a cab and got in and Molly slipped her arm through his and rested her cheek against his shoulder and stayed that way.
“Here y’are, buddy. Hotel Plymouth.”
Stan handed the driver a dollar and helped Molly out.
They passed through the revolving door into the drowsy heat of the lobby and Stan stopped by the cigar counter for cigarettes. He lifted his eyes to the desk and then he stopped and Molly, turning back to see if he was coming, hurried up. She put her hand on his arm. “Stan, darling—what’s the matter with you? God, you look terrible. Are you sick, honey? Answer me. Are you sick? You’re not mad at me, are you, Stan?”
Abruptly he turned away and strode out of the lobby into the wind and the winter night. The cold air felt good and his face and neck needed the cold. He turned to the girl. “Molly, don’t ask any questions. I just saw somebody I’m trying to duck. Go upstairs and pack our stuff. We’re checking out. Got any dough? Well, square up the bill and have the bellhop bring the stuff out.”
Without asking any more questions she nodded and went in.
When she came down the woman at the desk, the night clerk, smiled up at her from a detective story. “Will you make up my bill, please? Mr. and Mrs. Stanton Carlisle.”
The woman smiled again. She was white-haired and Molly wondered why so many white-haired women insist on bright lipstick. It makes them look like such crows, she thought. If I ever get white-haired I’ll never wear anything darker than Passion Flower. Yet this woman had been quite a chick in her day, Molly decided. And she had lived. There was something about her that made you think she had been in show business. But then lots of good-looking people had when they were young and that really didn’t mean a thing. It was managing to stay in show business and stay at the top that counted. Never getting to be a has-been and washed-up. That was the worst thing, to be washed-up. Only you had to save a pile of money while you were in the chips. And what with staying at the best places and buying dinners and drinks for managers and newspapermen and people they never seemed to get much ahead at the end of a season on the road. That is, the more the act was worth, the more it seemed to take to sell it.
“That will be eighteen dollars and eighty-five cents,” the woman said. She looked searchingly at Molly. “Is—is your husb
and coming back to the hotel?”
Molly thought fast. “No. As a matter of fact, he’s already waiting for me further downtown. We have to make a train.”
The woman’s face was not smiling any more. It had a hunted, hopeful look which was, at the same time, strangely hungry. Molly didn’t like it a blessed bit. She paid and went out.
Stan was pacing up and down savagely. A cab was standing by the curb with its meter ticking. They put the bags in and rode off.
All hotels are the same place, Molly thought later, lying beside Stan in the partial darkness. Why do they always have street lights outside the windows and car lines in the street and elevators in the wall right beside your head and people upstairs who bang things? But anyhow it was better than never getting around or seeing anything.
Watching Stan undress had stirred her and made her remember so many good times and she had hoped he would feel like it even if they were both as tired as dogs. He had been so cross lately and they always seemed to be tired when they went to bed. With a little flare of panic she wondered if she were losing her looks or something. Stan could be so wonderful. It made her go all wriggly and scarey inside to think about it. God, it was worth waiting for—when he really wanted a party. But then she remembered something else and she began saying to herself, “Eighty-eight—organization. Shall I join some club, union, fraternity, or organization? Shall I join some club, union, fraternity, or organization?” She repeated it three times before she fell asleep with her lips slightly open and her cheek on one palm, her black hair tumbled over the pillow.
Stan reached out and felt around on the bedside table for the cigarettes. He found one and his match flared. Below them a late car whined into hearing from the distance, the steel rails carrying the sound. But he let it slip from his mind.
A memory was coming back. A day when he was eleven years old.
It was like other days of early summer. It began with a rattle of locusts in the trees outside the bedroom window. Stan Carlisle opened his eyes, and the sun was shining hotly.
Gyp sat on the chair beside the bed, whining gently deep in his throat and touching the boy’s arm with one paw.
Stan reached out lazily and rubbed the mongrel’s head while the dog writhed in delight. In a moment he had leaped onto the bed joyfully wagging all over. Then Stan was fully awake and remembered. He pushed Gyp off and began brushing violently at the streaks of dried clay left on the sheets by the dog’s paws. Mother always got mad when Gyp Jumped Up.
Stan stole to the door, but the door to his parents’ room across the hall was still closed. He tiptoed back and idly pulled on his underwear and the corduroy knickers. He stuffed a paper-backed book inside his shirt and laced up his shoes.
Down in the yard he could see the garage doors open. Dad had left for the office.
Stan went downstairs. Being careful not to make any noise he got a bottle of milk from the ice box, a loaf of bread and a jar of jelly. Gyp got bread and milk in a saucer on the floor.
While Stan sat in the early morning stillness of the empty kitchen, cutting off slices of bread and loading them with jelly, he read the catalog:
“… a real professional outfit, suitable for theater, club, or social gathering. An hour’s performance complete. With beautiful cloth-bound instruction book. Direct from us or at your toy or novelty dealer’s. $15.00.”
After his eighth slice of bread and jelly he put the remains of his breakfast away and went out on the back porch with the catalog. The sun was growing hotter. The brightness of the summer morning filled him with a pleasant sadness, as if at the thought of something noble and magic which had happened long ago in the days of knights and lonely towers.
Upstairs he heard the sharp rap of small heels on the floor and then the roar of water in the bathtub. Mother had gotten up early.
Stan hurried upstairs. Above the rush of the water he could make out his mother’s voice, singing in a hard, glittering soprano, “Oh, my laddie, my laddie, I luve the kent you carry. I luve your very bonnet with the silver buckle on it …”
He was disturbed and resentful of the song. Usually she sang it after he had been sent up to bed, when the parlor was full of people and Mark Humphries, the big dark man who taught singing, was playing the accompaniment while Dad sat in the dining room, smoking a cigar and talking in low tones about deals with one of his own friends. It was part of the grown-up world with its secrets, its baffling changes from good temper to bad without warning. Stan hated it.
He stepped into the bedroom that always smelled of perfume. The shining brass bedstead was glittering big and important in the bar of sunlight through the blind. The bed was rumpled.
Stan went over and buried his face in the pillow that smelled faintly of perfume, drawing in his breath through it again and again. The other pillow smelled of hair tonic.
He knelt beside the bed, thinking of Elaine and Lancelot—how she came floating down on a boat and Lancelot stood by the bank looking at her and being sorry she was dead.
The rush of water in the bathroom had given way to splashing and snatches of singing. Then the chung of the stopper and the water gurgling out.
Beyond the window, with its shades making the room cool and dark, a cicada’s note sounded, starting easy and getting loud and dying away, sign of hot weather coming.
Stan took one more breath of the pillow, pushing it around his face to shut out sound and everything except its yielding softness and its sweetness.
There was a sharp click from the latch of the bathroom door. The boy frantically smoothed out the pillow; he tore around the big brass bed and out into the hall and across to his own room.
Downstairs he heard Jennie’s slow step on the back porch and the creak of the kitchen chair as she slumped her weight into it to rest before she took off her hat and her good dress. It was the day for Jennie to do the wash.
Stan heard his mother come out of the bathroom; then he heard the bedroom door close. He crept out into the hall and paused beside it.
Inside there was a pat of bare feet on the floor and the catch of the bedroom door quietly slipped on. Grownups were always locking themselves in places. Stan got a sudden shiver of mystery and elation. It started in his lower back and rippled up between his shoulder blades.
Through the closed door came the soft clink of a perfume bottle being set down on the dressing table and then there was the scrape of chair legs. The chair creaked ever so little; it scraped the floor again; the bottle clinked as the stopper was put in.
When she came out she would be dressed up and ready to go downtown and she would have a lot of jobs for him to do while she was gone—like cleaning up the closet in his room or cutting the grass on the terrace.
He moved stealthily along the hall and eased open the door to the attic stairs, closed it behind him gently and went up. He knew the creaky steps and skipped them. The attic was hot and heavy with the smell of wood and old silk.
Stan stretched out on an iron bed covered with a silk patchwork quilt. It was made of strips of silk sewn in squares, different colors on each side and a single square of black silk in the center of each. Grandma Stanton made it the winter before she died.
The boy lay face down. The sounds of the house filtered up to him from far away. The whining scrape of Gyp, banished to the back porch. Jennie in the cellar and the chug of the new washing machine. The brisk clatter of Mother’s door opening and the tap of her high heels on the stairs. She called his name once sharply and then called something down to Jennie.
Jennie’s voice came out the cellar window, mournful and rich. “Yes, Mis’ Carlisle. If I see him I tell him.”
For a moment Stan was afraid Mother would go out the back door and that Gyp would Jump Up and make her cross and then she would start talking about getting rid of him. But she went out the front door instead. Stan heard the mail box rattle. Then she went down the steps.
He leaped up and ran over to the attic window where he could see the front lawn through t
he maple tops below him.
Mother was walking quickly away toward the car line.
She would be going downtown to Mr. Humphries for her singing lesson. And she would not be back for a long time. Once she paused before the glass signboard on the lawn of the church. It told what Dr. Parkman would preach about next Sunday, but it was so black, and with the glass in front of it, it was like looking into a mirror. Mother stopped, as if reading about next Sunday’s sermon; turning her head first one way and then another, she pulled her hat a little more forward and touched her hair.
She went on then, walking slower. The boy watched her until she was out of sight.
On every hilltop and rise Stan turned and gazed back across the fields. He could spy the roof of his own house rising among the bright green of the maples.
The sun beat down.
The air was sweet with the smell of summer grasses. Gyp bounded through the hummocks, chasing away almost out of sight and bouncing back again.
Stan climbed a fence, crossed a pasture, and then mounted a stone wall, boosting Gyp over. On the other side of the wall the fields were thicker with brush and little oak bushes and pines and beyond it the woods began.
When he stepped into their dark coolness he felt again that involuntary shudder, which was part pleasure and part apprehension, rise between his shoulder blades. The woods were a place to kill enemies in. You fought them with a battle-ax and you were naked and nobody dared say anything about it because you had the ax always hanging from your wrist by a piece of leather. Then there was an old castle deep in the forest. It had green moss in the cracks between the stones and there was a moat around it full of water and it stood there deep and still as death and from the castle there was never a sound or a sign of life.
Stan trod softly now and held his breath, listening to the green silence. The leaves were tender under his feet. He stepped over a fallen tree and then looked up through the branches to where the sun made them bright.
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