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by Cunard, Nancy; Parmar, Sandeep;


  Divides us now, and the Italian sky

  That closes down abruptly on its sunset of six o’clock,

  Without lamps in this cold October.

  Is England sober,

  Clad in its sullen winter moods already,

  Or sitting expansively

  At the tables in warmed intoxication?

  And do you still contemplate

  The varying destiny

  Of the clients that always must return

  To the Tower’s beacon, to the Tower’s cheer?

  Small fry and gros bonnets.

  I think the Tower shall go up to heaven

  One night in a flame of fire, about eleven.

  I always saw our carnal-spiritual home

  Blazing upon the sky symbolically…

  If ever we go to heaven in a troop

  The Tower must be our ladder,

  Vertically

  Climbing the ether with its swaying group.

  God will delight to greet this embassy

  Wherein is found no lack

  Of wits and glamour, strong wines, new foods, fine looks,

  strange-sounding languages of diverse men –

  Stulik shall lead the pack

  Until its great disintegration, when

  God sets us deftly in a new Zodiac.

  I Am Not One for Expression

  I am not one for expression;

  The fish leaps in the stream,

  The bird rends the air sharply,

  But I linger as if underground

  In a web of escaping thoughts.

  I have laughed,

  Applauded, marvelled, thrilled at others’ emotion –

  After these what is left in my hand tomorrow but the feel of a vanished leaf?

  (As the sleeper waking from his treasure-dream holds not even a palm-full of dust.)

  You that write,

  Having had in your grasp

  Men’s hearts and words, love, and the earth’s intensities –

  Even those that boasted of such, upstarts in a penny town,

  And the few

  That know content, having half-realised

  Themselves in a line or two of eternity;

  And you to whom all life

  Is ripe with fulfilment or dim with unfulfilment,

  Now at the end of your fruition –

  All of you

  Had keys to expression, went up and opened the doors

  On glamour, romance, and soul’s philosophy;

  Set free a running mood,

  Put lances in the clutch of your heroes,

  Raised them on mountain crests for all to see –

  I have no wealth

  In the currency of your riches.

  I am the pilgrim of lost paths,

  The gleaner in the empty harvest field

  That others have plucked before I came to it.

  Out in the world for a season

  I will travel with its pedlars

  Learning from them maybe to pick at other trades,

  Making a semblance –

  Till I sit again, aloof

  Like a cross-legged tailor stitching in his small shop,

  Handling thoughts that are the ghosts of deeds,

  (Ghosts and precursors)

  Hammering cold words

  On ill-shaped anvils.

  To I. T. and T. W. E.

  But one or two of us go hand in hand,

  You, adolescent, and you the unexpressed

  That wear uncertainty upon your breast

  Like a flower of many moods, and understand

  All things from tasting all the hot wines of life.

  We seem so heedless, with only shadows for friends

  Along the highway’s desert, till fate sends

  An unexpected partisan, that the rife

  Ranklings of solitude be stilled anew.

  You adolescent, the truant to all schools,

  Life will not burn, you hold aloft the rules

  Of conduct, as you hastily pass through

  Those rooms where yet I watch uncertainty

  Lifting its torch to light our destiny.

  ‘Les Jeunes’

  Tels que de blancs agneaux sagraces ces deux frères

  Parcourent le Continent,

  Auréolés de feutres noirs, le livre sous le bras,

  Leurs rires sont les mêmes.

  Toujours blonds et roses ils sément les paroles,

  L’un moqueur naïf – l’autre comme un prètre,

  Dont le regard fuyant serait la soutane de sa pensée

  Pour servir les mots satiriques aux nouvelles ouailles…

  Je les ai vu ainsi en maints cafés,

  Récolteurs éditant l’esprit – toujours debout,

  Tant pressés de leurs nerfs, ils sont à la recherche de la ‘jeune France.’

  De temps en temps

  Un épigramme est serré pour la famille –

  Car, là-bas dans le brumes anglaises,

  Il y a une soeur qui broie idées d’étrange couleurs,

  Trictant son fil poétique

  Enchevetré

  Dans des rouages de natures mécaniques,

  De paysages empaillés,

  De spleen pour les gens de province…

  Il y a une mère, un père,

  (Grand Barberousse) qu’on dit être un avare.

  * * * * * *

  En leur palais de Florence je les vois cherchant querelle aux fleurs;

  Disant: douze ballons d’enfant vaudraient mieux près de notre fontaine –

  Et d’une chiquenaude décapitant quelques primevers,

  L’un sort pour l’achat d’un verre second-empire dont l’autre se souvient.

  Crepuscule Sentimentale

  A lumière d’or sur l’eau…

  Elle ne cache rien,

  Ou bien

  Si tu veux elle

  Cache des promesses, des choses jurées

  A Dieu.

  Trouves-lui un symbole

  Et elle existera

  En d’autres termes, crée

  Par toi en paroles.

  Ce n’est que la lumière

  De cette taverne, reflétée

  Sur les eaux proches et mutables

  D’un des canaux de Venise;

  Elle demeure

  Stable, instable

  Après le bateau qui s’élance –

  A cette heure

  Me vient une nostalgie de la France,

  Des feuilles tombées aux boulevards, et des pleurs

  Qu’on y a dans une petite ivresse de vin

  Couvant les souvenirs, harçelé de ‘trop tard’

  Qui remettrait toujours,

  Toujours le geste sommaire du lendemain –

  Mais içi, dans une heure,

  Se prépare la vraie nuit

  Pour manger, dormir, aimer…

  Paris est loin.

  Attablé

  Je te vois, avec des autres

  Aux gestes vifs, aux frêles mains

  Qui expriment l’Orient et vantent l’Amérique, venus à Paris

  De partout, aux ‘Autels de l’Art’ –

  (Je n’ai jamais connu de Saint

  Mais ai vu maints apôtres

  Se suivre dans le sentier de leur espoir.)

  La lumière se tord sur l’eau,

  Ce n’est plus la flamme de l’auberge,

  Ne lui donnes pas de symbole –

  Ce n’est rien, pas même l’épave

  D’un souvenir.

  Pleures pour moi ce soir

  Avec l’ivresse du vin –

  Vas au Boulevard,

  Vas à la foire d’automne,

  Et sur le tard quand tout se ferme

  Je t’aurai vu, grave,

  Auréolé de chant de l’avenir.

  Opium

  Fumerie –

  Si j’avais boudé Dieu, ce dieu de l’extrème orient

  Que je vois reflété dans les songes que je balançe,<
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  Si je l’avais nargué –

  Que d’étranges moqueries

  Ne m’aurait-il soufflé au lieu de songe qui me revient

  D’une heure très lointaine, finie, outretombe –

  Mais je l’ai acceuilli,

  Tel les réveurs qui retrouvent l’amante perdue,

  Et la bercent un instant à leur Coeur inassouvi…

  Ah fumée,

  Un éternal conseil de la destinée,

  Vais-je le saisir en votre luminosité souveraine?

  Les Masques

  J’ai revu tous les yeux des multitudes quittées,

  Et le fil de lune triste dans ma chamber au retour

  Prés des tulipes écloses en ce printemps féroce –

  Lumière d’insomnie, veilleuse palpitante

  Qui voyage sans arrêt ou les masques pendent au mur

  Et me guettent mollement de leur coin des cieux.

  Ils me dirent – Là-bas on vous attend toujours,

  Sachant que jamias vous ne nous appartiendrez.

  Ce soir, sur les voix russes et les chansons,

  Il pleuvait – gotte à goutte les rires s’en allaient

  Cherchant un asile dans la foule multicolore;

  Les voix déferlaient comme des vagues dans un port

  Ou balancent restraintes les naçelles éveillées.

  J’étais une barque inconnue, une de celles

  Filant parmi les autres, inapperçue,

  Muette et sans lumière, qui n’attent aucune brise

  Ni le réveil du jour – elle n’a jamais eu d’heure

  Exacte ou elle reprend sa destinée.

  Les rires s’en allaient, je n’ai pensé à rien

  Hors les yeux que je vois et qui ne me regardent plus.

  L’aube d’une rue solitaire m’a tenu compagnie,

  Et chez moi les masques réveillés, placides, pendus,

  Cruçifiés ecstatiques que j’avais aligné,

  Pleurent et sourient comme aux temps écoulés.

  Ils me voient du même regard quand je découvrais l’aurore

  Par leurs yeux inlassables, blémis, incolores,

  Sans plaintes et paroles ils sont gais dans le vide –

  ‘Maitre’… diraient-ils – je les préfère au monde entier,

  Barques de mes songes, équipages d’aventures

  Indéfinissables, inachevés.

  Parallax

  1925

  Parallax

  ‘Many things are known as some are seen, that is by Paralaxis, or at some distance from their true and proper being.’

  Sir Thomas Browne

  He would have every milestone back of him,

  The seas explored, clouds, winds, and stars encompassed,

  All separate moods unwrapped, made clear –

  Tapping of brains, inquisitive tasting of hearts,

  Provisioning of various appetite.

  Midnights have heard the wine’s philosophy

  Spill from glass he holds, defiant tomorrows

  Pushed back.

  His credo threads

  Doubt with belief, questions the ultimate grace

  That shall explain, atoning.

  A candle drips beside the nocturnal score –

  Dawns move along the city’s line reflecting,

  Stare through his rented casement.

  Earth, earth with consuming breast,

  Across its ruined waste, its torturous acre

  Draws out his complex fires, drives on his feet

  Behind imperious rain, and multiplies

  The urges, questions in the wilderness.

  All roads that circle back – he shall tread these

  And know the mirage in the desert’s eyes

  The desert’s voices wait.

  This clouded fool,

  This poet-fool must halt in every tavern

  Observing the crusty wrecks of aftermath,

  Plied by his dual mood – uneasy, still –

  Devouring fever of bone transfused to brain,

  In that exact alembic burned away,

  Made rare, perpetual.

  Come music,

  In a clear vernal month

  Outside the window sighing in a lane,

  With trysts by appletrees –

  Moths drift in the room,

  Measure with running feet the book he reads.

  The month is golden to all ripening seeds;

  Long dawns, suspended twilight by a sea

  Of slow transition, halting at full ebb;

  Midnight, aurora, daytime, all in one key –

  The whispering hour before a storm, the treacherous hour

  Breaking –

  So wake, wind’s fever, branches delirious

  Against a riven sky.

  All houses are too small now,

  A thought outgrows a brain –

  Open the doors, the skeleton must pass

  Into the night.

  In rags and dust, haunted, irresolute,

  Its passion cuts new furrows athwart the years.

  Sorrow, my sister –

  yet who accepts

  At once her tragic hand?

  From pitiless explorations

  Come the unwarrantable deeds,

  The over-proved frustrations.

  O vulgar lures of a curl!

  Tricks, catches, nimble-fingered ruffian adolescence

  Whose beauty pulls

  The will to fragments –

  Young beauty in a raffish mood,

  Love to be sold,

  Lily and pleasant rose,

  Street lily, alley rose,

  For all Love-to-be-sold, who will not buy?

  Rose, gold – and flush of peach

  (Never by the sun formed),

  Bloom-dust off gala moon

  In restaurants,

  Cupid of crimson lamps –

  His cassolette

  Steams through the coy reiterative tune

  Nightlong.

  Oh come, this barbed rosette

  (Or perhaps spangle

  From champagne)

  Drops off once out the exit-door –

  Or how many thousand prodigal francs

  From serious patriarchal banks

  Must build the card-house for this ‘Grand Armour’?

  Sour grapes of reason’s vine

  Perfecting, hang on that symbolic house,

  And passion is a copious mine

  No matter how stripped it’s always full – carouse

  Then, cytherean, with the cursory false love

  That has his bed

  Gold-lined, and robs you, host that are too fond –

  Cold, cold,

  Mind’s acid gales arouse the sated old

  Fool that was gulled by love and paid his bond –

  Young love is dead.

  ‘I that am seed, root and kernel-stone

  Buried in the present, I that exact fulfilment from every hour

  Now tell you:

  Accept all things, accept – if only to be aware.

  Understand, no choice is granted,

  Nor the prudent craving, nor the ultimate romance –

  But the unalterable deed, the mystic and positive

  Stands, monumental against the astonished sky

  Of an inquisitive world.

  Now fierce, now cold,

  Time beats in the hours, threatens from smoky ruins –

  And yet to whom the loss

  If one be made the sempiternal fool

  Of chance,

  Muddied with temporary growth of love’s importunate weeds?

  ‘In the penumbra

  Of the wilderness,

  On the rim of the tide along Commercial street

  You meet one like you for an hour or two –

  But eventual sameness creeps to repossess

  All eyes, supplicant, offering unusable fidelities;

  Eyes of defiance sulking into assent,

  Acute
with repetition, aged by a stale demand…

  Though I did mark the turn of every hand

  In the beginning, tendered my respect

  To ante-rooms, while the sand ran from the hours.

  ‘Think now how friends grow old –

  Their diverse brains, hearts, faces, modify;

  Each candle wasting at both ends, the sly

  Disguise of its treacherous flame…

  Am I the same?

  Or a vagrant, of other breed, gone further, lost –

  I am most surely at the beginning yet.

  If so, contemporaries, what have you done?

  We chose a different game –

  But all have touched the same desires

  Receded now to oblivion – as a once-lustrous chain

  Hangs in the window of the antiquary,

  Dry bric-à-brac, time-dulled,

  That the eventual customer must buy…

  (Tomorrow’s child)’

  Sunday’s bell

  Rings in the street. An old figure

  Grins – (why notice the old,

  The scabrous old that creep from night to night

  Bringing their poor drama of blenched faces and fearful hands

  That beg?)

  Two old women drinking on a cellar floor

  Huddled, with a beerish look at the scavenging rat –

  A fur-collared decrepitude peers

  From tattered eyelids

  That shrivel malignant before an answering stare –

  Old men in the civic chariots

  Parade with muffled protestations,

  Derelicts spit on the young,

  Oh symbol, symbol,

  Indecorous age and cadence of christian bell.

  This thin edge of December

  Wears out meagrely in the

  Cold muds, rains, intolerable nauseas of the street.

  Closed doors, where are your keys?

  Closed hearts, does your embitteredness endure forever?

  Torpidly

  Afternoon settles on the town,

  each hour long as a street –

  In the rooms

  A sombre carpet broods, stagnates beneath deliberate steps:

  Here drag a foot, there a foot, drop sighs, look round for nothing, shiver.

  Sunday creeps in silence

  Under suspended smoke,

  And curdles defiant in unreal sleep.

  The gas-fire puffs, consumes, ticks out its minor chords –

  And at the door

  I guess the arrested knuckles of the one-time friend,

 

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