by Lois Lowry
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"Sweet dreams," he added with a chuckle. It was his favorite joke.
4
This gathering, this dwelling place where they slept now, heaped together, was only one, a relatively small one, of many. It was a small subcolony of dream-givers. Every human population has countless such colonies—invisible always—of these well-organized, attentive, and hard-working creatures who move silently through the nights at their task.
Their task is both simple and at the same time immensely difficult.
Through touching, they gather material: memories, colors, words once spoken, hints of scents and the tiniest fragments of forgotten sound. They collect pieces of the past, of long ago and of yesterday. They combine these things carefully, creating dreams. Then they insert the dreams as the humans (and sometimes animals, for occasionally they give dreams to pets, as well) sleep.
The act of dream insertion is called bestowal. It is very delicate. It requires absolute precision to bestow a dream, or even to decide exactly when one should be bestowed.
Littlest, the one who was only learning, had not yet studied bestowal. She was beginning the way they all had, with the touching, the gathering of material.
And she was learning, too, to dissolve.
"Concentrate," Fastidious had told her. "Stay very still, focusing on your own form. "
Littlest stayed motionless and tried to concentrate on her small wisp of a self.
I wish I had wings, she thought. Everything would be easier if we had wings. I could swoop and glide, and I would never tumble on the staircase because I would simply—
"You are not concentrating!" Fastidiouss voice was exasperated.
"Sorry," Littlest said apologetically, opening her eyes. "I was just thinking—"
"Thats the point! You are not supposed to think! Focus on your form and will it to break down and dissolve. "
Dutifully Littlest tried again—carefully not thinking, not paying attention at all to the thoughts that tried to swim into her mind, the questions about dogs, or wings, or all the many things she wondered about—and when she did that, focusing only on her own small form, she felt it begin to happen for the first time. She felt the pieces of her, the very tiniest pieces (she did not know if they even had a name) begin to separate.
"Im doing it!" she called out gleefully. "Its working!"
Then, of course, it ended. Littlest opened her eyes, knowing she had done it, at least a little bit, and hoping for praise from Fastidious.
But Fastidious had disappeared.
"Where are you?" Littlest called in alarm. Then she realized. "Oh, my goodness! Youve dissolved!"
In front of her, particle by particle, Fastidious reappeared. She had a very annoyed look.
"Two things," Fastidious said. "One, do not ever call out when you are mid-dissolving. See what happened? The instant you cried, Im doing it!—"
"I stopped doing it," Littlest acknowledged, abashed.
"Two. Never, never, never call attention to the fact that someone else has dissolved! This was only a training session, of course, but if we had been out there. . . " Fastidious gestured toward the larger world, the human world. "Well! The reason for dissolving is to become—what?"
"Invisible," Littlest whispered.
"And we need to be invisible why?"
"So that humans wont see us. Or know about us. "
"And if I am dissolved, out there, in the human world, and suddenly someone screams"—she glared at Littlest and imitated her voice with a shrill sarcasm—"Oh, my goodness! Youve dissolved!"
"Im sorry," Littlest said.
Fastidious sighed. She was tired and had a touch of headache. She didnt like children and was impatient with inexperience.
Perhaps it was a good thing that now Thin Elderly would take over the training of Littlest One.
5
Now morning came. The woman rose slowly. She was wide awake—she always woke early—but her joints were stiffened by sleep and she sat at the edge of the bed for a while, moving her ankles and knees, telling them to wake up and get going.
She had a sense of humor about herself.
"You make me feel like the Tin Woodsman in The Wizard of Oz," she said to her left knee. "Rusted and immobilized. I wish I could oil you. "
She stood, after a moment, and stretched. Her nightgown was flowered flannel, the small bouquets of sweet peas on it faded from repeated washings. She slipped her bare feet into worn blue slippers.
"Good morning, Toby," she said, looking down at the dog, who yawned and thumped his tail. "What about some breakfast?"
Slowly Toby roused and stretched, his nose to the floor while his rump rose. He watched while she put on a robe and tied the belt. Then he followed her into the hall, down the stairs through the front parlor into the kitchen, and stood patiently beside the cupboard where his food was stored. He watched while she filled a kettle with water and set it on the gas burner. He watched while she found a teabag in the canister, took a thick brown mug from a cupboard, and dangled the teabag in it. He watched while she dropped a slice of bread into the toaster and turned the toaster on.
Finally she filled his bowl and set it on the floor beside the stove. Then, when the kettle whistled, she poured the steaming water into the mug.
"Another day," the woman said, as she took her plate of buttered toast and her cup of tea to the table. She unfolded a flowered cloth napkin and placed it in her lap after she had sat down. Toby, finished now with his gulped breakfast, curled by her feet in a spot where sun, finding its way through the small-paned window of the old house, had outlined a square on the floor.
"Well take a walk after I get dressed," she told him. "How about that? It looks like a lovely morning. "
Toby drummed the floor with his tail. They took a walk every morning unless the weather made it impossible. They always walked to the corner, turned left, walked past the Methodist church—many squirrels there, on that large lawn, but Toby no longer bothered about them—past the house of the young couple with the new baby, and across the street to the small park with the diagonal path where sometimes they stopped beside a fountain.
Resting on the park bench, the woman would listen to the birds and watch young parents push small children on the nearby swings as Toby sat attentively at her feet. Then they would continue on, around the next corner, and then the next, making a complete square and returning home. It was a short walk, but all that she could manage.
He dozed while she ate. She continued to talk to him though she knew he was asleep. She had no one else to talk to, no one but Toby. She had outlived many of her friends, as well as several earlier dogs.
Life had become very lonely for the woman, but she was accustomed to her solitude. She sipped her tea, sighed, and fingered a folded letter and its envelope that lay on the table. With a worried look she thought about the way her existence was about to change.
6
"Whatever became of Rotund? He used to curl near you in the daytime Heap. " Littlest was chattering as she set out for the evenings work with her new supervisor. "I remember that you and Rotund used to tell jokes to each other. He always told one that started, A horse went into a bar. W hats a bar, by the way? I never understood that joke. "
Thin Elderly shook his head and chuckled. He did like little ones, it was true, but he could see that this curious chatterbox was going to be a handful. "Shhh," he said. "Remember that we always move quietly. "
"I am," Littlest whispered. "Look! Tiptoes!" She pointed to her own transparent, delicate feet. She skipped along beside Thin Elderly.
"I was just wondering about Rotund," she added. "I liked him. And I know he was a friend of yours. "
Thin Elderly frowned. The thought of it was painful to him. "He turned menacing," he told the little one. "Well say no more about it. He is gone. "
Turned menacing. Littlest did not know exactly what it meant, but she knew it was very, very bad. Those who turned m
enacing disappeared. Well, not disappeared. They still existed. But they were no longer part of the community of dream-givers. They had gone someplace else. Someplace frightening. Maybe even evil.
"Why do some of us turn menacing?" she whispered.
They were at the entrance to their assigned house, the little house with geranium-filled window boxes and the rocker on the porch, the place where the woman lived. In a minute they would enter, compressing themselves and sliding in through the space under the front door. Thin Elderly reached over and took Littlests hand. The timing of her question was unfortunate, he thought, because they were about to start their nights work. But he was responsible now for her teaching.
"It just happens," he told her in a low voice. "We are not certain why. Some think it is because they have touched things too deeply. You must be aware of that. During the touching, be gentle. Do not delve. "
"What is delve?" she whispered.
He tried to think of a way to explain the unexplainable. "Youve learned touching, right?
She nodded.
"Youve been touching in here, correct?" He gestured toward the house they were about to enter. "Take your thumb out of your mouth. "
Littlest removed her thumb reluctantly. "Yes," she said. "Lots. This house is filled with things. "
"Good. My last house, the one I just traded to Fastidious, had so little. Flat empty tabletops. A lot of glass and steel. A crystal vase with a single flower? What an impersonal feel to it! It was very unreceptive to touching. "
"Youll love this one," Littlest assured him.
"Give me an example of something youve been touching. "
She concentrated on remembering her nights of gliding silently through the womans house. "There are photographs," she said. "I like those. Theyre in frames, on tables in the parlor. And one beside her bed, but I havent been allowed to touch there yet. Too dangerous. "
Thin Elderly nodded. "Yes, youre a little noisy. Fastidious was wise not to let you too close yet. "
"Ill have to be close, when I bestow," Littlest pointed out.
"Eventually. But youre still learning. Describe touching a photograph. "
"Well, theres one I especially like. Ill show you when were inside. It shows a man in a uniform, smiling. He has a very pleasant face. "
"All right. And so you touch his picture—how?"
"Like this. " Littlest raised one small hand and touched Thin Elderly very gently. She let her fingers flutter and linger, but the touch was barely perceptible.
Thin Elderly smiled. "Good!" he told her. "You have a gossamer touch. "
Littlest looked at her own fingers and smiled proudly.
"Fastidious taught you well about touching. Tell me what happens when you touch the mans photograph. "
Littlest thought. "I collect little—" She paused. "I cant remember what theyre called. "
"They can be called anything. I like to call them fragments," Thin Elderly told her.
She nodded. "I collect fragments. I store them inside myself. They make me feel good. Theres a fragment of a party, and the man is laughing. Theres a bit of dancing. And theres a—"
