He pulled free from her, spinning her to face him. “Why did you post to Masters Wanted?”
Frowning, her brain wasn’t engaged yet. “I wanted you. Minny said you were involved. I wanted a Dom, and when I learned you were one, I knew you were perfect. You were my fantasy come true.”
He kissed her mouth hard. “You’d better not be lying to me.”
She reached for his cock and jerked him off. Nelson pushed her to her knees and slid his dick along her soapy breasts. She kept on stroking him until he came on her. When she tried to lick it, he pulled her up.
Seconds later, she found herself sitting on the edge of the sink. He spread her legs and licked her very sensitive cunt.
“Please, too much.” She tried to move.
He spit on her asshole and worked a finger in her rear. The shock of new play—he’d never gone for that in the last week—changed the whole game. Her focus was off her clit despite him lapping her pussy. One finger then two. He was going to fuck her there tonight…she hoped. A toy or his cock? She couldn’t wait to find out.
“Please, I want you everywhere inside of me,” she said.
“Good.” He began thrusting his fingers in and out of her ass slowly. “We’ll need some lube and a nice size plug.”
“I’ll go get them. You can keep working me over right here and let anyone watch.” She offered.
He pulled her off the sink, and she braced herself on the counter. “Did I do something wrong?”
He shook his head and looked out the window. “Get on the bed. I’ll wash my hands. I want to do it right. Lube, plug, and if you’re good I’ll fuck your pussy. Go.”
Something had freaked him out. She went before he got more upset. Glancing over her shoulder, she saw a couple men passing the window. Had they been caught? The thrill trumped the fear in her but would it for him?
The play turned him on, but the fact that she wasn’t freaked out by it made him worry. Doubt.
It wasn’t her, it was him.
He followed her into the bedroom. She’d rummaged through the drawers and closet. The lube was out. So was a plug and the nipple clamps. She liked those and knelt innocently in the center of the bed.
He leaned over and kissed her mouth. “You really wanted me before you knew I was a Dom?”
She nodded. “Maybe I hoped you were on some level, but I had a big crush on you. Ask Minny.”
“Sorry I broke the scene. I shouldn’t have chosen cheating. It’s not a good game at the beginning.”
“I’d never cheat on you,” she said.
“Would you let someone else watch?” He watched her hold the position as he inspected her ass.
She shrugged. “I never have, so I don’t know if I’d like it or not. I know some people go to clubs and play. If you wanted to do that, and I’d just be with you but others would see, I think I’d try it.”
“It would turn you on?” he asked.
Her cheeks went red. “I don’t know. Part of me wants to try it. If you don’t want it, I don’t need it. This was just role-playing. I thought that’s what you wanted.”
“I know.” He pulled her to him and kissed her hard. Her arms wrapped around him and he believed her in that moment.
“I love you,” she said.
That made him doubt. He pushed back on the bed. “It’s too soon for that.”
“I’ve known you for months. I wanted you before any of this. Maybe I finally found the right guy. I’ve dated the wrong ones for so long. We can go as slow as you want for me to prove it.” She kissed his shoulder.
He grabbed the plug and lubed it. “Get on your hand and knees, ass in the air.”
Without hesitation, she obeyed. He lubed her ass and worked the toy inside her. “Sit up, crossed legged on the bed.”
She obeyed a little slower; he saw her reacting to the intruder. He snapped the nipple clamps in place. “Don’t move,” he said.
“Thank you, Sir.”
“Was that so hard?” he asked.
“What?” she asked.
“Thanking me. You don’t do that too often. Maybe I’m not challenging you enough?” He flicked her nipple.
She moaned. “I’m sorry, I forget. I’m trying so hard to obey and not screw up. In person is intense and different.”
After a quick kiss, he looked her in the eye. “You’re doing well. But I don’t have a good track record of long-term relationships. Women seem to move on from me.”
She frowned. “I have none. Nothing ever worked. What can I do to help? I want this to go on. I want it to be forever.”
“Don’t get ahead of yourself. Or me.” He shook his head.
“Why? We won’t know if we don’t try.”
“I’ve had new subs before. You might outgrow me. You might not like what I do. You might find someone else.” He played with her nipples more and when she was panting, he removed them. The sound of her whimper and sigh stroked his ego.
“There’s no one I want more than you,” she said.
He put the clamps away. “Now.”
“Ever. I wouldn’t cheat on anyone. That’s not me.”
He moved in close. “Who said I was cheated on? You’re free to leave this arrangement. I’m not interested in owning anyone. I want a sexual sub not a helpless sex toy who can’t make a decision for herself.”
“Good because I couldn’t be that. I want my career and won’t obey you in everything. But you’re angry about something. If I did it, you’d tell me. Right?” she asked.
He nodded. “Damn right.”
“So someone else betrayed you. Cheat on you? They didn’t decide to leave. They hurt you. I’m sorry it happened to you. I won’t ever touch another man sexually as long as I’m with you. I swear, I’m yours.” She broke position and kissed him.
He believed her but needed more proof. “Cheating breaks trust. I’ll always be honest. I’ll never touch another woman as long as you’re mine. I’ll never neglect you for my desires. I want you to tell me the truth as well. For example, how do you like your plug?”
She smiled. “It feels different but good. Will you fuck my ass?”
“Not tonight” He pushed her down on her back and spread her legs wide. Hooking her legs over his shoulders, he grabbed protection from the nightstand and get ready. “Hands behind your head.”
She obeyed, and he slowly filled her pussy, tighter now with the plug inside her. The wonder and discovery was clear in her eyes. He fucked her slowly, but as she grew soaking wet, he let himself go more.
“Please, Sir.” She lifted to meet him as thrusts. They rocked together.
This time he didn’t touch her clit. Instead, he leaned down and sucked her tits. The faint flavor of soap was still there, but he bit her nipples until she moaned.
“I’ll never be bored with you in bed. Why would anyone ever leave you?” she whispered.
He smiled. It could be just to stroke his ego, but right then he didn’t care. It worked. He licked up her neck and curled his tongue around hers, adding force to his thrusts until she groaned. When he twirled the plug in her ass, she screamed and achieved orgasm in an entirely new way for him.
“Thank you!” she shrieked.
The neighbors might not have seen anything, but odds were they’d hear her at some point. He wanted to make her scream louder and louder. He rubbed her clit to keep her screaming. Next he he’d fuck her with a big vibrator to make her shake and beg.
He’d be forever challenged by such an eager and open woman. But that was now, and it was so new he wasn’t going to be fooled into believing it was forever for her as well. He wanted to keep her happy and challenged but his track record was so bleak he refused to get his hopes up.
Chapter Five
At her very next chance at work, Amber cornered Minny in private.
“What’s wrong?” Minny asked as she touched up her makeup in the ladies’ room.
Amber shrugged. “I thought things were going well, but he’s worried about somethin
g. It’s as if he doesn’t trust me. I’ve never given him any reason to doubt. Maybe we need a normal date? Just talking and being vanilla.”
“You don’t ever do that. Just sex?” Minny asked.
“No, we have dinners and talk in private. At his place. Watch TV and work on things but nothing in public.” She frowned.
Minny shrugged. “Ask him, if you want a traditional romantic date. Just give it your best shot and see how it works. Don’t set your heart on it too fast.”
Sighing, Amber stared at herself in the mirror. “I feel sure. I want him to feel secure.”
“If you over do it, he won’t trust you. Trust evolves.”
“Someone hurt him. Someone made him not have faith in anyone. Any woman, it feels like.” Amber believed her gut because she was getting the same feeling she did when there was an error in her coding.
“If some other woman screwed him up, it’s not your fault. You don’t have to fix it. He might just need more time. Be steady and enjoy the sex.” Minny leaned on the counter. “If you want a vanilla date, ask him. He’s only the boss in the bedroom. Right?”
Amber nodded. “I don’t want to push him too fast and scare him off.”
“Ask for what you want. Date night.” Minny winked at Amber.
Pulling out her cell phone, Amber took a deep breath. She texted Nelson she wanted a regular date and a little more attention in the real world.
His reply was quick. “When finals are over. We’re both busy now.”
“How about some attention now?” she texted him back.
“Not now,” he replied.
If he couldn’t make a little time for her, would it work? Was it all about him? She left the ladies’ room, heading toward his office. He stepped outside and glared at her.
“Please,” she said as she texted requesting a quick spanking.
Had she pushed too far? The look in Nelson’s eye made her want to squirm, but she held her posture. She had needs too, and he’d told her to be honest. The frustration had built up.
He shook his head but opened the door. “Get inside.”
She smiled, but it disappeared as soon as she saw Colin sitting in the guest chair. “Sorry, I didn’t know you were in a meeting.”
He grabbed her arm when she tried to leave. “No. You want a spanking that bad, you’ll get it. Now, here.”
Without a word to Colin, Nelson pushed her over the desk and spanked her ass. He didn’t push her skirt up and tease her sexually the way he normally would. She fought back tears and refused to look up. As she dealt with the shock silently, there was no fear or repulsion—only outrage he hadn’t cleared it with her first.
Seconds later she heard the door. Colin had left. Nelson stopped spanking her and turned her to face her.
“I have work. You have work. You can’t demand I drop everything for you unless it’s a real emergency,” he warned through gritted teeth.
“You had no right to pull that stunt! Punishing me in front a co-worker. We never talked about playing at work with others. I’m playing whatever game you choose.” Amber let one tear slip but wiped it away.
“I’m sorry about Colin. If you need more attention, tell me before you’re desperate. You don’t get to snap your fingers and get what you want.” He kissed her possessively.
“Fine, I still want a date,” she whispered in his ear.
He shook his head and pointed to the desk. “You wanted attention and that little bit in front of Colin was a warning, not enough. If you want to talk later, you might need more punishment now.”
Inside she was a vortex of emotion. Was this a mistake? Going backwards wouldn’t help her. She looked into Neslon’s eyes, and knew she had a choice.
They needed to connect again the right way. Bending over the large wooden piece of furniture, she squeezed her eyes shut. The punishment would feel good, but if he didn’t want to date her or be her boyfriend in public, spankings wouldn’t solve that problem. The first smack stung and she bit back a yelp.
“Five and we’ll talk,” he said.
She nodded and realized the stress relief would help her talk or at least think more clearly. “Thank you.”
* * * *
After a sound spanking, he cuddled her in his lap. It didn’t feel as if they were at work at all. He hated shifting gears so fast. It was hard to be intimate at work then go back to being normal in public. He wasn’t a good actor. Still, she had to be aware of their work relationship. Gossip could be unpleasant, and he’d been so careful about his reputation. He didn’t want his bedroom activities to haunt his career, and she probably felt the same.
“I’m sorry if you need more attention, but you have to have some patience. We need to be professional here.” He kissed her neck.
“I understand. I just feel as if you don’t want me around except for sex. I want a real relationship. I want you to trust me. It feels as if something is missing.” She hugged him tight.
He tensed. “I told you some women in the past have cheated. Things don’t work out every time but cheating…”
“I’d never do that,” she said fervently.
“I believe you.” He stroked her hair.
“No you don’t. You won’t make our dating public.”
“We work together, and you’re still a student. We’re in the same department. Even if you don’t report to me, it could be a problem. Once you have your doctorate, it’ll less of an issue.” He didn’t want to hurt her career, especially if it didn’t work out.
She nodded. “Fine. A real date can’t hurt though. Dinner. If anyone saw us we could just say I was asking for your input on my doctoral thesis. I don’t need flowers and champagne. I really want a bit of traditional romance as well.”
“Fine. You win. We’ll do that.” He kissed her gently.
“Who hurt you so much?” she asked.
“Don’t.” He shook his head and changed the subject. “Did you like being spanked in front of someone?”
She stiffened, and he thought he saw tears welling up in her eyes. “I only saw you. Felt you. I trust you. It didn’t turn me on but I wasn’t scared or repulsed.”
“Do you want to go to an event? A private bondage party?” he asked.
She looked him in the eye. “Tell me who hurt you.”
With a deep breath, he knew he had to. “Not here, let’s talk tonight. We both have work to do.”
“You promise we’ll talk tonight?” she asked firmly.
He smiled. “I promise.”
She left with an uneasy smile on her face.
Nelson closed his eyes and tried to figure out how to explain his long and complicated history with women. His mother cheating on his father with some guy she met online was bad enough. Then that guy turned into an ass and an abuser while Nelson was in college. So he had to go help his mom start over.
His love of control was no mystery there. He could handle code and liked things clear. It worked or it didn’t. Communication with women was so hard, Dom/sub relationships helped clarify things. Yet with Amber it was still a challenge. They could both tell the absolute truth but end up confusing and frustrating each other.
Subs had played games with him before. Sheila was an ex he’d buried in his past but she’d played word games too. Insisting on certain limits and then saying he wasn’t challenging her enough. He went away for one work conference and he kept in touch with Sheila on the phone.
When he returned, he found out she had attended a bondage party and did a full scene with another Dom. She blamed him for going away and never taking her to the party. Her flip-flopping and infidelity had pushed Nelson back into a corner where he didn’t trust what a sub said. Amber hadn’t been too terribly upset by the spanking in front of Colin. That little test told Nelson she was open to more.
He didn’t want to push but he didn’t want to lose Amber because of neglect. She might be newer to the lifestyle but she might need more stimulation. They could talk about work and programming without a
problem but when they tried to talk feelings or interests on a personal level it was forced. Unsettling. He could be confident the rest of the time but he’d been deceived by women who made bad choices or played coy.
He needed to take his time with Amber and put the past where it belonged. Focus on her and not project the women from his past life onto her. She was honest, innocent, and hadn’t had the best men in her life. Tonight the talk would be painful but necessary.
That night, he made dinner for Amber and they chatted about work. Over ice cream for dessert, he saw her watching him.
“Okay, I promised,” he said.
“Good.” She licked fudge off her lips. “I want to know the truth.”
“I think we both tell the truth and want to know it. We’re not the best at talking at times. When it’s personal we both have trouble expressing things. It’s not that I’m trying to be confusing or difficult. I don’t think you’re trying to be difficult either.” He wasn’t sure if he’d even said that properly.
She smiled. “I think you’re right. I have no trouble talking to Minny but when it comes to men and personal things I never know how to make it clear. But you need to tell me who hurt you. Broke your trust. You know I had an ex I worked with who made things miserable. I had to leave. So I’m not trying to be difficult but trust isn’t easy for me either. That’s why it took so long for me to do anything.”
“And you hacked my website.” He pushed his ice cream away. “My mother broke my trust. She found a man online and left my dad for him. I was in high school, almost done and I stayed with my dad to finish. When I was in college, the guy cheated on her. She got mad and he hit her. I had to go and pick up the pieces. Help her start over. My dad was done.” He shrugged. “So control and honesty are important.”
“I’d never cheat on you. I’m so sorry your mom messed you up. We might need to work on our communication but I won’t leave you because we need to talk something out again. There is something here even if we don’t say it right.” She looked him in the eye with such compassion.
He wanted to rush over and kiss her. “I’m glad we’re on the same page.”
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