Amber swore he looked at Colin for a second, but her Dom turned quickly and stormed up the stairs. She took a deep breath. He was hurt and being weird about it instead of dealing with it.
She looked around for help. Minny dashed up and guided her to the area with the clothing. As Amber and Minny changed, the silence gave Amber time to think. From a high to such a low. The rollercoaster of emotions made her cry.
“Honey, I’m so sorry. It’s all my fault. I thought you two would be perfect. I suck at matchmaking. Blame me.” Minny hugged her friend once they were both back in street clothes.
“I’m sorry to cut your night short. I won’t be any fun after that display.” Amber sniffed.
“Don’t be sorry, we came for moral support. I understand what you’re saying. I don’t want an audience either. Don’t worry about anything right now, Colin is going to get the car. We’ll take you home. When you’re read, we’ll find you a new guy. A strictly bedroom Dom. You were brave to try something new. Nelson has his trust issues. I thought he’d gotten beyond them when he wanted to bring you here.” Minny packed up Amber’s naughty outfit.
“Thanks. I guess Nelson and I aren’t beyond his issues. I wanted to see what this was like. I don’t need it. He might. I’m not ready to go around naked. He should’ve talked to me about this beforehand. I do love Nelson, and I’m not giving up. He’s not getting away that easily. No way.”
She hadn’t cheated, she wouldn’t betray him, and she wasn’t leaving him. It was a fight. Somehow sex in front others was a lot easier than fighting in front of others. They needed to be alone and work this out.
Colin tapped on the door. “Ready to go?” he asked.
“Not my home. I need to go to Nelson’s please,” Amber said.
Minny shrugged. Colin took the duffle bag from Minny as he held the door open. They were good friends whom Amber needed right now. She appreciated that they weren’t spouting advice or rules. She and Nelson had to fix this for themselves.
* * * *
Nelson had made it home and paced the floor trying to figure out what to do next. He loved her and hated how well she saw through him. When he heard a car outside, he started to hope. It was probably just Colin coming to tell him off about ditching his woman. Nelson would deserve it. Even though she refused to go with him, he should’ve stayed there and talked it out in private. He just couldn’t take more public humiliation.
Instead, he was shocked to see Amber on his doorstep. He was even more annoyed when Colin drove off.
“What are you doing here? You’re done with me.” Nelson had to cut his losses.
She walked in and closed the door behind her. “That’s your version of events. You don’t like to talk much, but I pay attention. We worked together for months before we started our relationship, but you don’t seem to remember that.”
“I remember every second I’ve been with you since the day you walked into my life, but you don’t know what you want. I knew you were too innocent and inexperienced the minute I met you. That’s why I didn’t go after you even though I wanted you.” He had to tell her the truth. All of it. “I wanted you. I sensed you’d obey, but you’re smart and strong too.”
“So you want a dumb, weak woman who has no job and is totally dependent. So she has to choice but to obey you in everything?” She folded her arms. “I know there are subs out there like that, but it won’t make you happy. I was okay with the bedroom Dom idea, and you said that’s what this was.”
He wanted that type of woman but not for the reasons she thought. “I don’t really need the events with people watching. I don’t want a lifer slave for my private life. Not really. I don’t like that, but I’ve thought about it.”
“Because she won’t leave you.” Amber reached for his hand.
“Women always leave me. Then they turn to me to clean up the messes they make.” He backed away.
“So today was a test. Say it. Tell me you were testing me, and I failed. I didn’t stick with you no matter what.” Her lips quivered.
He smiled. “You didn’t fail. I failed. I didn’t plan it or talk it over with you. It’s not intentional. Seriously, I didn’t create that blog. A sub woman looking for the right type of Dom did. I hacked it and matched her up with a friend. Then I took it over because I thought matching people in person, or at least knowing them in real life before you set them up was a better way.”
“I agree. I wanted you in person. When I played online, the fun was the mystery and the fantasy I projected onto the situation.” She came closer and ran her hands up his arms. “We have it. I might not fit exactly what that blog said either because I never had a real Dom who made me feel safe. I may know my big limits, I’ll never like blood or edge play or sex with anyone else. That doesn’t mean I might not like events similar to tonight.”
“I pushed you. I couldn’t let it be. I was wrong and went over the line.” He shook his head. “I knew it was wrong when I said it. I’m not a super alpha male Dom and sometimes it shows in the worst way. You deserve better. I didn’t want other men looking at you like that while you talk casually with them, but I needed to see how you’d react around other men. That one ex who cheated when I was out of town. I didn’t want to go into this but it haunts me.”
“So tell me. Stop holding out because it’s not helping us.” She glared at him.
“I asked her if she wanted to do a house party. I’m not one for dungeons and memberships. But casual parties where you feel safe and don’t have to be ashamed, it’s a nice change sometimes. You don’t feel so alone with the lifestyle. Online can be so impersonal.”
She nodded. “And this woman said no?”
“She refused, and I dropped it. I respected her limits and went off to the work thing. When I got back, I had a few friends sit me down and tell me what she’d done. Not only did she cheat, she went to a house party and a dungeon with another Dom. Very public scenes.” He tensed and sighed. “Maybe she just didn’t know how to break up with me. Or didn’t want to do that stuff with me? It ended the relationship, obviously.”
“So spanking me in front of Colin was a little test to see how I’d react. Then when I said yes to the party…”
“I didn’t want to not challenge you if you didn’t know your limits yet. Maybe my communications skills aren’t good enough for a Dom.” He shrugged.
She hugged him. “No, you were jerked around by women who made you doubt yourself. I had the same thing with my last relationship. It was humiliating. You deserve a woman you can trust. You can offer me new experiences all you want, but you’ll get an honest answer, and you’d better listen. I might not want to play your way all the time, but I won’t leave. I won’t cheat. I won’t let you make me do anything I don’t want to do. But I sure as hell won’t leave you or let you abandon me until we’re sure it’s over.” She kissed his neck.
He hugged her tight. “You don’t need to deal with my failures. My family issues.”
“No, you need to do that. I can’t fix them, but I can help. Unless you’re keeping anything else from me?”
“No, that’s it. You know it all now.” He exhaled deeply.
“In time, you will trust me without second guessing. Maybe I’ll walk around topless at an event someday. Maybe not. That’s up to me. But I swear one day soon you’d let me sit naked in a room full of the hottest men in America, and you’ll trust me not to touch them or even want to.” She held onto him even tighter.
“I don’t want to push you. I don’t mean to challenge you like that.” He shook his head. “I wanted to share tonight with you. The goal was to get closer to you, not screw it all up.”
She kissed his chest. He hadn’t bothered to dress after coming home. Her touch was so soothing and reassuring. He wanted to take her to the bedroom.
“We did get closer. You let down your guard. Fights will happen, even in this sort of relationship and even when it comes to sex. We won’t always agree, and I don’t care if you’re the Dom, I’m
not a pushover. I like to obey but if it feels wrong, I won’t do it. That’s just me. Our kids will never doubt their mother is strong, smart, and as independent as their father. What we do in private, that’s our choice for a sexual thrill. You don’t have to be in charge and hold me all day, every day. I’m staying…by choice.” She grabbed him by the hair and pulled him down for a kiss.
Grinning, he kissed her.
“Kids?” he asked against her mouth.
“Two at least.” She worked in his fly. “And I want to go to the next house event. I want to role-play and have sex. But I want a costume I can wear and you think is sexy. Let me get used to that before you want me naked in front of people.”
“Anything else, my demanding little sub?” he asked.
“I trust you. I love you.” She shrugged. “That’s all that matters.”
He kissed her hard and carried her to the bed. Dumping her there, he decided against restraints but grabbed a wooden paddle.
He hiked up her skirt, nothing underneath as usual. He grinned. Rubbing the paddle over her bare ass, he wanted to clear the air fully. “I’m sorry I left you there. I knew Colin would take you home. I’ll never walk away again, I swear. I love you.”
“I stayed there because I wasn’t going to follow you around as if I were a puppy. Now you trust me,” she said with a sigh.
“Take your shirt off and the bra,” he said. He wanted to believe in her fully. There were levels to trust, and he did believe she’d stay and work on things. He had faith in her love but forever was still uncertain.
She obeyed, and he removed his jeans. There was no need for any clothes, but he did love seeing her skirt bunched up around her waist. He fingered her cunt, and she lifted her hips. Wet and ready to go.
“So I trust you? You just said we’d have to build it.” He wanted to fuck not talk, but they were sorting out a lot. He’d never had a woman like this in his life. She was very clear and focused on the bottom line. No flowers and poetry, she was as basic as binary.
“Some things take time. You’ll need more proof to believe you do totally relax with me. Little tests and more fights, I’m sure. But since I’ve been here, you haven’t once asked if any other man approached me after you left. Tried to touch me. You know I didn’t get involved with anyone else even after I was there alone. Don’t tell me it’s because Colin would’ve stopped it. He doesn’t order me around. You’re afraid to let your guard down with me, but you do.” She smiled knowingly up at Nelson.
Damn! She was right. Pushing past the haunting of his history, when he forced everything out of his mind but Amber, he had no doubts about her fidelity. “Fine, you win. I trust you’ll be faithful. That is a huge step.”
“That’s everything.” She arched her back, putting her ass up high in the air. “We can negotiate any sex wants and limits if we’re committed.”
He swung the paddle then kissed the spot where it’d landed. “I love you so much.”
“I know. Please paddle me good and prove it, Sir.” She had a little too much cockiness in her voice. He grinned and decided to paddle her until she begged for sex. This was where he knew exactly how to play the game.
Chapter Eight
Three months later…
The tests between Amber and Nelson had become fun brainteasers, now that they were out in the open. Amber sat working late on one. They’d done a few more events and had had plenty of success now that the past wasn’t haunting them. She still didn’t walk around naked as some others, but she loved having sex with Nelson in front of a small audience of new friends.
Nelson was slowly relaxing and this test was to see if they were ready for a weekend away together. With her doctorate in hand, openly dating was no longer an issue. Now he loved showing her off. Plenty of his geek buddies were very jealous.
As she followed the code clue, she ended up at the website for the Renaissance Faire. “Really?” she shouted to him.
From the kitchen, he laughed. “Nothing modern. All old school. You can dress for it. I’ve got a few outfits.”
He went to the bedroom, and she followed along eagerly. The box in the closet, which she’d noticed but resisted looking in, was now on the bed. He had an outfit with an impressive codpiece. Her dress was short and tight. “Tavern wench?” she asked.
“Yep. I’ve got a nice belt on my outfit so we’ll have something to play with. No batteries or anything,” he teased.
She’d been going through a toy phase and loved letting him use anything on her while tied up. “I can live with that. I always wanted to go to one of these. Just not during a certain time… I’m not living without tampons. That’s asking too much.”
“Agreed.” He kissed her cheek. “I think I timed it right. We’ve got a long weekend coming up.”
She nodded. “You booked it all and everything?”
“The hotel and bought the tickets. If you don’t want it, it’s all refundable. I know you love technology, but I noticed a lot of the books you read for pleasure are more of the old-world variety. Thought we might get a break from our computers.”
“No laptops? No smartphones?” She started to feel a real thrill.
He shrugged. “I think we should keep the phones for emergencies, in case someone needs to get a hold of us. But no surfing the web.”
“You’ll go crazy in one day.” She hugged him and pushed him down on the bed.
“That’s the test for both of us. You’ll be begging me for a sex toy or your laptop.” He pinned her down.
She sighed as he kissed her breasts through the thin tank top she was wearing. It was late, they were both ready for bed, but she’d finally cracked his challenge and that meant a big reward. “I’ll be good, I promise. With enough paddling and sex, I won’t miss my computer at all.”
“That’ll be fun for me. I want you to see things, too. Maybe we can borrow some hot wax from the candle makers?” He tugged her shorts off and fingered her pussy.
Moaning, she nodded. “I’ve never tried that. And sex outdoors or in a tent. Who cares if we get caught?”
“I’ve created a wild sub.” He kissed her roughly then dragged his mouth down her body until he bit her nipples.
“What if we know people there?” she asked.
He pushed a finger inside her slit, and she groaned. “I don’t care. You’re my wench. If we’re caught, we’re caught. But I’ll only dominate and paddle you in private. You’ll have to beg for it.”
“I beg all the time and like it,” she teased.
He pulled away from her, and she closed her eyes. The trust had been built, but he still loved to prove his point. Minutes later he returned, and her wrists were cuffed. Her ankles were tied together, and he lubed a small vibrator. A large one. She gasped as he worked it into her ass.
“Come for me,” he said.
“Please, you promised a reward for cracking your code.” She arched her back and shifted her legs to one side so he could fuck her if he spooned her.
“You don’t need me. You’ve got batteries.” He turned on a small vibrator then rubbed it over her nipples until she moaned. Slowly he trailed it down her body until he pressed it to her clit. The deep vibrations combined with the pulsing her ass made her quiver. “Please no, it’s too much.”
“Use your safe word,” he said.
“Please, Sir. I want your cock. I don’t need toys,” she begged.
He loved working her body with toys to trigger multiple orgasms. He loved watching her come.
“I want to give you a good dose of your favorites before you must give them up for a weekend.” He picked up another, angled to hit her G-spot, it was long and thick in just the right place. When he turned the base, it rattled with serious vibration.
Her pussy ached at the sight of it. “I want you. Take all the toys away!” she demanded.
He laughed and worked it into her cunt, keeping the clit one where it belonged as well. The trio was overwhelming, he’d never done that before. Her body shook,
and she tried to move but couldn’t control herself. Screaming his name, she came and cursed him over and over as he didn’t let up. Another hard orgasm hit and her clit began to burn.
“Please, stop. Turn them all off. Please, Sir,” she said.
The clit one was first taken away and she could breathe. The one in her pussy turned off, but he thrust it in and out again so her body bowed. He knew how to fuck her like he knew how to hack a computer. Every button and trick were his to play with. Finally, he turned the toy in her ass off. All the buzzing was gone.
“You bought all those toys. You don’t like them?” he asked.
“Fuck me, please.” She ignored his teasing.
“You just came at least twice in a matter of minutes. You want more?” He gently kissed her slit.
“I want your cock inside of me. No orgasm is better than that.” She tried to open her legs, but it was awkward with her ankles tied.
He released her ankles and pressed his body weight fully to her. “I think we should bring your toys to the next house event. I can use them on you then fuck you. Show off how orgasmic you are,” he said.
Already throbbing, her pussy tightened at the promise. “We can talk about it after the Faire. Right now, please. I need one more with you.”
“I should make you wait.” He sucked her breasts and pinched them. “Maybe I’ll make you wear nipples clamps under your wench outfit?”
She nodded. “I will. Please, I want them. Just don’t put me in a chastity belt.”
He laughed. “Never.” He grabbed her ass and filled her pussy hard.
Condoms had been vetoed except for anal sex once they’d both been tested. She preferred the pill and nothing between them. It felt so much more intimate to know he trusted her that much.
“I can keep my pills for the trip?” she teased.
He laughed and pulled from her. “I think so. We’re not ready for kids just yet. But we’ll bring some condoms and lube because your ass will get plenty of attention.”
“Thank you, Sir.” She squeezed the toy in her ass.
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