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"Ron, taameen li. . . ani ohev et habat shelcha ve lo yaaseh doom lifgoah bah. "
After Avi said that last part, theres silence on the other end of the line for a second. I can feel the tension ebb and flow between the two men in my life.
"Beseder," Avi says.
"Beseder," he repeats.
"Beseder" he says again.
The suspense is killing me. "What does beseder mean?"
Instead of answering me, he collapses the phone, disconnecting the line. Then he tosses the phone into the back seat. "It means fine, or okay. "
"Did he really threaten you?"
"Especially after I told him I loved you. "
Heart palpitation here. "You told him you loved me?"
He nods.
I tilt my head to the side and say with a smile, "You know youre supposed to declare your love to the girl before you tell her father. Unless its the olden days, in which youd be giving my dad goats, gifts, and gold in exchange for permission to marry me. "
"My family owns half of the goats on the moshav" he says, lifting his eyebrows. "How about I offer our half to your dad?"
I was at the moshav over the summer. My uncle owns the other half of the goat farm. "Thats a lot of goats," I say. "How do you know Im worth it?"
Avi looks into my eyes. "Youre worth it, Amy," he says, once again cradling my head in his hands. "Trust me, life with you would be an adventure," he whispers.
As Im about to pull him closer, I feel him tugging my shirt together. "What are you doing?"
"Buttoning your shirt," he says as his hands deftly move up and button my shirt back up.
"Why?"
"Because Id rather have you not tell our kids their dad declared his love in the back seat of a car. "
"Were in the front seat. "
"Yeah, well. . . and as much as I think I could take your dad on and give him a pretty good run for his money, Id rather not get into it with him. "
Avi puts his own shirt on, covering that six-pack and bronzed chest I once thought didnt affect me. It does.
"Lets take a walk on the beach. "
I look out the window and know its a cold, breezy night in northern Illinois. "Its freezing out there. "
"Stay close, then. Ill keep you warm. "
We step out of the car. Avi puts his arm around me as we walk down the dark, sandy beach. Hes right. His embrace does keep me warm on this chilly night. After a few minutes, Avi halts his steps and turns to me. He takes my hands in his, weaving my fingers through his own. "Amy," he says, his voice laced with seriousness.
My eyes are filled with emotion. Hes going to say it. . . I know its so hard for him. His brother died in a bombing and Avis been struggling with his emotions ever since.
He squeezes his eyes shut as if trying desperately to pull out the words. "Wait here. " Taking my car keys from his back pocket, he runs to the car and back. "Here," he says, holding out my cell phone. "Call your voicemail. "
"Why?"
"Just do it. "
I dial my voicemail number. The first call was from five oclock. . . before I kidnapped him.
"Hi, Amy, its Avi. Ive, uh, been thinking a lot this week and the truth is. . . well, I miss you. Too much. Its killing me inside not being close to you. I mean, I understand if you want to never call or see me again because I left like a wounded ass, but. . . well. . . if you find it in your heart. . . or even your mind. . . to forgive me for having an ego as big as the Sears Tower I visited yesterday, call me back on this number- its Tariks cell. "
I press nine on my cell and turn to him. "That was so sweet," I say. And it means so much to me that he called before I kidnapped him.
"Wait, listen to the next message. "
The next message? I put my ear back on the phone to hear the next message.
"Its Avi again. Did I tell you your eyes remind me of blown glass? I can see your soul through those eyes, Amy. They get darker when youre trying to be sexy and they shine when you smile. And when you think youre in trouble you blink double the amount that you usually do. And when youre sad, the corners of your eyes turn down. I miss your eyes. And I dont want the sad ones to be my last memory of you. "
I save the second message, too, then look up at Avi. "Theres another one, isnt there?"
He nods.
I press the button and forward to the next message.
"Its Avi. And I want to say something to you. Not because I want you to say it back, either, (deep breath) I. . . I love you. Its not that kind of conditional love. . . its the kind thatll be around forever. Even if you dont call. Even if you like Nathan or any other guy. We can be friends. We can be more. Just. . . call me back. "
I press the forward button. Avi looks like he wants to bite his nails right now, hes so embarrassed.
"Did I mention when I first met you I was so attracted to you it scared me? Me, scared. I still am when Im around you, because now I want you in my life forever. How long is forever, Amy?"
I shut the phone off.
"Dont you want to hear the rest of the messages?"
I slip the phone into my back pocket while tears well in my eyes. "No. " Well, actually Ill listen to them when Im alone in my room at night and want to hear his voice before I fall asleep. Right now all I want to do is be with my boyfriend and enjoy the small amount of time we have left with each other.
"Avi?"
"Yeah. "
"Now I have to tell our kids you declared your love over a cell phone. "
He smiles wide, then laughs. "How about this, then. . . " he says, then picks me up effortlessly in his strong arms and lays me gently down on the sand.
I have to say, Im much less worried about the sand in my hair or stuck to my designer clothes than the words about to come out of Avis mouth.
He leans over me. His hands once again take mine in his and he weaves his fingers through mine. "I love you, Amy Nelson-Barak. From the moment I laid eyes on you I couldnt stop looking at you. From the moment we talked I couldnt stop arguing with you. From the moment we kissed I couldnt stop kissing you. And from the moment we shared our hopes, fears, and insecurities I couldnt stop loving you. "
Oh, thats good. Twice.
Is today Tuesday?
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King Solomon didnt ask God to be rich or to live long. He asked for wisdom and knowledge (Kings 3:9). I have to be honest. . . Im more selfish than King Solomon. Abercrombie & Fitch is having a sale next week and, well. . .
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Its after midnight when we get back to my condo. We had to retrieve Avis duffle from Tariks dorm at Northwestern before coming back home where my dad has been waiting for us like an overprotective lion waiting for his precious cub to return from her first hunt.
My dad situated one of our dining room chairs right in front of the door so his face is the first thing we see. His hair is all messed up, no doubt from running his hands through it a million times.
"Hey, Aba," I say, giving him a peck on his cheek while trying to keep the atmosphere light. Mutt jumps over to me, totally excited and wagging his tail furiously. I pet him, then look back at my stoic dad.
His eyes are narrowed at Avi, who is standing in the doorway with his duffle in hand. Showdown time.
I put my purse on the table, wondering how long these two can stare each other down. "Avi, why dont you come in while I get the sheets for your bed. "
Avi looks to my dad for approval. Oh, no. I seriously think my dad might just kick him out right now.
Is anyone else going to talk? Or are the two guys going to stand here staring each other down until one of them gives in and looks away? Theyre like dogs.
"If you loved my daughter youd have her home at a decent hour. "
Avi opens his mouth as if hes going to say something back, but then closes it. My dad seems content with the silence coming from Avi, as if hes not even expecting a response. I go to the hall closet to get the
sheets because Im too embarrassed to witness my dad going off on my boyfriend and know I cant stop it from happening.
When I walk back into the living room, the scene has changed. Avi is sitting on the couch while my dad has moved the dining room chair into the living room. Hes sitting in the chair, facing Avi and watching him.
While Avi and I arrange the sheets, my dad doesnt change expression or flinch. When I hand Avi a pillow and our hands lightly brush against each other, I wonder if my dad can tell how electric that instantaneous touch was.
As soon as the couch is transformed into a bed, my dad barks, "Time for bed. "
I change into pjs in my room and pass Avi in the hallway when I go to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. Looking at myself in the mirror, I see a happy person whos content with her life. Its not perfect, thats for sure. But Im getting there.
Stepping out of the bathroom, I notice my dad has moved the chair from the living room into the hallway, directly between my room and the living room where Avi is sleeping.
"Aba, how long are you going to be sitting there?" I ask him.
"All night. "
I cant even get mad at him. I know he just worries about me and questions his own effectiveness as a father. After all, Ive only lived with him a few months and hes still getting used to having a teenage daughter around. Hes probably wondering what to tell my mom if she grills him on my life. Considering last year I didnt even want to talk to him, I understand why hes sitting on a chair in the middle of the hallway and isnt willing to budge anytime soon.
Moving past him, I say, "I just want to say goodnight to Avi. Does that meet with your approval?"
"That depends on how long your goodnight will last," he says, abandoning his post to follow me.
Okay, so threes a crowd in this scenario. Its not easy saying goodnight to the guy of your dreams when your dad is standing over your shoulder.
"Well, goodnight Avi," I say sheepishly when I get to the living room and wish we were still on the beach. . . without an overprotective chaperone.
Avi is sitting on the sofa, wearing baggy shorts and. . . well, thats about it. As much as I hate people staring at my chest, I have the hardest time not staring at his. I think he sits there half-dressed to tempt me.
Two can play at this game.
I cant do it now, but tomorrow Im going to taunt him by wearing something extra low-cut and tight. Lets see how he reacts in the morning.
Hes got this huge grin on his face. He has no clue I have ideas spinning in my head. "Lyla tov, Amy," he says, telling me goodnight in his native language.
I want to say more, but not with my bodyguard behind me, so I stroll back to my room. Although, one backward glance at Avi and I know I dont even have to say the words. He knows how I feel and what I want to say.
"Seriously, Aba, do you know how embarrassed youre making me?"
"Seriously, Amy, do you know I dont care?"
I roll my eyes. In bed, I wonder how long hell stay perched on that chair in the middle of the hallway. I hope he falls asleep in that chair and gets a crick in his neck.
I cuddle under the covers of my bed, wishing I was cuddling with Avi instead of my Care Bear.
Two more nights until Avi leaves. How is my heart not going to crush into a million pieces? And how am I going to sleep tonight when Im too excited to go to bed? Im replaying the evening in my head, focusing on the "I love you" parts and conveniently skipping over the embarrassing parts on the Northwestern campus.
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