I traced her cheek with the pad of my thumb and shook my head. “I don’t care if this is the only baby we ever have, I’m just—” I took in a deep breath. “— I never saw this, a life with someone that I trust with every fiber of my being. Having a woman that would stand beside me no matter what and never judge me for the horrible fucking person that I truly am. You, baby, you are all I need in my life and if you’ll let me I’ll be that for you.”
“You already are.” Her lips quivered as she fought back the tears.
I’d been so wrapped up with business that I didn’t see how hard this was for her, and even more so with the baby coming. She had no family with her, but here she was even more beautiful as her vulnerability exposed its self, which happened so rarely. I needed to take this moment and burn it into my memory. I knew that it could all be taken away from us so quickly and I never wanted to forget what her beauty looked and felt like.
“God.” I traced the curve of her lips.
She swallowed hard and muttered, “What?”
“You’re perfect.” I leaned down and slowly traced my hot tongue across her mouth, forcing her lips to part. “Beautiful.” My hands slid from the nape of her neck to the exposed flesh from her open back dress. “Sexy.” My hands slid to the curves of her plump ass. I broke the kiss and traced my tongue along her neck. “Mine!” I growled, pulling the lobe of her ear into my mouth.
With the tug of her ass into my palm, she moaned through exacerbated breath, “Jax!” She grabbed at the lapel of my jacket. “The door.” Our mouths clashed. “Jax,” she said with bated breath.
I barely survived pulling myself away from her— my dick was nearly on the edge of ripping my pants off on its own. I pushed the door closed only for it to drift open. I thought of how to close it quickly when my eyes landed on the gray chair against the wall. It wasn’t large enough that it would keep anyone from entering if they pushed hard enough, but it would keep the door closed for now. I ripped off my suit jacket throwing it to the dark stone floor and pulled the chair against the door. It was completely closed for now. I turned seeing my wife against the wall watching me with a smirk.
“Our guests are waiting for us, ya know.”
“Let ‘em wait.” I stepped slowly toward her while I loosened my tie and then unbuttoned my white shirt.
“They’ll wonder where we’ve gone—” she pressed a hand to the wall letting her chest extend outward. Her breasts were fucking perfect. The dress she wore hugged her curvy body ending just above the knee.
“—They’ll come looking for us.” Her legs parted.
“Let ‘em look.” I licked my lips, watching as her body waited impatiently for my touch. “You belong to me, Bella, and I’ll fuck you in the bathroom any fucking time I like.” I pinned my arms against the wall on either side of her head. “Do you want me to fuck you?” Her doe eyes watched me fiercely. “Do you?” I pressed my chest into hers.
She nodded. “Yes,”
“Yes what?” I teased her with my lips barely touching hers.
Her heart beat hard against my fingers that aligned with her neck. “Yes, I want you to fuck me.” She wrapped her arms around my neck, pulling me to her mouth. I pressed my hands hard against her back, shifting them to her ass once again, and then lifted her up so that her thighs wrapped around my waist, squeezing with want, with need.
We kissed as I held her in my arms, needing so fucking badly to be inside of her. I could feel the warmth of her pussy rub against me while her hands finished unbuttoning my shirt then reached for my belt unclasping it. I pulled her dress over her head, wanting the touch of her skin to cover mine. I needed that connection with her. It was about so much more than getting it in; it was about the stars that crashed into each other when we were together. It was about the violins that played sweet music to the sounds of our ecstasy. She was all I needed to be complete; just her simple touch to light my way, and through the darkest time of my life she would do just that.
My pants hugged my hips leaving room for me to free myself. I was ready to feel her all around me. I cupped her breast in my hand, licking softly at her nipple. As it hardened, I took it between my teeth, biting gently, causing her to release a moan and shift her head back.
Reaching from behind her, I moved her panties to the side letting my fingers slide across her folds; she was dripping wet for me, hot and ready. She wanted me as much as I wanted her.
I gripped her hips, shifting her over my cock, and with one move I slid inside of her. God, it felt amazing: wet, swollen, and tight as she sucked me in with force. I had no control when I was inside of her. She owned me, dominated me with her pussy. I‘d never felt anything like it.
She writhed against my body, begging for more, pushing down with each thrust forcing me deeper, harder, and faster. I gripped her shoulders moving even deeper; sweat from our bodies made the movements easy.
She was so fucking beautiful when her orgasm hit. Biting on her lips, she reached for my face and begged me to fuck her harder as she came all over my cock. I could feel the heat pour as her cum coated me. I exploded inside of her, pumping with force, pushing her down over and over while pressing my face into her neck, biting her as my orgasm came to a close.
“FUCK!”
She giggled against my shoulder, “Damn.”
“Did you approve?” She didn’t answer and instead flashed a wicked grin. I think that was meant as a yes.
“What are we going to do about our guests?” she asked, serious now. “We can’t go out there looking like this.”
“No, you can sneak down the hall and take the elevator up, and I’ll get rid of them.”
She nodded as I sat her on her feet. I quickly dressed as she began gathering her clothes into a pile and then slipped on the guests robe that hung on the wall near the shower.
She flashed me another smile. “Jax?”
“What, baby?” I turned from the door.
“Thank you.”
“For?”
“Loving me.”
“More than anything, baby.” I loved her so much more than anything she could possibly imagine and then some. “I’ll see you in the shower.” I winked.
Buttoning my cuff, I slipped into the dining room where everyone continued eating and laughing.
“Everything alright?”
I nodded. “We’re gonna call it a night, but please—“ I looked to my parents and then the rest of the guests. “— Finish your dinner.”
“Is Bella alright?”
I wrinkled my brows fighting a smile. “Yeah, she’s fine she’s just gonna go to bed a bit early.”
“I’ll bet she is,” Emily joked.
Everyone said goodnight, and I left the dining room and headed back to my wife.
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
—Bella—
“Isaac, Francesco, Emilio,” I read from the book of baby names while Jax stood by holding his coffee as he listened. He wasn’t responding to me as I said them. He hadn’t been responding to many things the last few days.
“Baby, did you like them?” I pressed my finger into the book holding my page.
His head shifted toward me, his eyes making contact with mine just before he peered down at his watch. “Of course I did, I think they’re all great.” He stood and pressed a kiss to the top of my head.
“What’s bothering you?” I adjusted my position in the armchair looking up to him.
If it weren’t for the deep breath he drew in, I may have never second-guessed his answer of “nothing,” but the deep breath and slight apprehension in his words assured me he worried about something.
“What if it’s a girl?” He pulled a smile to his lips, facing me from the footstool in front of me. “Could be a little girl, and we need a name.” His head tilted, his dark eyes piercing into mine. This’s what Jax did when he wanted to occupy me. There were so many worries, and I felt all of them. If he was feeling stress, I could feel it as well. His touch, kiss, even the way we made love
changed.
I stroked my hand over his thigh with slow repetition. “It’s a boy,” I said with a reassured half smile.
“Oh?” he questioned.
I stretched my hand across my growing tummy feeling happiness grow inside of my heart. I knew without a doubt the baby was a boy.
His brow wrinkled while he watched my hands stroke the cotton that lay against my belly. “My mother said she knew I was a boy—” he shrugged “—You could be right.”
I leaned into the armchair finding the page I’d been reading from. I had marked a few names and noted my favorites. “Ennio—” I began, “—favorite of God. I think this is my favorite of them all.” I lifted my eyes, smiling.
His thought had drifted once more.
“Jax? What’s going on?”
He shook his head, “Nothin’. Yeah, I like that name,” he reached out for my shoulders, pulling me into a hug. “I think it’s great.”
“You think I don’t recognize the worry on your face, but I do.” I lay my head against his chest. His heartbeat echoed with perfect rhythm into my ear. I thought at one point I’d never hear that sound again. “When you hide things from me, it only hurts me, Jax. The secrecy doesn’t protect me.” I clutched his T-shirt into my palm.
His hands stroked my head. “Bella, you don’t understand the shit I have to deal with. The tyrants that wish our family harm.” He leaned away, watching as he pressed his palms into my temples. “You’ll never understand what it’s like to be the devil of a man I must be.” I saw something in Jax’s eyes right then, something I didn’t like.
I shook against his embrace. “Because you don’t let me in.”
His eyes softened a moment before releasing me to stand. “Why?”
“Why what?” I stood, following after him as he turned and walked away from me.
Shifting his body toward mine I jumped back. “Why do you have to know every goddamn thing that I’m thinkin’, Bella? Fuck!”
“Maybe I’m selfish. I’m a prisoner, Jax. I’m a victim of this life too.” I was still, calm, and collected, but I was ready to strike at any moment.
“A prisoner? You can leave any fucking time you want. I’ve given you everything. Anything you want you get, but it’s not enough. It’s never enough for you!” he growled.
“Jax, I’m entitled to have it all.” I crossed my arms over my chest.
“Are you fucking kidding me? Entitled? You’re crazy,” he snorted. “Unbelievable!” He walked into the closet shaking his head.
His sudden burst of hostility was more than I could bare. When he was out of my sight, I reached for my bag, slipped on my flats, and left the suite. I was so angry that I couldn’t help the tear that fell from my eye. I wanted to scream maybe even hit him in the chest, but I couldn’t because I loved him to damn much.
“Isabella?” Alessandra approached the corridor. “Are you leaving?” Her silver streaked hair swept into a bun had begun to fall. I tucked a loose strand of it behind her ear and kissed her cheek.
“I just—” I turned in the direction of the stairs, “—need to get out of here for a while.” I drew in a deep breath, letting my eyes fall to the floor this time. When my head rose, she stared with worry. “I’ll be back in time for dinner.” I ended the conversation with a saddened smile, not leaving any chance for her to oppose my decision to leave.
I stepped out of the door quietly; none of my guards were around, and I took the opportunity to leave unnoticed. I wanted to be alone for a little while. Having someone watching my every move twenty-four seven got old. Sometimes I just wanted to be left alone.
I stepped onto the elevator, pressing the parking garage button. I’d drive until I didn’t feel like crying or hitting Jax any longer. When the doors opened to the parking garage, the quiet echoing off of the concrete dungeon and pristine cars rang in my ears. A Rolls-Royce sat parked to the left of the elevator and a Maserati to the left of it, but my car was several steps away. I clutched the handle of my bag in front of me, feeling the bag hit my knees with each step I took.
My life had become one I didn’t want or ask for. Watching our backs as wives of made men wasn’t uncommon. I was used to it being the daughter of Anthony Sagatori, but I saw a few look over their shoulder more than once. And there I was walking through a quiet parking garage a bit scared. Maybe I feared the boogie man would pop out from behind the hundred thousand dollar black Porsche or my black Jag. Perhaps it was just natural order for a woman to become a bit uneasy when she walked alone.
When my door closed, I quickly locked the doors and turned my head looking into an empty backseat. When I was safe and officially alone, I started the car and drove through the secured gate, and then into the street. I hadn’t considered where I might end up, but I had to get away. I knew Jax was stressed, and I knew there wasn’t anything I could do to help him, but I damn well wasn’t going to be yelled at again. I slipped my sunglasses on and pressed my foot to the gas pedal, leaving it all behind if only for a little while.
—Jax—
I tapped my foot at the edge of the bed, I felt guilty for yelling and taking all my shit out on her. “Damn it!” I buttoned my slacks then slipped the Hermes belt through the loops of my trousers. I folded my jacket into my arm and took a deep breath. I needed to apologize even if it wasn’t my favorite thing to do; it still needed to be done because she didn’t deserve what I’d said. The shit that I was stressed over had everythin’ and nothin’ to do with her and that’s why it was so difficult.
Taking every other step, I descended the staircase shifting my eyes over the corridor for Bella, but she wasn’t there. I slipped into my jacket and straightened my tie in the mirror when Alessandra approached.
“Please tell Bella I’ll be in late.” I watched in the mirror, seeing the vein at my temple throb.
She nodded in the reflection behind me. “When she gets home, I’ll let her know.”
Dominic and Tony entered just as she finished speaking. I narrowed my brows, looking between the two.
“Where’s Bella?”
They both looked at me and then to each other with confusion written all over their faces. They had no idea where my wife had gone.
“Where did she go?” I turned my attention to Alessandra who seemed surprised herself.
She shrugged. “I— I don’t know. I thought you knew she was leaving.”
“No! I didn’t know! She just left and no one was with her?” My attention was directed to the two idiots in front of me.
“Boss.” Dominic approached.
“Find my wife before I ice your fuckin’ asses.”
“Yeah, yeah.” They rushed to the security monitors in my office.
“What did she say?” I narrowed my stare at Alessandra this time.
“That she’d be back before dinner. She didn’t seem like herself, though. It looked as if she was going to cry for a moment.”
Bella doesn’t cry; she rarely shows any emotion where others are concerned. Hell, even I very rarely see the sensitive side of her—if ever.
I slipped my hand inside my pants pocket, retrieving my cell phone, callin’ hers. With one ring her voicemail answered. “It’s Bella, leave a message.”
“Call me back, Isabella!” I tossed the phone to the chair next to me with force.
“Boss, she left in the Jag about twenty minutes ago. She pulled out of the garage heading west.”
“Where would she go?” Alessandra asked while she straightened my tie.
I didn’t know where she would go. I never let her out of the house; she’d pretty much been a prisoner in her own life since I came into it. All I did was bark orders at her and make demands that would make anyone crazy. “Track her car.”
Alessandra gasped, “You can do that?”
I raised a brow. “Of course, I never risk Bella’s safety.”
“Her car is at 7th and Price.” Dominic watched his phone.
“Zest,” Dominic and Tony said in unison.
I slipped my jacket on as I left the apartment and exited the floor inside of the elevator. “Pull the car to the front,” I called my guard.
“Yes, Boss.”
I stepped outside through the glass doors of the building and walked to the car where Wyatt stood holding the door for me. I lifted my eyes for a moment seeing another car just across the street— a black limo— not somethin’ uncommon for this area, very common actually. But that wasn’t what caught my eye; it was the blonde that peered over the top of the car just before disappearing inside of it. My eyes had to be betraying me. I shook my head, stepping into my own car, watching as the limo drove away heading in the opposite direction that I would be.
“Everythin’ okay, Boss?”
I blew out a breath. “Bella took off alone, and her car is at Zest.”
“Got it.” The car was balls to the wall in seconds. Unfortunately, our car was quickly slowed to a stop from traffic. “Sorry, Boss.”
“Cut through here.” I pointed.
The car made a sharp right turn bypassing the cars that sat motionless in front of us.
“If you don’t mind me asking, Boss, did you call her? Is she okay?”
I watched my phone waiting impatiently for her to call me back. I’d dialed and redialed her number over and over with no response.
Wyatt watched with curiosity in the rearview waiting for my response, a response I wasn’t going to give.
A siren blared from behind us, catching my attention quickly. It was Chicago’s finest with their lights flashing.
“Boss?”
“Fuck, just what I needed.”
As Wyatt pulled the car to the side of the road, I punched the seat in front of me. I didn’t have time to entertain the fucking cops, but they passed us. It was a huge fucking relief that they were headed somewhere else.
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