But when she considered all the things that might go wrong, Remy was most worried about offending Adam. She considered him a friend. Well, she liked to think of him as a friend, and didn’t want to wrong him. After the phone calls she had made this week, it appeared that Adam would be a key source for the story, unless she could gain information from the community. When she had called the sheriff’s office in Halfway, she was told, in a kind but firm way, to take a hike.
“The investigation has not turned up any new information that wasn’t reported last March,” Sheriff Hank Hallinan had told her. “It would be much appreciated if you media people would just leave this family alone. Haven’t they been through enough?”
When she reported the sheriff’s statement to Arlene, her boss had glared at her over her bejeweled reading glasses. “Are you telling me there’s no story here?”
“There’s definitely a story,” Remy had insisted. “It’s just a matter of talking with the family.”
“But they’re insulated. They’re Amish. It’s a different culture. They’re not starstruck like the rest of America. They don’t want to make headlines.”
“I’ll get the interview with Adam King,” Remy had said over the nervous thrumming of her pulse. “I know him. He’s … he’s a friend of mine.”
In retrospect, she realized that “know” may have been a bit presumptuous, but they had met more than once, chatted, and he’d remembered her. In this age of technology, she figured there was something special about a personal connection. Especially when it came to the Amish.
When Arlene had questioned her further, Remy had tossed out some details she’d learned from her research on the Amish. “When I met Adam King, he was coming back from his rumspringa, the ‘running around’ period when teens are given freedom from the confines of their culture.”
“A custom that’s garnered a lot of interest lately. People seem to think it’s like college frat boys at spring break.” Arlene rested her chin in the V of her thumb and pointing finger, as if settling in to hear more.
“That’s a misconception, but we can clear that up in the article. Of course, we won’t be able to run any family photographs with the piece,” Remy had warned the big boss. “The Amish avoid being photographed. They believe it’s wrong to get caught up in ‘graven images.’ ”
“Right.” Arlene had seemed impressed. “As I remember, we ran last year’s reports with photos of a Lancaster County farm, and shots of a horse and buggy. Anonymous Amish people were photographed from behind or from a distance.”
“I suppose that would work,” Remy had said, amazed that she was suddenly discussing photo layout with the editor in chief.
Now, leafing through the pages of her journal, she reviewed the names of the King children—all eleven of them—and tried to picture them in her mind. Adam, Jonah, and Mary were closest to her in age, though Gabe and Sadie weren’t far behind. She wondered if the teenaged twin girls were identical, and how they get along with Ruthie. The little baby, Katie, would have to be walking by now, and Sam was almost old enough for kindergarten. And the little boy who had been with his parents that deadly night—Simon. How had he coped with grief and trauma?
Glancing over the driving directions to Halfway, she hoped to find these answers tomorrow. She would drive out to Lancaster County in the morning and chat up the locals. The trip wouldn’t take but an hour or two, especially with Saturday’s lighter traffic. From the town’s website, she thought that Molly’s Roadside Restaurant might be a good place to start. There was also the Sweet ’N’ Simple Bakery, Kraybill’s Fish and Game, and Ye Olde Tea Shop. Behind the town hall was an area designated for a farmers market, but Remy couldn’t tell if it was open year-round.
She plunked a painted stone paperweight on her open journal, then moved into the kitchen area, her stomach growling at the thought of food. Dinner had been popcorn and a diet Coke. Inside the fridge, there was only ketchup, a wax container of moo shu pork, pickle relish, and two diet sodas. She closed the fridge, resolving to get some sleep and grab a good breakfast in the morning.
With the lights out, moonlight shone from the wide window. She hitched up her flannel pajamas and nestled on the wide sill, soaking up the night for a moment.
Although her studio apartment was small, its location in the Museum District was excellent, and she never tired of the illumination and color and activity that transpired ten stories down. The orderly line of car lights gliding along the Benjamin Franklin Parkway made her feel as if life were moving on in an orderly fashion, and the pillared façade of the Rodin Museum, awash with light, seemed to connect wandering souls like her to the earth.
But tonight it was the moon that drew her eye. Like a wedge of cheese, it sat in the upper corner of the window, as if it were swinging from a hook.
A cheese moon. Tell me that’s not your subconscious reminding you of Adam King’s dairy farm.
That same moon was shining over Halfway right now, shining over Adam King and his family. What was Adam doing right now?
Yawning, she pressed one palm to the cool glass. Adam was probably sleeping, unless he was already up milking cows. But tomorrow she would close the distance between them. She tried to tamp down her nervous excitement about seeing him again.
Of course, she would maintain a professional distance. She was a journalist, researching a story. Her interest in Adam was purely altruistic.
“Keep telling yourself that, and maybe you’ll believe it,” she muttered as she hopped down from the windowsill and shuffled off to bed.
TEN
he weight of darkness echoed with footsteps, the sound of bare feet brushing wood.
Adam pushed at the thick walls of sleep, trying to open his eyes. Focusing in the blackness, he could tell it wasn’t near dawn yet; the air was still heavy and thick. But the small feet pacing beside his bed pedaled with energy.
“I’m worried. Just so worried about the bear …”
Adam sat up, sliding from the warmth of the blankets as he recognized the young voice. “Simon?” He scrambled, feeling along the bedside table to light a lantern.
In the flare of the match, Simon’s eyes glimmered, glassy and hollow. “What if it comes again? Bears have a very good sense of smell. He might be smelling us right now!”
The floor was like ice under Adam’s feet, but he barely noticed as he fell into step behind Simon, who was pacing the room, ranting.
“It’s okay, Simon. Shh!” Adam’s voice was soft but firm as he stood by the door, blocking his brother’s exit from the bedroom. He had seen this panic in his little brother before. He’d even talked to a doctor, who had explained it as night terrors. But having a name for the behavior didn’t make it any less horrifying. Especially when Simon lifted his chin and gazed straight into Adam’s eyes as if he were wide awake and rational.
“He could find us. What if he finds out that we are here?” Simon seemed to notice the window. “What if he sees me?” Gasping in panic, he dropped down beside the bed and curled into a ball, shivering. “Oh, no! Oh, no!”
The creak of floorboards in the hall made Adam look up. Mary appeared in the doorway, her dark hair pulled back in one long braid, the hem of her nightgown balled in her fists so that she could run without tripping. Adam did not remember the last time he’d seen his sister without a prayer kapp. She must have heard their voices from her room next door.
“Oh, liewe Simon, is it happening again?” She stepped forward, then paused as Simon cast an eerie stare in her direction.
“He will find the farm. The bear will come. He’ll come with his gun!” The boy clapped his hands to his bare head.
Mary shot a look at Adam. “He’s afraid of this bear again?”
Adam nodded, edging closer to his brother. “It’s okay, Simon. You’re safe here. There are no bears.”
“Oh, no! He has a gun! Did you see that?” Simon pointed across the room, his face awash with panic. “He has a gun!”
Mary pressed her h
ands to the bodice of her nightgown. “Oh, dear God, please help this child.”
“It’s my fault!” Simon panted. “Why did I ever like guns? I told Dat I wanted to shoot, that I would shoot real gut. And he listened to me and then it happened.”
“He’s talking about Mamm and Dat.” Mary’s hands were pressed to the collar of her nightgown as if she were having trouble breathing. “Do you think there’s any truth to what he’s saying?”
“It’s like a dream,” Adam explained. “Part story telling, part reality.”
Huddled beside the bed, Simon rocked back and forth, knocking his head into the bedpost. “It’s my fault. It’s my fault he killed them.…”
Immediately Adam was on his knees, holding his brother’s shoulders so that he wouldn’t hit the bed. “Can’t have you hurting yourself, buddy. Can you wake up and calm down?”
“It’s so cold.” The boy shivered as a pathetic sob slipped out.
“I’ll build a fire.” As Adam scooped the boy into his arms and headed down the stairs, he felt slightly reassured, as this was the way Simon’s previous spell of terror had ended a few weeks ago. If they could warm his small body by the potbellied stove, he would probably relax enough to go back to sleep.
As he worked he thanked the Lord that Simon always seemed to come to his room whenever he had such a spell. It wouldn’t do to have Simon wandering in his panic. So far none of the other sleepyheads in the house had witnessed the night terrors except for Jonah and Mary, who used the small room next to the nursery and seemed to sleep with one eye open for the children.
Mary held a whimpering Simon in the big hickory rocking chair while Adam got a fire going. Wrapped in a quilt, the boy looked small and helpless. That such innocence had been marred by the violent hand of another man … it tore at Adam’s heart.
Soon, Adam had a fire blazing. He sank into a chair beside them, relieved that the worst of Simon’s episode seemed to be over. For a few minutes they sat in the growing warmth of the fire’s glow; the only sound was the ebb and flow of the boy’s steady breathing. He seemed to be finding sleep once again, his head resting in the crook of Mary’s arm.
“Are your arms getting tired?” Adam asked.
“It’s fine.” She touched the back of one hand to Simon’s pale cheek. “Such a sweet boy. But he scares me so.”
“It’s a difficult thing to watch.” Adam always felt a tug of panic over these night terrors.
“I know the doctor said it’s normal, considering the trauma he suffered. But Adam, it gives me such a fright. I look in his eyes and …” She pressed a fist to her mouth. “It’s like the devil is staring back!”
“It’s not Satan, Mary. And please, don’t let anyone hear you say that. Our boy has been through enough trauma. The last thing he needs is folks saying he’s possessed by the devil.”
“Of course, I would never tell it to anyone else,” she said defensively.
“Then don’t say it now. He needs rest, and our support.” Adam poked at a log in the stove, his own patience as volatile as the hot coals. At times like this, it seemed that Simon was getting worse instead of better, and Adam felt responsible for that. The doctor had said the bouts of terror were usually touched off on nights when the child was overly exhausted or had suffered a recent reminder of a trauma.
“It must have been seeing the sheriff that caused this,” Adam said. “After he left, I found Simon crying in the barn. He was definitely spooked.”
“We were all frightened by the flashing lights of the sheriff’s car.” She lovingly tucked the quilt under Simon’s chin. “Will it always remind us of that awful night when we learned what had happened to Mamm and Dat? I don’t know. Maybe.”
“Maybe,” he agreed, taking a calming breath.
In his single-minded focus to keep the farm functioning and the family together, he often forgot the toll they all paid from their parents’ untimely deaths. The feeling of loss was complicated by the terrible murders, which the bishop forbade them from delving into. Out of obedience to the bishop, Adam had made it a house rule that no one would speak of their parents’ murders. That seemed the safest way to play it. But was it the best way to heal the wounds? Maybe it was wrong to silence their sorrow.
“Do you think I’m too hard on everyone?” he asked his sister.
“You?” Mary snorted, her face softening with a smile. “If you ask Sadie, she’ll give you an earful. But I don’t think you’re any tougher on us than Dat and Mamm were. It’s just hard, sometimes, paying obedience to a brother.”
“That makes sense. Well, you won’t be following my ways much longer, will you? Aren’t you and Five going to be wed soon as the season begins?”
Her smile faded. “Who told you that?”
“Simon mentioned something about it, but I’ve been expecting it all along. It’s about time. You two have been courting for an eternity.”
“And we’ll still be courting come this time next year,” Mary said stoically. “I do so want to marry Five, but the two of you have no sense of the practicality of it. Who will manage this household if I go off and start a life with Five? Katie and Sam need someone to take care of them, full time, and you can’t expect Sadie to be doing that in her rumspringa.”
“Susie and Leah will be around,” Adam pointed out. “This is their last year in school.”
“Which is breaking Leah’s heart, little bookworm that she is. And remember that Dr. Trueherz warned us we need to keep on top of Susie’s health issues, and really, can you trust those two to cook a decent meal? They’re just learning how to bake, and they’ve never even looked at Mamm’s recipe cards for stews or roasts. They don’t know the first thing about putting up fruits and vegetables for the winter, and …” She broke off in a sigh. “Those girls have much to learn.”
“So you’ll teach them,” Adam said. “We both will.”
One corner of Mary’s mouth lifted in a scowl. “You? In the kitchen.”
“I managed to feed myself when I lived on my own. And we can teach the other girls. That’s the point of growing up, isn’t it? They need to learn how to take care of themselves and others.”
“Of course they do. But no amount of learning is going to prepare them to manage this household in a matter of months, Adam.” Mary tucked a strand of hair behind one ear, and for the first time Adam noticed the puffiness of exhaustion around her eyes. “You need a woman to help you lead this family, and if it’s not going to be me, Annie Stoltzfus is more prepared than anyone I know to run a household.”
At the mention of Annie’s name, Adam sank back in his chair. Mary’s friend was a fine baker and a good person. Some men would consider her to be the ideal bride. But Adam knew she was not right for him.
“I know you never thought of Annie that way, but feelings can change.”
“Mary, I wish that were true—”
“I’m done speaking for Annie.” She held up one hand. “It’s up to you to take a wife. No way around that, Adam. And until that happens, I’ll be here to make sure the household keeps running smoothly. That’s what Mamm and Dat would have wanted. The reality is, you can’t manage without me now. So it’s up to you to find my replacement.”
He let out a groan. “You make it sound as if I’ll find a wife on sale at the bulk dry-goods store.”
Mary laughed. “Now that would be a sight. The thing is, you know where to look. Open your eyes, Adam. Just open your eyes.”
ELEVEN
retending interest in the map of Halfway that she’d gotten from the counter here at Ye Olde Tea Shop, Remy was all ears as the proprietor paused behind her.
“Did you ever hear how the town of Halfway got started?” asked the woman pouring tea at the next table.
“No,” said the customer, a middle-aged man wearing a navy fleece with Penn State’s lion emblem. “We never heard of it before today.”
She’d stopped in for a few clues and a caffeine boost after a night of insomnia, but so far she’d gotte
n so much more from the shop owner, Lovina Stoltzfus, who was chock-full of information. While she wielded heavy trays of tea as if they were Frisbees, the solid Amish woman entertained and worked the crowd. She drew information out of the locals, some Amish and some “English,” who stopped in for what appeared to be their regular cup. And she graciously shared stories with travelers, many of whom seemed to be in Halfway for the first time.
So far Remy had learned that, though deer hunting season was ending, Kraybill’s shop was doing well booking groups for pheasant shooting. The Amish man sitting at the counter, a gentleman with a dark beard and a bald head fringed in dark hair, had just had a grandchild. And this week’s quilting, hosted by Mary King, had yielded a child’s quilt for the family of Eli Troyer, whose house had burned to the ground outside Paradise.
One of the waitresses passed by with a plate of cinnamon buns that made Remy question her decision to stick with tea. She was about to ask for a menu when she caught the mention of Mary King. Could it be the King family she was looking for? One of the books she’d read had explained that with such a closed community, it was not unusual to find many people with the same name.
Still … she had made it to Halfway on just a few hours’ sleep. And she had a strong sense that Lovina Stoltzfus would know where to find Adam and his family. Whether or not she’d be willing to share it with an outsider like Remy was another story.
“There are many theories on how Halfway got its name,” Lovina said as she set a porcelain teapot and cream pitcher down on the couple’s table. “I don’t know about the others, but this story is a legend in my husband’s family. One of his great-great-grandfathers, Jeremiah Stoltzfus, had a small family farm in the Christiana settlement. Now this man Jeremiah had many brothers in Strasburg, and he often traveled by buggy to visit them. But it was such a long trip. So one day, this Jeremiah purchased land smack in the middle and built a farm there. He called the place Halfway, and as a town grew up around it, the name stuck. That’s Joseph Zook’s old barn here in Halfway.”
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