by Anne Bishop
Page 19
But her house didn't belong to her, and the land, like all the land in Ebon Rih, belonged to the Keep. Oh, the house had been built for her, to her specifications, but that didn't mean the owner couldn't show her the front door and lock it behind him.
Was that why he was here, to call in the debt and pay her back?
Taking a deep breath, Luthvian opened the parlor door, not fully prepared to meet her former lover.
He was surrounded by her students, the whole giggling, flirting, lash-batting lot of them. He didn't look bored or desperate to be rid of them, nor was he preening as a young buck might when faced with so much undiluted feminine attention. He was as he'd always been, a courteous listener who wouldn't interrupt inane chatter unless it was absolutely necessary, a man who could skilfully phrase a refusal.
She knew so well how skilfully he could phrase a refusal.
He saw her then. There was no anger in his gold eyes. There was also no warm smile of greeting. That told her enough. Whatever business he had with her was personal but notpersonal.
It made her furious, and a Black Widow in a temper wasn't a woman to tamper with. He saw the shift in her mood, acknowledged it with a slight lift of one eyebrow, and finally interrupted the girls' chatter.
"Ladies," he said in that deep, caressing voice, "I thank you for making my wait so delightful, but I mustn't keep you from your studies any longer. " Without raising his voice, he managed to silence their vigorous protests. "Besides, Lady Luthvian's time is valuable. "
Luthvian stepped away from the door just enough for them to scurry past her. Roxie, her oldest student, stopped in the doorway, looked over her shoulder, and fluttered her eyelashes at the High Lord.
Luthvian slammed the door in her face.
She waited for him to approach her with the cautious respect a male who serves the Hourglass always displays when approaching a Black Widow. When he didn't move, she blushed at the silent reminder that he didn't serve the Hourglass. He was still the High Priest, a Black Widow who outranked her.
She moved with studied casualness, as if getting close to him had no importance, but stopped with half the length of the room between them. Close enough. "How could you stand listening to that drivel?"
"I found it interesting—and highly educational," he added dryly.
"Ah," Luthvian said. "Did Roxie give you her tasteful or her colorfully detailed version of her Virgin Night? She's the only one old enough to have gone through the ceremony, and she primps and preens and explains to the other girls that she's really too tired for morning lessons these days because her lover's soooo demanding. "
"She's very young," Saetan said quietly, "and—"
"She's vulgar," Luthvian snapped.
"—young girls can be foolish. "
Tears pricked Luthvian's eyes. She wouldn't cry in front of him. Not again. "Is that what you thought of me?"
"No," Saetan said gently. "You were a natural Black Widow, driven by your intense need to express your Craft, and driven even harder by your need to survive. You were far from foolish. "
"I was foolish enough to trust you!"
There was no expression in his golden eyes. "I told you who, and what, I was before I got into bed with you. I was there as an experienced consort to see a young witch through her Virgin Night so that when she woke in the morning the only thing broken was a membrane—not her mind, not her Jewels, not her spirit. It was a role I'd played many times before when I ruled the Dhemlan Territory in both Realms. I understood and honored the rules of that ceremony. "
Luthvian grabbed a vase from a side table and flung it at his head. "Was impregnating her part of the understood rules?" she screamed.
Saetan caught the vase easily, then opened his hand and let it smash on the bare wood floor. His eyes blazed, and his voice roughened. "I truly didn't think I was still fertile. I didn't expect the spell's effects to last that long. And if you'll excuse an old man's memory, I distinctly remember asking if you'd been drinking the witch's brew to prevent pregnancy and I distinctly remember you saying that you had. "
"What was I supposed to say?" Luthvian cried. "Every hour put me at risk of ending up destroyed under one of Dorothea's butchers. You were my only chance of survival. I knew I was close to my fertile time, but I had to take that risk!"
Saetan didn't move, didn't speak for a long time. "You knew there was a risk, you knew you'd done nothing to prevent it, you deliberately lied to me when I asked you, andyou still dare to blame me?"
"Not for that," she screamed at him, "but for what came after. " There was no understanding in his eyes. "You only cared about the baby. You didn't w-want to b-be with me anymore. "
Saetan sighed and wandered over to the picture window, fixing his gaze on the low stone wall that surrounded the property. "Luthvian," he said wearily, "the man who guides a witch through her Virgin Night isn't meant to become her lover. That only happens when there's a strong bond between them beforehand, when they're already lovers in all but the physical sense. Most of the time—"
"You don't have to recite the rules, High Lord," Luthvian snapped.
"—after he rises from the bed, he may become a valued friend or no more than a soft memory. He cares about her—he has to care in order to keep her safe—but there can be a very big difference between caring and loving. " He looked over his shoulder. "I cared about you, Luthvian. I gave you what I could. It just wasn't enough. "
Luthvian hugged herself and wondered if she'd ever stop feeling the bitterness and disappointment. "No, it wasn't enough. "
"You could have chosen another man. You should have. I told you that, even encouraged it. "
Luthvian stared at him. Hurt, damn you, hurt as much as I have. "And how eager do you think those men were once they realized my son had been sired by the High Lord of Hell?"
The thrust went home, but the hurt and sorrow she saw in his eyes didn't make her feel better.
"I would have taken him, raised him. You knew that, too. "
The old rage, the old uncertainties exploded out of her. "Raised him for what? For fodder? To have a steady supply of strong fresh blood? When you found out he was half Eyrien, you wanted to kill him!"
Saetan's eyes glittered. "You wanted to cut off his wings. "
"So he'd have a chance at a decent life! Without them he would have passed for Dhemlan. He could have managed one of your estates. He could have been respected. "
"Do you really think that would have been a fair trade? Living a lie of respectability against his never knowing about his Eyrien bloodline, never understanding the hunger in his soul when he felt the wind in his face, always wondering about longings that made no sense—until the day he looked at his firstborn and saw the wings. Or were you intending to clip each generation?"
"The wings would have been a throwback, an aberration. "
Saetan was very, very still. "I will tell you again what I told you at his birth. He is Eyrien in his soul and that had to be honored above all else. If you had cut off his wings, then yes, I would have slit his throat in the cradle. Not because I wasn't prepared for it, which I wasn't since you took such pains not to tell me, but because he would have suffered too much. "
Luthvian honed her temper to a cutting edge. "And you think he hasn't suffered? You don't know much about Lucivar, Saetan. "
"And why didn't he grow up under my care, Luthvian?" he said too softly. "Who was responsible forthat?"
The tears were back. The memories, the anguish, the guilt. "You didn't love me, and you didn't love him. "
"Half right, my dear. "
Luthvian gulped back a sob. She stared at the ceiling.
Saetan shook his head and sighed. "Even after all these years, trying to talk to each other is pointless. I'd better leave. "
Luthvian wiped away the single tear that had escaped her self-control. "You haven't said why you came here. " For the first time, she looke
d at him without the past blurring the present. He looked older, weighed down by something.
"It would probably be too difficult for all of us. "
She waited. His uneasiness, his unwillingness to broach the subject filled her with apprehension—and curiosity.
"I wanted to hire you as a Craft tutor for a young Queen who is also a natural Black Widow and Healer. She's very gifted, but her education has been quite . . . erratic. The lessons would have to be private and held at SaDiablo Hall. "
"No," Luthvian said sharply. "Here. If I'm going to teach her, it will have to be here. "
"If she came here, she would have to be escorted. Since you've always found Andulvar and Prothvar too Eyrien to tolerate, it would have to be me. "
Luthvian tapped a finger against her lips. A Queen who was also a Healerand a Black Widow? What a potentially deadly combination of strengths. Truly a challenge worthy of her skills. "She would apprentice with me for the healing and Hourglass training?"
"No. She still has difficulty with much of the Craft we consider basic, and that's what I wanted her to work on with you. I'd be willing to extend her training with you to the healing Craft as well, if that's of interest to you, but I'll take care of the Hourglass's Craft. "
Pride demanded a challenge. "Just who is this witch who requires a Black-Jewelled mentor?"
The Prince of the Darkness, the High Lord of Hell studied her, weighing, judging, and finally replied, "My daughter. "
4 / Hell
Mephis dropped the file on the desk in Saetan's private study and began rubbing his hands as if to clean away some filth. Saetan turned his hand in an opening gesture. The file
opened, revealing several sheets of Mephis's tightly packed writing.
"We're going to do something about him, aren't we?" Mephis snarled.
