From the corner of my eye, I see Kellan shake his head in frustration unlike Bane who hasn’t looked away from the TV.
‘You never cared? After all those times we spent together?’
I feel as though I shouldn’t be listening to this.
‘I thought I did but..you were just a distraction.’ Ryder clears his throat.
Silver nods, ‘That’s the reason why you kept pushing me away...because you care about her?’ She points at me.
Ryder looks at me with a soft smile, ‘I do yeah.’
‘So that’s it? It’s over between us?’ Silver’s eyes start to well up with tears.
‘It was over for a long time Silver,’ Ryder looks at her in pity just as she runs out of the living area and out through the back door.
‘We’ll follow her just in case she does something stupid.’ Bane slowly gets off the couch and out of the living area - dragging Kellan along with him.
Ryder and I are left alone. For how long? I’m not sure.
I still remain standing in the middle of the room wondering what exactly I’m supposed to do in this moment. Should I follow Bane and Kellan or join Ryder on the couch? I’m not a huge fan of horror movies and from what I can see it’s only just started. It’s fascinating how scenes from a horror movie makes the heart beat in anxiousness, but there’s only one thing that’s making my heart race at the moment, and he’s sitting just inches away from me.
‘This movie baffles me every time I watch it.’ Ryder looks disinterested at the screen.
I walk to the sofa and sit next to Ryder, ‘What movie is it?’
‘The Grudge.’
I chuckle, ‘The title says it all and besides, why does it baffle you?’
‘Why would they live in a house that’s supposedly haunted? If people had a brain they’d avoid a house like that.’ He murmurs.
A shiver runs down my back causing me to run my hands over my arms for any sign of warmth, ‘Maybe they’re desperate?’
He watches me shivering, ‘Are you cold?’
‘A little.’
He looks at me then pulls me against his chest without permission.
What am I supposed to do now?
‘Ryder…?’
He shushes me, ‘Just watch the movie.’
I try hard to concentrate on the movie but all I can think about are Ryder’s words.
We watched the whole movie in the same position without saying anything to each other. One thing for sure is that I won’t be watching that movie ever again - I don’t care if I was paid to do it because that shit was fucked up.
The credits roll on the screen and I find this as a good chance to ask him about the things he said.
‘Did you really mean what you said to Silver about that you cared for me?’
There’s a long pause before he finally speaks, ‘I did mean it. Every single word.’
I face him and look into his eyes, ‘You’re not lying to me are you? I’ve had enough of people lying to me.’
He smiles gently, ‘I told you before that I’d never lie to you. All I’ll ever give you is the truth.’
I smirk, ‘Bullshit.’ I say just as I attempt to get off the couch but stop when Ryder’s hand puts his hand on my hip.
He doesn’t place me next to him but instead pulls me to sit on top of him with my legs on either side of his thighs. My heart is pounding inside my chest just as he places his hands on my hips.
Why am I still sitting on him eagerly waiting for what he’s about to do next?
He leans closer to me and when I think he’s going to kiss me, I feel the brush of his lips against my ear, ‘Did you just accuse me of lying?’
I shrug, ‘So what if I did? What are you gonna do about it?’
He gently cups my cheek, ‘This.’
My heart pounds just as he leans down and touches my neck with his lips, showering me with gentle kisses. Ryder looks at me and sighs in relief when he sees that I won’t stop whatever it is that’s happening.
He leans down, gently pressing his lips against mine where I feel the warmth of his lips making its journey throughout my body, and It seems very unlikely that things will stop there.
I break the kiss and place my hands against his solid chest, ‘Can we go to your room?’
He looks unsure, ‘Alice, there’s no rush.’
I lean into him, wrapping my arms around his neck, ‘I want this Ryder. Please.’ I find his neck and lightly place kisses on his skin. He doesn’t stop me.
I can tell by looking at him that his self control won’t last long and with those words being said it gives him the go ahead that he needs.
He stands from the couch and wraps my legs around his waist. He carries me effortlessly up the stairs and into his room kicking the door closed on his way in.
He places me gently on his bed standing between my legs and smiles down at me, ‘Has anyone ever told you that you’re beautiful?’
I giggle, ‘I’ve been told several times in fact…by my mother.’ I tease.
He leans down and brushes his lips against mine, ‘Don’t tease me.’ He kisses me hard and but it’s not enough.
I pull his body down towards mine ; running my fingers along the length of his back and grab the ends of his white wife-beater - making it obvious what I want him to do. He leans back, yanks his vest over his head and helps to take off my shirt too. His lips descend down to mine and I can feel that he’s growing impatient and when his fingers wander where no boy has ever touched before, I gasp. The sound of him growling gives me the feeling of empowerment.
I run my hands up and down his chest ; craving that feeling of having his skin underneath my fingertips. When my hands touch his jeans, it’s like my hands have a mind of their own and they rush to unbuckle his belt.
Ryder takes ahold of my hands ‘Alice, we don’t have to do this.’
I pant as I look into his trusting eyes, ‘Don’t make me beg for god’s sakes.’
‘I’d never ask you to do that.’ He kisses my forehead.
‘Then why do you want to stop?’
Ryder runs his hand through his messed up hair, ‘I don’t want to stop it’s just....’
‘Are you rejecting me because I’m a virgin?’ I whisper hoping that I haven’t messed things up between us.
Ryder doesn’t even look that bothered about my revelation.
Is it possible that he knew…?
He cups my cheek, ‘I’m not rejecting you it’s just...I don’t want to hurt you that’s all.’
I lean into his touch, ‘But I want you Ryder.’
He waits for a few seconds then nods, stands to remove his jeans just as I reach over to the nightstand, pulling it open. I find the plastic between my fingers and pass it to Ryder.
He takes it from my fingers, tears the packet open with his teeth, pulls his boxers down and kicks them over off to the side.
With steady hands I remove my sweatpants, close my eyes when I feel him climb onto the bed and placing himself between my thighs.
‘Alice.’ He whispers.
My eyes open slowly to see his eyes looking at me with kindness. He leans down, kisses me softly and pushes himself inside me in slow and gentle movements.
I wince at the sudden intrusion and the feeling of discomfort, and when he pushes inside me again, my eyes clench tightly from the pain he’s causing.
I know that it’s not his fault but nothing had prepared me for this.
He rocks inside me again but I feel no pain this time. I instead feel the pain subsiding completely and in its place - the feeling of pleasure courses through my whole body.
‘Do you want me to stop?’
I shake my head repeatedly not wanting to stop this unfamiliar feeling, ‘No.’
After a few minutes, I feel his movements starting to become more rigid, and after pushing inside me one last time, he moans and breathes heavily.
There was no feeling of regret after what I had done. Once our breathing slowed down, Ryder left for the bat
hroom, came back and placed me into his bed where we spent the whole night holding each other. That feeling of connecting with someone is indescribable but for that person being Ryder, made the whole experience better than I could ever imagined.
If somebody asked me when I was most happy, I wouldn’t hesitate to say that tonight was by far the happiest I’ve ever been, and it’s all thanks to Ryder King.
Chapter 22
The next morning, Ryder drives us all to school - but stops on the way to my house to pick up some essentials that I need for school and spare clothes that I’ll wear for the next few days. I also check to see if my mother had arrived home safely from work and felt relieved when I saw her sleeping peacefully in her bed.
On the way to school, nobody said a word and it made the atmosphere in the car almost unbearable, I wonder if it could’ve been for a number of reasons. The first option that crosses my mind is the death of Terry on Saturday but it wouldn’t make sense considering I was the only person close to him, but could it perhaps be that his body was found on their property and it makes them somehow feel responsible? The second option is obviously the harsh words exchanged between Silver and Ryder last night. Could situations like that really cause this much of an awkward situation between them? And lastly, could the reason why no one’s talking because they somehow know that I spent the night with Ryder?
They couldn’t possible know...could they?
Ryder doesn’t seem like the type to brag about who he sleeps with, so what could be reason for the silence?
When we arrive at the parking area, as soon as the car stops, Silver gets out of the car, slams the door and marches away. So that’s why it was awkward?
‘She’s mad at you man,’ Bane whistles from the backseat.
Ryder sighs, ‘Tell me something I don’t know.’
‘We tried to calm her down last night but every time we tried to get a word out, she’d hit us and for a girl, she can actually hit pretty hard.’
‘You’re such a pussy.’ Bane chuckles.
Kellan looks taken aback, ‘Says the one who just stood there and didn’t do shit.’
Bane shakes his head, ‘You don’t get girls do you Kellan? You let them talk for however long they need to, then when their rant is over that’s when you talk.’ Bane gets out of the car followed by Kellan.
Ryder turns to me and smiles brightly and places his hand gently on my knee. ‘You okay?’ Something tells me that he’s asking me if I’m okay after what happened last night.
I smile back at him, ‘Never better.’
‘I didn’t hurt you, right?’
I lean forward in the passenger seat and press my lips against his, ‘It did hurt but only for a little while.’
He kisses me back and we both leave for class.
As I make my way towards English and round the corner, I see my best friend waiting casually outside the classroom. I call her name to see her looking not so impressed with me, ‘You know, best friends usually call or text each other on the weekends, but nothing from you. I may have to find another best friend.’
I run my hand through my hair, ‘I know, I’m such a terrible person, this was an...odd weekend.’
Maybe now’s not the time to say what happened to Terry.
She peers at me and inspects me from head to toe, ‘You sure seem different.’
Does it have written on my forehead that I slept with Ryder or something?
The last time me and Sam spoke was at my house after bringing Max there from the party, and she didn’t seem happy with me at all and we never argue, but you see with Sam, she forgives and forgets a lot quicker than most teenaged girls.
‘I look different?’
She smirks as she whispers to me, ‘Were you by any chance with a boy this weekend Alice?’
I was with several actually...but one boy in particular.
I shrug, ‘You could say that.’
She gasps, ‘You were with a boy weren’t you? And I’m guessing that it’s either Max or Ryder because they’re the only two guys that you talk to, and I’m telling you right now that you better not have touched a single hair on Bane’s head because he is mine!’
‘I wasn’t with Bane,’ I grimace. Ew...
She takes a deep breath, ‘Oh thank god, I genuinely thought for a moment there that I was gonna have to bitch slap you.’
‘You wouldn’t.’ I roll my eyes.
‘Of course I wouldn’t, but could you at least tell me who you were with!?’
‘I’ll tell you later Sam okay?’ I check my phone and look at the time to see that we have a minute to get to class.
‘But I really want to know! This is exciting stuff!’
‘I’ll tell you everything later but we have a class to get to.’
‘Fuck class, I wanna know all the dirty details.’
I chuckle, grab her by the arm and pull her into the class, ‘I promise to tell you everything after English.’
‘Fine!’
We enter the classroom just as the bell rings to signal the start of the lesson. Mr. Edmund glances from the clock to us and points towards our seats. I look at the front row to see four of the chairs empty.
Where are they?
‘Before we start, has anyone seen Kellan and Silver?’ Mr Edmund asks in an uninterested tone.
Students start murmuring amongst each other.
‘Alice?’ My head swings to my teacher, he looks at me as though I know exactly where they are.
‘Yes sir?’
He crosses his arms over his chest, ‘Do you know where your new found friends are?’
‘I haven’t seen either of them since this morning.’ I say truthfully.
He waits for a few minutes then nods, ‘They’ve most likely dropped out considering that Bane and Mr. King have been excluded from this class.’
More murmuring.
He moves to the back of the classroom and hands out a reading book to everyone. After giving out all of the books he stands at the front where he gathers the attention of the students, ‘By the end of this lesson I’d like everyone to read from chapter 1 to 5. Make sure that you read these chapters very carefully because tomorrow I’ll be asking each and every one of you a question. They’re short chapters so you shouldn’t have a problem.’ Mr. Edmund walks to his desk where he opens up his laptop ; the whole classroom reads in complete and utter silence.
At lunchtime, Sam and I sit at the back of the cafeteria so that our conversation won’t be heard , the last thing I need is for people knowing my business.
The moment we sit down Sam immediately starts asking me questions.
‘So who was it? ‘ She wiggles her brows, ‘And you better tell me because that whole hour was torture!’
I roll my eyes, ‘I am gonna tell you it’s just, I still can’t believe it myself,’ I feel my face redden.
‘But you had sex, didn’t you? Your face is telling me everything I need to know!’ She squeals.
How does she know these things!?
I cover my face with my hands and groan. I swear she’s a psychic sometimes.
‘We had sex, yes.’
She squeals again, ‘Oh my God! Do I know him? Was he gentle? Was he any good?’
I bit my lip and sigh in contempt, ‘Yes, yes and yes.’
Sam looks at me with a big smile, ‘I’m so happy for you but this waiting for a name is killing me Alice.’
Both of us start laughing when suddenly, I feel a slight shift in my mood making me feel more aggressive than I’ve ever been, and it’s something that I’ve never experienced in my life. From the night I was bitten to the day Terry’s body was found, I’ve never had the feeling of wanting to hurt somebody so badly. Maybe she can sense something that isn’t right, I know this anger isn’t directed at Sam but who else could’ve raised such a response like this from me.
A shadow approaches our table and I can feel myself burning with hot rage when I see who the person walking in our direction. When Sam notices m
e looking at who’s coming she turns around and welcomes Max to our table.
After what happened yesterday, does he still think that we’re friends?
‘Hey.’ He smiles as if nothing’s happened, I don’t return his smile neither his greeting.
‘Hi,’ Sam smiles back at him, ‘You sure look better than you did Friday night.’
‘I do don’t I and it’s all thanks to Alice here.’ Max grins.
Sam chuckles, ‘Be grateful otherwise you still wouldn’t have a pretty face if it wasn’t for her.’ She nudges me to which I ignore.
‘I’m grateful that she helped me when no one else did.’
I don’t say a word and Sam notices straight away, ‘Alice? You okay?’
I look away from both of them, ‘I’m fine.’
‘What’s the matter, you’ve gone all quiet?’ Sam looks at me with a frown.
I stand from the table, ‘Can we just leave, please. ’ I ask only to Sam.
Max looks taken aback, ‘Do you have a problem with me, Alice?’
Sam looks between Max and I.
‘I just don’t want to be in the company of a liar, and after yesterday I don’t want be seen associating with someone like you.’
Sam eyes widen, ‘Okay….what happened between you two?’
Me and Max just look at each other.
‘Should I tell her or do you wanna say how you and Ryder broke into my house and interrogated me like I did something wrong?’
‘Go ahead and tell her everything about what happened, but I won’t be here listening to you.’
Sam looks at the two of us in confusion, ‘What the hell’s going on? Can someone please explain to me what happened this weekend?’
I point at Max, ‘He’s a liar Sam and it’s taken us this long to figure that out.’
‘Okay, what’s he lied about?’
Max scoff, ‘I’ve lied about a number of things apparently.’
‘Don’t act like your innocent in all of this,’ I spit, ‘You told me that your mum works at the hospital right on the first day you came to school.’ I look at Sam, ‘Friday night, I saw him at the hospital and he looked at me like I was the one that shouldn’t have been there. On that same night, I asked my mother if she knew someone with his surname….and she said no.’
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