by Gene Wolfe
“So it is with the gods, Auk. They speak to us all the time, exactly as the sun shines all the time. When the dark cloud that we call the shade gets between us and the sun, we say it’s night, or nightside, a term I never heard until I came to Sun Street.”
“It don’t really mean night, Patera. Not exactly. It means … All right, look at it like this. There’s a day way of doing, see? That’s the regular way. And then there’s the other way, and nightside’s when you do this other way—when everything’s on the night side of the shade.”
“We’re on the night side of the shade for only half the day,” Silk had told him. “But we are on the night side of whatever it is that bars us from the gods almost constantly, throughout our whole lives. And we really shouldn’t be. We weren’t meant to be. I got that one small ray of sunshine, you see, and it shouldn’t be strange at all. It should be the most ordinary thing in the whorl.”
He had expected Auk to laugh, and was surprised and pleased when he did not.
* * *
They had rented donkeys from a man Auk knew, a big gray for Auk and a smaller black for Silk. “Because I’ll have to lead him back,” Auk had said. “We got to get that straight right now. He don’t stay with you.”
Silk had nodded.
“You’re going to get caught, like I told you, Patera. You’ll talk to Blood, maybe, like you want. But it’ll be after they get you. I don’t like it, but there it is. So you’re not going to need him to ride back on, and I’m not going to lose what I’m giving this donkey man to hold, which is double what he’d cost in the market.”
“I understand,” Silk had assured him.
Now, as they trotted along a narrow track that to him at least was largely invisible, with the toes of his only decent shoes intermittently intimidated by the stony soil, Auk’s words returned to trouble him. Tearing his eyes from the skylands, he called, “You warned me that Blood was going to catch me, back there in the city while you were renting these donkeys for us. What do you think he’ll do to me if he does?”
Auk twisted about to look at him, his face a pale blur in the shadow of the crowding trees. “I don’t know, Patera. But you’re not going to like it.”
“You may not know,” Silk said, “but you can guess much better than I can. You know Blood better than I do. You’ve been in his house, and I’m sure you must know several people who know him well. You’ve done business with him.”
“Tried to, Patera.”
“All right, tried to. Still you know what kind of man he is. Would he kill me, for breaking into his house? Or for threatening him? I fully intend to threaten his life if he won’t return our manteion to the Chapter, assuming that I get that far.”
“I hope not, Patera.”
Unbidden and unwanted, Musk’s features rose from Silk’s memory, perfect—yet corrupt, like the face of a devil. So softly that he was surprised that Auk heard it, Silk said, “I have been wondering whether I shouldn’t take my own life if I am caught. If I am, I say, although I hope not to be, and am determined not to be. It’s seriously wrong to take one’s own life, and yet—”
A chain or more ahead, Auk chuckled. “Kill yourself, Patera? Yeah, it could be a good idea. Keep it in mind, depending. You won’t tell Blood about me?”
“I’ve sworn,” Silk reminded him. “I would never break that oath.”
“Good.” Auk turned away again, his posture intent as his eyes sought to penetrate the shadows.
Clearly Auk had been less than impressed by his mention of suicide, and for a moment Silk resented it. But Auk was right. How could he serve any god if he set out determined to resign his task if it became too difficult? Auk had been correct to laugh; he was no better than a child, sallying forth with a wooden sword to conquor the whorl—something that he had in fact done not too many years ago.
Yet it was easy for Auk to remain calm, easy for Auk to mock his fears. Auk, who had no doubt broken into scores of these country villas, was not going to break into this one, or even to assist him in doing it. And yet, Silk reminded himself, Auk’s own position was by no means impregnable.
“I would never violate my solemn oath, sworn to all the gods,” Silk said aloud. “And besides, if Blood were to find out about you and have you killed—he didn’t strike me as the type who kill men themselves—there would be no one to help me escape him.”
Auk cleared his throat and spat, the sound unnaturally loud in the airless stillness of the forest. “I’m not going to do a shaggy thing for you, Patera. You can forget about that. You’re working for the gods, right? Let them get you out.”
Almost whispering, because he was saddened by the knowledge, Silk said, “Yes, you will, Auk.”
“Sneeze it!”
“Because you couldn’t ever be certain that I wouldn’t tell, eventually. I won’t, but you don’t trust me. Or at least not that much.”
Auk snorted.
“And since you’re a better man than you pretend to be, the knowlege that I—not I particularly perhaps, but an augur who had been a companion of sorts, if only for this one night—required your help would devour you, even if you denied it a hundred times or more, as you very probably would. Thus you’ll help me if you can, Auk, eventually and possibly quite quickly. I know you will. And because you will, it will go much better for me if Blood doesn’t know about you.”
“I’d crawl a long way in for a while, maybe, but that’s all. Maybe go see Palustria for a year or three till Blood was gone or he’d forgotten about me. People ain’t like you think, Patera. Maybe you studied a long time, but there’s a lot that you don’t know.”
Which was true enough, Silk admitted to himself. For whatever inscrutable reasons, the gods thrust bios into the whorl knowing nothing of it; and if they waited until they were so wise as to make no mistakes before they acted, they waited forever. With sudden poignancy Silk wished that he might indeed wait forever, as some men did.
And yet he felt certain that he was right about Auk, and Auk wrong about himself. Auk still returned at times to talk with little Maytera Mint; and Auk had killed a man that evening—a serious matter even to a criminal, since the dead man had friends—because that man had been about to kill the big man called Gib. Auk might be a thief and even a murderer; but he had no real talent for murder, no innate bent toward evil. Not even Blood had such a bent, perhaps. He, Silk, had seen someone who did in Blood’s glass, and he promised himself now that he would never again mistake mere dishonesty or desperation for it again.
“But I know you, Auk,” he said softly. He shifted his weight in the vain hope of finding a more comfortable spot on the crude saddle. “I may be too trusting of people in general, as you say; but I’m right about you. You’ll help me when you think that I require it.”
Auk made a quick, impatient gesture, barely visible in the gloom. “Be quiet there, Patera. We’re getting pretty close.”
If there had ever been a real path, they were leaving it. With seeing feet, the donkeys picked their way up a rock-strewn hillside, often unavoidably bathed in the eerie skylight. At the top, Auk reined up and dismounted; Silk followed his example. Here the faintest of night breezes stirred, as stealthy as a thief itself, making away with the mingled scents of post oak and mulberry, of grass and fern withered almost to powder, of a passing fox, and the very essence of the night. The donkeys raised their long muzzles to catch it, and Silk fanned himself with his wide straw hat.
“See them lights, Patera?” Auk pointed toward a faint golden glimmer beyond the treetops. “That’s Blood’s place. What we did was circle around behind it, see? That’s what we been doing ever since we got off the main road. On the other side, there’s a big gate of steel bars, and a grass-way for floaters that goes up to the front. Can you see that black line, kind of wavy, between us and the house?”
Silk squinted and stared, but could not.
“That’s a stone wall about as high as that little tree down there. It’s got big spikes on top, which I’d say i
s mostly for show. Could be if you threw your rope up there and caught one, you could climb up the wall—I don’t know that anybody’s ever tried it. Only Blood’s got protection, understand? Guards, and a big talus that I know about for sure. I don’t know what else. You ever done anything like this before, Patera?”
Silk shook his head.
“I didn’t think so. All right, here’s all that’s going to happen, probably. You’re going to try to get over that wall, with your rope or whatever, only you’re not going to make it. Along about shadeup, you’re going to start hiking back to the city, feeling worse than shit in the street and thinking that I’m going to laugh myself sick at you. Only I’m not. I’m going to sacrifice ’cause you came back alive, understand? A black ram to Tartaros, see? A good big one, at your manteion the day after tomorrow, you got my word on that.”
Auk paused for breath.
“And after my sacrifice is over, I’m going to make you swear you’ll never try anything this stupid ever again. You think you can make Blood swear to give back your manteion, which you can’t. And you think he’ll stick with whatever he swore to afterward, which he wouldn’t, not for every god in Mainframe. But I can make you swear, Patera, and I’m going to—see if I don’t. And I know you’ll stick. You’re the kind that does.”
Silk said gratefully, “This is really very good of you, Auk. I don’t deserve it.”
“If I was really good I wouldn’t have hired us these donkeys, Patera. I’d have hiked out here with you and let you tire yourself—that way you’d come back that much quicker.”
Troubled, Auk paused, running his fingers through his hair. “Only if you do get inside, it’d be all queer if you was tired. You don’t work when you’re fagged out, not in my trade, only when you’re cold up and full of jump. Only I’ve done a hundred or more, and I wouldn’t try to solve this one for a thousand goldboys. Good-bye, Patera. Phaea smile on you.”
“Wait a moment.” Silk took him by the sleeve. “Haven’t you been inside that house? You said you had.”
“A couple of times on business, Patera. I don’t know anything much about it.”
“You said that I was certain to be caught, and I’ll concede that you may very well be correct. Nevertheless, I don’t intend to be caught; and if I am, I will have failed the Outsider, the god who has sent me, just as I will have failed him if I don’t make the attempt tonight. Can’t you see that? Haven’t you ever been caught yourself, Auk? You must have been.”
Auk nodded reluctantly. “Once, Patera, when I was just a sprat. He winnowed me out. By Phaea’s sow, I thought he was going to kill me. And when he was through, he kicked me out into the street. That was right in our quarter. I’ll show you the house sometime.”
He tried to pull free, but Silk retained his grip on his sleeve. “How were you caught, Auk? What was it that you did wrong? Tell me, please, so I won’t make the same mistake.”
“You done it already, Patera.” Auk sounded apologetic. “Look here. I’d solved a few places, and I got pretty hot on myself and thought I couldn’t get caught. I had some picks, know what I mean? And I showed ’em off and called myself a master of the art, thinking Tartaros himself would pull his hat off to me. Got to where I never troubled to look things over the way a flash buck ought to.”
Auk fell silent, and Silk asked, “What was the detail you overlooked?”
“Debt, Patera.” Auk chuckled. “That don’t go with Blood, ’cause it’s not him you got to worry about.”
“Tell me anyway,” Silk insisted.
“Well, Patera, this bucko that had the house had a good lay, see? Taking care of all the shoes and such like up at Ermine’s. You know about Ermine’s? A goldboy or maybe two for supper. Gilt places like that deal on Scylsday, ’cause Sphigxday’s their plum night, see? So I gleaned once he’d got off he’d put down a few and snoodge like a soldier. If I was to flush his fussock—rouse up his wife, Patera—she’d stave her broom getting him off straw, and I’d beat the hoof to my own tune. Only he owed ’em, you see? Up to Ermine’s. They’re holding his lowre back on him, so he was straight up, or nearly. So he napped me and I owed it.”
Silk nodded.
“Now you tonight, Patera, you’re doing the same thing. You’re not flash. You don’t know who’s there or who ain’t, or how big the rooms might be, or what kind of windows. Not a pip of the scavy you got to have right in your hand.”
“You must be able to tell me something,” Silk said.
Auk adjusted the heavy hanger he wore. “The house’s a tidy stone place with a wing to each side. Three floors in ’em, and the middle’s two. When you come in the front like I did, there’s a big front room, and that’s the farthest I got. Him that told me about floors says there’s a capital cellar and another underneath. There’s guards. You saw one of that quality in my glass. And there’s a tall ass, begging your pardon, Patera. Like what I told you already.”
“Have you any idea where Blood sleeps?”
Auk shook his head, the motion scarcely visible. “But he don’t sleep a hour, nightside. The flash never do, see? His business’ll keep him out of bed till shadeup.” Sensing Silk’s incomprehension, Auk elaborated. “People coming to talk to him like I did, or the ones that work for him with their hats off so he can tell where they come from and where they’re going, Patera.”
“I see.”
Auk took the reins of the smaller donkey and mounted his own. “You got four, maybe five hours to shadeup. Then you got to get back. I wouldn’t be too close to that wall then if I was you, Patera. There might come a guard walking the top. I’ve known ’em to do that.”
“All right.” Silk nodded, reflecting that he had some ground to cover before he was near the wall at all. “Thank you again. I won’t betray you, whatever you may think; and I won’t get caught if I can help it.”
As he watched Auk ride away, Silk wondered what he had really been like as a schoolboy, and what Maytera Mint had found to say to that much younger Auk that had left so deep an impression. For Auk believed, despite his hard looks and thieves’ cant; and unlike many superficially better men, his faith was more than superstition. Scylla’s smiling picture on the wall of that dismal, barren room had not come to its place by accident. Its presence there had revealed more to Silk than Auk’s glass: deep within his being, Auk’s spirit knelt in adoration.
Inspired by the thought, Silk knelt himself, though the sharp flints of the hilltop gouged his knees. The Outsider had warned him that he would receive no aid—still, it was licit, surely, to ask help of other gods; and dark Tartaros was the patron of all who acted outside the law.
“A black lamb to you alone, kindly Tartaros, as quickly as I can afford another. Be mindful of me, who come in the service of a minor god.”
But Blood, too, acted outside the law, dealing in rust and women and even smuggled goods, or so Auk had indicated; it was more than possible that Tartaros would favor Blood.
Sighing, Silk stood, dusted off the legs of his oldest trousers, and began to pick his way down the rocky hillside. Things would be as they would be, and he had no choice but to proceed, whether with the aid of the dark god or without it. Pas the Twice-Seeing might side with him, or Scalding Scylla, who wielded more influence here than her brother. Surely Scylla would not wish the city that most honored her to lose a manteion! Encouraged, Silk scrambled along.
The faint golden lights of Blood’s house soon vanished behind the treetops, and the breeze with them. Below the hill, the air lay hot and close again, stale, and overripe with a summer protracted beyond reason.
Or perhaps not. As Silk groped among close-set trunks, with leaves crackling and twigs popping beneath his feet, he reflected that if the year had been a more normal one, this forest might now lie deep in snow, and what he was doing would be next to impossible. Could it be that this parched, overheated, and seemingly immutable season had in actuality been prolonged for his benefit?
For a few seconds the thought halted him betwe
en step and step. All this heat and sweat, for him? Poor Maytera Marble’s daily sufferings, the children’s angry rashes, the withered crops and shrinking streams?
No sooner had he had the thought than he came close to falling into the gully of one, catching hold by purest luck to a branch he could not see. Cautiously he clambered down the uneven bank, then knelt on the water-smoothed stones of the streambed to seek water with his fingers, finding none. There might be pools higher or lower, but here at least what had been a stream could be no drier.
With head cocked, he listened for the familiar music of fast-flowing water over stones. Far away a nightjar called; the harsh sound died away, and the stillness of the forest closed in once more, the hushed expectancy of the thirsting trees.
This forest had been planted in the days of the caldé (or so one of his teachers at the schola had informed him) in order that its watershed might fill the city’s wells; and though the Ayuntamiento now permitted men of wealth to build within its borders, it remained vast, stretching more than fifty leagues toward Palustria. If its streams were this dry now, how long could Viron live? Would it be necessary to build a new city, if only a temporary one, on the lakeshore?
Wishing for light as well as water, Silk climbed the opposite bank, and after a hundred strides saw through the bare, close-ranked trees the welcome gleam of skylight on dressed and polished stone.
The wall surrounding Blood’s villa loomed higher and higher as he drew nearer. Auk had indicated a height of ten cubits or so; to Silk, standing before its massive base and peering up at the fugitive glints of skylight on the points of its ominous spikes, that estimate appeared unnecessarily conservative. Somewhat discouraged already, he uncoiled the thin horsehair rope he had worn about his waist, thrust the hatchet into his waistband, tied a running noose in one end of the rope as Auk had suggested, and hurled it up at those towering points.
For a moment that seemed at least a minute, the rope hung over him like a miracle, jet black against the shining skylands, lost in blind dark where it crossed the boundless, sooty smear of the shade. A moment more, and it lay limp at his feet.
