by Jane Feather
The constable of Dover Castle rode down himself to welcome the duke of Roissy and his entourage. He seemed momentarily stunned to find his noble visitor consorting in the public taproom with the fishermen and laborers of Dover, but there was something about his guest, something in his presence, that kept any comments stillborn.
He escorted his guests to the castle and immediately sent a courier to London with the duke's reverence to Her Majesty and his request to attend her at court, and a second letter to the earl of Harcourt, announcing the duke's arrival and containing the implicit claim of hospitality under the Harcourt roof.
Chapter Fifteen
Miranda saw Robbie the next morning. She was walking in the long gallery, alone with her thoughts, which were as confused as they had ever been. Confused and yet infused with excitement, with a sense of physical wonder that filled every cell and pore of her body. She longed to see Gareth, and yet deliberately kept herself out of his way. She didn't know whether that was because she was afraid, or because she wanted to treasure this glorious feeling alone for as long as possible. It was a feeling centered not just on the wonders of their love-making but on the deep certainty of her love. She knew what it was to love her family, but this feeling was very different. There was no obligation, no rationality, it was a fact, a huge golden ball of conviction that both filled her and encompassed her. And she knew her life would never be the same again.
So now she walked alone, while Chip watched her from the mantelpiece, his entire demeanor expressing his unease and disapproval. Miranda hadn't even visited Maude that morning. She cherished this newborn emotion, sensing that once it was exposed to the outside world, it would be altered in some way, and for as long as she could keep it pristine and secret she would.
It was warm and muggy in the gallery. The day was still overcast but close and thundery. Miranda dabbed at a bead of sweat gathering in the cleft of her bosom and went to open one of the long windows overlooking the front courtyard.
And then she saw the small figure standing across the narrow roadway that ran past the Harcourt gates. Her heart jumped with shock. How could it be Robbie? The troupe would be safe in France by now. Then with a wave of delighted surprise, she knew that it was. Even at this distance, the small figure was unmistakable. Her family were not in France, they were here, in London.
She ran from the gallery, lifting her skirts clear of her feet, Chip bounding at her heels.
Imogen emerged from the parlor as Miranda hurried across the hall to the front door. "Where are you going, girl? You can't go out without an attendant."
Miranda barely heard and paid her no attention. She wrestled for a minute with the great double doors, then flung one of them wide and leaped down the steps to the courtyard. She flew across to the gates, demanding of the porter even as she ran, "Open the wicket for me."
The porter stared at Lady Maude. It was Lady Maude, despite the strangely short hair and the oddity of the monkey at her feet. Her voice was imperious and impatient, her eyes snapping. He hastened to open the wicket gate and she slid through before he'd opened it wide. He stared in astonishment as she ran across the roadway, dodging a carter's wagon, narrowly avoiding a porter with a laden basket on his head, then she was lost to view behind a knot of traffic and he didn't see the reunion.
Robbie gazed upward at the magnificent figure that was and was not Miranda. She swept him into her arms, heedless of his grubby hands grabbing the crisp lace partlet at her bosom, or his filthy bare feet curling into the folds of her richly embroidered tangerine damask skirts.
"Robbie… Robbie." She laughed as she kissed him. "Where did you spring from?"
"We come lookin' fer ye," the child said, when he could manage to speak." They said in Dover that you was taken by a lord to Lunnon and we come lookin' fer ye."
"Everyone's here?"
"Aye, we got lodgin's above a cobbler's in Ludgate. Oh, there's Chip." He struggled to get down and when Miranda set him on his feet he embraced the dancing monkey. Chip chattered excitedly, clearly delighted, as he wrapped his scrawny arms around the boy's neck.
"Oh, I must go and see them. There's so much I have to tell you all." Miranda examined Robbie as he whispered to Chip, and some of her elation faded as she absorbed his pinched white face, sunken eyes, the lines of pain and fatigue around his little mouth. "Has no one been looking after you, Robbie?"
"Luke 'as."
Miranda nodded in comprehension. Luke would do his best but it wasn't enough in this instance. "Come," she said, hitching him onto her hip. "We'll go into the house and get you some breakfast."
"In there?" Robbie squeaked, his eyes opening wide. "In that lord's 'ouse? We can't go in there, M'randa."
"I've just come out of it," Miranda said with a laugh. "So I see no reason why we can't go back in it."
"But 'e'll 'ave me taken up and 'anged," Robbie whimpered.
"Who will?"
"Lord 'Arcourt. Jebediah says so." "Oh, pah!" Miranda dismissed Jebediah with an indignant gesture. "What does he know about anything?"
She plunged back into the roadway, expertly dodging and weaving until she gained the safety of the Harcourt gates just behind Chip.
The porter's jaw dropped, but he opened the wicket again and Miranda hurried across the courtyard to the house. Robbie clung tightly to her. "Is it an 'orehouse, M'randa?"
"What?" She tilted her head to get a good look at his face. "Don't be absurd, Robbie."
"Mama Gertrude said it don't look like one," the child said. "But Jebediah-"
"Oh, fiend take Jebediah!" Miranda marched into the hall and ran straight into Imogen, who was still standing in the parlor door, trying to decide what to do about Miranda's sudden disappearance.
"God in His heaven! What have you got there?" She flung up her hands in horror. Robbie began to cry and buried his head in Miranda's neck.
But before Miranda could reply, Gareth came down the stairs. "What in the world-"
"Oh, milord, see who I found. It's Robbie." Miranda hurried across the vast hall to the foot of the stairs. "My family are here. They didn't go to France and leave me behind after all. They came looking for me and they're here, in London." Her eyes shone as she looked up at him, and he Could see that she was thinking of nothing but this new development. And then consciousness flooded her gaze, and she smiled at him, a smile of such devastating candor and joy that it rocked him to his core.
"Gareth, what is going on here?" Imogen demanded. "What's that filthy vagrant doing here? He's ruining the girl's gown."
Miranda ignored this. "I'm going to take him up to see Maude. Is it all right if I have breakfast sent up for him, milord? I haven't been there to look after him and I don't suppose he's had enough t
o eat."
"Of course." What else was there to say? Miranda raced up the stairs, her speed unchecked by her burden, leaving Gareth struggling with this new complication.
His carefully constructed scheme was already tottering on the verge of collapse; it didn't need another attack on its foundations. He hadn't slept, hadn't even attempted to go to bed, remaining instead in the garden until day was full broken, wrestling with the consequences of what had surely been no more than a fit of madness. He'd fallen into some trap sprung by his overstretched mind, and he had to find a way to mitigate the consequences. It was as simple as that, wasn't it? But his thoughts had circled without cease, nothing clear coming out of his desperate searching for a way out of the ghastly tangle.
His eyes felt full of sand, his limbs aching, his head too thick and muzzy to wrestle further… and now this. Miranda's family had returned to her life just when it was vital that she see herself as a d'Albard, that she become a d'Albard, that she forget as far as possible her previous life and immerse herself in the one that was to be her future. But Gareth knew Miranda well enough to know that she wouldn't forsake her friends now that she'd found them again.
"Gareth!" Imogen's voice took on an edge of desperation. She couldn't read her brother's expression but it filled her with unease. "Gareth, what is going on? Who was that boy she was carrying?"
Gareth shook his head as if to clear it. "Someone from Miranda's past. Leave it to me, Imogen, I'll sort it out." He swung away from his sister and made for the peace of his own privy chamber at the rear of the house. Flinging himself in a chair at the document-strewn table, he rested his aching head in his hands.
He had taken the virginity of the woman destined to become the wife of Henry of France. That need not be a disaster in itself. Henry was too lusty and pragmatic himself to mind overmuch if he discovered the bride in his bed was no virgin. And it would be obvious to her husband that Miranda was still far from experienced. If nothing was said, Henry would say nothing.
As long as there was no child. Gareth thrust that hideous possibility from him. It was not a useful anticipation.
The cold, calculating part of his brain told Gareth that if the simple loss of virginity was the only issue, then the situation was retrievable. But he knew that he had taken more than Miranda's virginity in that wondrous, magical encounter in the garden. He'd taken her soul. He had seen it in the way she'd looked at him before she'd left him last night, and again this morning, just before she'd taken Robbie upstairs. She didn't know how to conceal her emotions, even if she wanted to. And his trespass on her honesty and her innocence was unforgivable.
And yet… and yet he could feel no shame. When he thought of those moments of joy he felt only a vibrant surge of renewed joy. Miranda had given him something he had thought would never be his. She had touched his own soul. Their physical fusion had been but the expression of a deeper, almost mystical union. And his entire being throbbed with the longing to repeat it.
Gareth pushed back his chair, and reached for the flagon of wine on the sideboard behind him. He put the flagon to his lips and drank deep, hoping it would clear his head. There was Mary, too. He'd betrayed Mary, not by the carnal act, she would never consider that in itself a betrayal, not even after their marriage, but by that other connection, the knowledge that in Miranda he had found something so precious he couldn't bear to contemplate letting it go. But he must.
He scowled as someone knocked at his door. He had no wish to talk to anyone but he bade the knocker enter and tried to look neutrally at his sister, who was bursting with excitement. She flourished a rolled parchment. "A letter, Gareth. It bears the seal of the constable at Dover Castle. It must mean that Henry has landed."
"We should find him some new clothes. These are all rags." Maude hovered over Robbie. "Berthe, see what you can find. There must be a spare set of clothes that would fit him in the servants' quarters. I'll pay well for them." Berthe left with an audible sniff that Maude either didn't notice or chose to ignore. She sat on a stool beside Robbie and stirred a spoonful of jam into the contents of a silver porringer. "Try some of this with jam, Robbie. It will make you strong."
Robbie shook his head; his little belly was tight as a drum. "Can't eat no more." He gazed in continued wonderment at this pretty lady who was so exactly like Miranda he couldn't tell them apart.
Maude looked disappointed, but she set the spoon down. "We shall keep him here, Miranda. Don't you think we should?"
"I'd like to," Miranda said doubtfully. "At least while I'm here." She bit her lip. Until last night, she had seen this episode in her life as just that, a brief interlude that would bring her financial security for years to come. But now things had changed. How could they not have done? She couldn't leave here now. Gareth would know that as surely as she did. Wouldn't he?
The image of Lady Mary Abernathy rose unbidden to her mind's eye. That perfect lady of the court. The perfect wife for the earl of Harcourt. But men had mistresses as well as wives. She could not be a wife, but she could be a mistress.
"Miranda… what's the matter, Miranda? You seem miles away this morning."
"I didn't sleep very much last night," Miranda offered in partial explanation. "I suppose I was too excited about seeing the queen."
"The queen!" Robbie's mouth fell open. "You saw the queen, M'randa?"
"Mmm," she said with a smile. "And I didn't just see her, I spoke to her as well."
That was too much for Robbie. He stared, open-mouthed, trying to imagine his Miranda, the acrobat who sucked lemons to make Bert's mouth go dry and squabbled with Luke, actually talking to the queen.
"Have you finished eating, Robbie? We must go into the city and see the others." Miranda lifted the boy off his stool. "You can remember the way?"
" 'Course."
"How will you go?" Maude inquired.
"Walk, of course."
"Walk!"
"Yes. What's wrong with that?" "But you can't possibly walk," Maude said in the patient tone one might use to the completely misguided. Miranda frowned. In her present guise, perhaps she couldn't. Lady Maude d'Albard certainly wouldn't walk anywhere, and most particularly not into the city.
"You can go in a litter," Maude said. "It's how I take the air."
"Why don't you come with us?" Miranda said suddenly. "I'll introduce you to my family."
"What? Acrobats?" Maude's eyes widened.
" They're as good as you," Miranda declared with a dangerous glitter in her eye.
"Yes… but…" Maude shook her head.
"Come on," Miranda coaxed. "You've never seen anything of the real world. I'll show you the streets, the way people live on the streets. We can eat pies and gingerbread from a s
tall. Mama Gertrude will die of shock when she sees us together." Her eyes sparkled. "You've shown me your world, Maude, now come and see mine."
Maude's gaze wandered between Miranda and Robbie, who was regarding her with interest, following the conversation and yet not really understanding it. In fact, he understood little except the wonderful sensation of satisfied hunger.
"Shall I?" Maude murmured, glancing almost guiltily to Berthe's empty chair. Then she said, in wonder at her own audacity, "All right, I will. But let us go quickly before Berthe comes back." She hurried to the linen press and pulled out a cloak, flinging it around her shoulders, drawing up the hood. "We'll leave by the side door and go directly to the mews and tell them to ready the fitter for us. Then no one will know."
"I think we have to tell someone," Miranda said. "They'll be frantic if you disappear without a word. Berthe will go into hysterics."
This was too strong a possibility to be ignored. Maude hastily scribbled a note for her maid. "Quickly," she said. "Before someone stops us."
"Come, Robbie." Miranda swung the boy into her arms again and whistled for Chip, who was trawling through the breakfast dishes in search of goodies. The monkey leaped from the table with an excited jabber and followed the procession from the room.
The liverymen looked askance at Lady Maude's companions. But Maude could produce a satisfactorily arrogant demeanor when required and they obeyed her orders without comment. Robbie burbled with excitement at finding himself in a litter, just like the one he'd seen emerging from the house the previous day. He pulled back the curtains and thumbed his nose at passersby. Chip caught on quickly and began to imitate him. The litter bearers, in the black-and-yellow Harcourt livery, had no idea why they were followed by yells of indignation as they trotted along.
