by Alexa Riley
I just nod, knowing he can’t see me.
“Even in yourself,” he finishes, hitting the nail on the head.
I did. So I made sure that couldn’t happen again. That I wouldn’t trust myself. Keep them at arm’s length. It was for the best, but now I’m starting to wonder the cost of that. I’d only built this security to protect myself, but was I even really living? What cost was I paying for it?
The silence stretches once again.
“We’re calling it.”
“What?!” I wonder if I told him too much and now he really doesn’t think I should be here.
“Calm down. I got word Cobra is in town until nightfall. We’ll get him tomorrow when he shows up.”
Fuck. I wanted this to be done with. I expected to be heading back home soon. Not only that, I wanted everyone to know I’d come out and done what needed to be done. I wanted to be one step closer to being a full member of the Ghost Riders.
I roll to my side, easing my gun from my shoulder where it had been propped.
“Leave it,” Knox says, probably knowing I was going to dismantle it. I grab the camouflage netting and throw it over the gun, then take the bullets with me.
Making my way back down to camp, I have no idea what I’m going to say when I get there. There’s probably going to be some weird awkwardness. This isn't like me. I don’t fuck with things I want, and I’m playing a very dangerous game with Knox, because I’m falling for him. And like all things in life, I never do them half-assed. I have a feeling if I fall for him it will be hard. So hard I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to get up, let alone be able to see him every day after it all goes up in flames.
9
Knox
I walk towards her slowly, each step calculated as I see her coming towards me down the bend. Violet puts on a show of acting tough all the time, but deep down she’s soft, and I just got a taste of that. She let me see a little more of her today. I don’t think she’s shown anyone that in a very long time, and I fucking love that I got it out of her, that I’m breaking down those walls.
She’s got her own weak points just like I do, and she’s managed to hit every target on me. But with her, those walls go up so hard and fast that when they’re down, I have to be careful. I have to make sure she knows my intentions and that I’m not going to do anything to hurt her. After what she just told me, I want to show her she can trust me. That I’d never betray her in any way. I could never hurt someone I love.
The thought makes me falter, but I don’t let it show. I don’t know why the thought comes as a shock because it’s all I’ve been doing with Violet since day one. Falling in love. She’s been in my every thought from the moment I first saw her. I haven’t wanted to say it out loud, because there’s a cost that goes with that. Admitting you care for someone so deeply that it turns to love is frightening. Violet has the ability to reject it and break my heart into a thousand unmendable pieces. Giving her that power scares the shit out of me, but isn’t this what it’s all about? Being willing to give your heart to someone else and hope that they don’t hurt you? I want her to trust me, so I have to be willing to do the same. I’m willing to take the risk of her breaking me because I know that never trying would be ten times worse.
I know I’d never do anything to hurt Violet. I may do a lot of shit-talking and joking around with her, but I’m not the type of guy to take something like this lightly. What I feel for her isn’t something that’s going to just up and go away. This is forever, and I want her to feel that way, too.
I close the distance between us and put my hands on either side of her neck, making her tilt her head back to look at me.
“Tonight you’re mine, Violet. Completely and in every way you can imagine. I’m not having a one-night stand here, and when we get back to the club, we’re not hiding this.”
I see the nervous look in her eyes, like she’s not sure she should want this, but deep down she does. I know it, or she wouldn't have told me the stuff she did. She gave me a piece of her. I’m going to collect each one until I have them all. Every part of her.
“I want my tags on you, and I want you patched in to the Ghost Riders. I want everyone in the club to know you’re mine and I’m yours. But even without the club, I want the world to know we belong to each other.”
“Knox, you’re asking for everything.”
She brings her hands up and places them on mine. Her eyes are pleading, and it’s as if she’s hoping with all her heart I mean what I say. It’s written all over her face, which looks even more innocent than before. Knowing what she’s done hasn’t changed shit. She still looks like that to me. I’m starting to think maybe I’m the only one who sees it. That softness that I know is there. I’ve known it all along.
“Yeah, baby. I want it all. I’ll take it if I have to, but I want you to put your trust in my hands and give me everything you’ve got.”
I see a little tear form in her eye, but it doesn’t fall. She just lets out a breath and nods.
“You break my heart and I’ll stab you,” she says, giving me a soft smile.
“You’ve got me in the palm of your hand, Violet. I’ll never do you wrong.”
I take her mouth, not waiting another second. She’s given me the green light, and I’m stomping my foot on the gas. I’ve been holding back, but not anymore. I’m taking all that she’s giving me and then some.
My hands go to her shirt, pushing it up and feeling her bare skin underneath. My cock aches in my jeans. We’ve got all night, and he’s going to get his turn when I’m good and ready.
I grip her waist and pick her up. Her legs go around my hips, and we don’t stop kissing as I carry her to bed. When I lay her down, I peel off her shirt and bra, then lean down and suck her hard nipple into my mouth. I bite down on the peak as my hands go to her jeans and I push them down her narrow little hips.
Her hands pull on my shirt, and I break away from her tit just long enough to slip it off my head. I nearly rip her jeans and panties off her legs. She lets out a giggle at my frustrated efforts, but I just growl and go back to putting my mouth on her body.
I run my tongue all over her creamy skin and work my way lower to between her legs. When I get there, she grips my hair and I look up at her.
“You going to let me get you off like this, or do you need to ride my face again?”
She raises her hips, and I give her a little lick as I wait on the answer.
“Knox, I’ve never done this before.”
The confession is quick, and I’m a little confused.
“Baby, we did it last night. You want on top, or you going to trust me to get you off like this?”
“That’s not what I mean,” she whispers. Her eyebrows draw together, and a look I’ve never seen before on her crosses her face. She’s unsure. “I’m a virgin.”
“Oh fuck,” I groan and let my face fall between her legs, my mouth open just at her pussy. I try to get myself together.
“Knox?”
“Hold on, Violet. I’m trying not to cum.”
I breathe, but all I can smell is her sweet cunt that I now know is untouched, and it’s all I can do to keep from nutting in my pants. I would have taken her no matter what her past was, but this is killing me. I’m seeing a little bit more of that innocence she hides.
“Never, baby?” I ask, looking up at her.
“If you don’t want to, that’s fine…” She starts to get mad, but I cut her off. I know there has to be a reason behind this, and her story about the cop flashes through my mind. It’s something we’ll have to go back to later. I’m not going to taint this moment with that.
“Oh, fuck no. I want to, and we’re going to. I’m just so goddamn turned on I don’t know what to do with myself.” I take another breath and feel her relax under me. “Okay. I’ll try to be gentle.” I’m not sure if I’m telling myself or reassuring her.
“Okay.” I look up at her, and I see the trust there. Tension drains from her body.
Kissing the insides of her thighs and then the top of her pussy, I feel her relax further under me.
“I’m going to be so good to you, sweet girl,” I whisper to her pussy and give it another kiss. She and I are about to be best fucking friends.
Rolling over, I take Violet with me so she’s straddling my face. She seems to be most comfortable with being on top, so for the first time, I think we should do it this way. I think this will give her the sense of control she needs and let her go at her own pace. And meanwhile, I’ll lie here and try not to die of torture with all her perfection on top of me.
“Let me get you off first, baby. I want that pussy silky smooth when my cock slides in deep.”
She moans at my words as she sits down on my mouth, and her peach flavor hits my tongue. I grip her ass cheeks and pull her down on my mouth as she rocks back and forth on my face. I breathe in her smell and suck down her juice, eating her cunt with all that I’ve got. I want this orgasm to be so good that she can’t wait to hop on my cock.
Letting go of her ass, I reach down and unbutton my jeans and push them down my hips along with my underwear. I fist my cock in my hand while I suck her clit, trying to keep myself from cumming too soon.
“Knox,” she whispers and tenses on top of me. I lick inside her cunt as far as I can while she cums on my mouth.
I eat her orgasm as I squeeze my dick, trying to stop the flow of cum from leaking out of the end of it. I’ve already made a small mess on my stomach from the sticky precum, but I’ve still got lots more for her.
When Violet stops pulsing on my mouth, I give her little licks to try to wring out the last of her pleasure. She relaxes on top of me and then takes her pussy away, moving down on top of me.
“Condom?” she asks nervously, biting her lip. As if she’s just now thought about the logistics of this.
“Fuck no. I’m taking you raw. And I’m not pulling out, so don’t even ask.” She looks like she’s going to get pissed for a second, and I stop her train of thought, grabbing her hips so she can’t get up. “You on the pill?”
“I’m on the shot. I’ve had it since I was sixteen.”
“All right, then,” I say, moving my cock to her opening.
“Knox,” she says in a warning voice.
“Trust me, Violet. I got a chart full of tests when I discharged from the military. I’m clean. Don’t make me put the barrier between us.” I felt like I’d pulled so many down in the past 24 hours that I couldn't stand to put another one up.
“So what about the people you’ve fucked since then?” There’s a note of jealousy in her voice, and I can’t help but kind of love that.
“Baby,” I say, taking her face in my hands. “There hasn’t been anyone since then. And there damn sure hasn’t been anyone since the day I saw your round ass walk onto club property. So let’s cut this shit out. You’re mine, and I’m taking you bare. Taking you like I’ve never taken anyone before.”
She hesitates for a second, but then gives me a shy smile and nods. I can see why she thinks that maybe I get around, but I hardly ever go down to the bar where the others go to get ass. Just isn’t my scene. I do flirt at little, but it’s more like joking. It often breaks tension and puts people at ease.
I take her mouth, unable to hold back much longer. The taste of her pussy passes between us, and I moan at the flavor. Her warm tongue combined with her sweet cunt, and I’m on the edge of losing it.
“Hold still, baby,” I say against her lips and reach between us, grabbing my cock.
I press the tip against her wet opening and rub it back and forth for just a second. It’s all it takes and I’m spurting cum into her waiting entrance, lubing it up for my thick cock.
“Fuck,” Violet whispers as she looks down between our bodies and watches me cum on her. It’s so goddamn erotic seeing her turned on by this.
Once she’s coated in the thick cream, it’s as if she can’t help herself. She lowers her pussy onto my rock-hard shaft and slowly lets me penetrate her. The feeling of her opening kissing the tip and then taking me inside as she moves down, inch by thick inch, is indescribable.
I grip her hips and watch her pussy stretch around me until I feel her barrier stop the progress. Her virginity holds me back for only a second, before Violet’s pressing down against me, and I slip deeper. Violet tenses and lets out a sharp breath before relaxing into the sensation. It takes her longer than she likes, but she keeps moving up and down in shallow thrusts.
I lie on my back in absolute pleasure and torture watching this happen. I just had an orgasm, but I couldn’t even tell you how it felt because I was too busy watching Violet. Now that I’m wrapped around her pussy, I can’t think of anything else. Thank God she’s leading this parade, because I’m fucking useless right now.
“Oh God, Knox,” she breathes, and seats herself fully on my cock.
Her hands come forward and brace on my chest as she closes her eyes and adjusts to the feeling of me inside her. Her hair is fucking everywhere, and I love the sight of it.
“You okay, baby?” I try to rub her back and legs to let her know she’s doing good. “Jesus, you are so beautiful.”
She looks down at me and then presses her lips to mine. We kiss softly and sweetly as she starts to move, rocking slowly on top of me.
After a few minutes she’s fully relaxed and breaks our kiss to sit up. I run my hands up her stomach and to her tits, squeezing them and pinching her nipples. Her pussy clenches on my cock, and I groan.
“Fuck,” I say through gritted teeth.
Reaching one hand between us, I lightly rub her clit as she rides me. Her little clenches are driving me fucking crazy, and I can’t last much longer. Her heat is squeezing me so tight and the sight of her on my dick is just too much.
Violet arches her back and tenses her legs as she cums on me. Her orgasm is fast and unexpected, and I thank God. I give myself over to her pulses, and cum deep inside her. I cum so hard that I sit up, holding her to me tightly as I moan into her chest, trying to muffle the sound. We cling to each other as our pleasure takes over and we share the most intense moment of our lives.
When we are both breathing normally again, I lie back with her still in my arms. Violet rests her head on my chest, and I brush her sweaty auburn hair out of her face, just loving the intimacy of the moment.
“Thank you,” I whisper into the darkness, because I don’t think she’s ready to hear what I really want to say.
Her hands rub my chest, and I feel her place a kiss over where my heart is. “Thank you, Knox. That was really wonderful.”
I know that in this moment she’s the most vulnerable she’s ever been. And she’s finally giving that part of herself to me. Having her body is a privilege, but her soul is truly what I’m after. And if this is the way to get to it, then this is the way I’ll take it.
Rolling us over, I put Violet on her back without breaking our connection. I thrust into her and moan as I bury my face in her neck.
“More, baby. I need more.”
Chapter 10 *Violet*
“I didn’t know you could look more beautiful,” Knox says as he leans over me, brushing my hair out of my face and waking me up.
I want to tell him the same. A smile lights up his whole face, and he looks at me like I just gave him the world and not just my body, my virginity.
“I bet I look a mess,” I counter. I can still feel the sleep in my eyes. After we made love for the second time, Knox fed me, and I passed out while he gave my shoulders a rubdown. I don’t think he was rubbing me for more than a minute before I was dead to the world.
I’d slept deeper than I had in longer than I can remember. All of this just felt so right.
“You’re nothing like I thought,” I tell him, and his eyes go soft.
“You’re more than I could have dreamed of, baby.” Now he makes me smile. I reach up, running my fingers through his beard. I’ve wanted to do it forever and now I can. No more wanting when it comes t
o him. I’m going to take.
I jumped off the cliff last night. I wanted him, and I was going to take what I wanted. It was how I’ve always done things, and he’d be no different. I grip his beard a little tightly. He raises his eyebrows, but the playful look doesn't leave his face. I school my expression to look as stern as possible.
“I’m going to go out and make this shot, then we’re going back to Kansas City. That funny flirting shit better only come my way. Got me?” Knox starts laughing, and I scowl at him. “I don’t know what’s so fucking funny, unless you think me leaving two bodies instead of one behind in Colorado is humorous.”
“No, baby.” He leans in a little. “Hate to say this while we’re still both naked, but you’ve never sounded more like your brother.”
My mouth falls open. Oh my God, he’s right. I sound just like my crazy, obsessed brother with Cas. Knox steals the opportunity to take my mouth in a kiss, and I easily melt into it. It leaves me breathless and reluctant to get up and do what needs to be done.
“It’s fucking hot, you getting all worked up over me, but I’ll be sure not to do it, because trust me, I’ll murder a motherfucker if he even looks at you with an ounce of interest in his eyes.”
“Don’t be calling anyone ‘baby’ either,” I add. I want to make sure all this is clear.
“Never have and never will. Unless you give me one.” With that little bomb, he jumps up and pulls me with him, unaware that I’m still reeling.
“Let’s go shoot this motherfucker, because as much as I like having you all alone out here, I want your ass in a soft bed tonight.”
“That fuck still hasn't turned on his phone,” Knox growls into my ear. I can hear him clicking away on his computer. I’ve been lying out here for an hour and still nothing. I don’t know how many times I’ve scanned the crowd. If I could just get an area to focus in on, it would make this easier. There are too many people.
“Check your two o’clock. I got one of his guys pinging over there.”
