by Mary Calmes
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More Than Everything
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Old Loyalty, New Love
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Where You Lead
“For a short story, it still managed to display a loving relationship, make you fall for both MC’s, and sprinkled w/ signature MC hot lovemaking scenes! A complete story in very few pages and warmed my heart.”
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By CARDENO C.
THE MATES SERIES
Until Forever Comes
Wake Me Up Inside
THE HOME SERIES
He Completes Me
Home Again
Just What the Truth Is
Love at First Sight
The One Who Saves Me
Where He Ends and I Begin
Walk With Me
THE FAMILY SERIES
Something in the Way He Needs
Strong Enough
More Than Everything
OTHER TITLES
Control
Eight Days
In Another Life
Places in Time
A Shot at Forgiveness
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NOVELS
CHANGE OF HEART SERIES
Change of Heart • Trusted Bond • Honored Vow
Crucible of Fate
A Matter of Time Vol. 1 & 2
Bulletproof • But For You
Parting Shot
Acrobat
Control
The Guardian
Mine
Old Loyalty, New Love
Three Fates (anthology)
Timing
Warders Vol. 1 & 2
NOVELLAS
After the Sunset
Again
Any Closer
Frog
Romanus
The Servant
Steamroller
Still
What Can Be
THE WARDER SERIES
His Hearth • Tooth & Nail • Heart in Hand
Sinnerman • Nexus • Cherish Your Name
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ISBN: 978-1-62798-741-7
Digital ISBN: 978-1-62798-742-4
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First Edition
April 2014
From Mary Calmes: I want to thank Cardeno for writing with me even though I was whiny about plotting. CC, you’re a trouper.
From Cardeno C.: Mary, thank you for agreeing to write a book with me, for putting up with my not-so-mellow writing style, and most of all, for being a wonderful person and amazing friend. To Robert Solon, thanks for your support over the years. I know he’s the opposite of you in important ways, but I hope you like your bear anyway. ;)
From both of us:
To Lori Borgaard, Lisa Horan, and Crissy Morris: Thank you for your support.
To Kelly Shorten: Thank you for making us wonderful websites. You’re the best!
To Reese Dante: Thank you so much for yet another wonderful cover.
One
Vy
MRS. CHOI didn’t bother looking up when I walked in the store again, even though the bells over the door jangled like mad. The shopkeeper, who had gone to school with my father, was purposely ignoring me. I couldn’t very well blame her. I had been in and out a total of six times in the last seven, maybe nine, minutes.
Crap.
Walking right by her, I strode quickly to the back of the store, which I had been in more than a thousand times in my life. It was the local hardware store, and being in construction—demolition—it was a place I frequented often. So it was crazy that I had flushed hot and cold within seconds and then had to grit my teeth through a surge of adrenaline only to feel an absolute sense of peace roll thr
ough me in the very next moment.
What the hell is going on?
“What are you doing?”
I snapped my head up and looked at Louisa Maberti, the ahir of the kettle of hawks, or the second of the flock, that I lead. The fact that she was also one of my best friends—so I trusted her not only with the ket but also my sanity—was a big fat bonus. At the moment, though, watching her lift one of her thick, dark eyebrows as she crossed her arms, I knew she was very concerned about what I was doing. I knew she’d have questions when I passed her for the sixth time in my back-and-forth madness.
“It’s like watching a pinball from my cruiser,” she said snidely. “What can you possibly need in here, Vy?”
I always thought of myself as short, but compared to the five-foot-four deputy sheriff, at five foot nine, I was huge.
“Vy?” she pressed.
Inhaling deeply, filling my lungs with the rich, smoky scent that was hovering around me, I closed my eyes a second and breathed it in.
“This is where you do that thing called speaking and don’t make me dig,” she said.
What to say?
“I hate digging. You know that,” she said.
I did.
“Vy,” she said, her voice rising shrilly. “I have a taser, and I’m not afraid to use it.”
As hawks, if we weren’t careful, sometimes we got a little screechy.
Clearing my throat, I looked her straight in the eyes and said, “I think I smell my mate.”
Her mouth dropped open, but no sound came out. She looked good and stunned.
“Crap,” I grunted.
Still nothing.
“Lou?”
She huffed out a breath, obviously trying to pull herself together. “I…. Your mate?”
“I think so,” I said forlornly, feeling worse than I sounded.
She rushed up to me, grabbed my biceps, and stared up into my face. “Vy…. Kuar… you sense your mate… I’m so happy for you.”
“No,” I snapped at her, yanking free. “You feel the same way I do about it—like shit.”
“I—”
I made the sound in the back of my throat, the scolding call all predatory birds made.
Taking a step back, she winced. “We knew this day would come. We did. And we’re both, well, you’re—” She gestured at me. “—prepared. I don’t know if I ever will be.”
Squatting down in front of her, I raked my fingers roughly through my hair.
“God, you’re a mess,” she said, chuckling, trying to divert me, using her hand to tousle my hair, trying to shake some of the dust loose. “You can’t even tell there’s blond under all this. What were you doing today?”
“We gutted the Coleman house; then we had to load it up and haul everything out.”
She started picking tiny pieces of gravel out of my hair.
“Will you stop?” I pulled away, irritated at the whole world and knowing she was going to bear the brunt of it because of geography: she was closest. “You’re driving me nuts.”
She stepped back and crossed her arms again, which emphasized her muscle definition, the utility belt, and gun. The woman was not big, but people always forgot that. Criminals remembered Louisa Maberti as being tall and big and tough. They were always surprised when they saw her later and found she was not.
She could bring down a man twice her size. She knew pressure points, was a black belt in tae kwon do, and Lord help you if she drew her gun and had to shoot at you. Game over. In our small town of Elk River, Colorado, she was much scarier than Sheriff Davis, her boss. There were three employees in the sheriff’s office altogether, but they called Lou when things got dicey. The sheriff was a pacifist, and Zach Westerman, the other deputy, was great as backup but not so scary out front. Lou did all the heavy lifting. What helped was that people never saw it coming before she had them in a choke hold on the ground. At first glance, the woman looked fit, but not fearsome.
When Lou wasn’t in her uniform, she looked like the toned, buff Pilates instructor she also was. Every other weekend, at nine, eleven, and one, she taught class at Mike’s Gym on Main Street. Her husband worked two weekends a month on a hotshot crew, battling forest fires. Instead of sitting home, waiting, worrying herself to death, Lou got out and did something. She knew going into the marriage that being a firefighter’s wife would mean a life fraught with worry, but added to that was the man himself. He could have easily graced a month in a beefcake calendar if his wife would have allowed it. Fortunately, no woman in town was stupid enough to make a play for Carlo Maberti; not when his wife could kill them and make it look like an accident.
“… and don’t take this crap out on me!” Her snarl brought me back from my drifting thoughts. “Oh for fuck’s sake,” she groused, throwing up her arms in resignation. “Were you even listening?”
“I am now,” I sighed, smiling at her, standing up. “And sorry for being a dick. It’s just, you know, I—I always thought when I met my mate I’d still be me.”
She nodded, brows furrowed, trying to keep it together for me.
“I told you. We’ve talked about this a million times,” I said.
“Yes,” she croaked.
“What would you have done if your mate was a woman?”
“I don’t know.”
“Not that that could have happened, because why would it? Mating is about the natural order of things, and two women or two men—” The shot to my shoulder hurt. “What the hell?”
She pointed at me. “Don’t you dare start quoting Sophia Aleknos. I don’t like it. We both know your folks won’t like it, and—”
“You can just say my grandmother,” I grumbled, rubbing my left bicep where she’d hit me. “You don’t have—”
“Sophia Aleknos ceased being your grandmother when she called the ket together and tried to have you first removed and then jointed.”
I came out to my parents when I was fifteen. They had both announced that they had known for some time and were pleased I’d told them, but, really, beyond that, they couldn’t have cared less. The similarity with the rest of my family stopped there. Because someday I was going to be kuar, or leader, of our flock, my grandmother and my Uncle Peti—my father’s brother—his wife, my cousins, all of them said I owed it to the ket to try and be cured of my affliction. I was stunned. My parents weren’t; they were livid.
When my mother stood up at that Thanksgiving dinner, incensed, ready to defend me, looking like she was going to rip peoples’ heads off, my father slowly rose beside her. He took her hand in his, squeezed it gently, and smiled. I saw the tension drain out of her as my father gave his attention to the rest of the table. I had never seen his eyes turn hawk gold in his human face. I had no idea that could happen. Everyone, including me, went mute.
“My son will be kuar after me,” he announced, and his voice was trembling with razor-thin rage. “And anyone who does not think him fit may leave my table and my ket… now.”
The man had always been the strong, but very silent, type. The windfall of words from him, the way his voice stayed low and yet filled with anger, had been amazing.
Two weeks later, at our normal conclave, my father’s ahir reported that his mother had called the ket together in secret, under false pretenses, and tried to rally the ket to turn on me. She wanted my father to replace me with my cousin Adomas and have him become kuar instead. And her plot only grew more sinister after that. Not only would I be removed from the line of succession, but my wing joint would be cut through as well. It would render me flightless in hawk form, and when I transformed back, my arms would be severed at the elbow. I was horrified and hurt. My father was furious.
He stood up in front of everyone, and his voice rose with his anger, seething, boiling, until it finally became a sharp, whiplike cry.
No, I would not be sent to a conversion therapy program!
No, the youth minister would not be asked for help!
No, the matter was not up for discus
sion!
And finally, anyone who had anything to say could shift and meet him in the sky for an individual challenge.
No one even breathed in the room. I had no idea two hundred people could be that quiet.
“If you joint him,” my grandmother said, breaking the thundering silence, “then he would be disfigured. If he were, then perhaps men wouldn’t want him, and I would never have to live through the horror of having a gay grandson.”
“It could kill him,” my father stressed to her.
“Better dead than gay.”
And with that, he sent her from his ket, his house, and his sight forever. On the way home in the car, I had apologized to him, because she was his mother, and because of me he didn’t have one anymore.
He stopped the car, got out, opened my door, and ordered me out. I stood on the side of the road, unsure of what was going to happen, and he grabbed me tight, crushed me to him, and kissed my hair.
“Your mother and you—that’s all that matters to me. Never forget it. You will lead the ket. You love your family. We’ll never speak of this again.”
We never had.
Jecis Aleknos, my father, paid for my grandmother to go live with her sister in Philadelphia as well as for his brother Peti and his family to relocate to New Mexico. I knew, not from my parents but others, that they hadn’t wanted to leave my father’s flock. He was a good leader, a strong one, and there were benefits to being related to the kuar. But their feelings were known, and just looking at them made him sick. He was raising his heir and the child he loved; no one was allowed to be near me who could poison my vision of myself.
I never heard from any of them again, and my folks acted like they were dead. I missed having an extended family, but we had our ket, and my parents were beloved. Friends became family, and it was enough. My mother wished often that her folks had lived to see me, and I wondered if they too would have turned their backs on me for being gay. My mother was certain they would not have, and I liked to believe she was right.
“You’re not listening to me!”
Again, my mind had drifted. I forced myself to focus on my best friend.
