Last Family Standing
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Last Family Standing
Jennifer Allee
Nashville
Last Family Standing
Copyright © 2014 by Jennifer AlLee
ISBN: 978-1-68299-824-3
Published by Abingdon Press, P.O. Box 801, Nashville, TN 37202
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To Amanda, with love
Acknowledgments
With each book I write, I’m continually impressed by the dedication and skill of the professionals around me. Many thanks go to:
Sandra Bishop—my amazing agent and friend.
Ramona Richards—my brave acquisitions editor, who isn’t afraid to push boundaries.
Cat Hoort—the savviest, most clever marketing and publicity manager I’ve had the pleasure of working with.
All the members of the Abingdon team, from the art department, to marketing, to sales and everyone in between. Without all your hard work, I’d fall apart!
Big thanks, too, go to family and friends who put up with me while I spend hours hunched over my laptop. You bless me every day!
1
Your daughter’s on television.”
“What?” I just about drop the spoon I’m using to stir my custard mixture. Is this a joke? A wrong number? I pull my cell phone away from my ear and read the ID on the screen. Nope. That’s Jules’s name, right under the picture of her wearing a red, white, and blue stovepipe hat at last year’s July Fourth picnic.
“Monica? Are you there?”
Her voice calls through the speaker, and I slowly put the phone back to my ear. “Yeah. I’m here.”
“Did you hear what I said?”
I close my eyes and shake my head, as if that will bring some clarity to my mind. It doesn’t work. “I heard, but . . . are you sure?”
“Absolutely. I recorded it to the DVR so you can see for yourself.”
Leave it to Jules to think of the practical answer to my questions. “I’ll be right there.”
“I’ll leave the porch light on.”
As we end the call, I look down at the spoon I’m still holding, motionless in the saucepan. Instead of creamy custard, I now have something more akin to runny scrambled eggs. It’s ruined. Being a chef, I don’t usually make such stupid mistakes, but I’m more than a little shell-shocked from the bomb that just fell on me. I turn off the flame, pour the contents down the disposal, then drop the pot and spoon into the sink with a clatter.
Running upstairs to grab my shoes, scenes from the past flash through my memory.
The hospital. All those white walls. The antiseptic smell. The rhythmic squeak-click-click-squeak of the gurney. The turtle-shaped water spot on the delivery room ceiling. The sharp cry of lungs being filled with oxygen for the first time. When I turned my head away, one nurse said to the other, “She’s not keeping it. We’re supposed to give the baby right to the adoptive parents.”
That had been my idea. Don’t give the baby to me. Why should I hold something that’s not mine to keep? I thought it would be easier that way.
I was wrong.
Still, twenty-five years later, I do believe I made the right decision for my daughter. As I stuff my feet into my sneakers, I still think it was the right thing to do. For everyone. Even so, my knees feel slightly wobbly as I trot back down the stairs. My hand shakes as I grab my house keys. And when I call to my dog, Ranger, my voice shakes.
“I’ve got to go out.”
He lifts his shaggy brown head from the couch and looks my way, no doubt thinking he can stop me with a longing look from his big, soulful eyes. But I dash right past him.
“Sorry, buddy. No walk tonight.”
As I pull the front door closed behind me, a velvety breeze rubs across my cheeks, my bare arms, and my shorts-clad legs. I’ve lived in the Las Vegas valley long enough to know that 100-degree weather during the day often results in the most wonderful nighttime conditions. Everyone else on the block knows it, too, and it looks like most of them are taking advantage of it tonight.
Mr. Williams raises his hand in greeting as he approaches, and I wave back. His dog, a black and white Great Dane named Caesar, tugs him along, straining at the leash. It’s obvious who’s walking whom.
“Where’s Ranger?” Mr. Williams asks.
I motion behind me. “Hanging out at home. I’m heading over to see Jules.”
The wind picks up and a gust lifts his silver comb-over and drops it on the other side of his head. Smoothing it back in place with one hand, he nods. “Have fun, then. See you—” The rest of his words are blown away as Caesar propels him down the block.
I’m thankful for the wind. It provides an excuse to keep my head down. Hands stuffed in my pockets, shoulders curled forward, ponytail swinging wildly, I speed walk the three-house distance to Jules’s without having to interact with anyone else.
Just as she promised, the porch light is on and I open the front door without knocking. Inside the foyer, I kick off my shoes and call out, “It’s me!” I’m immediately swarmed by tweenager John and eight-year-old twins Jerrod and Justin.
“Hey, Aunt Monica!”
“Did you bring something yummy?”
“Where’s Ranger?”
Opening my arms wide, I try to hug them all at once. “Sorry, boys. Only me tonight.” It’s pretty rare for me to come over here without some kind of food offering.
“Guys, give Aunt Monica some breathing room.” Jules leans her five-foot-nine-inch frame over the boys, bracing one hand on Jerrod’s head, and plants a kiss on my cheek. Then she looks back down at her sons. “Head upstairs. Now.”
The three grumble in unison, but they don’t argue. It makes me wonder what Jules said to them before I got here. Did she tell them we needed to have a big-person talk? Or did she warn them there might be crying? The threat of experiencing female emotion would be enough to scare them away for at least the rest of the night. Possibly till puberty.
Jules links her arm through mine and pulls me through the house. We pass the room they use as an office, and a voice calls out. “Hey, Monica.”
“Hey, Jackson,” I call back to her husband. Apparently, he’s also been warned about the high likelihood of hysterics.
“You want a drink?” She asks as we walk through the kitchen.
“What have you got?”
“Everything we need for killer root beer floats.”
“Ooh, the hard stuff.” I shake my head. “Maybe later.”
When we get to the family room, my eyes immediately fly to the flat screen TV mounted on the wall, but it’s not even on.
“In a second.” Jules pats my back. “First, you need some details. Let’s sit down.”
We settle on the worn, chocolate brown sectional. I was with her when she picked it out. Chocolate was my
suggestion, because I thought it would hide stains. She angles toward me and puts one hand flat on the seat cushion, right next to a big, dark spot of something. As it turns out, the antics of three young boys can’t be hidden, no matter how hard you try.
We look at each other, and I realize that for once my strong, take-charge friend is at a loss for words. So I get us started. “What was she doing on TV?”
Jules tucks a piece of blonde hair behind her ear, but her hairstyle is so short, it just looks like she’s stroking the top of her ear. “You know that reality show I watch? Last Family Standing?”
I nod. “Yeah. It’s the one with the hot-but-snarky host.”
She sighs, but her mouth quirks up into a grin. “Why is that the only thing you remember about the show?”
Because I only watched it once, just to please her. And since I didn’t know who any of the contestants were or what was going on, all I had to concentrate on was the host. Who was pretty memorable.
“The basics are simple,” Jules says. “The season starts out with eight teams made up of two family members. All the teams are dumped in a remote location and have to rough it while they compete against each other until only two family teams are left. Then the audience votes to decide the winner.”
I hold my palm out to her. “Forgive me if I’m not fascinated, but what difference does it make? What does this have to do with my daughter?”
“Tonight was the season finale, and at the end, they introduce some of the contestants for the next season. She was on the show tonight.” Jules looks down for a second, rubbing her finger along the edge of the cushion stain.
Now that I’ve had some time to process the news, questions begin to bubble up in my brain. “How do you know it’s her? You don’t even know what she looks like. I don’t even know what she looks like.”
“She looks a lot like you.”
I immediately picture a younger version of myself: dark auburn hair, blue eyes, and an upper lip that I’ve always thought was a bit too thin. Does she feel the same way? Does she ever look into the mirror and give it a pouty smile, making her lips as prominent as possible?
What am I doing? I shake my head, banishing the daydream and pulling my focus back to reality.
“But that could be a coincidence. I have one of those faces, you know? People are always asking if they know me from somewhere.” I sigh. That’s it. That has to be it. “It’s just a mistake. She must be someone else’s—”
“She has your picture.”
The blood in my veins immediately converts to ice water. “My picture? Are you sure?”
Jules offers up a gentle smile. “Yes. It’s your graduation photo. And it has your first name and the date written on the back.”
My spine seems to have lost the ability to hold me upright. My shoulders slump and I plop back against the cushions. I don’t understand any of this. I chose the birth parents from a book full of hopefuls, and we even met once. But I never gave them my name, or a photo, or anything that would tie us together.
“Hey,” Jules grabs my hand and squeezes it between both of hers. “Are you okay?”
“No.” Only a handful of people know about this chapter of my life. Looking into the concerned eyes of my best friend, I’m glad she’s one of them. “I’m about as un-okay as you can get.”
She understands. The consummate nurturer, Jules also understands the importance of what we want to do versus what we need to do. She leans over and snatches the remote from the coffee table. “You ready?”
Can I ever be ready for this? Half an hour ago I was living a happy, uncomplicated life. My biggest worries were wondering if I should take Ranger to the vet for a teeth cleaning, and keeping the eggs from curdling in my custard. Now, I’m a woman with a past. A past that’s about to come to life before my eyes.
God help me. Please help me. I’m so not ready.
Without waiting for me to answer, Jules pushes a few buttons, bringing the TV screen to life.
Ready or not, here she comes.
2
Seeing my daughter is simultaneously the most amazing and heartbreaking experience of my life. Jules was right; she does look like me. From the nose up, at least. Her eyes are blue, and her hair is auburn, although it’s much brighter than mine. But the jawline, the chin, the lips . . . those are reminiscent of Duncan. I sure hope that’s all she inherited from her father.
The young woman—who, if I’ve done my mental math correctly is twenty-five years, three months, and thirteen days old—smiles down at me from the wall-mounted flat screen. It’s a sedate smile. A Mona Lisa smile that could mean any number of things.
I’m content.
I’m bored.
I secretly want to slap my birth mother silly, but I’m keeping that to myself until the opportune moment.
An off-screen voice blares out. “Twenty-five-year-old fashion designer Jessica Beckett comes to us from—”
The buzzing in my ears drowns out the rest of that sentence. Jessica. My daughter’s name is Jessica.
I shake my head, and the male voice registers again. “. . . has a special reason for being on Last Family Standing.”
My daughter—Jessica—opens her mouth to speak. I lean forward, desperate to finally hear her, to know how her adult voice has transformed from the newborn cries imprinted on the auditory center of my brain. But she freezes, and I almost tumble off the edge of the couch cushion.
I swing my head in Jules’s direction. “Why did you do that?”
“Just checking on you.”
“I’m fine.”
“You’re whiter than an Alaskan albino.”
I’m not sure why Alaskan albinos would be whiter than any others in the world, but I get her point. “I never knew her name.”
“Your choice?”
“Yes.” My fingernails press into the bare skin on my thighs. “I figured the less I knew, the easier it would be to let her go.”
I don’t know if that line of reasoning was correct or not. What I do know is that I can’t imagine the whole experience being any harder than it was.
I look at Jessica’s frozen face. “Where did the announcer say she lives?”
“Irvine. California.”
So close. You can drive from here to there in about five hours. Did she grow up there? Has she always been just a car drive away?
“He’s not the announcer.”
“What?”
Jules motions at the TV. “The man talking is Rick Wolff, the host of the show.”
My head cocks to the left. “Does that matter?”
She ignores the question. “Are you ready for me to hit play?”
I nod. Jules aims the remote like a gun, and my daughter begins to speak.
“I was adopted as a baby. Don’t get me wrong,” she waves her hands wildly, palms out, “I had a very happy childhood. No problems there.”
She laughs. It sounds a bit forced, but then I don’t know her well enough to judge. That could just be the way she laughs.
“My parents and I are very, very close.”
Heat floods my cheeks and I swallow back something vile that tries to creep up my throat. She’s close to her parents. That’s good. That’s what I always wanted: for all of them to be happy. There’s no reason to feel like I’ve been kicked in the gut.
Jessica’s lashes dip, as though she’s taking time to compose her thoughts. When she looks at the camera, that shadow of a smile is back.
“Even though I’m happy, I think it’s time I met my birth mother.”
Ice replaces heat as all the blood drains from my face. “She wants to find me?”
“Keep listening,” Jules says.
Jessica’s face is replaced by a montage of still photos from her childhood as Rick Wolff’s voice once again takes command of the program. “Jessica may want to find her birth mother, but does the mother want to be found? Jessica has located no information about the woman who gave her up twenty-five years ago. Her only clue is an old
graduation photo with the name Monica written on the back.”
There I am. My senior picture fills the screen. I was barely eighteen, excited to leave high school behind and head off to culinary school. Jessica hadn’t been born yet. She wasn’t even a glimmer in my eye. It wouldn’t be until two years later that I’d meet her bad-boy father and lose all grip on common sense.
“Where did they get that?” I ask aloud. “I never gave her parents anything.”
“They didn’t get it,” Jules answers. “Jessica had it when she got in touch with the show.”
A moment later, I hear the exact same thing recounted by Jessica herself. The host asks her how she got the photo, and she shrugs. “It’s always been on the mantel with all the other family photos. When I was old enough to understand, my parents told me it was my birth mother. They got the picture the day I was born, but they never did tell me from whom.”
The mystery of how Jessica got the picture is replaced by another, far more important question. “Pause it.”
Jules hits the button and looks at me.
“So she’s trying to find me?”
“Yes.”
“But why is she talking about it on this show?” It’s a physical competition based on endurance and mind games. It’s not a show that reunites families.
The corner of Jules’s mouth quirks up. “Why do you think?”
I don’t want to say what I think. It would be better to hear it from someone else. Maybe then it won’t be real. Elbows to knees, I hang my head and wave blindly toward the TV. “Restart it.”
“I can’t think of anything better,” Jessica’s voice says, “than competing on Last Family Standing with my birth mother.”
I raise my head slowly, just in time to see Jessica look directly into the camera, tilt her head, and grin. Good grief, it’s exactly what Duncan used to do. And I never could say no to him.
Jessica’s image is replaced by Rick Wolff. Wearing a khaki shirt and shark tooth necklace, he has a quasi-rugged look, like a model from a safari-wear catalog. “Will Jessica find her mother? That’s yet to be seen.” He crosses to a tiki torch and wraps his hand around the pole. “If she doesn’t, her flame will be snuffed out before she has a chance to begin.” With something resembling a coconut shell on the end of a stick, he covers the top of the torch, extinguishing it. Then he looks straight at the camera, as if he knows I’m sitting on my best friend’s couch and holding my breath. “If you’re out there, Monica, or if you know Monica, please call or text us at the number on the screen.”
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