Fucking used her.
She’d do well to remember the anger, because just being near him now brought back too many other memories. The good times, the sexy times. God, she was such a hypocrite. The guilt, the regret. The way she’d taken advantage of his screw-up to end things fast and furious when deep down, she’d understood and had forgiven him.
A hard rap at the bathroom door had her shutting off the water.
“Just wanted to let you know I’ve already finished with your bedroom monitor,” Hudson said from the other side of the door. “And Mallory’ll be here in less than thirty.”
“Thanks.” She reached for the towel hanging over the stall and wrapped it around her body. After she heard the outer door click shut, she wiped steam from the mirror, then moved through the motions of fixing her hair and applying her make-up. All the while, her thoughts strayed to Hudson, to the lies between them. And of course...the DVD. The reason he’d blown back into her life.
Despite his “rules” she dressed in a suit, prepared to go into the station, talk with Jeffries about what had happened with Kyle and hopefully work on the final segment of her series. Of course, after Bob reviewed the DVD.
Her stomach flipped. She didn’t want to watch the DVD again and she wasn’t ready to face Bob yet. She’d hoped the next time they talked, that she’d be armed with information. Like who was Kyle Edwards’s source.
As she exited the bedroom, steam from the guest bathroom lingered in the hallway. A quick glance to the right, and she noticed a small suitcase sitting in the guest bedroom which actually held no bed, but served as her personal gym. She remembered Hudson mentioning last night that he’d been up since four in the morning and that he’d just spent a month in Detroit. He must have gone from the airport, to CORE, then straight to her place.
She closed the guestroom door, then moved down the hall. As she neared the living room, muffled screams echoed off the vaulted ceilings. Cold dread sprinted up her spine. Even without seeing it, she knew Hudson was watching the DVD. She’d never forget those sounds or the images that had come with them. Avoiding the TV, she glanced around the room and caught Hudson’s concerned gaze. When he jerked his head, she followed the motion then sucked in a breath.
“Bob, hi. I—”
“Turn that thing off,” he ordered Hudson, and the muffled screams abruptly stopped. He wiped a hand over his balding head, then released a deep sigh. “Not the way I wanted to start my morning. Especially after how I ended my night.”
She didn’t miss the irritation in his gaze when he glanced at her. “I told you I had no idea Edwards knew anything about the murders,” she said defensively. “I’m going to visit Jeffries when we’re through here and see if I can get information on Edwards’s source.”
He shook his head and offered her a sympathetic smile. “It won’t matter. I’ve been told—ordered, actually—to no longer speak with you or anyone from your station. Sorry, kiddo, you’ve been blackballed.” He blew out a deep breath. “I shouldn’t even be here right now.”
Reeling in her shock, she gripped the back of the couch. “Let me talk to your captain. Maybe if I explain…You know I’d never betray—”
“I knew that last night even when I was poppin’ off on you. Sorry about that by the way. I knew how things would end up going down and I was angry.” His expression somber, Bob pulled his keys from his pocket. “I know you had nothing to do with any of this, but Edwards revealed information that could compromise my case and he works with you. On top of that, he leaked the name of the victim before we even had a chance to notify her family. This has become a PR nightmare.” He moved toward the door. “I’ve gotta go.”
“What about the DVD? You obviously haven’t finished watching it. Did Hudson tell you what was on the rest?”
“He did, but you have no body. Hell, you don’t even know if this guy’s dead.” Thumbing toward the TV he looked to Hudson. “I can take a copy and have it checked, but I’m guessing you’ve already got someone at CORE working on it. Better equipment, too.”
“We do.”
“Well, if it turns out this thing isn’t a hoax, and you find a dead body, you know the drill.”
“A hoax,” she echoed with shock. “I can’t believe you’d even think…What about the two murdered nurses? Maybe there’s a connection between them and this.” She motioned to the darkened TV.
“We found evidence last night that would suggest otherwise.” Bob held up a hand. “And don’t even bother asking. I’m not supposed to be talking to you, remember?”
“I understand.” She rubbed the tension tightening the back of her neck. “If I find anything out about Edwards’s source, can I at least call you?”
“Have Hudson do it. Maybe after things calm down...” Bob stared at her for a moment, then glanced at Hudson. “Keep her safe.”
The door quietly clicked shut, leaving her alone with Hudson again. “So I guess we’re on our own.” She moved toward the kitchen, furious with Kyle Edwards for screwing up her relationship with the Chicago PD. Before last night, she could have turned to Bob for help. Now she had to depend on Hudson.
“Hey,” Hudson murmured and snagged her hand. “At least you know Mallory isn’t holding anything against you.”
“Right. Just the rest of the CPD. And let’s not forget my station manager, either. He’s going to go ballistic when he finds out we’ve been blackballed.” She tightened her hold on his hand. Not only could Jeffries make her last month at WBDJ-TV a living hell, but more importantly, word of what had happened could reach Network and damage her upcoming contract.
When Hudson threaded their fingers together the rough texture of his hand against hers gave her what his touch had always done in the past. Comfort.
Until she met his gaze.
His eyes burned with deep concern, and her comfort morphed to something stronger, darker. Carnal. Scary.
He still cared.
Jerking free from him and the crazy thought, she tucked her hand in her pocket and moved past him.
“Eden,” he said, and reached for her. “I—”
His cell phone rang. Muttering a curse of some sort, he turned and answered the call. She stared at his broad back, the way his shoulders and arms filled out his black t-shirt. He ran a hand through his long hair, then held it bunched at the base of his neck. “Okay,” he said. “We’ll see you soon.”
When he turned, the concern that had darkened his eyes moments ago gave way to excitement. Forgetting about Bob, Jeffries and Network, she stepped forward and gripped his arm. “What is it?”
“We got ourselves a lead.”
*
Michael Morrison emerged from the century-old farmhouse for the first time in two days. His head ached. Hell, even his teeth ached. His stomach still churned with nausea, but he moved across the field anyway.
The cool wind didn’t help the hangover like he’d hoped. Instead, the morning air stung his sensitive skin and dry eyes, and the chills that had been running through him since he’d awakened only worsened with each step through the frost laden leaves.
The binge had been necessary, though. The bottles of booze—Wild Turkey, Evan Williams, Black Velvet—were used to forget. The blood, the yellow fatty tissue oozing from rubbery flesh. The screams.
Oh God, the screams.
With a shiver, he rested the varmint rifle against his leg, then reached inside his heavy Carhart coat. The rough material snagged against his chapped hand and drew blood from the cracks in his skin. Although he’d worn Latex gloves when he’d performed the surgery, he’d scrubbed his hands raw. No amount of soap or scalding water could seem to make him feel clean again.
He pulled the flask he’d filled before leaving the house and took a long swig.
After what he’d done to the doctor, he’d never be clean again.
But he’d started something. Something he’d planned for too many years to quit. Besides, he’d made a promise. To himself. To Eliza. Those men would pay and the
y would pay dearly, even if their payment shredded the last remnants of the man he’d once been...God fearing. Moral. Just.
Human.
The whiskey burned his throat, but soothed his queasy stomach. Although tempted to drain the flask, he shoved it back inside his coat. He had work to do.
Picking up the varmint rifle, he continued deeper into the one hundred and forty acre property. He paused fifteen minutes later to regain his bearings, then moved northwest. Seventy-five steps would take him to where he’d dumped Dr. Thomas Elliot’s body two nights ago.
Rifle ready, he counted as he walked, shifting his gaze from the ground to the overgrown brush. Although they didn’t come out much during the day, the coyotes were in a bad way at this time of year. Starving, desperate. And he’d given them Thanksgiving dinner, with extra plump breasts.
Fifteen, sixteen, seventeen—
He stopped. Raised his rifle and looked around the area. A squirrel skittered up a tree and he continued moving.
Eighteen, nineteen, twenty, twenty—
Michael turned and retched. The acid from his stomach, mixed with the booze, burned his throat as he vomited on the ground. Drawing in deep, steadying breaths, he wiped his mouth with his sleeve. Once the dizziness passed, and his stomach no longer protested, he looked over his shoulder.
He wouldn’t have to walk the full seventy-five steps. The coyotes had dragged Elliot’s body—or what was left of it—and saved him the trip. He should have expected as much. The coyotes had been feasting for two days. Tearing off bits and pieces of the doctor and scattering the bones. By this time tomorrow, other than the head and maybe a few scraps—inedible for even a starving coyote—he doubted he’d find any other traces of Elliot.
The coyotes wouldn’t have to worry, though. By this time tomorrow he planned to have their next meal prepared.
Then the feeding frenzy would begin again.
Chapter 4
BEFORE HUDSON PARKED the car, Eden had her seatbelt undone and her hand on the door handle. She needed space. She needed a moment alone. Being near Hudson brought back too many memories, and she’d realized she wasn’t as immune to him as she’d hoped.
“You planning on waiting until I stop or are you gonna do some sort of tuck and roll onto the concrete?” he asked as he veered the Trans Am into a parking space.
“It’s already close to ten, and I need to make it into the station before noon.” And being near you is driving me crazy.
“I told you—”
“Yeah, yeah.” She sighed. “Your rules. No workout, no work, no anything else.”
He parked the car, then turned off the ignition. “I didn’t mean that you couldn’t work or anything else. I just...this case is priority.”
Of course.
The sarcastic barb sat at the tip of her tongue.
Hudson’s job, his cases, had always been top priority. Not her, and she’d do well to remember that, even if a small part of her—the part that still held a little something for this ruggedly handsome and somewhat broken warrior—wished otherwise. Men like Hudson would never change, and she wouldn’t expect him to. Her career gave her identity, and she suspected it was the same for him.
Rather than give him the reply she’d wanted and start an argument, she climbed out of the car. Besides, if she said anything, it might come across bitter. Always perceptive when it came to people, Hudson might misconstrue and think she still harbored feelings for him. And while she did—on a very small level—she figured those feelings bent more toward lust than anything else.
Lust she could handle. The anything else? She pulled her purse strap over her shoulder and crossed her arms. She’d do her damnedest to keep reminding herself he’d broken her heart once and avoid anything else that might make her look like a fool a second time around.
When he rounded the car, though, desire pulled deep in her belly. Although she wasn’t a fan of his shaggy hair, the man still did a number on her hormones. His walk alone conjured images of his powerful body above hers. Hovering between her spread thighs. His lips a hair’s breadth from hers.
She cleared her throat and her mind, then looked to his Trans Am. Black, with the classic gold firebird painted on the hood, the car could have been used as a double in the movie Smokey and the Bandit. “What happened to the El Camino you used to drive?” she asked to divert her thoughts from him, his body, his rough calloused hands and all the things she knew he could do with them.
He pointed to the corner of the parking garage. “She’s right over there. I sold her to Rachel, the woman we’re meeting, about six months ago.”
She’d remembered how much he’d loved that car. One warm spring night after they’d made love—sex, they’d had sex—he’d told her that after he’d left the CIA and joined CORE, he’d begun refurbishing the El Camino. Therapy, he’d said, a way to help stop the nightmares.
She hadn’t pried or asked what those nightmares entailed. Based on the scars that had marred his body, she’d figured the emotional and mental scars were probably much worse. Instead of going into reporter mode and drilling him, she’d run her fingers through the soft hair lining his chest and had rested her head on his shoulder. And listened. To how he’d overcome the nightmares, then later, to his breathing as he’d drifted off to sleep.
That night, his trust had opened up a part of her she’d been too afraid to tap, and she’d realized she was half in love with Hudson. Or maybe all the way. But he’d destroyed those feelings along with any fairy tale thoughts of love five days later.
And she hadn’t been in love since. Because of her job, there’d been no time for romance. Occasional, bland sex to scratch the itch, yes. But love? She’d learned her lesson. Once bitten, twice shy.
Still, Hudson had loved that El Camino. Although only a car, it had represented his triumph over emotional pain and had helped him heal.
“How could you sell the car?” she asked, unable to hide the accusation and bitterness from her voice. It bugged the hell out of her that he’d tossed the car aside just as easily as he’d tossed away their relationship.
He shrugged and ran a finger along the Trans Am’s back fender, then turned toward the elevators. “The Camino’s in good hands now. Besides, I get to see her or drive her when I want. Rachel’s good like that.”
A stab of ridiculous jealousy pierced and pricked. They’d been apart for over two years. Almost two and a half, really. She’d been with other men. Okay, two. Of course Hudson would see other women. Still. “Is she now?”
“Jealous?”
Yes, damn it. “Hardly.”
“Well, just in case you are, Rachel’s a good kid and friend. Nothing more.”
She quickened her pace toward the parking garage elevators with sick satisfaction tingling her fingers and toes. “I’ll sleep so much better tonight.”
He half-laughed and pressed the button for the elevator. “I just bet.”
“Mmmm.” She slid her gaze to his strong profile and realized he still hadn’t answered her question. And she wanted an answer. The night he’d told her the story about the El Camino had been one of her favorite memories of them. She’d felt close to him then, and sure that they had something good going. “So why did you sell the car?”
Keeping his gaze on the elevator, he shoved his hands into his pockets. “Enquiring minds want to know?”
“Something like that.”
“You sure?”
He made the sale of the car sound like a dirty, dark secret, which of course made her even more curious. “I wouldn’t have asked.”
“It was time for a new project.”
The elevator dinged and the doors slid open. “The Trans Am?” she asked as she stepped inside. “You remodeled that car, too? When?”
Regret, guilt, and need darkened his eyes as he moved into the elevator. “The day after you left me.”
*
“Wow. Look at me hobnobbing with a celebrity,” Rachel Davis said as she pumped Eden’s hand and flash
ed a big smile. “So refreshing after having to deal with Neanderthals like this guy day in and day out.”
“Ugh,” Hudson grunted, then pretended to take offense. “Someone steal your secret stash of Special K this morning?”
“I couldn’t eat a bowl if you tried to force feed me,” Rachel replied as she led them into CORE’s evidence and evaluation room. State of the art, large TV screens lined one wall, several computers sat stationed in the opposite corner, and an enormous metal table filled the middle of the room. A white erase board took up the other wall and he noticed Rachel’s bubbly scribble, written in black marker, already filled one side of the board.
Thankfully, Eden kept her gaze on everything but him, just as she had during the elevator ride to the fourteenth floor, one of the two floors CORE leased at the Becker Building. Why he’d sabotaged himself and opened his big mouth about the Trans Am he didn’t know. From the moment he’d realized he’d be forced to work with her, he’d told himself he wouldn’t allow old feelings to interfere with the case. Less than twelve hours later, they had anyway. Because they hadn’t disappeared?
He shoved a hand through his hair and focused on Rachel. Terrible with emotions and relationships, he’d rather put his mind to use on what he was good at. Hunting.
“Stuff’s gross anyway,” he said to Rachel. “Oatmeal’s what you need. It’ll put hair on your chest.”
Rachel walked to one of the computers, then hit a key. A TV screen jerked to life showing the victim from the DVD lying on the operating table. “Hair’s not what I need. And if your theory on oatmeal is true, this guy must have eaten it by the barrel.”
She hit a few more keys and the other TVs, one by one, came to life, each with a different still shot. “Okay, show time,” she said, then began punching more buttons. “Watch screen number one.”
He moved closer to the screen and tried to ignore Eden’s coaxing scent as she stood next to him. “What am I looking at besides a foot?”
The keyboard tapped behind him, then the screen enlarged. “See anything interesting?” Rachel asked.
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