Bad Girl

by Blake Crouch

  The bar was even more crowded than before, and she scanned the faces in the smoky lowlight, eyes passing over countless groups that constantly shifted and changed, the occasional loner who spoke to no one, the softer, restrained groups huddled on the perimeter.

  At the furthest corner of the bar, she finally spotted the man she’d come to meet, and her stomach fluttered.

  He sat on a stool, surrounded by a dozen attentive, smiling faces, all listening as he told some story whose words she couldn’t begin to pick out from the impressive noise of all those conversations.

  She stumbled forward into the outskirts of the crowd, then elbowed and squeezed her way through the heart of it, until she stood just outside the group of people orbiting Andrew Thomas.

  His face was fuller than the author photograph on his latest book jacket, and he had a few days’ stubble shadowing his face, but he was undeniably…Andrew.

  She’d never heard his voice, and it didn’t sound anything like she imagined. He was more soft-spoken, and he had an accent. A southern accent. He was talking to a man seated to the right of him, but there were countless people eavesdropping.

  “…so they show me the mock-up for the book cover, and I say, ‘Guys, I know you’ve been really working on this thing, and I appreciate that, but you’ve just put a penis on the cover of my book.”

  The hovering crowd broke into laughter.

  “They said, ‘It’s not a penis, Andy, it’s a minaret.’ I said, ‘It’s flesh colored, it has a shaft, and a bulbous head that appears to be ejaculating the title of my book! Could I please have a new fucking cover without a cock on it?”

  While everyone laughed, Andrew tossed back a shot of something.

  The man standing behind him said, “Another shot, Andrew?”

  “I buy you shots, Billy. Everyone in for a shot of tequila? Bartender! We need…” Andy counted the people around him. “…thirteen shots of Patron Silver.”

  Lucy stood watching him, mesmerized, trying to wrap her brain around the idea that the man whose words and stories she’d fallen in love with at twelve was sitting ten feet away from her, under the same roof, breathing the same air. She’d suspected it before, but last night with Mark Darling confirmed it: Andrew could read her thoughts. She knew he must have killed before because the way he described what it felt like for the killers in his books had been her experience exactly. She wanted to be closer to him, but his crowd had effectively cloistered him off from the rest of the bar.

  Something was coming apart inside of her, this dark, mad need to connect with him, and for a moment the sound of the crowd dropped away. She stared at him, willing his eyes to meet hers, willing them to give her just a single slash of attention as the bartender lined up thirteen shotglasses and began to fill them from two bottles of Patron.

  Andrew never looked at her. She watched the bartender bring the tray of shots, watched Andrew pass them around, heard the shotglasses clinking, heard the “cheers.”

  And she was crying, invisible again.

  She pushed her way back through the crowd into the lobby, moving quickly toward the elevators at the other end and telling herself there was still tomorrow. Andrew’s book signing. Anything could happen.

  When she walked into her hotel room, she stopped, lingering for a moment in the doorway, wondering if by some chance her room service food could have spoiled so quickly. No. It wasn’t that. Of course.

  She opened the bathroom and the waft hit her. Mark did not smell so pretty anymore.

  She grabbed a towel off the rack and closed the door and tucked it against the crack between the door and the carpet. Lucy walked to the bed, kicked off her Chuck T’s, and crawled under the covers. She hit the light. Closed her eyes. Opened them. The stink was still there. Potent and getting stronger every second. She turned on the light and sat up against the headboard. This was bad. First of all, because she couldn’t sleep with the smell, and it would only get worse. But more importantly, when she brought Andrew Thomas up here tomorrow, the smell would totally gross him out, make a bad impression.

  She hopped out of bed and walked into the bathroom. Opened one of the mini-bottles of shampoo and squirted the entire thing over Mark, who now looked purple and swollen. She cranked up the shower. As the hot water beat down on the corpse, she saw that it was leaking, and the heat only made the smell more intense.

  She turned off the shower, grabbed the trashbag out of the waste basket beside the sink, and headed for the door.

  Her bare feet tracked down the carpet toward the alcove where the vending machines hummed. Down in the lobby, a hundred and fifty feet below, she could hear Irish drinking songs lilting up out of the bar.

  She held the plastic bag open while cubes of ice rattled down out of the ice machine. Carried it back to 1428 and into the bathroom, where she plugged the shower drain and dumped the ice over Mark Darling. Her heart sank. The bag of ice had barely covered him. She was going to need a lot more.

  After five trips, the ice was beginning to look substantial piled on top of the dead writer’s chest.

  After ten, she stepped into the shower and spread them around, felt a glimmer of relief as they nearly covered him. One more trip, maybe two, and she’d be done.

  Lucy reached down and grabbed the bag off the floor.

  As she started toward the bathroom door, it swung open.

  She froze.

  A man stood in the threshold, and for a fleeting second, she thought it was Andrew Thomas, but he was wearing different clothes—a white tee-shirt and blue jeans. And his hair was messy, eyes still squinting like he’d just woken up.

  He was staring at the blood spatters on the bathroom floor, and at the trash bag in Lucy’s hand, and now at Lucy.

  It seemed like an entire minute passed without either of them speaking, Lucy thinking about the straight razor in the bedside table drawer. Useless now. Her eyes moved around the bathroom, looking for something with heft, or with an edge.

  It surprised her when the man smiled. He said, “Who you got in there?”

  She didn’t answer. She made fists to stop her hands from shaking but all it did was give her shaking fists.

  “Quite a mess,” he said. “You’ve been a naughty little girl, haven’t you?”

  He took a step forward, glanced in the shower.

  Lucy’s eyes welled up. A sob escaped.

  “No,” the man said. “No, no, no. Don’t cry.”

  He knelt down in front of Lucy.

  The eyes. She was going to have to blind him. Jam her thumbs in as far as they would go and run like hell.

  “You don’t have to be afraid. What’s your name?”

  “Lucy.”

  Her hands had been at her sides. Now, she slowly raised them.

  “Lucy, did that man in the shower hurt you?”

  She nodded.

  “What did he do?”

  “He tried to rape me.”

  She shot her thumbs at his eyes, but he parried right and jumped back, laughing. Lucy ran for the open door. The man grabbed her and pulled her into his chest.

  “Shhh,” he whispered as she struggled. “Don’t scream, Lucy.”

  She kicked her legs and tried to head-butt him as he carried her out of the bathroom into the hotel room and threw her onto the bed.

  “Relax!” he said. “I’m not going to hurt you. I’m not going to get you in trouble.”

  Lucy glared at him.

  “You should be more careful, you know. Ten trips with an ice bucket in the middle of the night is bound to get somebody’s attention. Particularly if their room is next to the ice machine.”

  “Mark was starting to smell.”

  “Yeah, I noticed. But a few cubes of ice isn’t going to fix it. You here by yourself?”

  She nodded.

  “He didn’t try to rape you, did he?”

  She just watched him, said nothing.

  “That’s a nice piece of work in there,” he said. “That man must be double your
weight, at least. How’d you pull it off?”

  “I want you to leave.”

  “Why?”

  “Go!”

  “Lucy, please. I know you don’t know me, but you can trust me.”

  She stuck her chin out and fought back the tremor in her bottom lip.

  “How’d you overpower that man?” he asked again.

  “Straight razor.” She said it proudly.

  “He flailed around a bunch, didn’t he?”

  Lucy couldn’t help but smile. “Yeah. It was funny. But loud and messy, too.”

  The man eased down onto the edge of the bed. “Why’d you kill him?”

  “They wouldn’t give me a room. I drove six hundred miles to come to this conference, and then they wouldn’t even give me a room.”

  “’Cause of your age.”

  “Yeah.”

  “You ever done anything like this before, Lucy?”

  She shook her head. “But I thought about it a lot.”

  “Wait. This was your first time?” She nodded. The man got a big grin on his face. “Well, how was it for you?”

  “Amazing.”

  “Yeah?”

  “The blood was beautiful. So warm. I took my clothes off and rolled around in it.”

  The man’s eyes sparkled. “I remember mine like it was yesterday. I’d give anything to go back and do it again for the first time.” He reached his hand out. “I’m Orson.”

  She shook it.

  He looked around the room. “So our friend in the shower. Who is he?”

  “A writer.”

  “Oh, shit. What’s his name?”

  “Mark Darling.”

  “Never heard of him.”

  She pointed to the box of books. “Those are his books over there.”

  Orson went over to the box and lifted a book, flipped through it, glanced at the back. “This is his first novel. That’s good.”

  “Why?”

  “No one here probably knows who he is, so he won’t be missed. Come on, where’s your stuff?”

  “Over there. Why?”

  “Pack it up. You’re coming with me.”

  “No.”

  “You can’t stay in here, Lucy.”

  “I’m not leaving with you.”

  “Listen. Did you have fun cutting Mark’s throat, rolling around in his blood?”

  “Yeah.”

  “You want to have the opportunity to do it again?”

  “Yeah.”

  “Then you better listen to me. If you get caught in this hotel room with that dead man, they’re going to lock you up.”

  “But I’m not even eighteen.”

  Orson walked over to the side of the bed and sat down next to Lucy. “Look at me.” She stared up at him. “I’ve been doing this a lot longer than you. If you were smart, you’d do what I say, maybe even learn a little something.”

  “How many people have you killed?”

  “Enough to know we need to get out of this room right now.”

  She followed Orson down the hallway to the first room past the ice machine.

  “It’s a two-room suite,” he said as he opened the door and let her in. “My friend’s next door sleeping, so let’s not disturb him. I think this sofa folds out into a bed.”

  She dropped her guitar case on the floor and helped Orson unfold the sofa sleeper. Orson swiped a blanket from his bed and tossed it to Lucy.

  “Now I have to be honest,” he said. “I’m a little worried you might want to cut my throat while I’m sleeping.”

  “I won’t,” she said.

  “Why don’t you give me your straight razor just to be on the safe side.”

  “You don’t believe me?”

  “I don’t know you, Lucy.”

  She lay awake for a long time thinking how tomorrow was the last day of the conference, and in some ways, the first day of the rest of her life. She wasn’t going home. She knew that. After Darling, how could she go back to geometry and biology and being a teenage girl in a suburban home? She could feel this stunning blackness flooding into her. It was filling her up so fast she could barely sleep, barely keep her eyes closed. She needed to see more blood. And soon.

  She never slept. When the light began to push through the curtains, she sat up on the sofa and looked over at Orson on the bed, watching the man’s chest rise and fall, thinking how he’d been smart to take the razor from her. Nothing would’ve made her happier than to slide the blade across his neck, maybe even taste his blood, let it run down her throat. She should’ve tasted Darling’s. She imagined it would be so rich and even better than the wine her mother sometimes let her sip. Oh, well. Next time.

  She rode down in the elevator with Orson and his friend, Luther, a tall, pale-faced man with long, black hair who was seriously creeping her out. He kept watching her with his big black eyes that held such an intensity she wasn’t sure she ever wanted to see them alone.

  They ate breakfast downstairs, the three of them sitting at a table in a corner, and the fourth time she caught him staring at her, Lucy couldn’t help herself.

  “Take a picture, dude. It’ll last longer.”

  Orson looked up from his bacon and eggs. “What’s wrong?”

  “Why does your friend keep staring at me like that? It’s weird.”

  Orson grinned and glanced at Luther, then back at Lucy. He leaned toward her and whispered. “He wants to kill you, Lucy.”

  She felt a coldness spill inside her gut.

  “Why?”

  “It’s what he does. He can’t help himself. He’s sitting there imagining draining you in our bathtub. But don’t worry. I’ve told him you’re off-limits. Told him you might even be one of us.”

  She glared at Luther. “You don’t scare me.”

  He said. “You look like you’re scared, little girl.”

  “Oh, you can read my thoughts? Well, if you could, you’d know I’m thinking how pretty your dark blood would look running out of your snow-white neck.”

  Orson laughed out loud. “Isn’t she great?”

  Lucy hadn’t averted her eyes from Luther, soaking in the psychotic malevolence.

  “All right, listen,” Orson said. “I think we’re all a little hard-up for some fun. I had an idea while I was falling asleep last night. Darling’s room is already a wreck. Why don’t we all, together, find someone to take there this afternoon?”

  Lucy’s eyes lit up. “Really?”

  “Yeah, we’ll go right after Andrew Thomas’s speech.” Orson smiled. “I wouldn’t want to miss that.” He looked at Luther. “What do you think? You brought your toolbox, right?”

  Luther smiled, and it was the scariest thing Lucy had ever seen.

  For some reason, Orson didn’t want to sit on the front row for Andrew Thomas’s speech, so Lucy sat by herself, her heart pumping as the man walked up onto the stage.

  She stood with the rest of the crowd and applauded the guest of honor, then sat with rapt attention as Andrew read an excerpt from a work in progress, one of the most gruesome and awesome things Lucy had ever heard.

  The book was called The Passenger, a horror novel about an unnamed, psychopathic hitchhiker who travels around the country getting free rides from people, then robbing and killing them most horribly. In the section Andrew read, the Passenger ties a man to the back of his own car and drags him down the highway for five miles.

  The signing line stretched all the way around the bookroom. The eight books in Lucy’s arms were heavy, and by the time she got close to the table, her muscles were beginning to cramp.

  She couldn’t take her eyes off of Andrew as he signed books and made small talk with the fans. When it was finally her turn, she set her stack of books on the table and smiled and reached out her hand.

  “Mr. Thomas, I am your biggest fan. I’ve read everything you ever wrote. I’m Lucy. I love what you read today. Will you sign my books?”

  He shook her hand and smiled. “Of course.”

  “Um
, I’m sorry, Mr. Thomas can only sign three books.” Lucy looked at the woman standing behind the writer, a large woman in a horrific dress who looked like a librarian.

  “But I want all of them signed.”

  The woman pursed her lips. “If everyone brought eight books, we’d be here until Christmas.”

  “But everyone didn’t bring eight books. Most only brought one.”

  “Pick three. You’re holding up the line.”

  Lucy glanced down at Andrew, flashed her puppy dog eyes.

  “Margie, I think it’s okay to make one exception,” he said, grabbing the top book on Lucy’s pile and opening it to the cover page. As he looked down to sign, Lucy stuck her tongue out at Margie.

  “So are you in high school, Lucy?” he asked as he went through the books.

  “I’m in 10th grade.”

  “Excellent. I think you might be the youngest person here.”

  “When is The Passenger coming out?” she asked.

  “Probably next year.”

  “I can’t wait to read it.” As he signed the last book, she said, “Look, would you maybe like to get a cup of coffee after this? I’d just love to talk with you a little more.”

  He smiled and pushed her stack of books toward her. “I’d love to Lucy, but I’m actually flying back to North Carolina in about two hours.”

  “Oh.”

  “It was great to meet you.”

  Lucy lifted her stack of books and headed out of the book room. She might have cried if she didn’t have something else to look forward to.

  “What about her?” Lucy said.

  “No, I know who that is,” Orson said. “She’s a pretty well-known cozy writer. She’d never go for it.”

  Lucy was sitting between Orson and Luther on a sofa at the edge of the hotel bar, the conference booklet open across her lap. Every writer in attendance was pictured in the booklet, along with a brief bio. It made the hunting so much easier.

  “I see a possibility,” Luther said.

  “Where?”

  “Guy standing alone at the corner of the bar, looking around, talking to nobody.”