by Lara Adrian
The guilt of that pressed down on him as he gathered Tavia into his embrace and rocked her as she cried against his chest. “None of my life before was true,” she said, her voice thick and choked with tears. “I thought I could deal with it, but it hurts so much. Everyone I knew was lying to me. Using me. All my life, they were betraying me.”
Chase caressed her head and back, smoothed his rough palm over the tangled silk of her hair. “You’ll be okay,” he told her. “You’re strong, Tavia. You’ll come through this, I have no doubt. And there are people among the Breed who can help you.”
Not him, surely. He’d done enough damage where she was concerned. And even though it felt good to hold her, felt somehow comforting to feel her arms wrapped around him as she wept, the embers of his hunger kindled just below the surface of his calm. It was a struggle to tamp it down, to curb the fevered glow of his irises as Tavia lifted her head to meet his gaze.
“You want to know the irony in all of this?” She bit off a strangled sigh. “I loved her—the Minion that Dragos assigned to be my family. I loved her like she was my mother. I even loved Dr. Lewis. They were the two people I trusted most in this world, the only people who really knew me. I thought they were protecting me, making me better.” Another sob tore loose from her throat, raw with pain. “They would have killed me if Dragos wanted them to. I didn’t mean a thing to either one of them. Not to anyone. That hurts even more than the shock of learning what I really am.”
Seeing her in such anguish, Chase wanted to deal a little death of his own. The two Minions who’d betrayed her were already gone, but Dragos still had a brutal end coming to him. More than anything, Chase wanted to be the one to deliver it—prolonged and bloody, the more violent the better.
But he was careful to keep his hands tender as he brushed the pad of his thumb over a smear of soot that rode the delicate angle of her cheek. He swept the marks away and couldn’t resist touching his lips to the furrowed center of her brow. The smoky tang of the clinic explosion clung to her skin and hair. Dried blood from the battle with Dragos’s Hunter stained her clothes and dotted her face in dark, rusty speckles.
“Come here,” he whispered, moving her out of his arms and helping her to her feet.
He took her hand and led her into the warmth of the adjacent bathroom. Steam wafted over the top of the long glass panels of the running shower. The silvery mist wreathed Tavia as she stood before him, silent, unresisting, while he carefully peeled her soiled clothing from her body.
The dermaglyphs that painted her torso, from the base of her throat to the dusky tips of her breasts and lower, down along the smooth plane of her belly and onto her bare thighs, flickered with the faintest blush of color.
Color that darkened as his eyes roamed over her in undeniable admiration.
Her hand trembled only a little as she reached out to cup her palm along the side of his jaw. Eyes the color of new leaves grew stormy and heavy-lidded as she stepped toward him and pressed her parted lips to his mouth.
Chase kissed her, calling upon every ounce of self-control to keep his mouth tender on hers despite the flare of desire that arced through his veins like lightning. It took even more effort to raise his hands between them and ease her away from his hardening body.
But this wasn’t about his own need. He’d come to her only out of concern; if he stayed here any longer, it would be only to offer comfort, not to take anything more from her than he already had.
He slid open the shower door and motioned for her to step inside. He followed a moment after her, stripping hastily out of his own clothes, then palming the glass panel shut behind him.
He washed her hair and body with tender, unhurried care. Soon the blood and ash of the violent hours earlier that night were sluiced away, leaving only Tavia’s naked beauty before him. Her glyphs stirred with color, the dark indigo, wine, and gold a more delicate palette than the one playing out over Chase’s own nude skin. His mouth was full of his elongated fangs and a need that made his throat feel desert dry. He clamped his jaw tight to keep her from seeing just how badly he hungered for her.
Not that she could overlook the thick upward jut of his cock. The painfully obvious evidence of his desire filled the scant space between them, growing harder by the moment each time Tavia’s wet, satiny skin brushed against him.
Her palm rested lightly on his chest. He could feel the drum of her pulse beating in her fingertips. He could hear it pounding in his ears, a low throb running undercurrent to the soft, sibilant hiss of the shower.
She wanted him too.
Despite the anguish that had all but wrecked her, desire put an amber spark in her green eyes. Her pupils narrowed, intensifying the fiery heat of her irises. Her palm skated in a slick path down the front of him, over his many healing cuts and contusions, injuries he barely noticed under the warm touch of her hand. But she noticed them. He saw her wince as she found the worst of them, heard her soft intake of breath as she studied the most recent wound—the one he’d taken at the end of the Hunter’s blade.
“Does it hurt?” Her voice was velvety rough, the pearly tips of her fangs glinting as she spoke.
Chase shook his head, unable to find his voice as she continued her tactile exploration of his body. He didn’t know whether to will her away or pray she’d keep going. His cock answered for him, jerking with eager anticipation as her wet fingers trailed lower, toward his groin.
Her name was a curse grated through his teeth and fangs as she trailed her fingers down his shaft and stroked the length of him. His body tensed under the hot spray of the shower, blood racing molten through his veins. He watched her soft, pale hand skate lightly over his hard flesh, agonizing in the teasing pleasure of it. Dying for her to take him fully in hand. Knowing he should stop her before he let things go too far again.
If he’d had even a meager scrap of honor in him, he’d have done just that.
He had a hundred reasons to simply turn and walk away as he’d intended all along. A hundred more reasons why a female as rare and unique, as miraculous, as Tavia deserved a better male—hell, any other male—than him. She deserved someone good and true, someone worthy, to usher her into the life that awaited her as one of the Breed.
But God help him, as he looked at her now, as he felt her touch ignite a heat all the way into his marrow, Chase felt a surge of possessiveness so complete and powerful, it left him shaking.
He didn’t want to crave her. Not on top of his other, hellish addictions. Blood and violence had nearly destroyed him. Looking at Tavia as she was now, naked and dripping under the shower, so lovely in her transformation from beautiful woman to glorious Breed female, Chase could hardly imagine a more consuming want than what he felt when he was near her.
But as fevered as that need was, he touched her with utmost tenderness. One hand slipping beneath the wet curtain of her hair, he cupped her nape and gently drew her close. He kissed her, only the barest, briefest brushing of his lips against hers.
“The way we came together before,” he rasped thickly, then bit off a harsh curse. “It was your first time. You deserved something better. I had no right—”
She silenced him with another kiss, more demanding than his had been. When she lifted her head to look up at him, there was no regret in her fiery eyes. Only need. Open and honest, shameless need. “You gave me exactly what I wanted.”
“Did I?” He touched her face and hair, marveling at how she could look so damned sure of herself and yet so heartbreakingly innocent at the same time. “What about now?”
Her eyes smoldered even brighter. Behind her parted lips, her fangs were even longer now, sharper. Exquisite white points that made the feral vampire in him snap at its feeble tether.
She stepped in close, the heat of her body touching his skin like an open flame. Her palm was between them, soft fingers trailing fire along his abdomen, then down toward his arousal. Her gaze on his, Tavia wrapped her hand around the girth of his shaft and stroked it from
base to tip and back again.
Chase couldn’t bite back the growl of approval that erupted from his throat.
He killed the water and opened the shower door.
Then he scooped Tavia up into his arms and carried her out to the bedroom in a few long strides.
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
DESPITE HIS BODY pulsing with obvious need, he placed her down on the bed as if he thought she were made of glass.
His transformed eyes were throwing off fire, heating her skin as he let his gaze roam over her face. When he spoke, his voice was barely more than a growl. “This time, we’re taking it slow.” He prowled up onto the mattress with her, crouched on all fours above her like a big cat. “This time, I want to give you what you want … but not until you’re screaming for it.”
Oh, God.
The anticipation of what he might mean was nearly enough to undo her. She lay back and let him touch her, his fingertips skating from her forehead, cheek, and chin, to the tender hollow at the base of her throat, where her pulse hammered in rapid beats. He took his time studying her, tracing the flaring, arching tangle of color on her skin.
“So beautiful,” he murmured thickly. “How could you be led to think you were anything less than perfect? I could kill Dragos for that reason alone.”
She heard the restrained fury in his voice, felt it in the hard pound of his pulse, which all but filled her ears, filled her senses. But his touch was gentle, reverent. So very careful.
The first brush of his lips across hers was warm and indulgent, a lazy crawl that sucked all the breath from her lungs. His tongue slipped inside, sweeping between her teeth before testing the sharp tips of her fangs. True to his word, he took the kiss slowly, not breaking contact until she was melting beneath him, awash in the pleasure of his mouth on hers.
“You taste like heaven,” he drawled against her parted lips. “So pure and clean and bright. God, what you do to me.”
She couldn’t speak, could only fist her hands in the quilted coverlet on the bed and hold on as his kiss traveled lower. His lips and tongue were moist and hot on her breasts, teeth and fangs grazing her pebbled nipples as he moved down her body in a maddening, pleasurable path.
He kissed her belly and tongued the indentation of her navel, and then his mouth was drifting over the flare of her hip bone and down onto the tender flesh of her inner thigh. She moaned as his warm breath fanned her sensitive skin. Gasped as his slick tongue traced the cleft of her body. Shuddered on an indrawn cry as he began to suckle the tight bud of her sex, kissing her with the same slow, sensual attention he’d lavished on her mouth.
“Feels so good,” she whispered, her fangs sharp and cool, the long points filling her mouth.
Tavia arched into his kiss, her hips moving of their own accord, every inch of her alive and on fire, his to command. She couldn’t fight the pleasure he stoked within her, could only let herself go as he brought her to the sheerest height of sensation, then tumbled her over the edge.
Her orgasm splintered at her core, spreading its light into her limbs like warm, sun-spangled rain. She let it carry her away, leaving all the hurt and ugliness of the past twenty-four hours long behind her as Chase’s mouth continued its blissful assault on her senses.
She was still panting, her body still reverberating with pleasure, as he climbed onto her with hungry eyes. His lips were glossy with her juices, sweet with the taste of her own climax as he caught her mouth in a deep, bone-melting kiss. Their fangs tangled and clashed, the scrape of their razored tips an unexpectedly erotic sensation.
Tavia’s body was molten, needful for more of him even before the thrumming heat of her release had yet to ebb. She clawed at his back and shoulders as he kissed her, feeling the swell of another climax building. Its deep ache made something animal rouse within her. She nipped at his lower lip, a bite nearly hard enough to draw blood. Her voice felt like ash in her throat, hardly recognizable to her own ears. “I want you inside me.”
His answering growl was a rumble that vibrated in her bones. “Patience,” he rasped, his glowing eyes flashing with dark amusement. “I haven’t showed you all the other ways I can make you come.”
He caught her lips in another long kiss. This time, his tongue went deep, filling her mouth as he reached down between them and inserted his fingers into the tight sheath of her sex. He probed her in rhythm with his kiss, pushing deep into her core while his hot mouth plundered her from above. Her body clenched around him, trying to hold him inside even as the friction of his movement made her thrust and mewl with pleasure.
“You’re so wet,” he murmured hotly. “You feel like silk. So hot and tight around my fingers. I could come just feeling you like this.”
He moved his hips against the side of her thigh, the thick ridge of his erection as hard as steel but smooth as velvet. She wanted to feel him filling her, desire for him making everything female inside her coil with greedy hunger. She exhaled a wordless protest as he withdrew his touch, but then the slick pressure of his fingertips met her clitoris and her cry became a choked gasp, sensation jolting through her. He stroked and rubbed the sensitive little knot, swirling his thumb over it as his fingers delved back into her cleft. Her climax came swiftly, ripple after ripple, her sheath contracting in tiny waves. Her voice was ragged, torn from her on a shout of release that she tried to muffle in the strong curve of his neck.
With a primal-sounding snarl, he brought his hips down over hers and lowered himself until his thick shaft rested between her wet thighs. Without entering her, he began a slow melding of their bodies, his cock nestled in the cleft of her core. He moved against her, lifting his body weight, then easing it down again, teasing her with the hot, wet promise of penetration. She was already ripe with arousal; a few torturous strokes was all it took before she was catapulted into yet another shattering release.
“Christ, you are lovely like this, Tavia.” He watched her come, his gaze searing and rapt, the amber glow of his eyes bathing her face and skin in delicious heat. His own desire flared in dark hues over the beautiful pattern of his dermaglyphs, a churning storm of color that painted his strong arms and torso in tempestuous burgundy, gold, and indigo. He shuddered with his next slow thrust, which set the head of his penis against the mouth of her womb. “Ah, fuck. I can’t wait any longer. I have to be in you.”
He pushed inside on a low growl, seating himself to the hilt.
With a hard grimace, he rocked into her, riding her hard. She couldn’t stop the rising tide of sensation that washed over her with every deep thrust of his body. No more than she could stop the primal urge that made her rise up to take the hard bulk of his shoulder between her teeth. Release poured through her as she bit down on him, scoring his skin with her fangs.
He grunted through his teeth. His frenzied tempo became more fierce, more animal, with every stroke. She could feel him struggle against his own nature. She felt the ravenous thirst that lived inside him and the anguish it caused him to purposely deny it. He suffered in that denial, a brutal, soul-shredding ache.
In the hard, heavy drum of his pulse, she could sense the primal urge that compelled him to bite her in that moment—to drink from her and mark her as his own.
But he didn’t do that.
Instead, he turned his head away from her, roaring with a mix of anger and relief as he plunged deep and came. His heat spilled into her, his big body shuddering, sheened in clean sweat. Tavia stroked his muscled back as he slowed above her. She studied his face, trying to understand what it was about him that made him seem so open and trustworthy yet so coolly remote. So haunted and detached. So shadowed and alone.
She felt somehow sad for him. Concerned for him. Right. Ridiculous. As if he seemed in need of her sympathy or worry.
But that didn’t stop her from wanting to figure him out, even a little. When nothing in her life made sense anymore, being with Chase somehow did. It wasn’t just the sex, incredible as that was. It was the fact that he was the first pe
rson to ever be honest with her, even if she hadn’t been prepared to hear it. For better or worse, he was her only safe mooring in a world blown so fast and far off course from what she’d known before. What she’d told him at the clinic earlier tonight had been the truth: He was the only friend she had now. And it troubled her to know that he endured a private pain.
They made slow love again on the bed, indulging in each other’s bodies for what seemed like hours. After they had lain there for a long while, Chase’s body draped across her, their legs still joined in a pleasant tangle, Tavia asked the question that echoed in her mind with every hard thump of his heartbeat.
“Why don’t you allow yourself to feed?” An uncomfortable tension crept through him in reply, palpable in the flicker of his pulse and the subtle stillness of his body against hers. “I don’t mean just me,” she said. “You don’t let yourself drink from anyone. How long has it been?”
He shrugged. “A few days, I guess.”
The way his voice sounded, so gravelly and raw, he might have said he’d been starving himself for a year. “How long can you go without?”
“Normally one of my generation can go a week on a single feeding. Sometimes longer.”
“But that’s not normal for you, is it?” She hardly had to ask; his pulse was still pounding through him in a hollow beat, an ache that she felt reverberating in her own veins. “I can sense your hunger, Chase. I’m not sure how, but I can feel it inside me like it’s my own.”
He rolled away from her and swore, low and angry, under his breath. “It’s the bond.” His expression was grave, mouth flattened in a hard line. He raked a rough hand over the top of his head and cursed again, darker this time. “You drank my blood, Tavia. It’s bonded you to me. If you were human, it wouldn’t matter. But you’re not. You’re not only Breed either. The part of you that’s Breedmate is linked to me through my blood, which lives inside you now.”
