by Violet Paige
I tried to wiggle free. “I can’t. We both know that can’t happen.”
He pushed inside me, and I felt how hard he had gotten again. Holy shit. My hips bucked instantly.
“It can. What is it you’re worried about?”
I couldn’t think. I couldn’t remember why I kept telling him no. He struck a sensitive spot and I moaned. “You don’t play fair.”
He grinned wickedly. “Me not play fair? With this body, you have me eating out of your hand, or anywhere else you want.”
I closed my eyes, my head rolling back. It felt so good, but I knew it was wrong. I had signed a contract and declared an oath that I would not have a personal relationship with any patient. His hips ground into mine and I gasped.
“I can’t be your doctor, Wes. I can’t.”
“Then give me Dr. Bad Breath.” His mouth landed on my nipple and he sucked until it was hard and perked in his teeth.
I nodded. That could work. I could pass his case off first thing in the morning. Hand him over to Dr. Evans and forego the doctor-patient relationship conflict. But I felt the queasiness in my stomach. That wasn’t the only problem. It was him. It was the womanizing playboy who had me flipped upside down.
In less than twenty-four hours, he had convinced me to do things I didn’t know I wanted to do. Craved to do. He had seduced me not five steps into his kitchen. He had taken me how he wanted and when he wanted, and I loved it. I loved how he possessed me. I loved how he claimed my body. But it wasn’t real. Wes Blakefield was dangerous. The instant I walked out the door, another woman could walk in, and she’d hear all the same lines and get all the same great, amazing sex. This wasn’t my reality. This was his.
I pushed against his shoulders until he released me. “Something wrong?”
I nodded. “I can’t do this, Wes. None of it.” I pulled the jersey down over my breasts, covering them from his view. The boxers were too far out of reach, and he was still deep inside me.
“I don’t get it.” He leaned in for a kiss, but I turned my head. “We’re still having fun, aren’t we?”
I felt stupid. I was on an emotional roller coaster I shouldn’t be riding. He never promised me anything other than one night. And how was I supposed to know that an epic night of sex would penetrate feelings I didn’t think were possible to touch? He had unlocked Pandora’s box and had no idea.
“Everything’s not about fun.”
“Isn’t it?” The devilish grin was back as his shaft slid inside me again.
My back arched from the intensity. “You can’t do that,” I moaned. “I can’t think.”
“To be honest, this is the first conversation I think I’ve had while I was fucking a woman, but it’s kind of hot.” His thumb pressed on my lip, and I took it in my mouth. “Don’t fight how this feels,” he told me. I bit down on his thumb. “Ow.”
I smiled. “How did that feel?”
“I only have one good hand right now, so don’t bite off my fingers.” He scowled.
“You won’t listen to me. I had to get your attention.” I glared at him.
“You don’t think you have my attention? I’m completely focused on you and only you. I’m focused on kissing you. Touching you. Fucking you. Making you come over and over.”
My breath hitched and my heart pounded. My body was pulling me in two. The brain that told me to run like hell and get out of Wes’s apartment, and the fire raging in my veins that told me to give myself to this man as long as he wanted me. Nothing had ever felt so good as him.
His lips brushed over my mouth. “Tell me you want me, Doc. Tell me you don’t want me to stop.”
It was like lightning starting a fire. There was no way to put it out until I was completely spent in his arms. “I want you, Wes.”
He slammed into me maybe three or four times, I couldn’t count. We were both so high from each other the peak was only vibrations away. I clung to him, spiraling out of control as he sliced through me.
“Fuck,” he growled in my ear.
I looked in his glowing eyes, wishing to hell this was all real, but knowing I was only his Sunday football distraction.
11
Wes
I couldn’t figure her out. But fuck, I’d never tried to figure a woman out before. I was in new territory. Overnight guests never stayed past lunch. It was dinner, the next day.
Lennon sat on the kitchen stool, twirling Chinese noodles on a pair of chopsticks.
“So, I have some questions for you, Mr. Quarterback.”
She was still wearing my jersey and I fucking loved it. Her ass was firm and round. I couldn’t get enough of it. I tried to focus on her words and not all the things I wanted to do to that ass of hers.
“I’m sure you do.” I popped half an eggroll in my mouth.
“Longest relationship?” She poured herself a second glass of wine and waited for my answer.
“Relationship?” I was standing on the other side of the counter, wearing only my jeans. She had convinced me to put my sling back on with another round of ice for my hand.
“Yeah, as in a girlfriend.”
“Oh, right. No, can’t say that I’ve had one of those.”
She sputtered on the wine. “No girlfriend, ever?”
I shook my head. “No, why?”
“Don’t you think that’s a little strange? You’re not sixteen. You’re not in college anymore. You’ve never had a girlfriend? Never lived with someone?”
“Never.”
“Oh God.” She finished off the wine. “Shit.” She slid off the stool.
“What? I’m being honest.”
She spun to face me. “I appreciate that part. But I don’t know what I was thinking. I-I overanalyzed this entire weekend, and now I know I should have done the analyzing and the questioning before I got here, not after, and now I know what an idiot I am for just now asking relationship questions after we’ve slept together five times.”
“Actually six,” I corrected her. The floor had happened after the end of the last game.
“Right, six.” She glared at me. “We slept together six times, and I never bothered to ask if you ever had a girlfriend before or knew the meaning of commitment or dating, or monogamy or….”
“Hold on, hold on.” I walked around from behind the bar. “What’s happening in that pretty head of yours?”
“God, I’m an idiot.”
“I don’t think you’re an idiot, Doc. You’re a brilliant, hot-as-fuck surgeon.”
She pursed her lips, and for a second, I thought she might try to slap me. “Thanks.”
“Come on, we had fun.”
“And that’s it?” she taunted. “I go back to work tomorrow. You go to your game tomorrow night?”
My chest started to pound. I felt an uneasy, sinking pit in my stomach. “Yes.”
She lowered her eyes. “All right. You told me. The only person I have to be mad at is myself.”
“What are you mad about?”
“This,” she screamed. “You and me. What we did. How you made me feel.”
Her shoulders tensed as I moved within inches of her. “I have never asked a woman to stay with me the next day.” I stared into her stormy blue eyes. “I have never left a woman in my apartment while I went to work. I have never rushed home, praying to God she’d still be there when I got back. I’ve never cared if she came more than once. I’ve never given her my jersey to wear. And I sure as hell have never spent twenty-four hours with her.” I tipped her chin upward. “I’ve never spent a night like I did with you. That’s what I’m trying to say.”
Lennon’s arms flew around my neck, and she drew me toward her, kissing me softly, but with more passion than she had before. I breathed against her, drowning in her, falling for this woman I barely knew, but somehow knew was mine.
I pressed my forehead to hers. “I’m not going to lie to you, Doc, I’m a fucking bastard, but please stay. I want you to stay.”
She nodded. “I don’t want to go.”
/> “I have no idea what I’m doing,” I groaned into her ear. The words she said had scared the shit out of me. I didn’t know anything about relationships or commitment. But what I had told her was the damn truth. I wanted her more than I wanted anything, and that meant she had to stay.
“First thing tomorrow, you’re getting a new doctor.”
“All right. If you insist.”
“I do.” Her hands slid over my shoulders.
“And then there’s no conflict with the hospital?”
She smiled. “No conflict.”
“So I can fuck you whenever I want?” I grinned greedily.
“You promise?” Her hands slid between the waistband on my jeans. I felt her fingers rub against my cock.
It was the first time I had promised anything to a woman, but this one was easy. “Oh, I promise.”
12
Lennon
I walked into the hospital the next morning feeling like the world could see it stamped on my forehead: Wes Blakefield’s sex slave. But the nurses acted perfectly normal, and no one even looked up when I entered the doctors’ lounge.
“Good morning, Dr. Ashworth.”
“Oh hi.” Dr. Evans was pouring a cup of coffee. His timing couldn’t be better. “Dr. Evans, I was wondering if I could discuss a patient with you.”
“Sure. But I’m headed into a surgery.”
“Me too,” I added. The older man liked the rest of us to know he was still active on the surgical team.
“Maybe we could walk together,” he suggested.
“Of course.” I hurriedly grabbed my coat and stethoscope and followed him out of the lounge.
“What’s the consultation?” he asked.
“Oh no, it’s not a consult.” I slowed to match his pace. He had a bit of a limp in his walk. “I was wondering if you would take over a case for me. I completed the surgery last week, so it’s only a couple of follow ups.”
“And why do you need me? My schedule is really full. I doubt I have an opening.”
This was the part I had tried to figure out. What was I going to tell any doctor I asked to take Wes as a patient? Please take him, the sex is too amazing for me to keep him on my patient list. Please take him, I’d rather him rip my clothes off than be a respected surgeon. Or maybe I should say please take him, he’s the best fucking rock star in bed and if you don’t take him, I’ll quit my job to be at his beck and call. I closed my eyes, realizing I’d lost all self-restraint and respect. I was basically a quarterback’s whore.
“Well, to be honest, sir, I heard you were a big Wranglers fan and I thought you might want to work with Wes Blakefield.”
The older surgeon stopped in the hallway. “Are you serious?”
I nodded. “I don’t really know that much about football. and I know you do.” I was losing IQ points by the second.
“Do you have any idea what his passing record is? Or his quarterback rating?”
I shook my head. “Not a clue, and that’s why I thought this case might really mean something to you. You could give him the kind of care maybe I can’t.”
Dr. Evans adjusted his glasses. “I see. I see that you’re putting the patient’s interests ahead of your own. And I think that’s the right decision.” He nodded. “Yes, I’d be happy to add him to my list.”
I jumped. “Oh great! I can’t wait to tell him.”
His brow furrowed. “I think I can have my office call and schedule with him.”
I dropped the smile quickly. “Of course. You’re right. Thank you so much, Dr. Evans. I know he’ll be in good hands with you. And if you have any questions about the surgery, please page me.”
“Will do. Thank you for thinking of me, Dr. Ashworth.”
I headed for my OR prep room. “No problem.”
Step one of unchaining myself from my doctor-patient ethics was complete. I reached for the soap and started scrubbing under my nails as I prepared for surgery. This morning, I was reattaching a torn knee ligament.
I wondered how Wes’s morning was going with the team. He had mumbled something this morning about trying to get plays changed. I still didn’t know what that meant. With only one crash course in football and most of that spent naked on the couch, I wasn’t sure I had retained much of what he had said.
I began scrubbing my other hand, careful to trace all the creases in my skin.
I had spent two nights in Wes’s apartment. Of course, that meant I had to get up extra early to make it home and pick up clothes for work, but it was worth it. I was scared to death. Scared to be with him. Scared to not be with him. Scared that it seemed we were somehow igniting something between each other that could blow up in our faces.
But I couldn’t stop myself.
“Dr. Ashworth, the patient is prepped.” One of the nurses spoke to me through the speaker system.
I hit the button with my elbow. “I’m headed in.”
I pictured Wes one more time, then pulled down the shade, dividing him from the rest of my thoughts. When I was in the OR, I had to be the one in control. Not him. He could have that privilege in bed. Not here. Not at work.
I tossed my keys on the counter and heated up a bowl of soup for dinner. I should have brought some of the leftover Chinese food from Wes’s, but I was in a hurry this morning to make it to work on time.
I ate quickly, then walked to the shower, steeping myself in steam and heat. The first surgery hadn’t gone smoothly, and the ligament repair took an hour longer than I thought it would. After that, I had a surgery canceled because a patient refused to come to the hospital, and my third surgery of the day ended up being assisted by the head of my department, so I basically sat back and watched him do everything.
I was tired and annoyed, but the hot water felt good. I dried off with a towel and ran when I heard my phone buzz.
“Hello?”
“Hey, Doc.”
I immediately blushed. “Hey.”
“Are you going to watch the game tonight?” he asked.
“I hadn’t really thought about it.”
“Are you telling me I haven’t converted you to a football fan yet?”
“No, I’m not saying that.” I giggled. He sure had one convincing way to make a woman want to know everything about the sport.
“Okay, I’ve got to go, but it starts in twenty minutes. I’ll be on the sideline, of course.”
“You better be.” I knew I sounded stern. “Oh wait, before you go. Good news, Dr. Evans said he’ll take you on. You’re no longer my patient.” I held my breath, waiting for what Wes would say. Did things change today? Did it still matter to him?
“That’s the best fucking news I’ve heard.”
“Then, this is still…” I didn’t know how to finish the sentence. We hadn’t put a label on it. There wasn’t a definition for what we had started together. It was new.
“Yes, this is still.” He laughed. “Baby, I’ll call you later. I’ve got to walk out with the team.”
“Good luck. I hope you guys win.”
“Thanks.” He hung up and I hugged the phone to my chest. So this must be what cheerleaders in high school felt like when they pulled for their boyfriends on the field. I was always the one at the library, never at the game. But somehow, I had turned into that girl. The one who was going to watch her man at the football game, even if he was on the sideline tonight.
I poured a glass of wine and turned on the TV. Other than yesterday, this was the first time I was making it a point to watch an AFA game. It was weird. I felt kind of nervous, even though he wasn’t playing. I felt the butterflies lift off when I saw the camera pan to him on the sideline. Damn it. He wasn’t wearing his sling. What the hell? I knew I wasn’t his doctor anymore, but I explicitly explained he had to wear it at all times if he wanted to heal those bones.
I was startled when I saw a beautiful brunette sidle up to him and shove a microphone in his face. She looked like a super model.
“I’m talking with Wes Blake
field, Wranglers star quarterback. Wes, we’ve heard some things about your hand. Can you clear up the rumors that you won’t be playing in the play off games?”
He flashed a gorgeous smile at her and I felt a pit of anger. Was he flirting with the sports reporter?
“Hey, Becky.”
She smiled. “What do you want to tell Wranglers fans?”
“As you can see, no cast, no sling. I’m just taking an extra week for precautionary measures. Wranglers fans don’t need to worry.” He rubbed the side of his sculpted jaw. “Easy sprain to recover from, and I have the best doctor looking after me.”
I eyed him through my TV screen. Easy sprain my ass—I had kicked butt on his surgery. There was nothing easy about putting someone’s hand back together.
“What do you think about Cosech starting tonight?” she asked.
“He’s been working through the drills and running these plays all season. He’s ready. And I’m really happy he gets a Monday night start.”
I rolled my eyes. I knew none of that was true. Wes was pissed the other guy was on the field instead of him, but at the same time, I was amazed at how convincing he could be. Becky sure seemed to believe him.
“Thanks for taking a minute for me, Wes.”
“Anything for you, Becky.” He tapped her on the back before turning toward his team’s bench.
I knew I was shooting daggers at my television screen, and I didn’t care. Professional flirt didn’t even begin to cover what he was. I settled onto the couch to watch the game. The first quarter was about to start.
13
Wes
That damn Becky Haley had to ask about my hand. I hoped without the sling it would look normal. As if the team had intentionally started Cosech to rest me up for the bigger, more important games coming up after the bye week. At least she didn’t ask for details on the sprain.
I grabbed a set of headphones and listened in to the plays coming in from the offensive coordinator in the booth at the top of the stadium. I couldn’t see Ross from down here, but I knew he had eagle eyes on the field. He was plotting the Warriors’ defense before they were.
