Letting Go (Robson Brothers Book 2)

by A. T Brennan

  “Have you ever done sixty-nine?”

  She shook her head, but I could see her eyes darken slightly at the thought.

  “Want to try it?”

  “Oh yeah.” She nodded eagerly and sat up.

  I stripped off my clothes and lay next to her on the bed. I could tell she was a bit nervous so I helped her climb over me and pulled her until she was lined up with my mouth.

  Her hand was gripping my hard length and I had to resist the urge to move my hips and force her hand to stroke me.

  Instead I gripped her hips and pulled her down until her pussy was right at my mouth, and then I touched my tongue to her clit.

  She cried out and sealed her mouth over my cock, her hot mouth encasing my shaft as she sucked me down until I was almost touching the back of her throat. I tried to focus on teasing her with my tongue and ignore how incredible she felt. I didn’t want things to end before they even started.

  I made sure to move my tongue over her clit in a steady, strong rhythm, and after only a moment she began rocking her hips over my face, helping me set the perfect pace for her as she made noises of pleasure around my dick.

  Holy fuck she felt incredible. Every cry or moan made my dick vibrate in her mouth and added a whole new layer of pleasure to the blow job.

  “Oh fuck, oh god!” she screamed as she released my dick and dug her fingers into my thighs. “Oh yes!”

  Her orgasm hit hard and her entire body shuddered over me as she pressed her face into my thigh in an attempt to quiet her screams. I lay there, still gripping her hips as I gave her the chance to enjoy it.

  “Wow.” She crawled off me and shook her head. “That was amazing.”

  “It was.” I nodded. My balls were so tight and my cock was so hard I knew it wouldn’t take long for me to come, I needed to stall her for a second. “Not bad for your first time?”

  “Incredible, just like every other first with you.”

  “How do you want to do this?”

  “Um...”

  “Don’t be shy.” I grinned. “Unless you’re about to ask for something that’s physically impossible, like most of those Kama Sutra poses.”

  “No, this one is normal. I’ve never done it...”

  “Done it...” I prompted.

  “From behind. Like you wrote in your message.”

  “You want it doggy-style?”

  She nodded, her cheeks flushing.

  “We can do that.” I sat up and nodded to the edge of the bed. “It’ll be better if you’re on the bed and I’m standing beside you. I’ll have more leverage.”

  I helped her get in position and stood behind her. I took a moment to admire her perfect ass and wished she wasn’t wearing the shirt. It would have been nice to see all of her.

  “Are you ready?”

  “I’m ready.” She looked over her shoulder at me.

  I put one hand on her ass, just holding her soft skin as I gripped my cock and guided it so it was pressing against her opening. When I felt her body part and the tip of my cock slip inside her I let go of my shaft and moved my hands to her hips.

  She stiffened when I touched her sides and I pulled my hands away.

  “I’m sorry, I—”

  “It’s okay.” I put my hands on her shoulders and gently gripped them. She was short enough I didn’t have to reach and this would actually give me better leverage. “Is here okay?”

  “That’s fine.”

  I gripped her shoulders a little tighter and slid my cock the rest of the way inside her.

  “Oh god,” she moaned when I was fully sheathed in her.

  “Fuck, babe. You feel so good.” I grit my teeth and pulled back until I was almost out of her.

  “Don’t go slow. I need you to fuck me.”

  At her words I let out a deep groan and slammed my cock back inside her. I was careful not to go too hard, but I wasn’t holding back as I began pumping in and out of her tight channel.

  “Oh fuck. Yes Jay!” she cried out, her hands gripping the comforter as she threw her head back. “Harder. Please harder.”

  I obliged, fighting my own orgasm as she continued to cry out and scream for me. I was getting dangerously close, but I wasn’t finishing before her.

  “Shit. Oh god. Yes baby!”

  I was too close. I was going to finish before her. Using every ounce of self-control I had I kept up my punishing pace and reached around her body so I could tease her clit. The moment I touched her she screamed in ecstasy, and a few seconds later she bucked against me as she succumbed to her third orgasm.

  “Oh god.” I gave into mine, closing my eyes and letting my head fall back as all of the pent-up pleasure seemed to explode inside me. It took a moment for my head to clear, and when it did I pulled out of Paige and almost fell on the bed beside her.

  “Oh shit.” I reached down to pull off the condom but realized I wasn’t wearing one. I’d forgotten to put one on.

  “Jay?” Paige rolled over and looked at me. “What’s wrong?”

  “I didn’t wrap it. I’m so sorry. I got caught up and forgot and I’m the world’s biggest asshole. I’m—”

  She cut me off with a kiss and looked into my eyes. “Are you clean?”

  “Yeah. I’ve never gone without before. I was tested at the beginning of the year.”

  “And you were clean then?”

  “I swear. You’re the only one I’ve been with since.”

  “Then it’s okay. I trust you.”

  “But what about birth control? Are you on the pill?”

  “I have an IUD.”

  “Oh. So we’re protected?”

  She nodded, a calm smile on her face.

  “Okay. I’m still sorry.”

  “I know. It was an accident, but it’s not a big deal.” She reached out for me and I gathered her in my arms so I could hold her close.

  “If you’re protected, do you want to stop using them?” I asked tentatively. It was stupid and would probably make her run away from me screaming, but I wanted that little bit of extra intimacy with her. I didn’t want there to be anything between us.

  “Yeah. There’s no reason to keep using them. Like I said, I trust you.”

  Her words made my heart swell slightly and I kissed her temple as I held her tighter. No one had ever said that to me before.

  We lay in bed together, silent and thinking, for almost an hour. I wanted to stay, to crawl into bed with her and fall asleep with her nestled in my arms, but she didn’t invite me and I didn’t offer.

  I’d already crossed so many lines with her, especially not using protection, I couldn’t cross another one. We were friends who fucked, sleeping in the same bed brought that to a whole new level and I didn’t want to admit that’s what I wanted from her. I wanted more than to be her buddy who gave her orgasms, but that’s what we’d agreed to so that’s what I was sticking with.

  “I should go.” I kissed her forehead and sat up. It was then I realized I hadn’t kissed her lips since we left the shop.

  That wasn’t right, and I leaned toward her to fix it. Her kiss was soft and gentle and perfect. There was no urgency or need to it, just tenderness and intimacy. It was tame as hell but it rocked me all the way down to the bottom of my feet.

  “I have to do labs tomorrow.” I searched out my missing clothes and started to pull them on.

  “I have an article to write. It’s worth twenty percent of my grade and I’ve been putting it off.” She sighed. “I’m not looking forward to trying to crank it out. It’s going to take me the rest of the weekend to finish it and then I have another one in a different class I have to start researching.”

  “So you’ll be busy until class on Monday?”

  “Probably.”

  “Okay. Well, I’ll see you then.” I made sure I had everything and leaned over to give her one last kiss. “I’ll make sure to lock the door on the way out.”

  “Thanks.” She smiled and put her chin on her hands as she watched me leav
e.

  When I was out the door I sighed and headed toward the main door. As I’d been about to leave her room I’d almost told her I loved her.

  I don’t know why, but the words had almost slipped out and I’d barely managed to stop myself. I’d known I was falling for her, but now it looked like I was full on in love with her, and she was my fuck buddy.

  PAIGE

  “How was girl’s night?” I asked Jules when she came out of her room in the afternoon to get a cup of coffee.

  I’d taken a shower and gone to bed after Jay had left and hadn’t heard her come in.

  “It was fun. I drank too much.”

  I laughed and nodded to the pot. “There’s enough for a cup left.”

  “You are a saint.” She filled her oversized mug and came to sit with me at the table. “So, how was your ‘non-date’?”

  “It was fun.” I held up my wrist. “I got a tattoo.”

  Jules almost spit out her coffee and immediately started coughing.

  “What?” I handed her a napkin and waited until she could breathe again.

  “Just the way you said it. Like ‘I got a tattoo, no big deal’. You might as well have said ‘it’s raining out’.”

  I grinned and shook my head. “It’s not a big deal. I’ve always wanted one and Jay went to get one so I did it at the same time.”

  “Did he pressure you to get it?” she asked as she held out her hand for my wrist. “Um, it’s nice?”

  “He was as surprised as you are.” I laughed and shifted so she could read it the right way. “Now check it out.”

  “That’s really cool, and sweet. Alex is going to love it.”

  “He’ll probably want his own.” I grinned. “My parents are going to flip. Especially since it’s in such an obvious place.”

  “It’s your body. You’re an adult. And it’s not like you tattooed a birdcage on your face.”

  “Now that’s a funny tattoo.”

  “What about the rest of your date?”

  “We went to an arcade, he kicked my ass every game. Then we did the tattoos and came here.”

  “And how was here?” she asked with a sly grin.

  “Amazing. He’s so attentive. We tried some new things for me.”

  “Like what?”

  “Sixty-nine.”

  “Always a good time if the guy holds up his end of the bargain.” She grinned. “Anything else?”

  “Doggy-style.”

  “Let me guess, he wanted to.”

  “I did.” I shook my head. “It was amazing.”

  “There’s something you’re not telling me.”

  “He forgot to use a condom.”

  “What?” She stared at me in shock. “Like legitimately forgot or just didn’t bother.”

  “Legitimately forgot.”

  “How do you feel about that?”

  “I honestly don’t mind. I have an IUD, he told me he’s clean—”

  “You believe him?”

  “I do.”

  “One time isn’t such a big deal—wait, what’s that look for.”

  “We kind of decided to stop using them.”

  “Paige, sweetie.” Jules shook her head. “You’re setting yourself up to be hurt.”

  “You think so?”

  “You have feelings for him. It’s obvious you’re falling for him and now you’re going bareback? That creates intimacy. It’s going to crush you when you realize you’re in love with your fuck buddy and he’s not in love with you.”

  “I’m not in love with him.”

  “You are. I can see it every time you talk about him, when you think about him. You’re in love with him.”

  She was right. I knew she was right. I’d fallen in love with Jay and he only thought of me as a friend.

  “I’m not going to tell you to break this off or anything, but try treating it more like it’s supposed to be. You said the sex was for stress relief. Maybe try leaving the non-dates out of it for a bit so you have a chance to process your feelings and see if it’s worth it to continue this way.”

  I thought about what she’d suggested and she was right. I needed to emotionally distance myself from Jay otherwise I would end up with my heart broken and that was the last thing I needed right now.

  * * * * *

  Paige: I hate writing articles

  Jay: sucks to be a journalism major then

  Paige: it really does. Tell me a secret

  Jay: all I’ve eaten today is pizza pockets and water

  Paige: lol

  Jay: your turn. You tell me a secret

  Paige: I was looking at that picture you sent me before I called you ;)

  Jay: and what were you thinking about?

  Paige: how stressed I am and how I could use a little relief

  Jay: are you alone?

  Paige: for a bit. Want to come over?

  Jay: be there in twenty. Put on a sexy pair of shoes so I can show you exactly what I’ve been dreaming of doing to you

  Paige: done. See you soon. The door will be unlocked and I’ll be waiting for you on my bed. I might just start without you if you take too long...

  Jay: you’re killing me

  Paige: ;)

  I tossed my phone aside and went to my closet to find my sexiest pair of shoes. It was true I was bored and horny, but I’d reached out to Jay instead of doing something about it solo because I was trying to do what Jules had suggested.

  I’d asked him over for sex, which is what we’d originally agreed to. It was step one in guarding my heart.

  Jay was true to his word and was in my bedroom twenty minutes after his last text. I was wearing nothing but a pair of silver stiletto sandals and a long black tank top.

  He didn’t even pause. He stripped off his clothes and climbed onto the bed with me. His lips crushed mine with his kiss as his hands ran over my body.

  When I felt like my head was spinning and I was running out of air he pulled away and moved to kneel between my legs. He lifted my left leg and ran his tongue up the skin of my thigh and then ran his hands over the smooth material of my sandal.

  With an animalistic growl he flipped me over and set me on all fours. I thought he was going to enter me and go to town, but he surprised me by pushing my shoulders down so my chest was on the bed and my ass was up and on full display. Before I could feel uncomfortable his mouth was on me and I almost screamed in pleasure.

  I’d never imagined getting oral in this position could feel so good, and he had me coming in no time. Before I could even get my head back he was kneeling behind me and slamming his cock inside me, fucking me so hard I thought he was going to put me through the headboard. I came again, and he used his hand to get me off a third time.

  I thought that last orgasm was going to be my undoing. All coordination and thought process left me and I was barely aware of him slamming into me a final time before falling on my back with a grunt and a strangled cry.

  I lay beneath him. He’d caught some of his weight on his arms so he wasn’t crushing me, and the contact was nice.

  “Holy shit.” He rolled off me, pulling my body along with his as he did.

  “Yeah. Holy shit.” I nodded and lay my head on his strong chest.

  “So, still stressed out?”

  “I feel like I’m made of Jell-O.” I sighed and pulled in a deep breath.

  “Yeah, not much of me is working right now either.” He kissed the top of my head and I felt his chest move, almost like he was laughing.

  “What is it?” I looked up at him.

  “I left in such a hurry I don’t think I locked the door.”

  “Is Jax home?”

  “Hopefully he gets there soon.”

  I laughed and snuggled against him again. “Did you at least close it?”

  “Pretty sure I did. Not one hundred percent, but pretty sure.”

  “I’m glad you didn’t take any longer. I was going crazy waiting for you.”

  “Oh yeah? Did you star
t without me?”

  “Almost. I was seconds away.”

  “That’s really fucking hot.”

  “You’d like to see me masturbate?” I blushed at the thought. I remembered watching him that night when we’d first started this and it had been extremely hot for me.

  “Oh yeah.”

  “Well, how about I promise to do it for you one of these days?”

  “Just like you promised me that burlesque dance? I’m still waiting on that one.”

  “Yeah, that would make you run for the hills. It’s better that one stays unfulfilled.”

  “Fine, but I’m cashing this one in.”

  “Deal.”

  We lay silent for a moment. He felt incredible and I didn’t want to move, but I was getting too comfortable and things were starting to stir in my chest again. All I could think about was rolling on top of him and confessing that I loved him. I wanted to say the words, to hear them back and know he was mine and not just someone to get off with.

  I had to get him to leave before I said or did something stupid.

  “So,” I started, “I should probably get back to work.”

  “Oh, okay. I’ve got studying to do too.”

  “This was great, thanks,” I said as he climbed out of my bed and searched for his clothes.

  What the fuck was wrong with me. That was great? Thanks? That was probably the worst thing I could have said to him.

  I was trying to put a little emotional distance between us and go back to what we were supposed to be. In my head that had sounded carefree and happy, but out loud it had come across as dismissive and even cold. I’d thought if I kept the situation casual it would cover up the fact that being with him was changing my life, but it hadn’t.

  All I wanted was to curl up next to him and talk about nothing. I wanted to spend the evening in his arms putting off my work until I had no choice, and then I wanted to study with him just so we could have some extra time together.

  I wanted all of that, but I couldn’t do it now. Right now it would be best if he left and I went back to work.

  “Um, yeah. Great.” He gave me an odd look and I felt my skin flush. “Glad you messaged me.”

  “Me too.”

  “So, you want to do something on Friday?”

  “I can’t. I have to do a group project.”

  “On a Friday?”

  “It’s due Monday and it’s the only day we could get together.”