by Janet Tanner
As for herself, she must push the things of which she had just spoken to the deepest recesses of her mind. For twelve years she had told no one, had not even allowed herself to think about them. She must not break the habit now. What was done was done. It was the only way.
THE WEATHER broke that afternoon with a sky-rending crack of thunder and bright vertical forks of lightning as the day-shift miners from South Hill Pit were making their way home.
Charlotte, standing at the window to watch the storm, saw them turn along the rank, too weary to hurry themselves though the rain was soaking their shirts and dripping from the brims of their cloth caps. She opened the door for them, laughing at their faces, striped black and white where rivets of rain had washed away the coal-dust.
“Come on in, you poor things. You look like drowned rats!”
They came, their boots leaving black-puddles on the strip of lino that covered the scullery floor a small, compactly-built man of around forty, and two youths whose bright hair was thick with coal-dust.
Jim was seventeen, the oldest of the family, and the image of his father. Fred, two years younger, was the quiet one. Nothing ever perturbed him, and it showed in the set of his face.
“Where’s Ted?” Charlotte asked as they took off their caps. “Hadn’t he finished when you came up?”
James Hall unbuttoned his shirt with wet, grimy hands. “He had a few more loads to cart. He won’t be much longer, unless he starts playing the fool again.”
“I thought you were supposed to be keeping an eye on him.”
“So I do. But you don’t expect me to stay down there with him when I’ve finished for the day, do you? Give over worrying, Lotty. He’s all right.”
Charlotte turned away, wondering how it was that Jim and Fred always managed to be ready to come home when their father did although they too were carting boys.
“As long as he’s not up to mischief,” she said briskly. “ Get out of those wet things now, and I’ll have your bath ready in two ticks.”
She hurried ahead of them into the kitchen. The tin bath already stood in front of the fire and she lifted the pans of boiling water from the hob, pouring them in until the bath was more than half full. The boys followed her in, stripping off their shirts and loosening the waists of their rushyduck trousers.
“Out of the way while your father washes,” she told them, and obediently they moved to one side to let James through.
This was the accepted daily ritual, and they followed it religiously. First James would wash the upper part of his body in the fresh hot water, then the boys, in order of their age, would follow. Then the same performance would be gone through for the lower part of their bodies, while the water grew steadily blacker and thicker.
Today, however, with Ted not yet home, the rota was completed more quickly than usual, and when Charlotte bustled in with clean towels and clothes, she found James and Jim already waiting for her and Fred bent double over the tub.
She handed James the towel and glanced at Fred’s bare back. Around his waist, the hated ring of hard skin stood out brown and ridged, reminding her once again of the news she had to break to the family this evening—that Jack was not going to join them down the pit, but train as a teacher.
She’d have to tell James first, of course, and there would be no better time than after dinner when he was full of his favourite eye-piece stew. But she wasn’t looking forward to it, and she knew she’d have to choose her moment with care. In the cramped house, it was not easy to talk without letting the rest of the family in on the conversation. Only in the bedroom at night were she and James alone, and these days he was usually asleep and snoring by the time she was ready to blow out the lamp and climb the stairs. Still, she’d find a way. She’d have to—or someone else would.
The men were deep in a discussion on Jeffries and Johnson, the two adversaries in The Great Glove Fight that was going to take place in Reno on the fourth of July, and Charlotte drew the eye-piece stew back onto the hob, skimming it absently.
The baby had begun pressing on a nerve, and the discomfort gave her yet another reason for breaking the news as soon as possible. If the baby came early, she’d be at a real disadvantage. And besides …
Charlotte remembered Peggy Yelling’s warning and shivered. It was eight years since Amy had been born, and she was no longer as young as she had been. She knew of more than one, as healthy as she, who had haemorrhaged and died, and there was one poor soul in Glebe Terrace who had never walked since twins had completed her family in the spring.
Putting the unwelcome thoughts aside, Charlotte set the lid back on the stew pan with a clatter. It was no good to meet trouble half-way. But she’d be glad when it was over and done with.
James and the boys were upstairs dressing when the sound of boots being kicked off in the scullery told Charlotte that Ted was safely home. She replaced the cover on the stewpan and crossed the kitchen to meet him.
“You’re late, my son,” she greeted him. “What have you been up to?”
Ted grinned, irrepressible as always. In build, he was like the others, with the same fair hair and blue eyes. But just as Fred’s nature showed in his face, so did Ted’s. As a child he had been known as the scamp of the family, and he had not changed much since. Now, he met her stern question with a twinkle. “ Never mind about me, Mam. What have you been up to?”
“Me? What do you mean?” she demanded.
“Come on,” he teased. “You know what I’m on about”
“I do not. Get on with your wash, and don’t be so cheeky.”
He grinned. “It’s you with the cheek, Mam, the way I heard it.”
Her cheeks flamed suddenly. “Look here, Ted, just because you’re at work now doesn’t mean you can talk to me as if I were one of your mates,” she admonished him. “ Now mind your manners, do you hear?”
He took off his jacket and laid it across the back of the settle.
“All right. But I’d give a week’s wages to know what our Dad’s going to say when he gets to hear about it.”
Too late the creak of the stairs warned him of his father’s approach. He just had time to see Charlotte’s agonized expression before the door opened and James emerged, buckling a belt at the waist of his clean trousers and looking from one to the other curiously.
“What’s our Dad going to say about what?” he enquired.
Ted looked sheepish, and Charlotte flustered, but neither replied.
“Well? Won’t somebody tell me what’s going on?” James demanded.
Unnoticed, Ted slipped away, and Charlotte wiped her hands in her apron and turned to race James. “ Since the subject’s come up, I might as well confess,” she said evenly. “ What Ted has heard, I expect, is that I’ve got myself a job, cleaning, at the Rectory. I went down to see them this morning, and I’m starting right away.”
For a moment there was no sound in the small room but the bubbling of the stew on the hob and the low chesty rattle of James’ breath. “Have you taken leave of your senses?” he asked at last. “Haven’t you got enough to do here? And with another baby coming too?”
“It’s the money …” she protested.
“We manage, don’t we?” he interrupted her. “ God knows, you get my wages with little enough taken out of ’em—not like some women who only see what their men are too drunk to spend! And with Dolly and the boys working, and Jack starting too …”
“That’s just it,” she cut in. “ Jack isn’t starting work yet a while. He’s stopping on at school. That’s why I want the money—to keep him there.”
“Stopping on at school?” James repeated incredulously. “Whatever for? He’s passed his labour exam last March.”
“Labour exam!” she snorted. “A bit of paper that’s no good to anybody! It’s a disgrace, that labour exam, pushing the bright children out before the dull ones. Well, I’ve made up my mind, no more of my sons are going to suffer through it. Jack’s going to stop on at school and train to b
e a teacher. I’ve been to see Mr Davies, and …”
“You’ve done what?” James thundered, angry now.
“Been to see Mr Davies, and he says …”
“I heard you first time and I can’t believe my ears! Oh, I know you’ve got a bee in your bonnet about the pits—you always have had. And you’ve always tried to make a big softy out of our Jack, too. But to do all this behind my back! Going to Davies—getting yourself a job! I won’t have it, Lotty!”
Her chin came up. “ You don’t own me, James Hall!” she cried. “And you don’t own Jack either!” Then, as if afraid of what she was about to say, she turned away, pressing her hands over her mouth.
Involuntarily, James raised his hand. In all their married lives he had never struck her, but in that moment he was closer to it than ever before. But as he realized what he was doing, his anger died as quickly as it had come. His hand fell limply to his side, and he shook his head sadly. “ Oh, Lotty!”
She swung round then, and her eyes were bright with unexpected tears. “ I’m sorry, James,” she said quietly. “ Perhaps I did wrong, not talking it over with you. But I was afraid you’d put a spoke in it. You’ve had your way with the others, and …”
“For the likes of us, there’s no other way,” James told her with patient conviction. “There’s security for a miner. People are always going to want coal, and the stuff we bring up here in Somerset is good quality, even if the seams are narrower than most. As long as a man doesn’t get himself blacklisted as a trouble-maker, there’s no reason why he shouldn’t stay in the pits all his working life.”
“And how long is that?” Charlotte snorted. “Till his lungs are so clogged up with dust he can’t breathe any more, or till he gets brought home in a coal cart with his back broke? And what sort of a life do you call it anyway, shut away hundred of feet under the earth.”
“Our Jack isn’t going underground. He’s going on the screens.”
“And how long would that last?” she demanded. “Just a few months, and then he’d be carting like the others—a human donkey in harness. He’s not cut out for it, James. I don’t like the idea of any of them doing it, but if you force our Jack down the pit, it’ll break my heart.”
Some of her desperation reached him, and he rubbed a blue-veined hand across his chin.
“Does it really mean that much to you, Lotty?”
“Yes, James, it does.”
“Even if it means nothing but hard work and disappointment.”
“I’m willing to take that chance.”
Rain beat a steady rhythm on the window. With the sun still covered by thunderclouds, the little room was dim, but the glow from the fire showed Charlotte’s face in a soft relief of light and shadow: chin raised, eyes afraid, mouth determined.
Looking at her, James was reminded of the shop assistant he had rescued from the gang of rowdies almost twenty years ago. She hadn’t changed, he thought. She was still the same Lotty, spirited, stubborn, and, in spite of her practicality, a bit of a romantic at heart. Life had dealt harshly with her, but it had not cowed her, and in this light it was almost impossible to see the passage of time in her face.
Unexpected tenderness flooded through him and he shook his head, smiling suddenly. “If it weren’t for your condition, Lotty, I’d put you across my knee,” he said.
A muscle moved in her cheek “You mean … you’ll let Jack stay on at school?”
He nodded. “ When you’re this set on something, it would be a brave man—and a daft one—who tried to stop you. I’ll give it six months, Lotty. I don’t think you’ll keep it up longer than that. All I hope is, you don’t kill yourself in the meantime.”
She smiled, the fear leaving her eyes, and replied as she had that night in the wash-house: “Don’t worry, James. I don’t intend to die yet. I’ll see my son a schoolmaster first, if that’s what he wants. And I’ll have enough life in me to be real proud of him.”
Chapter Two
The baby came on the first Saturday in August, on the day of the annual Foresters Fête.
It was always an occasion in the town—the procession led by the men of the Ancient Order of Foresters with their banners and regalia, winding its way to the Glebe Field for a full afternoon’s programme of sports, followed by dancing in the evening, and although she was a week overdue, Charlotte went far enough down the hill to watch them pass.
Afterwards, she always maintained that it was the cornets and drums of the town band that ‘started her off’, and whether or not that was true, by the time the last carriage-load of children in fancy dress had passed, the first uncomfortable twinges had become recognizable pains, and as the last men on horseback disappeared from view, Charlotte knew it was time to head for home and send for Peggy Yelling.
Peggy arrived and immediately set about organizing the house-hold. The boys had already left for the fête, planning to get their names down early for the hundred-yard and the egg-and-spoon races. So Rosa, the eldest of the Clements children from next door, was called in to take Amy to look for them. As for James, Peggy pushed him out to sit in the yard.
“It’s a fine day, so you won’t come to any harm,” she told him with midwifery authority. “You’ll be out of the way there, but on hand if we should need you to go for the doctor.”
At first James protested, wanting to call the doctor straight away. But the women overruled him.
“Doctors mean bills,” Charlotte told him, breaking off to catch her breath sharply as a pain spread through her like a crushing steel band, and Peggy, helping her friend up the stairs, agreed.
“I’ve brought more babies into the world than that Oliver Scott, in any case,” she said comfortingly. “ He’s only a bit of a lad. Lotty’ll be all right, you’ll see.”
Neither of them mentioned her earlier prediction that the birth might prove difficult. To Peggy’s experienced eye, everything seemed to be going well, and she was right. It was all over by the time the boys returned home with Amy for a late tea.
Peggy had collected her dues and gone, and Dolly, fetched down from the big house, had arrived to take charge. Charlotte was sitting up in bed and in the cradle behind the bedroom door was the newest and smallest Hall—a red-faced creature almost hidden in a bonnet and gown several sizes too big for him.
The boys stood looking down at him, curious, but not wanting to show their curiosity; Amy, however, bobbed up and down with excitement.
“Oh, Mammy, can I hold him? Oh, isn’t he pretty? What are we going to call him, Mammy?”
“I don’t know yet,” Charlotte said. “ I haven’t thought.”
They all began to speak at once, piling suggestion upon suggestion until the baby began to cry. Dolly looked at her mother’s tired face and pushed her brothers out, telling them to go downstairs and keep quiet.
But in the silence that followed, Ted, as always, had to have his say. Until a few moments earlier he had never given a single thought to the baby, beyond being embarrassed by his mother’s swelling body, and the occasional uncomfortable pondering on how such an enormous lump could ever get out.
Now, however, he looked at the crying red face beneath the white bonnet, and for no reason that he could think of, said, “I think he looks like a Harry.”
“Harry! Harry Lauder Hall!” Jim jeered, but Charlotte only smiled.
“That’s a good name, Ted. I like it. I think that’s what we’ll have.”
And Ted, more used to scoldings than praise, flushed with pride to think that it was his suggestion that had found favour and determined to be quiet and not disturb his mother for that evening at least.
FOR AS LONG as he could remember, Ted had been branded as the scallywag of the rank. He fell out of one scrape and into another with artless ease, never giving a thought to the consequences.
It just didn’t occur to him that if he gave Amy a ride in the tracks used to collect horse-manure for the gardens, she would go home with her dress and knickers stinking to high heaven.
And when he got his Sunday suit muddy one day going across the fields to play truant from chapel, he was surprised that washing it in the river made it worse, not better.
He felt it wasn’t his fault that everything he did seemed to turn out that way, and he couldn’t work out why his shirt should always be hanging out when everyone else’s was tucked in, his knees far dirtier than theirs, and the toes of his boots, mended in exactly the same way, kicked through in half the time. But he enjoyed his reputation.
It was fun to lead a game of knock-out ginger even if he was caught in the end and got his ears boxed. And if he was the one who got the blame every time an unexpected parcel was found on someone’s doorstep, only to be jerked away on a long string before it could be picked up, he decided he might as well have the fun of actually doing it.
As for the apples on the tree at the end of Captain Fish’s garden, they were just asking to be picked, and the previous autumn Ted and Redvers Brixey had helped themselves to far more of the sharp green fruit than they could eat at one sitting. They had buried the rest in James’s potato patch for safe keeping, but the tale was still told in the Hall household of how James had come in, straight-faced, and reported to Charlotte: “ Well, Mother, that’s the first time I’ve planted potatoes and dug up apples!”
But for all his mischief, Ted chose his victims with care. The old and infirm were left alone, and instead it was people like Martha Durrant, his pious and much-hated neighbour from number ten, who were singled out for his tricks.
Of all those in the rank who complained about Ted and his high spirits, it was Martha who complained the loudest and the longest, believing as she did that it was ‘only for his own good’. She was a strict chapel woman, who would not even have a pack of cards in the house. If she was not airing her views on Ada Clements at number twelve, who often did the washing for her tribe of children on a Sunday, and sometimes even dared to hang it out to dry, she was thumping the tub about moral decline among the young. And on the fateful day when Ted had skipped chapel and muddied his suit, his mother had been ready and waiting for him when he got home, informed by Martha that he had been missing from his pew.
