It wasn’t until the third group of well-wishers that Evriel remembered to ask questions: did they know the Reizis, or their kin? What of other emissaries passing between the regent and his colony? “Old Mergo Reizi lives down by the Serra,” she heard, “but he’s the last of his kin I know of.” Or, “There was an emissary off in the spacewalker city, I hear. But that was a long time ago.” Or, “I just mind my sheep, Lady Emissary.”
When the last of them was gone, Sayla brought tea and a plate of bread heaped with cured meat—goat, Evriel guessed. She took mug and tea from Sayla and said, “Will you sit with me?”
Sayla crossed her legs and sat down, silent.
“Sayla, how would you suggest I look for traces of a little girl? You know better than I who would know, who remembers things.”
“There’s the archivist,” Sayla said. “Likely you’ll want to see him.”
“You’ve an archivist here? Yes, I should like very much to speak with him.” Not yet, something whispered. If there was nothing, she didn’t want to know. Not yet. “And what of your cousin down the mountain, this Mergo Reizi?”
The smallest of grimaces crossed Sayla’s face, and was gone. “I doubt you’ll get anything from him.”
“Oh?”
“He…hasn’t much of a memory anymore. Won’t have anything to tell you.”
“I see.” Evriel frowned at a strip of goat and bit in. Excellent; probably supplied to the travelers’ rest by a local goat-herd. “Still, I rather think I’d like to meet him.”
Sayla shrugged. “I’ll tell you how to get there—you taking your flyer?” When Evriel nodded, she said, “Take Asha with you, she can tell you the landmarks.”
“That sounds like just the thing.”
“I’ll tell you,” Sayla repeated. “Just don’t go giving any greetings from me.”
A beaten track of small footprints circled the carrier. “Kids,” Asha said scornfully, but she approached the carrier cautiously, reaching out to stroke one gleaming wing. Evriel settled her in the cockpit and she peered all around at the dials and switches, her hands carefully folded in her lap. Once in the air she kept her eyes on the white expanse below and said very little, except to point out landmarks: a solitary copse of pines; the long blue shadow that marked a boundary wall.
Mergo Reizi was a rheumy-eyed, suspicious man who declared he had little use for “up-hillers.” He lived in a hut of mud reinforced with straw. Evriel felt a flash of sorrow to think of Lakmi living in such a place, until she reminded herself that the structure couldn’t be more than five years old. The man had never heard of any ancestress or cousin named Lakmi, though if he had Evriel wasn’t sure he would have told them. But he was, she thought, telling the truth. He claimed no living relatives.
It was hardly surprising; the girl would have taken another name when she married. A complete sweep of genealogical records for the area might conceivably turn up a Lakmi Reizi, married to a Master So-and-So and proud matriarch of the Clan Such-and-Such.
But this was to have been a short stay; she and the small, ship-merged crew would begin the long voyage home as soon as the ship was refitted. She had already fulfilled the mission’s purpose: to appear in Colonth, deliver the regent’s many gifts and promises, and remind the colonists of their allegiance to the Regency—for all it mattered to them.
It was Asha who finally broke the silence. “Mother would tell me it was rude to ask questions.”
“I wouldn’t,” Evriel said. “Unless you mean to ask rude questions.” She gave Asha an encouraging smile.
Asha shook her head. “No—at least, I don’t think they are. But there are things I have to know. If you would tell me,” Asha added, bobbing her head nervously.
“Yes?”
“Is it—that is—we are a very small village, aren’t we?”
Evriel thought of Colonth’s swinging gates, wider than two village houses together. And then of Regent City, vast anthill of tunnels and streets and spires. “Yes.”
“That must be why you went away?”
“Went away? I visited once before…”
“But you lived here, didn’t you? The ‘shining star of the regent king, shot to Kander to speak his words’—that’s you, isn’t it?”
“Is it a song? I don’t…”
“‘Married a son of Kander’s earth, a shepherd rough but warm of eye’—don’t you know it? But I suppose they didn’t write it until you’d gone back to the regent.”
Evriel shook her head, but she was beginning to get the idea. “You’ve a song about a regent’s emissary?”
Asha nodded, and red curls bobbed free of her hat. “I’ll sing you all of it, if you like. It’s of an emissary that came to our very village, perched on the tumbling plains, and fell in love with one of the folk and decided to stay, never to fly the long journey across the stars to the city of the regent.” Cadence crept into her voice. “But her love died of the summer fever, and in grief she flew away again, weeping her loss and raging against the planet that killed him. And as she flew she promised that when she came again, it would be with scourging fire.”
Evriel had turned and was staring down, down those “tumbling plains.” Had she promised fire? Yes, she’d been angry, though the memory of it was vague. It was a young, violent anger, now long burnt out. The lack of him remained, but it did not even ache anymore.
Yet Lakmi, whom she’d known so briefly, seemed more absent now than she had in forty years.
Evriel piled cushions next to the glass-block window, laid a blanket over them all, and sat watching the snow wisping and swirling. It had been like this the winter before Lakmi, when she sat at another window in another house, now torn down. Japhesh had just put a grate in the room before the first chill came, and Evriel had sat with a fire’s warm glow at her back, watching the snow. It was security, a wall of blankness between her and the outer world. All she’d needed was Japhesh and his warm stone house and his child she was waiting for, the first of many hoped for, and she could leave that world behind her with no regrets.
She never wondered, then, if the other things were enough without Japhesh. That question came later.
“What did you hope to find, coming here?”
Evriel stirred from her thoughts, summoned a smile as Sayla sat down nearby. “Just ghosts, I suppose. Memories.”
“I’d forgotten that old song—my daughter told me.”
Evriel shrugged. “It might not have anything to do with me. It seems improper, somehow, to have one’s past sung in a ballad by utter strangers. Unseemly.”
“But it’s true, isn’t it? You coming here, marrying a village boy?” There was nothing in Sayla’s face or her voice.
“Yes. It was my first assignment—a trial, more or less. There were ten of us. We were gathering data. None of us had the experience to analyze very much of what we collected. All they really wanted us to do was get used to talking to people, observing. Being the long arm of the regent. And they wanted to shake loose the more starry-eyed among us—better to lose us here, on a colony of the Commonwealth, than to some rival’s planet.”
Evriel took Sayla’s steady gaze for encouragement. “I was here in the highlands taking histories, life stories, teaching children’s circles about the regent’s planet and the White-Spired City. Japhesh was my guide. He took me all over the backlands, to the most remote villages. I wonder if they’re still there. We…grew fond of one another.” Hadn’t she just been thinking how the old grief had faded? Then why were her eyes burning?
“And the summer fevers took him, didn’t they?”
“Yes.” Slowly, agonizingly. She’d had to give Lakmi to Japhesh’s parents while she’d stayed at his side, watching the life seep from him in beads of sweat.
“I knew it was that,” Sayla was saying. “It doesn’t say in the song, but I knew it must have been.”
Something in her voice reminded Evriel of nearly the first thing Sayla had said, that first day. She saw how Sayla’s eyes g
leamed wet in the firelight. She hesitated, and finally she shifted from her pile of cushions and squeezed Sayla’s hand.
After a moment, Sayla pulled the hand away. “At least you had somewhere to go, when he was dead.”
“You mean, the house—?”
“The world. You didn’t have to stay in this village with these folk pitying you for living with him and then pitying you when he died, and you having no place in the world—in all the worlds—but the travelers’ rest, just next door to the house he nearly kicked you out of, time and time again.” Her voice was empty, colorless. “It’s no wonder my girl wants to go see other worlds—this one’s done nothing for her.”
Evriel nodded and looked away, into the fire.
“You got back in that shiny egg and flew away again, nothing holding you back.”
“My daughter,” Evriel said. She felt the surprise flashing in Sayla’s eyes. “The song doesn’t mention that either, does it? Lakmi was too young for a star voyage and there wouldn’t be another ship in my lifetime, probably. You hate your memories, your village so much that you’d take your daughter and never look back? I abandoned my daughter here rather than stay.”
Evriel searched Sayla’s face, her eyes, for the revulsion she knew would be there. Finally, someone would see the coward behind the polished veneer, and turn away.
But Sayla didn’t turn away. She said, “The archivist knows. Asha will take you to him tomorrow—he’s in a settlement up on Starshore Ridge. He’ll tell you about your daughter.” Then she rose and left the room, her face still blank and empty.
Asha wouldn’t let Evriel take the personal carrier to the archivist’s settlement. “It would make too much noise,” she said. Then, “It would disturb the animals.” Finally, unyieldingly, “It wouldn’t be right to visit the archivist in a machine.” So Evriel strapped on skis and tentatively slid up and down the street. She’d known skiing once, briefly. She followed Asha in long, shallow sweeps up the hillsides, stopping every so often to catch her breath again and thank the most high regent for the nanos that let her do this when the natural body would already have broken down.
They skimmed up onto Starshore Ridge just before midday. Standing at its edge was like standing on a map of the world: off to the left were the hills they’d just come up, yes, and farther off the dark peaks of the village roofs. Far below ran the black-thread Serra. But beyond that stood Ranglo, City of Ebon Stone—a proper city, with a carrier-port and a laserline to Sable, and Sorrel, and all the way around the planet to Colonth. Away off to the right were shadowy peaks, and but for the clouds tethered to their sides, Evriel knew, she could have seen over them to the gray expanse that was the Simolian Sea.
Oh, how large Kander was. Why in her memory was it always so small, even when she stood in the middle of it?
But Asha was talking and pointing towards a much nearer goal: a handful of low-built structures with smoke curling from their roofs, only ten minutes away. Evriel turned reluctantly and followed her.
There were children running down the hill to welcome them. Asha laughed and pushed away their prying fingers. “Inside!” she said. “Take us to the archivist. We’ve news and documents and a query, and we’re hungry!”
Inside the largest sod-roofed house there was a mutton stew and mugs of tea. More than children clustered around them in the meeting room as Asha clutched a mug with one hand and with the other doled out letters from her pack.
“Not many come up this far, this time of year,” said the woman who’d brought the tea. “We’re glad enough to see any face we haven’t been staring at for months, but we’re partial to Asha. She’s always up here summertimes, bothering the archivist.”
“Yes, the archivist,” Evriel said. “We’ve come to speak with him.”
“He’ll be around soon enough,” the woman said, “soon as this crowd gets their fill.”
For a moment, spooning hot chunks of mutton and watching Asha drop letters into waiting hands, Evriel could ignore the reason she’d come and just observe, as for so many years she had observed for the far-distant, long-dead regent. This was the village meeting-house, today scattered with the bones of children’s games. Two old men, bent and bearded like ancient trees, huddled at a corner table. Was one of them the archivist? Evriel turned the thought away. Not yet.
From an open doorway in the far wall blew heat and savory smells, likely for the dinner meal since it was past the usual lunchtime. The settlement had fewer huts than Asha’s village, but Evriel had noticed scarlet daubed on the edges of the highest roof—the archivist’s work, perhaps.
“Greetings, Lady Emissary.”
Evriel started; she had not even noticed the man sliding onto the opposite bench. He was not so old as she’d expected; his hair was only patchily flecked with gray and though his skin was sun-weathered his eyes were clear and intent. “Greetings, sir,” she said. “Do I address the archivist?”
“You do,” he said. The kitchen maid appeared at his elbow with a bowl of stew, and he smiled thanks to her. To Evriel he said, “How does an emissary of the regent come to our small village?”
“On skis,” she said, gesturing towards her pair leaning against the door. “Shakily.”
He smiled again, and she recognized it and smiled back. His was a professional smile, like hers, much-practiced but no less genuine for that, most of the time. Yes, here was an observer who spent his life as she had: listening.
“I’m told you may be able to help me with a personal concern of mine,” she said.
“In return for as much as news of the outer world as I can beg from you?”
“Oh? Sayla wasn’t specific, but I’d thought you were a sort of local historian. Do you archive the outer world?”
“I should hope not; I’d do a pretty poor job of it from my room halfway up the Starshores. No, you’re right.” He spread his hands, encompassing the room and all the meeting-house. “These are my people, my concerns. I ask after the world beyond out of irrepressible curiosity. Now, what can I tell you?”
She hesitated. Now she would know. The long years of wondering, the insistent discussions convincing the last regent that she should be the one sent to Kander, the month in the ship, the week since she’d landed: an eternity of moments all pressed towards this moment.
“I visited the backlands once before, several hundred years ago,” she said. “I knew a girl—just an infant. Her name was Lakmi, I believe Lakmi Reizi although—” She faltered. “Although I’m not sure about the family name. I would like to learn what became of her, if I could. If you know.”
He was looking at her as the others had looked at their letters, eyes shining with discovery. “You’re the lady of the scourging fire.”
“The lady of—oh. Perhaps. Asha mentioned a ballad, but I don’t know that it has anything to do with me.”
“Let us find out.” Evriel followed him out of the meeting room and down a dim corridor opening to rooms on both sides. At the end was a door, the only one Evriel had seen since she’d entered the building. The archivist clasped the handle firmly before turning it—a handprint lock, Evriel noted. And then he was leading her into a room any City emissary would have felt at home in. Blocks of solid-state memory were stacked in one corner, an interface screen sitting on the nearest. Along one wall hung all a proper emissary’s equipment: vidcam, holocam for stills, an audiotype device, general-use comp unit. And in bookshelves at the other wall were the utterly obsolete artifacts that every observer she’d ever known had a weakness for, the books and scrolls and loose sheets of pressed wood pulp.
Here were the chambers of a historian. Here was home.
He caught her looking at the bookshelves and laughed. “I don’t actually need that stuff. Everything’s scanned into the archive. Here, I’ll find the record for that ballad.” He sat at the comp unit and typed for a minute. “Would you like to hear it sung? The Hill Country Corporate Choir recorded it a few years ago as part of their folk ballad series.”
“I’d really rather…”
“Right, the girl. Sorry about that. Spell the name for me?”
She did, and then he padded at the keys for ten minutes, twenty, the screen flicking in and out of database listings and through strings of raw data. She noticed when her trembling stopped, though she hadn’t when it started. He was data lord now. He would measure from his vast store houses the allowance of grain she craved.
“The records are pretty patchy,” he said. “We didn’t have a proper archivist then. The genealogies were oral, if you can believe it.”
“I remember.” Months after she had arrived, Japhesh, no longer a mere guide but not yet a lover, had taken her donkeyback up to a valley with five mud-brick huts, four in a square and one in the center. In that central hut lived a woman, not quite blind, who looked as old as the stones that reinforced her walls. She’d spoken for hours, tracing the four village families via many roots and offshoots and grafts to grandchildren of Kander’s original colonists. Evriel had recorded it all. When Japhesh reported weeks later that the gene-speaker had died, Evriel wondered what it had cost her to give the full history of her village one last time. “What does it say?”
“Married Kailo Reizi at age—well, I don’t know, there’s no birth record. Fifteen or sixteen, probably—that was the usual age then.” His gaze slid sideways up to Evriel’s face, fixing on a cheekbone. “He was bereaved of her three years later. No children. No other record so far—I’ll keep trawling.”
“I see,” she said. She didn’t see. “So little?” She found herself sitting at the edge of a chair mostly piled with oil-skin packets. So little. And Lakmi had died as she would—childless. No footprints.
“There’s just not much from that time period—except your own records, of course.”
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