Then Rana laughs, for the pieces of the puzzle have just fallen into place. This is all a joke, albeit—given the pressures she is already under—one in spectacularly bad taste. But a joke all the same, and not a marker of her descent into insanity. She was called upstairs by a noise—how else were they going to get into her office and swap the Mechanism for this ruined half-cousin? The missing windows, the panicked bird, seem like details too far, random intrusions of dream-logic, but who can guess the mind of a practical joker?
Well, she has a sense of humor. But not now, not tonight. Someone will pay for this. Cutting off her telephone was the last straw. That was nasty, not funny.
She moves to leave her bench again and find whoever must be spying on her, certain that they must be lurking in the shadows outside, maybe in the unlit observation corridor, where they’d have a plain view of her discomfort. But as she places her hand down to push herself up, her fingers slip into the smoky surface of the bench.
They vanish as if she were dipping them into water.
All of a sudden she realizes that it was not the Antikythera Mechanism that was growing insubstantial, but everything around her.
No, that’s not it either. Something is happening to the building, but if the table were turning ghostly, the heavy things on it—the Mechanism, the equipment, the laptops—would have surely sunk through it by now. There’s a simpler explanation, even if the realization cuts through her like a shaft of interstellar cold.
She’s the one fading out, losing traction and substantiality.
Rana rises to her feet eventually, but it’s like pushing herself against smoke. She isn’t so much standing as floating with her feet in vague contact with the ground. The air in her lungs is beginning to feel thin, but at the same time there’s no sense that she is about to choke. She tries to walk, and for a moment her feet paddle uselessly against the floor, until she begins to pick up a deathly momentum in the direction of the door.
The corridor at the base of the stairs was normal when she returned from her visit to the next floor, but now it has become a dark, forbidding passageway, with rough-formed doorways leading into dungeon-like spaces. Her office is the only recognizable place, and even her office is not immune to the changes. The door has vanished, leaving only a sagging gap in the wall. The floor is made of stones, unevenly laid. Halfway to her bench the stones blend together into something like concrete, and then a little further the concrete gains the hard red sheen of the flooring she has come to expect. On the desk, her electric light flickers and fades. The laptops shut down with a whine, their screens darkening. The line of change in the floor creeps closer to the desk, like an advancing tide. From somewhere in the darkness Rana hears the quiet, insistent dripping of water.
She was wrong to assume that the things on the desk were immune to the fading. She began to go first, but now the same process of fade-out is beginning to catch up with her tools, with her notes and the laptops and the fabric of the bench itself. Even the Mechanism is losing its grip on reality, its gears and components beginning to dissolve before her eyes. The wooden box turns ash-gray and crumbles into a pile of dust. A breeze fingers its way into the room and spirits the dust away.
The Mechanism was the last thing to go, Rana realizes: the tide of change had come in from all directions, to this one tiny focus, and for a little while the focus had held firm, resisting the transforming forces.
Now she feels the hastening of her own process of fade-out. She cannot move or communicate. She is at the mercy of the breeze.
It blows her through the cold stone walls, out into the night-time air of a city she barely recognizes. She drifts through the sky, able to witness but not able to participate. In all directions she sees only ruin and desolation. The shells of buildings throw jagged outlines against the moonlit sky. Here and there she almost recognizes the fallen corpse of a familiar landmark, but so much is different that she soon loses her sense of direction. Even the shape of the river, shining back under moonlight, appears to have meandered from the course she remembers. She sees smashed stone and metal bridges that end halfway across to the other bank. Crimson fires burn on the horizon and flicker through the eyeholes of gutted buildings.
Then she notices the black machines, stalking their way through the warrens and canyons between the ruins. Fierce and frightening engines of war, with their turreted guns swiveling into doorways and shadows, the iron treads of their feet crunching down on the rubble of the pulverized city, the rubble that used to be dwellings and possessions, until these juggernauts arrived. She does not need an emblem or flag to know that these are the machines of an occupying force; that her city is under the mechanized heel of an invader. She watches as a figure springs out of concealment to lob some pathetic burning torch at one of the machines. The turret snaps around and a lance of fire stabs back at the assailant. The figure drops to the ground.
The wind is gusting her higher, turning the city into a map of itself. As her point of view changes direction she catches sight of the building that used to be the Museum of Antiquities, but what she sees is no more than a shattered prison or fortress, one among many. And for an instant she remembers that the shell of the museum was very old, that the building—or a succession of buildings, each built on the plan of its predecessor—had stood in the same location for many centuries, serving many rulers.
In that same instant, Rana comes to a momentary understanding of what has happened to both her and her world. The Mechanism has been wrenched from history, and accordingly—because the Mechanism was so essential—history has come undone. There is no Museum of Antiquities, because there is no Greater Persia. The brilliant clockwork that dispatched armies and engineers across the globe simply never existed.
Nor did Rana.
But the moment of understanding passes as quickly as it came. Ghosts are not the souls of the dead, but the souls of people written out of history when history changes. The worst thing about them is that they never quite recall the living people they used to be, the things they once witnessed.
The wind lofts Rana higher, into thinning silver clouds. But by then she no longer thinks of anything at all, except the endless meshing of beautiful bronze gearwheels, moving the heavens for all eternity.
In Their Garden
BRENDA COOPER
Brenda Cooper (www.brenda-cooper.com) lives in Kirkland, Washington, where she is the city’s Chief Information Officer. She also works at Futurist.com, as host of the “Science Fiction” and “Space and Science” sections of the website, “to gain speaking engagements and engender positive conversations about the future.” Her fiction has appeared in Nature, Analog, Asimov’s, Strange Horizons, and in anthologies. On her website she says, “I’m interested in how new technologies might change us and our world, particularly for the better, and in global warming.” She has collaborated frequently with Larry Niven and in partic u lar on the novel, Building Harlequin’s Moon (2005). Her most recent novel is Wings of Creation (2009), part of the the Silver Ship series.
“In Their Garden” appeared in Asimov’s. It is set in a future in which the climate and human civilization have radically changed. But it is also an ambiguously optimistic story about adolescence.
I’m running back through the desiccated woods, going too fast to keep the sticks and branches that have fallen from the trees from cracking under my weight. My skin and mouth are dry. The afternoon sun has sucked all the water from me, and I haven’t stopped to drink. The sole of my right boot is thin enough a stone bumps the ball of my foot, and I want to swear, but I keep going even though I don’t hear anyone behind me. Not anymore.
I realize I haven’t for a while; I got away again. I saw ten friendly travelers this time before I met one who meant me trouble. I know better than to go out alone, and if I get back in one piece, Kelley is gonna kill me.
It’s not far now, I can see the wall rising up like a cracked egg, dirty white with grey, the top edges jagged.
I trip ove
r a log, going down sharp on my right knee and catch myself on my hands, scraping my palms. I can see the black soil line from the fire ten years ago, the one that saved us from burning up when everything else around caught fire. The dry trees around me are saplings that tried to grow back, and made it for three or four years before they died of thirst. They’re as tall as I am.
My breath breaks the silence, and I sound like a rabbit before a thin coyote kills it, scared and breathing too hard. I make myself slow down, try to remember what Oskar taught me. Breathe through your nose. Breathe deep in your belly, so you can feel it going out and in.
Slowly.
S l o w l y.
I’m getting there. A hot breeze blows back my hair and helps me feel better.
“Paulie.”
I hate it when Kelley calls me that. My name’s Paulette. I hate it that she moves so quiet and I’m so loud and clumsy.
She extends her left hand, but doesn’t help me up. There’s dirt ground into the creases of her hand and stuck under her nails, and it smells wetter and stronger than the dry, cracked earth under my hands. A year or two ago, I would have apologized first, but I manage not to do that this time. I’m almost as tall as her now, and I can look down on the graying dark hair she’s pulled back and tied with a strip of bark, as if we didn’t have anything better. She holds her taser in her right hand, a black oblong that she protects as if it means her life. She leaves the gun out as we walk back, swinging in her hand, the arc of its movement precise.
My knee is bleeding, but we both ignore that.
Between here and the wall, all the dead woods have been cleared, and we walk on grey and green grass, stuff Kelley had us plant in the moat of cleared ground around our walled garden. The grass thrives in spite of the dry, thirsty ground. I don’t like to admit it, but she picked well; the spiky, low growth has been alive for two years, and it creeps back into the forest as we clear it further away.
She doesn’t say anything, but I make up her feelings and words in my head anyway. The walls are safe. You aren’t old enough to leave them yet; you might bring people here. You might get hurt, or raped, and die all by yourself. There’s men that would take you in and make you trade your body for water and food. It only takes three days without water. If she were lecturing me instead of staring off, lost in her head, she’d look down at that point and see I have a small canteen clipped to my belt, one of the old ones where the metal’s all banged up. Well, maybe you’d live a week. She’d look disgusted. We have all the people we can water now. You might get lost and not come back, and then what? We’d lose all the training we spent on you.
The only problem with a lecture in your head is you can’t fight it. Kelley knows that, and it makes me even madder, but it’s not like I’m going to be able to explain to the others why I picked a fight with someone who didn’t say anything to me. The other problem is that she’s right. I shouldn’t want to argue with her in the first place. But I hate living like the world isn’t all screwed up when it really is, or maybe we’re living like it is all screwed up, and its starting not to be some. That’s what I’m beginning to believe. Whichever it is, I’ll never amount to anything if I stay inside my whole life and work on little things that don’t matter with little people who will die behind a wall. The wet, verdant world we live in is a bubble, and I want the real world.
Right before we get to the wall, she turns and looks at me. I expect her to be yelling angry, but what I see in her dark blue eyes is just sadness.
I wonder which one of her plants died this time.
I’m sorry she’s sad, but I don’t tell her that; I can’t show weakness.
The door in the wall is big enough for an army and there’s a whiter spot on the wall where Kelley’s old boss, James, ripped the sign off during the second year of the drought, and also the second year after I was born. The door opens to let us in, and we are much smaller than an army even though there’s a war between us.
Inside, it smells like home and it smells like jail. Like dirt and water and frogs, and faintly, of flowers. Later, in the summer, it will smell more like flowers, but the spring is showier than it is smelly. We pass magenta azaleas whose bloom is just starting to wilt, and in spite of myself I smile when I see three bees on the one plant. Kelley and Oskar both taught me to see the little things, and I can’t help but watch out for the plants.
I stop smiling when I notice that the Board of Directors is waiting. All of them. They’re sitting in their formal place, on benches in a circle under the sign that used to be above the doors. “Oregon Botanical Gardens.” The Board has run us since the first years of climate change, and the half who are still the original members are gray and wrinkled.
There’s four Board members, and Kelley makes five. She says, “Paulie, please sit,” and gestures to the hot seat—the one for people who are in trouble. I’ve been here before. The Board’s all as old as Kelley; they all remember the world I only see in movies, and they all remember my dad, who’s dead now, and they all remember they’re the ones who made all the rules and I’m the girl who keeps breaking them.
I wait for them to ask me questions.
They don’t. Kelley clears her throat and keeps her chin up and her voice is as sad as her eyes. “Paulie, we’ve done everything we know how to do to keep you in here. I can’t keep putting us at risk by letting you in and out the door. I’ve told it not to open for you anymore. So if you sneak out again, you will never be allowed back in.”
She can’t mean it. She’s the one had the most hand in raising me, teaching me. I’m her hope for the future. She wouldn’t kick me out.
Tim and Li are the two old men of the Board. Li nods, telling me he supports Kelley. Tim is impassive, but he would miss me. We play chess sometimes in the hour between dawn and breakfast. Sometimes I win, and he likes that. He would never kick me out.
Kay and Shell are the other two women on the Board. They’re both stone-faced, too, but they might mean it. They’re scarier than Tim and Li.
Kelley holds my eyes, and she still looks sad. Usually when she’s getting me in trouble she just looks frustrated. “Do you understand?”
“Yes.”
“Tell me what will happen if you leave again without permission.”
“The door will not let me back in.”
“And we will not let you back in,” she adds.
Maybe she does mean it. Now her eyes are all wet, even though she isn’t really crying yet. Kelley isn’t done. I know because no one is moving, and I feel like they’re all watching me, probably because they are. Kelley says, “Just so you don’t do anything rash, you’re confined to the Japanese Garden for a week. Report to Oskar in ten minutes.”
She does mean this, except maybe the ten minutes part.
I nod at them all and walk away, keeping my head up. I hate it that they’ve made me feel small again. In my room, I sweep my journal and two changes of clothes into an old bag, and I brush my hair and my teeth, and put those brushes in the bag, too. I sit on the bed and wait, determined not to be early or even on time.
But Oskar doesn’t notice. I walk in the glass box and close the outer door, and wait a moment, then open the inner door. I wonder if these doors are now locked electronically, too, but I don’t test them to find out how strict my sentence is. I am inside walls, some glass, and under a plastic sheet roof. The air is heavy with water, although cool. Oskar is nowhere to be seen. When it was finished, the Japanese garden was billed as one of the largest on the west coast. Then the roof was there to keep it from getting too wet, instead of too dry.
I negotiate the stepping-stone path, walking through pillows of pearlwort. The cinnamon fern that lines the right wall still has some tender, brownish fiddleheads so I pick them. Maybe it’s a form of penance.
The very first of the wisteria blooms are showing purple. Oskar is on the other side of the flowers, between me and the waterfall.
He doesn’t turn around for the space of two breaths. He’s squ
atting, bent over, clipping the leaves of a Japanese holly. He is a small man, his skin pallid from the damp air he lives in, his long red hair caught back in a braid that falls down a freckled, white back. The top of his braid is grey. He is only wearing shorts; he likes to garden as naked as the Board will let him. Even his feet are bare. I have always suspected that at night, he goes out with his flashlight and gardens more naked than that. Even though he is almost sixty years old, I think I would garden beside him, with my nipples exposed to the cool night air.
He wouldn’t let me, of course. They all treat me like glass.
He stands up and turns toward me. Even though the light is starting to grey to dusk, I can see that his eyes look like Kelley’s did. “Why do you run away?”
I lean back against the big cedar column that holds up the wisteria arbor, breathing in the sweet air. “Why don’t you ever leave this garden?”
I’ve never asked him this. Instead of looking startled, he smiles. “Because I am saving the world.”
He is lying. He is, at best, saving a tiny part of the world that I can walk across in five minutes. Everyone here thinks small.
I hold out my hand, the one with the fiddleheads in it, and he takes them and says, “See?”
I don’t see at all.
He leads me to the kitchen, which is the only room here with walls that aren’t made of waxed paper or bamboo. When we get in, he hands me back the fiddleheads, and I wash them in a bowl full of water and then pour the water into a bin so it can go into the waterfall, where it will be scrubbed clean by the filter plants.
We have everything ready, but before we start to cook, Oskar takes me up to the top of the rock wall that’s in the center of the stroll garden, and we look out toward the ocean. It’s too far away to see or hear, but the sun will set over it. He has made a hole in the roof by overlapping the layers of water-capturing plastic so we can see the sunset directly. There are enough clouds to catch the gold and orange a little, but most of the last rays leak up like spilled paint and fade into the blackening sky.
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