* * *
“But it was an accident,” Lindsay said for the third time. “I swear.”
Kyle stared at the young girl in front of him. She was no longer the vamp in training who had trailed him the first month she’d been in Glenwood. She was a frightened child who didn’t understand the consequences of what she’d done. But she was about to learn in a big way.
He leaned toward her. “You were the one carrying the bag, Lindsay. How was it an accident?”
“I didn’t know they’d stolen the stuff,” she said.
He waited. She fidgeted on the straight-backed chair he’d pulled up beside his desk. When the girls had realized he meant to bring them to the station, they’d all lost control. He’d had to hustle three hysterical crying preteens through the mall to the patrol car. The two blondes hadn’t said much, but Lindsay kept apologizing. He’d called Travis with the details. As soon as they’d arrived at the station, he’d separated the girls. Travis and one of the other deputies were taking care of the two blondes, while Kyle had brought Lindsay with him.
He still didn’t know what he was going to do with her. The part of him that cared about her, the part of him that understood how easy it was to get mixed up in trouble, wanted to ease her way. He thought about talking to Wilson. He could get the store manager to drop the charges. The other two girls were from out of town. They would be leaving soon and taking their trouble with them. Lindsay wasn’t a bad kid. He could make Wilson understand.
But he wasn’t going to. Not only because it was wrong to use his influence, but because it wouldn’t help Lindsay. That was the hell of it. If she learned a hard lesson this early, she wouldn’t make the same mistake again. If he let her off, then she would start to expect other people to always be cleaning up her messes. So he didn’t speak to Wilson or tell Lindsay it was going to be okay. Instead, he glared at her, waiting for her to tell him the truth.
“Why are you doing this to me?” she asked, still crying. Her long brown hair hung limply over her shoulders. She pushed it away from her face. She was pale under her tan.
“Doing what?”
“Treating me this way? I didn’t do anything.”
“You carried a bag of stolen clothing out of a store. That’s called shoplifting, and it’s against the law.”
“But I didn’t kn-know. I thought they’d paid for it.”
He didn’t say anything.
She sobbed for several more minutes. He pushed a box of tissue close to the edge of the desk and then clutched the arms of his chair. He wanted to go to her and comfort her. He wanted to pull her into his arms and promise he would fix it all. He wanted to know that she would understand why he was doing this. That it was for her own good.
He hadn’t thought doing the right thing would hurt so much. He hated watching Lindsay cry. Each tear, each sob was like a dagger in his heart. He’d come to care about Lindsay. He wanted to spare her the pain, but he knew doing that would only make it worse in the long run.
“Did you see either girl pay for the clothing?” he asked when she’d quieted some.
“No, but—” She looked at him. “I—I just didn’t think they would have taken the things without paying for them. They gave me the bag and told me to start walking. What was I supposed to do? They’re my friends. The first friends I’ve made here.” She wiped her eyes. “I was sc-scared, and I didn’t want to say anything. Then that buzzer went off and that little man came after us. He was screaming that we were thieves, then he grabbed me.” She covered her face with her hands. “I was so humiliated. It was awful. I’m really sorry.” She looked up at him. “I swear I’ll never do anything like that again. Please don’t tell my mom, Kyle. She’ll kill me.”
Lindsay wasn’t the only one Sandy was going to want to kill. Her daughter’s partners in crime had been girls she’d met at camp. The camp he’d encouraged the children to attend so that he could have some private time with their mother. Sandy was going to blame him for this whole damn thing. He didn’t know how or why, but he could feel it in his bones. Things had been going too well between them. He wasn’t looking forward to calling her.
“It’s not just your mother, Lindsay. Mr. Porter is going to press charges. You’re a juvenile and that will help. You have a clean record and people who will vouch for your character.” He was willing to let her be charged, but he had every intention of speaking for her at the hearing.
She blanched. “I’m going to prison?” Her eyes filled with tears. “Kyle? That’s not true, is it?”
“You won’t have to go to a detention facility. You’ll be released into your mother’s custody.”
“Custody? Like I’m a criminal? But I didn’t do anything.”
“You carried stolen clothing out of a store.”
“But I didn’t take it. It wasn’t mine. I didn’t even like the stuff they picked out.” She sprang to her feet and started pacing the office. “Kyle, please, you’ve got to help me. I really didn’t do anything. I didn’t want to help them. I didn’t even want to be there. I thought they were my friends. I haven’t had any friends since we moved here. Everything is so horrible. I hate this.” She stood in front of him and twisted her hands around and around. “Please help me. You’ve got to. Please?”
He couldn’t resist her plea. He rose to his feet and hugged her. Her slender body was trembling. “I’m sorry, Lindsay,” he said, smoothing her hair. “This is pretty ugly. Unfortunately, you’re going to have to face the consequences of what happened. Your friends got you into trouble, and you’re going to have to pay the price for that. You knew it was wrong to take the clothes, but you did it, anyway.”
She pushed away from him. “You’re not going to do anything, are you?” she asked, her voice getting loud. “Why?”
“Because you have to learn. I know this is hard. It’s damn hard for me, too.”
“I don’t care about you,” she said. “You’re not the one in trouble.” He tried to touch her shoulder, but she jerked away from him. “Get away from me.” She sank into the chair. “Get away.”
He stared at her for a long time, then left the room. Conflicting emotions swelled inside of him. All he wanted was to do the right thing. Nothing else mattered. His heart told him to talk to Wilson and get the charges dropped. His head told him that was a mistake. With a flash of insight, he realized he was facing the double-edged sword of being a parent. Lindsay might not be his child, but he cared about her. The compassionate side of him wanted to make it easy for her. The logical side reminded him that she had to learn eventually and the lesson would be a lot less painful coming this early.
He walked into an empty office and stared at the phone. Putting Lindsay in custody was the second hardest thing he’d ever had to do. The hardest would be calling Sandy and telling her what had happened.
* * *
Sandy pushed open the glass doors and entered the sheriff’s station. She was shaking—from concern and rage. How could Lindsay have gotten involved in something like this? How could she have shown such poor judgment? And how could she, as Lindsay’s mother, have had no clue what was going on in her daughter’s life?
She paused in the foyer and saw several people waiting. A couple, about her age, maybe a few years older, glanced up at her, then away. She wondered if they were one of the other girl’s parents. Before she could go over and ask, a door opened and she saw Kyle. He motioned her to come with him.
“How are you holding up?” he asked when she got closer to him.
She tried to smile, then settled on a shrug. “Okay, I guess. I’m sorry it took me so long to get here. I had to drop Nichole and Blake at Elizabeth’s.” She followed Kyle down a long corridor to an empty office. When he’d shut the door behind them, she sank into the chair in front of the worn wooden desk.
“How did this happen?” she asked, then shook her head. “I’m sorry. You can’t answer that, can you? I had no clue what she was up to. Are these the same girls she met at camp?”
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p; Kyle hesitated before answering, then he nodded. “According to Lindsay, yes. She met them there, and apparently they’ve been hanging out together since they got back.”
Sandy let her purse slip to the floor. “I blame myself. I shouldn’t have sent her to camp. She didn’t want to go. I thought—”
She clamped her mouth shut. She didn’t want to say what she’d been thinking. That sending the kids away had been purely selfish. That she was the worst mother in the world. She could tell herself she’d sent the kids to camp so they could have some fun and make friends, but the truth was much uglier than that. She’d sent her kids to camp so she could have some private time with Kyle. She’d wanted to have sex, so she’d sacrificed her children’s well-being. She should be the one arrested, not Lindsay.
“It’s all my fault,” she said.
“Bull.” Kyle pulled the chair from behind the desk and moved it so it was in front of her. Then he sat down. “You didn’t tell Lindsay to steal anything. She’s a smart kid. She knows better. She got caught up in the moment. She didn’t think, and now she has to face the consequences of what she did.”
Sandy shook her head. “That’s really easy for you to say. Lindsay isn’t your child. Of course I know I didn’t tell her to steal anything. That doesn’t mean it’s not my fault. Of course I had something to do with this. I just have to figure out what. Did I ignore her? Should I have investigated her friends better?”
“You’re making yourself crazy over this. It’s not that complicated.”
“I met one of the girl’s mothers,” she said, more to herself than him. “I guess I should have met both mothers. Or not let Lindsay go with them. But I can’t keep her locked up forever.”
What had happened? Was it the move? Was this a late reaction to Thomas’s death? She tried to fight off the ugly feeling that the root of the problem was her own selfishness. If she hadn’t wanted to be with Kyle so much—
“You’re not looking at this clearly,” Kyle said. “Why does it have to be your fault? Why can’t Lindsay have just made a mistake?”
“You wouldn’t understand,” she said impatiently.
“I might not be her father, but I’ve spent a hell of a lot of time with her this summer, and I think I’ve learned a few things. When I walked into that store and saw her sitting there, I felt like I—”
Sandy glared at him. “What did you say?” she asked, interrupting. She couldn’t have heard him correctly. “When you went into the store? You were there?”
“I took the call.”
She stood up. Kyle rose also. His expression hardened, then became unreadable, as if he sensed what was coming. Sandy felt her temper starting to rise. She tried to control it, but the rage pushed through.
“You arrested my daughter? How could you?”
“It’s my job,” he said coldly. All warmth disappeared from his brown eyes.
“Your job? Was it also your job to convince me to send her away so you could seduce me?” It wasn’t a fair question, but she was past caring.
“One has nothing to do with the other. I arrested Lindsay because she’d broken the law, and also because I believe it’s important for her to know that her actions have a price. You’re the one who’s so big on people being responsible. I would think you would be happy.”
“Happy?” She curled her hands into fists and continued glaring at him. “Happy that you’ve destroyed her life? I know that you’ve hurt her and she may never get over this.”
“Don’t blame her actions on me. She’d old enough to know what she was doing.”
“She’s just a child.”
“I agree she’s not an adult. That’s why I want to help her.”
“You call this helping?” she asked scornfully. “We don’t need your kind of help, Deputy Haynes.” She turned away from him and walked over to the door. After pulling it open, she stared at the wall. “Please tell your superior that I want someone else assigned to the case. I don’t want to have to deal with you anymore.”
“Sandy, don’t do this.” He moved close and touched her arm. She pulled free of him. She wasn’t going to listen to any more from him.
“Do I need to make the request in writing?” she asked.
“How much of this is about Lindsay and how much of it is you running scared?” he asked.
She didn’t answer. Finally, he left the room and she was alone.
She had five minutes in which to try to pull herself together. It wasn’t enough. When the door opened and Travis walked in, she thought she was going to start crying.
She could feel the blush climbing her cheeks. “Hi,” she said, praying her voice would keep steady. “So this is the downside of living in a small town. Everybody knows everybody else’s business.”
Travis crossed the room and put his arm around her. “I know it’s hard for you, but everything is going to be okay.”
“If you knew how much I want to believe you.” She blinked to hold back the tears. “Now that I’m going to have a convicted felon in the family, I hope we can all still be friends. I should probably warn you, I left Blake and Nichole with your wife.”
Travis smiled. “Of course we’re still friends. And shoplifting isn’t a felony.”
“Great.” She allowed him to lead her to her chair. She sat down. “Now what happens?”
“Several things.”
He took the seat Kyle had used. Sandy looked at him. Travis looked enough like his brother that if she squinted a little, she could pretend they were the same man. She wanted to apologize for what she’d said earlier and she suspected it would be easier to say the words to Travis. Of course, he wouldn’t know what she was talking about.
“First,” he said, “the other parents have already collected their children. Both girls are from out of town. The families will be leaving as soon as this is cleared up, so you don’t have to worry about Lindsay hanging out with them anymore.”
“That’s a relief.”
“We’re going to keep this quiet, so Lindsay won’t start school with a reputation.”
“Okay.”
He leaned back in his chair. “This was tough on Kyle. He really cares about your kids.” And you.
He didn’t say the last part, but she heard it. “I don’t want to talk about him right now.”
“All right. Let’s talk about your daughter.”
Sandy started to stand up. Travis grabbed her hand and pulled her back into the chair. “Hear me out,” he said. “I’ve met a lot of kids. After a while, you start to get a feel for them. Lindsay’s one of the good ones. She got a big scare today. It’s going to stay with her a long time.”
“What are you saying?”
“That it’s probably not going to be a problem again. I don’t usually tell parents not to punish their kids, but I’m going to make an exception. She’s a frightened little girl, and you might want to consider just listening instead of acting.”
Sandy shook her head. What was it with these men? Why were they always telling other people how to raise their kids? It seemed to her that their family wasn’t anything to brag about. “I’ll give it some thought,” she said, standing. “Is she free to go?”
“Sure.” He rose and walked to the door. “It’s none of my business, but Kyle’s hurting pretty bad. Maybe you could talk to him before you leave.”
“You’re right. It’s none of your business.” She started to walk past him into the hallway, then paused. “You can give him a message for me, though. Tell him I want him to stay away from me and away from my kids. And this time, I mean it.”
“None of this is his fault,” Travis told her.
“Then whose fault is it?”
“Why does it have to be anyone’s? Sometimes these things just happen.”
“Maybe,” she said, knowing he was talking about the shoplifting and she was talking about a relationship that would never work. “But it’s not going to happen again.”
Chapter Fifteen
Despite the
late hour, the lights were on in Sandy’s house. Kyle paused at the edge of the porch and thought about waiting until morning to tell her what had happened. He was tired and defeated, and he didn’t want to face her now. But he knew she would rest easier knowing what he had to say.
If only she would understand. If only she could see how damn hard it had been for him to take Lindsay into custody. He hadn’t wanted to, but it had been the right thing to do.
He walked to the door and raised his hand to knock, then lowered it back to his side. What was the point of being right if it cost him Sandy?
Before he could change his mind, he rapped on the door once, and waited. He heard footsteps, then her voice quietly called, “Who is it?”
“Kyle.”
She hesitated. At first, he thought she might not even let him in. He was right. She opened the door a crack and stared at him, but made no move to allow him into her home. “What do you want?” she asked.
Her face was pale and drawn, as if the trauma of the day had stolen away all her vitality. Her mouth trembled slightly and there were shadows under her green eyes. One strand of hair drifted across her cheek. She brushed it back impatiently in a familiar gesture that made his heart ache.
“That’s it?” he asked. “After all that’s happened between us, now I’m supposed to stand out here like I’m selling door-to-door and you’re not even going to bother inviting me in?”
She ducked her head a bit and sighed. “It’s late, Kyle. What do you want?”
“To talk to you. To make you understand. I think you owe me that, at least.”
“I don’t owe you anything.”
He managed to stay upright and keep his features impassive, but it was as if she’d stabbed him in the gut. He could feel his life’s blood oozing away. He thought about begging, but to what end? She didn’t really want him, she never had. She was only interested in the fantasy. Reality had intruded on Sandy Walker’s neat view of life in the form of their messy, imperfect relationship. She couldn’t have that.
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