by Mz. Toni
"Yo Mark leaving with Cammy so I told them I would drop you off at ya crib," Kasan said. To say I was pissed would be an understatement. Yeah I knew Kasan but we weren’t cool like that to where my best friend could pawn me off on the nigga. If I came with her there should be no reason why I wasn't leaving with her.
"Alright I guess that's cool. I appreciate the ride, but why couldn't she tell me herself?”
"I don’t know, but you good, I just have to grab my stuff from my office and I'll be ready."
"Office? You work here?" I ask confused.
"Yeah something like that," he said laughing.
"Oh ok well I'll be here since my so called best friend left me!" I said in my feelings. I can’t believe that bitch would ditch me for some dick, and then to just not come back or answer her phone, imma curse her ass out tomorrow.
"I’m ready when you are," Kasan said grabbing my waist scaring me. When we got outside the club, his truck was already parked in front. I was in awe; his ride was nice as hell. He held the door open for me and closed it when I got in. I was in love, I had mad legroom. I knew when I saved up enough for my ride it was gonna be a truck of some sort because of my height. I needed to be comfortable in my car.
"So you live next door to Camille right?"
"Yeah I don't know where you live, but I apologize if I'm taking you out of your way."
"Naw you good I got someone to see out there anyways."
"Ok well thanks again."
"You go to Rutgers right?"
"Yeah I just got accepted into the social work program," I said proudly.
"That’s what’s up congrats."
"Thank you!" I said smiling.
"Yo you got a beautiful smile," Kasan complimented.
"Thank you," I said blushing.
"So tell me something about you Ms. Shante?" he asked smirking.
"Isn't much to tell. I'm twenty, I’ll be twenty-one in a few weeks, I'm in my last year of school, I have two sisters but we aren’t really close, I was born and raised in East Camden, NJ."
"What about you?" I asked.
"Well my name is Kasan which you already knew, I attend Rutgers University for business, I’m twenty-six, from Pollock, where my mom still stays."
"Oh I didn't know you went to Rutgers!" I replied surprised.
"Why you so shocked? Thugs need school too," he said looking offended.
“Everybody knows who you are Kasan, you're a hustler that's what you're known for, so I didn't peg you as the educational type," I answered honestly.
"Yeah I am established financially from hustling but I never intended to do this forever, I got plans and goals just like you."
"I understand some dudes try and make hustling into a life time career be hustling at forty-five talking bout a come up," I said laughing. It's crazy I didn't think he had any goals. I guess that was close minded of me, he was definitely surprising me.
"Yeah I ain't that dude. I put my money into legal shit, I already own a few businesses."
"Oh okay that's big especially at your age," I complimented.
"Thanks so tell me something else. What's your favorite food, color, TV show?"
"Damn what you gonna want my social next?" I asked laughing.
"Naw I'll get that later, let’s just stick to the basics," he said cockily.
"My favorite food is pizza and wings, my favorite color is royal blue, my favorite show is hmmmmm let me think I guess I would pick Empire, Criminal Minds and Scorpion."
"I fucks with all those shows but Scorpion is my shit, dude smart as hell."
"Yeah that's my show. They're all smart but Walter O'Brien is awesome, sometimes I wish I could be emotionally detached from the world," I said honestly.
"Yeah in my life feelings and caring will get you killed," he replied. He pulled up to my apartment, I honestly was dreading going into my own house where I paid the rent at. I don't give a damn if it was low income, it was mine and I shouldn't feel this way in my own home. I didn't want to put my own mom out but I definitely couldn't deal with the stealing and drug use anymore.
"Well again thank you Kasan."
"Again it’s no problem," he smiled.
"Okay well goodnight," I said getting out of the car. When I got to my door, I turned around and he was still there, I smiled and waved. That was sweet, he could have just pulled off but he waited to make sure I was in safely. When I walked in my house I got the shock of my life, my mom was on the floor of my apartment getting fucked by some corner boy.
"What the fuck!" I screamed.
"Oh baby I’m sorry you weren't supposed to be home!" she said scurrying to find something to cover up with.
"It’s my damn house what you mean I wasn't supposed to be home?" I asked looking disgusted. There were used condoms, empty baggies and a crack pipe scattered on my floor. Not only did she steal and sell all my shit, she done turned my house into a damn crack/hoe house.
"Y’all gotta go, mom I love you but I can't do this anymore," I said shaking my head.
"No disrespect but she done smoked all my fucking drugs and she said I could fuck her all night and the night is still young!" the dealer said pushing my mom back down. I grabbed the bat that I keep in my closet and asked him one more time to leave.
“You and her agreed to some shit and that’s cool, but what I’m sayin is y'all can't do that shit here so y'all gotta go,” I said calmly.
"Fuck you gonna do you gonna hit me?" he asked laughing but still fucking my mom. I could show him better than I could tell him. I swung the bat as hard as I could connecting it to his back.
"Ahhhhhh you fucking fat bitch!" he jumped up and slapped me. I swear he had me seeing stars; I ain’t even let that shit faze me. I jumped up and got into a fighting stance.
“So you wanna fight me like you a nigga huh bitch!” he said laughing. Wasn’t no need for words so I let my hands do the talking. Swinging on him, I jabbed his ass right in the nose.
“Owww you fucking bitch!” he said holding his nose. He slapped me across the face sending me flying. Before I could even bounce back, he was on top of me raining blow after blow.
"Oh you feisty huh, I like that!" he said prying my legs apart. I kicked him in the dick and started swinging again. I looked over at my mom and she was in the corner taking a hit off her crack pipe. All this shit is her fault. I'm being beaten and about to be raped and all she can think about is getting high. I shook my head as tears rolled down my eyes. He punched me in my mouth and continued to rip my shirt off.
"Oh you got some big ass titties bitch," he said biting my nipples.
"Arghhhhhh!" I yelped out in pain. He hit me with his gun.
"Yo stop the muthafucking screaming bitch.”
At that moment, I knew I was going to be raped and probably killed all because my mom had to get high, but fuck that I wasn't going out without a fight. I had been known to rock with some the toughest niggas around here, so I wasn't going out like this. I started swinging and we went blow for blow, yeah he was beating my ass, but he was going to walk away limping, I guarantee that shit.
"Waittt Desmond just wait!" my mom screamed. Just when I had given up all hope in regards to my mom, she finally decided to speak up. I should have known she wouldn't let this man harm me. I mean at the end of the day I am her child.
"If you give me eight hundred dollars and all the work you got you can keep her. She a virgin, never been touched. I know she a little fat thing but we all look the same with the lights off," my mom said trying to sell me.
"That’s all I’m worth to you mommy, you would sell me for eight-hundred fucking dollars! Don’t you love me!" I screamed as the tears poured out my eyes.
"You're my child baby girl I will always love you, but everybody know an addict's drug comes first, I'm sorry," she said turning her head. She couldn't even look at me. At that moment I knew if I made it out of this shit I was done with her and that drug addiction.
"Yeah I'll take the bitch but I only go
t five hundred dollars and I can go to my spot and get you more work!" he said looking at me smiling. I instantly thought of all the things he was going to do to me and I cried even harder.
"Yo shut the fuck up and let me sample this pussy!" he said punching me in the face again.
"I can't I’m on my period," I lied. I had stopped spotting before I got off work but this nigga ain't know that.
"A little blood ain't never hurt nobody, stop playing and take them fucking clothes off," he said laughing. I closed my eyes and started undressing slowly until I heard my front door being kicked in.
"Oh shit Kasan what’s up boss I’m collecting the money this bitch owe you!" the drug dealer said nervously. Kasan ran up and started pistol-whipping him, I never seen so much blood in my life. I let Kasan handle him until I thought about the trouble he could get in. I ran over and grabbed Kansan's arm.
"He isn't moving oh my God is he dead?" I asked scared. Part of me wished he was, but I didn't want Kasan possibly going to jail for my bullshit. He hit him one more time knocking three teeth out. He was so calm like he was use to this kind of shit, he pulled out his phone and began to text once he was done he looked at me.
"You need to ice your face!” he said grabbing my face and examining me.
"Yeah I know but I'm ok," I said turning my attention to my mom.
"You need to get your shit and get out of my house!" I calmly said.
"I’m sorry Shante but you can't put me out I ain't got nowhere to go!" she begged.
"You brought some nigga where I lay my head and then tried to sell me to him. Who knows where I would be if he didn't come!" I said looking at Kasan.
"Baby you know I got this monkey on my back, I swear I'll go to rehab and be a good mother!"
"You know how many times I've heard that lie, I’m fucking done. I don't know where you gonna go but you need to get out of my shit. Go find somebody else to use and steal from because those days are over. I love you and I always will but imma love you from a distance, you’re toxic,” I said sadly. This had to be one of the hardest things that I've ever had to do and I felt really bad, that is until she spit in my face.
You fat ungrateful bitch. I gave up everything for your ass and this is how you repay me? You gonna put your own mother out on the street!" she screamed cold-heartedly. It took a minute for me to register the fact that she had just spit on me, once that shit registered I saw nothing but black as I whooped her ass like she was a bitch in the street.
"Get her off of me!" my mother screamed.
“Don't scream for help now! You want to disrespect me spitting in my mother fucking face bitch!” I yelled while beating the shit out of her.
"Yo chill y'all fucking tripping!" Kasan said pulling me off my mom.
"No get off me!" I said trying to get out of his strong grip.
"How dare that bitch spit on me after all I've done for her and after all she's put me through!" I screamed through the tears.
"Yeah but she ya mom though, y'all can't be fighting like this," Kasan said shaking his head.
"Mom!" I laughed in his face, as if he had just told the funniest joke.
"I don't even know you and you've done more for me in one night than my so called mom did in my whole life!" I said honestly.
"I know what I did was fucked up Shante but I'm sick," my mother said.
"Stop fucking talking to me!" I said attempting to get to her again.
"Look I only came because you left your bag in my ride. I heard you screaming so I kicked the door in. This ain't none of my business, this some family shit," he said shaking his head.
"You absolutely right and apologize for putting you in this drama, you can go," I said feeling defeated and tired.
"Your door is off the hinges, you can't stay here tonight so grab some stuff and let’s go!" he said walking to his car. I ran outside to catch him before he could get in his car.
"Look I know this looks bad, but I'm no charity case, I don't need your pity," I said with my hands on my hips giving much attitude.
"Yo check this shit I ain't lookin at you as a charity case, but obviously that's how you see yourself or else you would go pack your shit and take my kindness for exactly what it is kindness. I told my boy I would get you home safe and you’re not safe so let's go!" he said getting into his car. He damn sure shut me up. I had nothing to say so I did as he said, I went in my room and grabbed what little I had left and walked out. Before leaving, I turned around and faced my mom.
"I meant what the fuck I said, I want you out my shit when I get back!" I said looking at her like she wasn't shit because to me she no longer was.
"You good?" he asked sincerely.
"I will be. I’m pissed off though."
"Well I can get you a room. I already texted my boy he gonna fix ya door early in the A.M."
"Thank you so much. I know the office ain't gonna fix shit but you don't have to get me a room imma just text Cammy."
"I just talked to my cuz they went to AC for the night. She was crying and wanted to come to you tonight, but I assured her I would take care of you," he said.
"Wow I honestly didn't want to be alone but I appreciate this, you can just take me to the closest motel," I replied thankful for his help.
"Aight well hop in the car and we can go once the cleanup crew comes through."
"Is he dead?" I don't know why I just asked him that, I was just curious I guess.
"I don't know and I don't care don't no nigga need to be putting his hands on no female, that’s some bitch shit!" he snapped.
"I’m sorry I asked damn!" I said turning to face the window.
"My bad I didn't mean to spaz on you but my dad use to beat my mom, I just don't condone that bullshit!"
"It’s cool I don't know why I asked because I don't really care either, I guess I’m just worried that you could get in trouble for my drama."
"Trust me nobody will be finding that nigga," he said so confidently that without even trying he eased my troubled mind.
"Well again I appreciate your help and I’m sorry for all the trouble," I said as tears ran down my face.
"Man don't cry that shit makes me want to go fuck that nigga up again!" he said getting angry.
"I’m sorry it’s weird because I'm so used to Cammy being there when I need her and the one time she isn't I feel like imma lose my mind," I said honestly.
"You good but look maybe you should just stay at my crib, I got the room," he suggested.
"No I’m good just take me to a motel I'll be fine."
"Aight then," he said. Once his people came they spoke briefly and then we pulled off.
"I’m taking you to the Sheraton in Philly aight," he said.
"I have to work tomorrow so can you just take me somewhere closer?" I asked.
“Yo how are you going to work with ya face like that?”
“This ain't shit some makeup can't fix. Unlike you some people need to work to survive!” I snapped.
“Fuck is that supposed to mean? I work every single day, probably harder than ya ass!” he snapped back.
“Whatever like I said just drop me off at a motel close by!” I said rolling my eyes.
“You must not value your eyesight cuz if you roll them shits at me again imma knock em out the sockets! A nigga ain't did shit but try and help you all fucking night and you being ungrateful as hell,” he snapped mad as hell but that shit looked sexy as shit to me and I couldn't help but feel bad for being so hard to deal with.
“I'm sorry you're right I can't go to work like this so just take me where you want to,” I said giving in.
“Damn you straight snapped on a nigga. I ain't tryna stop ya hustle I'm just trying to help, so let me do that with ya difficult ass,” he said laughing.
"I’m not trying to be difficult but the Sheraton is all the way in Philly and it’s expensive as hell."
"Well money isn't an object to me and I was paying."
"I don't need you to pay for my room Ka
san, I have my own money that I work hard for."
"It’s crazy a nigga being a gentleman and you treating me like shit. What you ain't never had nobody just be nice!" he asked frustrated.
"Besides Cammy and her mom, no I haven't had anybody be nice to me for no reason," I said honestly.
"Well I guess I'm a different kind of dude, I don't need or expect anything from you, so you can just chill. You Cammy’s best friend and she ain't here so I’m just looking out for you."
"Good you just sit back and let me take control aight," he said smiling. I didn't even respond I just nodded and laid back in his comfortable leather seats. I must of been tired because next thing I knew we were in Philly pulling up to the Sheraton Hotel.
"You must be tired because ya ass was snoring like a grown man," he said laughing.
"Oh you tried it don’t be coming for me if I ain’t send for you and for ya info I only snore when I'm really tired!" I said with an attitude.
"Yeah whatever tell me anything!" he replied while helping me out of his truck.
"Omg! This hotel is gorgeous!" I said shocked.
“Yo don't be saying OMG while you're with me,” he said laughing. I was so used to using abbreviation and text talk with Cammy that I just let it slip out.
“Shut up!” I said laughing with him.
"Yeah this is where I go when I need to get away."
"Hey Mr. Richards!"
"Hey Jessica let me get my regular suite please," he said as if he was running the place. I guess he wasn't lying when he said he comes here to get away because when Ms. Jessica saw me she caught an instant attitude.
"Are you sure you don't need two separate rooms?" Jessica asked clearly upset.
"No my normal is fine. Since when do employee’s in my hotel question me and what I want!" he snapped checking her. She pulled him to the side and I made sure to ear hustle.
