by Fritz Leiber
GOTT (contemptuously): Is that all?
BLACK FLANNEL (flatly): Yes. Initiation is binding for life – and for the afterlife: one of our mottoes is Ferdinand's dying cry in The Duchess of Malfi. 'I will vault credit and affect high pleasures after death.' The penalty for revealing organizational secrets is not death alone but extinction – all memory of the person is erased from public and private history; his name is removed from records; all knowledge of and feeling for him is deleted from the minds of his wives, mistresses, and children; it is as if he had never existed. That, by the by, is a good example of the powers of the Inner Circle. It may interest you to know, Mr. Adler, that as a result of the retaliatory activities of the Inner Circle, the names of three British kings have been expunged from history. Those who have suffered a like fate include two popes, seven movie stars, a brilliant Flemish artist superior to Rembrandt ... (As he spins out an apparently interminable listing, the Fifth Person creeps in on hands and knees from the kitchen. Gott cannot see him at first, as the sofa is between Gott's chair and the kitchen door. The Fifth Person is the Black Jester, who looks rather like a caricature of Gott but has the same putty complexion as the Man in the Black Flannel Suit. The Black Jester wears skin-tight clothing of that colour, silver-embroidered boots and gloves, and a black hood edged with silver bells that do not tinkle. He carries a scepter topped with a small death's-head that wears a black hood like his own edged with tinier silver bells, soundless as the larger ones.)
THE BLACK JESTER (suddenly rearing up like a cobra from behind the sofa and speaking to the Man in the Black Flannel Suit over the latter's shoulder): Ho! So you're still teasing his rickety hopes with that shit about the Inner Circle? Good sport, brother! – you play your fish skillfully.
GOTT (immensely startled, but controlling himself with some courage): Who are you? How dare you bring your babble into my court?
THE BLACK JESTER: Listen to the old cock crow innocent! As if he didn't know he'd himself created both of us, time and again, to stave off boredom, madness, or suicide.
GOTT (firmly): I never created you.
THE BLACK JESTER: Oh, yes you did, old cock. Truly your mind has never birthed anything but twins – for every good a bad, for every breath a fart, and for every white, a black.
GOTT (flares his nostrils and glares a death-spell which hums toward the newcomer like a lazy invisible bee).
THE BLACK JESTER (pales and staggers backward as the death-spell strikes, but shakes it off with an effort and glares back murderously at Gott): Old cock-father, I'm beginning to hate you at last.
Just then the refrigerator motor went on in the kitchen and its loud rapid rocking sound seemed to Jane to be a voice saying, "Watch your children, they're in danger. Watch your children, they're in danger."
"I'm no ladybug," Jane retorted tartly in her thoughts, irked at the worrisome interruption now that her pencil was rapidly developing the outlines of the Clubhouse in the Tree with the moon risen across the ravine between clouds in the late afternoon sky. Nevertheless she looked at Heinie. He hadn't moved. She could see how the plastic helmet was open at neck and top, but it made her think of suffocation just the same.
"Heinie, are you still in the stars?" she asked.
"No, now I'm landing on a moon," he called back. "Don't talk to me, Mama, I've got to watch the road."
Jane at once wanted to imagine what roads in space might look like, but the refrigerator motor had said 'children,' not 'child,' and she knew that the language of machinery is studded with tropes. She looked at Gott. He was curled comfortably over his book and as she watched he turned a page and touched his lips to the martini water. Nevertheless, she decided to test him.
"Gott, do you think this family is getting too ingrown?" she said. "We used to have more people around."
"Oh, I think we have quite a few as it is," he replied, looking up at the empty sofa, beyond it, and then around at her expectantly, as if ready to join in any conversation she cared to start. But she simply smiled at him and returned relieved to her thoughts and her picture. He smiled back and bowed his head again to his book.
BLACK FLANNEL (ignoring the Black Jester): My chief purpose in coming here tonight, Mr. Adler, is to inform you that the Inner Circle has begun a serious study of your qualifications for membership.
THE BLACK JESTER: At his age? After his failures? Now we are curtsying forward toward the Big Lie!
BLACK FLANNEL (in a pained voice): Really! (Then once more to Gott) Point one: you have gained for yourself the reputation of a man of strong patriotism, deep company loyalty, and realistic self-interest, sternly contemptuous of all youthful idealism and rebelliousness. Point two: you have cultivated constructive hatreds in your business life, deliberately knifing colleagues when you could, but allying yourself to those on the rise. Point three and most important: you have gone some distance toward creating the master illusion of a man who has secret sources of information, secret new techniques for thinking more swiftly and acting more decisively than others, secret superior connections and contacts – in short, a dark new strength which all others envy even as they cringe from it.
THE BLACK JESTER (in a kind of counterpoint as he advances around the sofa): But he's come down in the world since he lost his big job. National Motors was at least a step in the right direction, but Hagbolt-Vincent has no company planes, no company apartments, no company shooting lodges, no company call girls! Besides, he drinks too much. The Inner Circle is not for drunks on the down-grade.
BLACK FLANNEL: Please! You're spoiling things.
THE BLACK JESTER: He's spoiled. (Closing in on Gott) Just look at him now. Eyes that need crutches for near and far. Ears that mishear the simplest remark.
GOTT: Keep off me, I tell you.
THE BLACK JESTER (ignoring the warning): Fat belly, flaccid sex, swollen ankles. And a mouthful of stinking cavities! – did you know he hasn't dared visit his dentist for five years? Here, open up and show them! (Thrusts black-gloved hand toward Gott's face.)
Gott, provoked beyond endurance, snarled aloud, "Keep off, damn you!" and shot out the heavy book in his left hand and snapped it shut on the Black Jester's nose. Both black figures collapsed instantly.
Jane lifted her pencil a foot from the pad, turned quickly, and demanded, "My God, Gott, what was that?"
"Only a winter fly, my dear," he told her soothingly. "One of the fat ones that hide in December and breed all the black clouds of spring." He found his place in Plutarch and dipped his face close to study both pages and the trough between them. He looked around slyly at Jane and said, "I didn't squash her."
The chair in the spaceship rutched. Jane asked, "What is it, Heinie?"
"A meteor exploded, Mama. I'm all right. I'm out in space again, in the middle of the road."
Jane was impressed by the time it had taken the sound of Gott's book clapping shut to reach the spaceship. She began lightly to sketch blob-children in swings hanging from high limbs in the Tree, swinging far out over the ravine into the stars.
Gott took a pull of martini water, but he felt lonely and impotent. He peeped over the edge of his Plutarch at the dankness below the sofa and grinned with new hope as he saw the huge flat blob of black putty the Jester and Flannel had collapsed into. I'm on a black kick, he thought, why black? – choosing to forget that he had first started to sculpt figures of the imagination from the star-specked blackness that pulsed under his eyelids while he lay in the dark abed: tiny black heads like wrinkled peas on which any three points of light made two eyes and a mouth. He'd come a long way since then. Now with strong rays from his eyes he rolled all the black putty he could see into a woman-long bolster and hoisted it onto the sofa. The bolster helped with blind sensuous hitching movements, especially where it bent at the middle. When it was lying full length on the sofa he began with cruel strength to sculpt it into the figure of a high-breasted exaggeratedly sexual girl.
Jane found she'd sketched some flies into the picture, buzzing around the swingers. She ru
bbed them out and put in more stars instead. But there would be flies in the ravine, she told herself, because people dumped garbage down the other side, so she drew one large fly in the lower left-hand corner of the picture. He could be the observer. She said to herself firmly, No black clouds of spring in this picture and changed them to hints of Roads in Space.
Gott finished the Black Girl with two twisting tweaks to point her nipples. Her waist was barely thick enough not to suggest an actual wasp or a giant amazon ant. Then he gulped martini water and leaned forward just a little and silently but very strongly blew the breath of life into her across the eight feet of living-room air between them.
The phrase 'black clouds of spring' made Jane think of dead hopes and drowned talents. She said out loud, "I wish you'd start writing in the evenings again, Gott. Then I wouldn't feel so guilty."
"These days, my dear, I'm just a dull businessman, happy to relax in the heart of his family. There's not an atom of art in me," Gott informed her with quiet conviction, watching the Black Girl quiver and writhe as the creativity-wind from his lips hit her. With a sharp twinge of fear it occurred to him that the edges of the wind might leak over to Jane and Heinie, distorting them like heat shimmers, changing them nastily. Heinie especially was sitting so still in his little chair light-years away. Gott wanted to call to him, but he couldn't think of the right bit of spaceman's lingo.
THE BLACK GIRL (sitting up and dropping her hand coquettishly to her crotch): He-he! Now ain't this something, Mr. Adler! First time you've ever had me in your home.
GOTT (eyeing her savagely over Plutarch): Shut up!
THE BLACK GIRL (unperturbed): Before this it was only when you were away on trips or, once or twice lately, at the office.
GOTT (flaring his nostrils): Shut up, I say! You're less than dirt.
THE BLACK GIRL (smirking): But I'm interesting dirt, ain't I? You want we should do it in front of her? I could come over and flow inside your clothes and –
GOTT: One more word and I uncreate you! I'll tear you apart like a boiled crow. I'll squunch you back to putty.
THE BLACK GIRL (still serene, preening her nakedness): Yes, and you'll enjoy every red-hot second of it, won't you?
Affronted beyond bearing, Gott sent chopping rays at her over the Plutarch parapet, but at that instant a black figure thin as a spider shot up behind the sofa and reaching over the Black Girl's shoulder brushed aside the chopping rays with one flick of a whiplike arm. Grown from the black putty Gott had overlooked under the sofa, the figure was that of an old conjure woman, stick-thin with limbs like wire and breasts like dangling ropes, face that was a pack of spearheads with black plumes a-quiver above it.
THE BLACK CRONE (in a whistling voice like a hungry wind): Injure one of the girls, Mister Adler, and I'll castrate you, I'll shrivel you with spells. You'll never be able to call them up again, no matter how far a trip you go on, or even pleasure your wife.
GOTT (frightened, but not showing it): Keep your arms and legs on, Mother. Flossie and I were only teasing each other. Vicious play is a specialty of your house, isn't it?
With a deep groaning cry the furnace fan switched on in the basement and began to say over and over again in a low rapid rumble, 'Oh, my God, my God, my God. Demons, demons, demons, demons.' Jane heard the warning very clearly, but she didn't want to lose the glow of her feelings. She asked, "Are you all right out there in space, Heinie?" and thought he nodded 'Yes.' She began to colour the Clubhouse in the Tree -blue roof, red walls, a little like Chagall.
THE BLACK CRONE (continuing a tirade): Understand this, Mr. Adler, you don't own us, we own you. Because you gotta have the girls to live, you're the girls' slave.
THE BLACK GIRL: He-he! Shall I call Susie and Belle? They've never been here either and they'd enjoy this.
THE BLACK CRONE: Later, if he's humble. You understand me, Slave? If I tell you have your wife cook dinner for the girls or wash their feet or watch you snuggle with them, then you gotta do it. And your boy gotta run our errands. Come over here now and sit by Flossie while I brand you with dry ice.
Gott quaked, for the Crone's arms were lengthening toward him like snakes, and he began to sweat and he murmured, "God in Heaven," and the smell of fear went out of him to the walls – millions of stinking molecules.
A cold wind blew over the fence of Heinie's space road and the stars wavered and then fled before it like diamond leaves.
Jane caught the murmur and the fear-whiff too, but she was colouring the Clubhouse windows a warm rich yellow; so what she said in a rather loud, rapt, happy voice was: "I think Heaven is like a children's clubhouse. The only people there are the ones you remember from childhood – either because you were in childhood with them or they told you about their childhood honestly. The real people."
At the word real the Black Crone and the Black Girl strangled and began to bend and melt like a thin candle and a thicker one over a roaring fire.
Heinie turned his spaceship around and began to drive it bravely homeward through the unspeckled dark, following the ghostly white line that marked the centre of the road. He thought of himself as the cat they'd had. Papa had told him stories of the cat coming back – from downtown, from Pittsburgh, from Los Angeles, from the moon. Cats could do that. He was the cat coming back.
Jane put down her brush and took up her pencil once more. She'd noticed that the two children swinging out farthest weren't attached yet to their swings. She started to hook them up, then hesitated. Wasn't it all right for some of the children to go sailing out to the stars? Wouldn't it be nice for some evening world – maybe the late-afternoon moon – to have a shower of babies? She wised a plane would crawl over the roof of the house and drone out an answer to her question. She didn't like to have to do all the wondering by herself. It made her feel guilty.
"Gott," she said, "why don't you at least finish the last story you were writing? The one about the Elephants' Graveyard." Then she wished she hadn't mentioned it, because it was an idea that had scared Heinie.
"Some day," her husband murmured, Jane thought.
Gott felt weak with relief, though he was forgetting why. Balancing his head carefully over his book he drained the next to the last of the martini water. It always got stronger toward the bottom. He looked at the page through the lower halves of his executive bifocals and for a moment the word 'Caesar' came up in letters an inch high, each jet serif showing its tatters and the white paper its ridgy fibers. Then, still never moving his head, he looked through the upper halves and saw the long thick blob of dull black putty on the wavering blue couch and automatically gathered the putty together and with thumb-and-palm rays swiftly shaped the Old Philosopher in the Black Toga, always an easy figure to sculpt since he was never finished except rough-hewnly, in the style of Rodin or Daumier. It was always good to finish up an evening with the Old Philosopher.
The white line in space tried to fade. Heinie steered his ship closer to it. He remembered that in spite of Papa's stories the cat had never come back.
Jane held her pencil poised over the detached children swinging out from the Clubhouse. One of them had a leg kicked over the moon.
THE PHILOSOPHER (adjusting his craggy toga and yawning): The topic for tonight's symposium is that vast container of all, the Void.
GOTT (condescendingly): The Void? That's interesting. Lately I've wished to merge with it. Life wearies me.
A smiling dull black skull, as crudely shaped as the Philosopher, looked over the latter's shoulder and then rose higher on a rickety black bone framework.
DEATH (quietly, to Gott): Really?
GOTT (greatly shaken, but keeping up a front): I am on a black kick tonight. Can't even do a white skeleton. Disintegrate, you two. You bore me almost as much as life.
DEATH: Really? If you did not cling to life like a limpet you would have crashed your car, to give your wife and son the insurance, when National Motors fired you. You planned to do that. Remember?
GOTT (with hysteri
cal coolness): Maybe I should have cast you in brass or aluminum. Then you'd at least have brightened things up. But it's too late now. Disintegrate quickly and don't leave any scraps around.
DEATH: Much too late. Yes, you planned to crash your car and doubly indemnify your dear ones. You had the spot picked, but your courage failed you.
GOTT (blustering): I'll have you know I am not only Gottfried but also Helmuth – Hell's Courage Adler!
THE PHILOSOPHER (confused but trying to keep in the conversation): A most swashbuckling sobriquet.
DEATH: Hell's courage failed you on the edge of the ravine. (Pointing at Gott a three-fingered thumbless hand like a black winter branch). Do you wish to die now?
GOTT (blacking out visually): Cowards die many times. (Draining the last of the martini water in absolute darkness). The valiant taste death once. Caesar.
DEATH (a voice in darkness): Coward. Yet you summoned me – and even though you fashioned me poorly, I am indeed Death – and there are others besides yourself who take long trips. Even longer ones. Trips in the Void.
THE PHILOSOPHER (another voice): Ah, yes, the Void. Imprimis –
DEATH: Silence.
In the great obedient silence Gott heard the unhurried click of Death's feet as he stepped from behind the sofa across the bare floor toward Heinie's spaceship. Gott reached up in the dark and clung to his mind.
Jane heard the slow clicks, too. They were the kitchen clock ticking out, "Now. Now. Now. Now. Now."
Suddenly Heinie called out, "The line's gone. Papa, Mama, I'm lost."
Jane said sharply, "No, you're not, Heinie. Come out of space at once."
"I'm not in space now. I'm in the Cats' Graveyard."
Jane told herself that it was insane to feel suddenly so frightened. "Come back from wherever you are, Heinie," she said calmly. "It's time for bed."
"I'm lost, Papa," Heinie cried. "I can't hear Mama any more."
"Listen to your mother, Son," Gott said thickly, groping in the blackness for other words.
"All the Mamas and Papas in the world are dying," Heinie wailed.
