I watched as he tugged his shirt over his head and dropped it to the floor. Next, he pulled his jeans off and kicked them away. My eyes roamed his nearly naked body, taking in every inch of him. I wanted to reach out and touch him, but I held back. He was the one in control of this situation. He would tell me what to do.
He lay down beside me and ran his thumb across my bottom lip. “Are you sure about this?”
I nodded. “I’m terrified, but I’m sure.”
“Why are you terrified?” he asked.
I looked away, embarrassed to tell him that I was twenty-three and still a virgin.
“Hey, look at me. What’s wrong?” he asked.
When I turned back to him, he studied me, and his eyes widened in disbelief.
“You’re a virgin, aren’t you?”
I nodded, and he chuckled.
“I should have guessed. You’re a virgin, but you’re willing to do this with me? Jesus, Rebecca. That’s a lot for a man to handle.”
“I trust you,” I said. And I did.
He’d given me more reasons not to trust him, but it didn’t matter. I trusted Alec. I knew he wouldn’t hurt me, no matter what he thought of himself.
“How the hell are you still a virgin?” he asked. “The second I saw you, I started thinking of ways to get you naked. I know I’m not the only man who’s thought about it.”
I tried not to be embarrassed. “I’ve never really been interested in any guy enough to give one a chance.”
“But you want me?”
“Yeah, I do.”
He shook his head. “This is more than I expected when I carried you in here. I wasn’t expecting to take your virginity.”
He seemed bothered by the prospect. I reached out and took his hand.
“No going back, remember?” I said.
He stared at me for a moment before leaning down to brush his lips against mine. “No going back.”
I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down closer to me. I sighed in contentment as his body relaxed against mine. He kissed me softly on the corner of my mouth before moving to my cheek. I turned my head as he kissed a trail to my ear. He pressed a kiss under my ear, and I shuddered. I felt his lips turn up into a grin. He bit down gently on my ear before kissing down to my neck. My breathing grew erratic as he kissed lower. I jumped when his lips found the swell of my breast.
“You okay?”
“Never better,” I mumbled.
He kissed between my breasts and down my stomach to the top of my panties. When he started pulling on them, I raised my hips to help him. He pulled them down my legs and dropped them to the floor.
“Sit up,” he said, his voice rough.
I did as he’d said. He kissed me on the lips before reaching around to unfasten my bra. My cheeks flamed as it fell away.
“You’re so goddamn beautiful, Rebecca.” He trailed his fingers between my breasts. “I want to touch you everywhere.”
He gently pushed me back before kissing his way up my stomach. I gasped when his mouth closed over my nipple. He ran his tongue back and forth, causing me to arch off the bed. I cried out when he reached out and pinched my other nipple between his thumb and finger. He released my nipple from his mouth and ran his tongue down my stomach. My breath caught when he spread my legs apart and settled in between them. He swirled his tongue around my clit, and I grabbed his shoulders, my nails digging in.
“You taste sweeter than I imagined.” He ran his hand up and down my thigh.
His fingers moved up until he found my entrance. He thrust two fingers in, and I moaned. It felt uncomfortable for a moment, but once my body grew used to it, I thought I might explode. His tongue and fingers were doing wondrous things to my body.
As he continued his assault on my body, I felt myself building. My hips thrust up, completely out of my control. I threw my head back as stars exploded in front of my eyes. His tongue never stopped moving until I slowly floated back down. As he finally pulled away, we were both breathing heavily.
My eyes followed him as he stood and reached for his jeans. He pulled out his wallet and opened it. I froze as he took out a condom, my body stiff with sudden nerves. He dropped his wallet and jeans back onto the floor. I watched with rapt attention as he slid his boxers down his legs. I couldn’t help but stare at him, all of him.
I sat up and scooted to the edge of the bed. “I guess I know why they call you Spike,” I mumbled as I kept my eyes glued to the piece of metal in the head of his dick. His nickname made sense to me now.
He tensed for a second. “Where did you hear that?”
“One of your bartenders. I wondered why that was your nickname. Now, I know.”
He laughed.
“Can I touch you?” I asked quietly.
He groaned. “You can do anything you want to me.”
He stepped closer to the bed. I reached out and trailed my fingers down his shaft. It felt like steel wrapped in silk.
“It’s so soft,” I said as I wrapped my hand around his dick.
He groaned again. “That’s not something a guy wants to hear when a chick is touching him like that.”
I giggled. “You know what I mean.”
I slid my hand back and forth, memorizing the feel of him. I avoided the piercing, afraid that I’d hurt him. Finally, I released him and ran my hands up the firm muscles of his stomach. I explored every inch of him before moving up to his chest. I ran my fingers around the outside of his nipples before finally flicking them. I loved touching him like this.
“Okay, enough of that. Keep it up, and this will end sooner than either of us wants.” He scooped me up and tossed me back down onto my pillows.
I laughed, unable to stop myself. Being with Alec like this was easy. My fears started to disappear.
“I’m going to be as gentle as I can, Rebecca, but this is going to hurt.” He ripped open the condom packet.
I watched in fascination as he slid it on.
He climbed back onto the bed and positioned himself over me. “We’ll go slow though. Are you ready?”
I closed my eyes as I felt him pressing against my entrance. My entire body tensed. “Yes, I’m ready.”
“No, you’re not. You have to relax.” He leaned down and kissed me deeply.
I sighed into his mouth. His lips did wonderful things to me. I was jolted back to reality when he began to slide into me. He took his time, pushing in inch by inch. I felt an uncomfortable pressure, but there was no pain like I’d expected.
“I feel like my dick is in a vise.” He said as he grinned down at me. “I’m going to go all the way in, okay?”
I nodded and gripped his shoulders. “Okay.”
With one final thrust, he entered me fully. I gasped in pain as I clung to him. My eyes watered, and I fought back the tears desperate to escape. He froze as he allowed my body to adjust.
“I’m so sorry,” he whispered against my lips.
“It’s okay,” I whimpered.
“Tell me when you’re ready for me to move,” he said before kissing me.
I focused on his lips as the pain slowly disappeared.
“I’m ready,” I said against his lips.
The muscles in his arms tensed as he carefully pulled out and pushed back in. I winced at the pain. Noticing my discomfort, he slowed down. I clung to him as the pain started to fade with each thrust. Once it disappeared, I started to relax.
“I’m okay now,” I said.
“You sure?”
“Yeah.” I squeezed his arms, letting him know that I really was.
He increased his speed bit by bit until he had a regular rhythm. As his pace increased, I raised my hips to meet his thrusts.
“Faster,” I begged as I held on to him.
I’d never felt anything like this. It was no wonder my friends had been so obsessed with sex in college. I’d thought they were stupid, but it was clearly me who had been the fool. Then again, I was glad that Alec was my first. With him,
it felt right. There was no rhyme or reason behind it. It just was.
He paused long enough to grab one of my legs before thrusting into me roughly. In this new position, he went deeper. I cried out as sweat broke across my skin. He leaned down and sucked one of my nipples into his mouth, never breaking his rhythm. I moaned and dug my nails deeper into his shoulders.
“You’re so fucking tight. Pure nirvana,” he grunted as he pounded into me.
I felt myself building again. Seconds later, my body spasmed around him, and I cried out. This was nothing like before. I felt like I could reach out and touch heaven. He increased his thrusts as I came. Finally, his body tensed as he followed right behind me. He shouted my name as he buried his face in my neck.
When our breathing calmed, he slowly pulled out. I watched with my eyes half-closed as he stood and pulled off the condom. After tying it off and tossing it into the garbage, he turned and walked out of the room.
Confused, I stared at the doorway. If he left me after that…
Seconds later, he returned with a washcloth in his hand. He slowly spread my legs and wiped the cloth across my tender skin. He wiped himself off as well before tossing the washcloth in the garbage. I gave him a questioning look.
He gave me a sheepish grin. “There was, uh…blood.”
“And you said you weren’t a nice guy.”
He lifted me up long enough to pull the blankets down before dropping me back onto the bed. I scooted over as he climbed in next to me and pulled the covers over us. I was surprised when he tugged me over to him and wrapped his arm around me. I snuggled into his chest, loving the feel of his skin against mine. I breathed in his scent, memorizing it.
After a few seconds, I finally found the courage to speak. “That was…good.”
He chuckled. “I was hoping you thought it was better than good.”
I ran my finger back and forth across his stomach. “You know what I mean. It was definitely better than good.”
He kissed the top of my head. “At least I can stop fantasizing about what you look like naked. It was starting to drive me crazy.”
“Was the real thing as good as your imagination?” I asked.
“Ten times better.”
He grabbed my chin and lifted it so that he could kiss me on the mouth. “No going back, right?”
“No going back. You’re stuck with me,” I teased.
He pulled me tighter against him. “This is…different.”
“What is?”
“Cuddling,” he said the word with disgust.
I laughed. “You’ve never cuddled with someone before?”
He shook his head. “Never.”
“Well, I guess we can both say we’ve had a new experience tonight.”
He grinned. “I guess so.”
When I finally fell asleep that night, Alec was still holding me.
I paid the delivery boy before closing the door and carrying the pizza into the kitchen. I put it on the table and flipped open the lid. I was too hungry to wait for Alec.
A few minutes later, I looked up when he came out of his bedroom.
He took one look at me with my mouth full and grinned. “Hungry?”
I gave him a sheepish look as I swallowed. “Food’s here.”
He laughed. “Yeah, I figured that much out.”
He walked over to me and grabbed the pizza out of my hand. I protested, but he ignored me and dropped it back into the box. He pulled me close and kissed me. I instantly forgot about food as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
When he finally pulled away, I was breathless. He picked up a piece of pizza and started eating. When he saw how flustered I was, he smirked. He loved doing that to me. For the past week, he’d found every excuse he could to touch and kiss me. I wasn’t complaining. It was like I was floating on a cloud constantly. What I felt with Alec was incredible. After the weeks of heartache, it seemed like I’d finally found my place.
I never believed in love at first sight, but with Alec, I was starting to wonder if maybe it did exist after all. I’d never felt a connection like the one I had with him.
Being in a relationship was new to both of us. We were well aware of the fact that we had no idea what we had gotten ourselves into. I was okay with that. Since I’d met Alec, I’d found myself in a lot of situations that I couldn’t understand. That didn’t matter though. I was adapting faster than I thought possible and being with him was quickly becoming my new norm.
The morning after our talk, Alec had acted strange, like he was afraid he would do something wrong. He would still seem unsure of himself from time to time even though I’d explained that I had no expectations or presumptions about how things would happen between the two of us. It had made me realize just how hard he was trying to make things work between us.
“What do you want to do tonight?” I asked.
Between our work schedules, we were only able to spend a few nights together. I was excited about having him for the entire evening.
He shrugged. “We could always have lots and lots of sex. I’m down for that.”
I grinned. “I’m sure you are.” A thought occurred to me. “I know what I want to do.”
“What?” he asked, sounding suspicious.
“It’s nothing bad. Gesh. I was just thinking about when you said you played guitar. I would love to hear you.”
He seemed unsure of himself. “I don’t know.”
“Why not? You said you’ve played in front of people before, so I know you’re not shy.”
“It’s different with you. I care about what you think,” he admitted.
I smiled, touched by his words, even if it seemed to kill him to say them. “Come on. I’m sure I’ll like it.” When he still seemed uncertain, I stepped closer and wrapped my arms around his waist. “Please, Spike.”
His body shook with laughter. “You’re not allowed to call me that.”
“Why not?” I teased.
“Because everyone else calls me that. I’m Alec to you.”
I squeezed him tightly. “Fine. Alec, will you please play something for me?”
He sighed as he removed my arms. “I suppose.”
He pretended to scowl, but I could see the amusement in his eyes.
“Go sit on the couch. I’ll be back in a second.”
I walked over to the couch and sat down as he disappeared into his bedroom. When he reemerged, he had an acoustic guitar in his hand. He sat down on the opposite side of the couch and strummed the guitar. He fiddled with the tuning pegs and then strummed again.
Once he was satisfied, he turned his attention to me. “This is something I’ve been working on for a few weeks. It’s not finished yet.”
I nodded encouragingly. He looked away as his fingers began to move across the neck of the guitar. I watched in fascination as he played. The melody was soft, almost sweet. He played for a few seconds before he started singing. My mouth dropped open in amazement as I listened to him. His voice was deep normally, but it turned into a low growl as he sang. Listening to him sing was otherworldly.
What is happening to me?
I’m just trying to survive.
Then, you came to me, and I felt like maybe I wasn’t really living,
Maybe I just needed to find someone who gave a damn,
A damn about me
You don’t belong here.
You can’t,
Not with me.
Innocence can’t go hand in hand with the devil.
Things like that just aren’t meant to be.
I feel like I should’ve been a better man,
Especially when you look at me.
Just don’t stop looking at me.
As he finished, I ran my fingers under my eyes, trying to keep my tears from falling. His voice was mesmerizing. I had no idea how he wasn’t singing professionally. Every word he’d sung captured me. I felt every emotion his voice held.
“Dear God,” I whispered as I stared at him in awe.
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“I know it’s not that great, but it isn’t finished. It’ll be better when I’m done,” he said, obviously mistaking my awe for dislike.
I shook my head. “It was amazing. I’ve never heard anything like it. Why are you in West Virginia, running a bar, when you could be out there, singing to the world?”
He seemed surprised. “You really liked it?”
“I loved it,” I told him honestly.
He sat his guitar on the table and tugged me over. He lifted me onto his lap and wrapped his arms around me. “I started writing it when I met you. I couldn’t seem to get you out of my head, so I decided to put everything I felt down on paper. It helped but only a little.”
“You have to be the most romantic man I’ve ever met.” I snuggled into his chest. “Can’t do relationships? Psh.”
He laughed. “When I’m around you, everything seems easy. I wish I had met you a long time ago.”
I sat up and looked into his eyes. “Things will never be easy. Life never is, so a relationship won’t be any different, but we’ll figure it out.”
“You think?” he asked, his expression serious.
“I know.”
He leaned in and kissed me gently. “No going back.”
“No going back.”
“Now, how about that awesome sex I mentioned earlier?”
I laughed as he picked me up and carried me to his bedroom. I knew what I’d told him was true. Nothing worthwhile was ever easy in life. I had no doubt that Alec and I would have issues along the way, but it didn’t matter. I wanted him, and he wanted me. That was what counted.
Our story was only beginning, but I’d found my happily ever after already. I couldn’t wait to see what would come next.
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